#goodbye jenny

[himelikestea]

We keep throwing incorrect quotes at our dnd characters so I wanted to draw one of my favourites :3c

Yura belongs to @grandduchessgemini and Janai is @happikitsune‘s character

[nazariolahela]

Please go away.

[jenny-donovan]

Go the Distance || Jen Self Para

When: August 2023 Where: King’s Dock, England Who: Jennifer Donovan, Helena Prewitt (Mentions of Loraly Davies and Andrew Davies.) Triggers: none

Jennifer stared out over the edge of the boat, taking in the wide expanse of the ocean. She’d hated the water ever since she was a young girl. It was deep and the currents were strong. All too easy to be swept under the waves and trapped. It had happened to her when she’d been a child, visiting the beach with her parents. She had gone out too far into the water and it had just taken one medium sized wave to send her under. It had been enough to scare her off from swimming forever.

A low horn rang out over the murmur of chatter, signaling their imminent departure. She took once last look at England, and the life she was leaving behind. Her eyes filled with tears as she thought about Loraly and Andrew, the two people she’d grown to love so much. The two people she had to leave behind with no guarantee that she would ever get the chance to see them again. War had already claimed so many lives already - what was to stop it from claiming them too? Her sad promises held no true meaning, she knew. But it was something she could hold onto until she could come back.

The boat jerked suddenly, a chorus of startled cries following behind. Her mother grabbed onto her arm, helping to keep Jennifer’s equilibrium. Between her lost eye and the baby, she hadn’t been the most graceful. The boat evened out and they were moving, pulling steadily out from the port. They were off to their new lives.

[measuredman]

3 good things for today (despite the reality of the last 24 hours)

The last 24 hours has been pretty rough. I haven't talked about it here, but last night (while out to dinner) I found out that an old friend of mine finally lost her battle with cancer. We had fallen out of touch quite sometime ago, but I still saw her through a myriad of status updates regarding treatment. One thing that I drew from these, was that she was starting to come to peace with things and was trying her best to find a healthy balance for her life, in order to help fight off the inevitable. She was a strong person and she was lost to the world far too young.

Regardless, I recognize that I cannot change things and that I must look on. It is what she would have wanted for everyone who loved her. I must look at this as a lesson, to take better care of myself and to be closer with the ones I care about. In an effort to find some good in the day, regardless of a whirlwind of emotions, I'm going to look to the positive.

3 good things:

Walked home from work today. 5.6 miles, Manhattan to Brooklyn style. Lauren is in Tennessee with her family this weekend and I remembered while I was leaving work how I used to walk and how since it has gotten cold, I never do so anymore. So I just walked home tonight. This is something I did fairly often when I was feeling healthier, not saying that it is the reason, but it is a behavior indicative of a person who is healthier and I think I need to find more time to do things like this.

Survived the Tumblr Friday lunch-pocolypse. Every Friday we have a catered team lunch, which is a fantastic thing to do as a company. For me however it is tough, because I don't eat the things everyone else eats. We've had fried chicken, pizza, burgers, and all sorts of other things I usually try to stay away from. Lately, I've been sort of just giving in to some of the less nebulous meals. Today though, we had sandwiches and instead of eating them, I simply took several sandwiches, tossed the bread and ate the turkey. Luckily there was some mixed greens to throw it on. Not my favorite lunch, nor the most filling, but I made the best of it. Also, no snacking at all today. 

I started feeling normal again today. Maybe it was from crying last night (yes, I'm a man and I cried), but today I just sort of felt like my little internal dramas didn't deserve the time of day. Not saying I'm back or recovered, but it was nice to have a bit of a reprieve.

Tomorrow I celebrate life by dedicating it to healthy activities. Crossfit, bootcamp, running. Gonna do it all while I can.