Jennifer Donovan

I feel as though I am two separate people; both fighting for control of the same body. To choose one would be to destroy the other. But how can I decide between parts of my soul and still be myself? Do I not cease to be me when the other half of me has died?

[fyeahdracodormiens]

LORALY DAVIES & JENNIFER DONOVAN

@loralyxdavies and @jenny-donovan (rip)

[fyeahdracodormiens]

the mincing mockingbird guide to troubled birds: DRACO DORMIENS EDITION

featuring: @femmefreyafatale, @siriuslyjamesii, @rosierjacob, @nottatty, @levi-yaxley, @jenny-donovan, @maddkilojules, @marielaflint, @notlittlelucyweasley (part two)

[jenny-donovan]

Go the Distance || Jen Self Para

When: August 2023 Where: King’s Dock, England Who: Jennifer Donovan, Helena Prewitt (Mentions of Loraly Davies and Andrew Davies.) Triggers: none

Jennifer stared out over the edge of the boat, taking in the wide expanse of the ocean. She’d hated the water ever since she was a young girl. It was deep and the currents were strong. All too easy to be swept under the waves and trapped. It had happened to her when she’d been a child, visiting the beach with her parents. She had gone out too far into the water and it had just taken one medium sized wave to send her under. It had been enough to scare her off from swimming forever.

A low horn rang out over the murmur of chatter, signaling their imminent departure. She took once last look at England, and the life she was leaving behind. Her eyes filled with tears as she thought about Loraly and Andrew, the two people she’d grown to love so much. The two people she had to leave behind with no guarantee that she would ever get the chance to see them again. War had already claimed so many lives already - what was to stop it from claiming them too? Her sad promises held no true meaning, she knew. But it was something she could hold onto until she could come back.

The boat jerked suddenly, a chorus of startled cries following behind. Her mother grabbed onto her arm, helping to keep Jennifer’s equilibrium. Between her lost eye and the baby, she hadn’t been the most graceful. The boat evened out and they were moving, pulling steadily out from the port. They were off to their new lives.

[jenny-donovan]

say goodbye || lor&jen&andrew

[jenny-donovan]

andrew-davies:

It’d been a weird couple of days since Jennifer had told him about the baby. After the thought of the attack started to settle in his mind, and the cuts had begun healing, he knew he needed to talk to her. Andrew sat on the couch in her living room, eyebrows pinched together and worry set into his eyes. Standing up, he moved over to stand in front of her and brushed her hair away from her face. “You know you can talk to me, Jenny. I want to be here for you–I am here for you. No matter what happens.”

Jennifer reached up and grabbed onto his hand as it brushed against her cheek, holding onto it tightly. His words made her feel guilty and she bit down onto her bottom lip, avoiding his eyes. Better to rip off the bandaid quickly. “I’ve been think about what to do with...the baby and this last attack has made me realize that I can’t stay here.” 

[jenny-donovan]

say goodbye || lor&jen&andrew

[jenny-donovan]

loralyxdav.ies:

Loraly tried to avoid Jennifer's gaze by dropping her own to look at her hands, but something about it forced her to look back up. She searched her friend’s eyes and saw that she meant every word. She could practically see the pain at the mere thought of losing her, and Loraly knew that look would be reflected in her own eyes if the situation was flipped. “I can’t promise I won’t get hurt or even die. But I will promise that I will do everything I can to stay alive.” She tried a smile, though it wasn’t really convincing with the way her lip seemed to tremble. “After all, I have to be around to meet my godchild.”

It wasn’t much of an assurance but it was one that Jennifer was willing to accept. She would take any sort of promise that she could hold on to until she could return back to England. Anything to reassure herself that she wasn’t making a horrible mistake by leaving. “Thank you.” 

[jenny-donovan]

say goodbye || lor&jen&andrew

[jenny-donovan]

loralyxdavies:

Her hand moved soothingly over her best friend’s back, though she wasn’t sure if it was to comfort Jennifer or herself. But then the blonde had to ask her something that she knew wouldn’t end well. Loraly drew back slightly so she could look the other girl in the eye as she shook her head. “Jenny… I can’t promise you that. You know I can’t.”

“I need you to Loraly. You need to promise me that you’re not going to purposefully get yourself killed while I’m gone. If you can‘t even tell me that you won‘t immediately kamikaze yourself the second I step on that boat, I’ll never be able to forgive myself for leaving.” Jennifer said, staring at Loraly directly. “You have to try to stay alive... because I want you to be the baby’s godmother. It’s probably wrong of me to ask you this when I’m going to be leaving but I have to. I’ve lost so many people I’ve loved Loraly. I couldn‘t bear to lose your forever too.” 

[jenny-donovan]

say goodbye || lor&jen&andrew

[jenny-donovan]

loralyxdavies:

The brunette just kept nodding as Jennifer spoke; a slow almost dazed nod as she looked at her best friend, taking in every detail of her face. “Yeah… only temporary.” But Loraly knew that it could still last years. Who knew where this war was going and when it was ending? It only seemed to be picking up now, and looking back at other Wizarding Wars, it would take a couple years. When Jennifer hugged her, Loraly felt the tears begin to slowly trail down her own cheeks and she buried her face against her friend’s hair. She couldn’t find any words to say, not in that moment, and instead just held the blonde close to her in a way she hadn’t in a while, if ever. She should have hugged her more… 

Jennifer hugged Loraly as tight as she could, trying to fight back the sobs that threatened to break through. She hated having to leave Loraly behind, even though she knew it was the best option. When she had been going over everything she could do in her situation, it had been the choice she’d wanted to take the least. But it had been the only truly viable option. “Just- Promise me you’ll stay safe. That you won’t do anything rash while I’m gone.”

[jenny-donovan]

say goodbye || lor&jen&andrew

[jenny-donovan]

loralyxdavies:

America. The word resonated in Loraly’s mind as she simply stared at her friend. She was going to America, a whole different country, across an ocean, across the world. Even if she tried to be strong, Loraly felt the tears well in her eyes. She had gotten good at hiding her emotions, at being stoic, but she never could around Jennifer. The brunette tried to brush them away as Jenny approached her, but couldn’t quite manage as her best friend took her hand. “No I- I get it. It’s safest for you and for the baby. And I want you safe. You never deserved to get caught up in this war. You never deserved any of this.” Her free hand lifted up to cup her cheek, her thumb brushing lightly on the right side of her face, beside her scar. Her chin trembled slightly as she tried to fight back her tears and she shook her head. “I’ll miss you.” 

Jennifer’s own tears sprang to life as she saw the one’s reflected in Loraly’s eyes. “I’m going to miss you too.” She said, her voice shaking. “B-But I’ll write you as often as you’d like. Every day if you want. And it’s not forever, I promise. As soon as it’s safe, as soon as the war is over, I’ll be back. This - This is only temporary. Once this is all over, things will go back to being normal.”  Unable to help herself, she pulled Loraly into a tight hug as a few tears ran down her cheeks.

[jenny-donovan]

say goodbye || lor&jen&andrew

[jenny-donovan]

loralyxdavies:

“Okay.” It made sense. It didn’t really surprise the brunette at all. But from the way Jennifer was acting, she knew there was more. And then it came and the words hit her like a bludger to the gut. Loraly tried her best not to let her true feelings show but she couldn’t stop herself from pressing her lips together and dropping her gaze. She would not cry. This was the right decision. Jennifer would be safe. The baby would be safe. It made sense. Finally, after a moment of silence, she knew she could speak without her voice trembling. “Where will you go?”

“America.” She murmured, knowing that Loraly would be able to hear her despite the quiet tone with her vampire hearing. She hated the look of pain that she could see across the other girl’s face. This was what Jenny had been worried about. It had never been her intention to hurt Loraly, but she’d managed to do it anyways. Quickly crossing over to her best friend’s side, she took Loraly’s hand. “I don’t want to go, but I have to. If I stayed here... We wouldn’t survive. The Death Eaters would have a field day if I got caught in another attack.”

[jenny-donovan]

say goodbye || lor&jen&andrew

[jenny-donovan]

loralyxdavies:

Loraly wasn’t an idiot. She’d noticed how Jennifer had been acting for the past while and she had a feeling she knew why. Trying to decide what to do about her pregnancy was surely hard. And while Loraly had tried to be a supportive friend, she’d also been distracted by the Blood Thieves. So now, standing at the edge oof their living room, looking at Jenny fidgeting nervously, she knew a decision had been made. “Okay…” The word was drawn out and she stood stock still, not trusting herself to move or really speak until she knew what was going on. “What… um… what did you decide?”

“I-I’m going to keep it.” She started off, wanting to get the easy part out of the way first. There hadn’t been a question of whether or not she would carry the baby - the alternative had been too awful to think of - but she hadn‘’ been quite sure what would become of the baby afterwards. Adoption had been on the table for a while, but ultimately Jenny hadn’t wanted it. She already knew what it was like to be tossed aside by one’s birth family. She wouldn’t do the same to her own child. “B-But, Mom and I were t-talking.. and we don’t t-think London is safe enough r-right now.”

[jenny-donovan]

say goodbye || lor&jen&andrew

Jennifer fidgeted nervously with the sleeves of her jacket, fingers twisting the small buttons over and over again until she thought they might snap off. Her mother had agreed to wait at at the flat until she was done, something that had seemed sensible at the time, but as she stood in the middle of her living room, she missed having the moral support. How was she supposed to tell the two people she cared for most that she was leaving them? “There’s something I have to tell you,” She started. “And you’re not going to like it. This - This isn’t a choice I ever wanted to make and I don’t do it lightly.” 

@andrew-davies @loralyxdavies

[loralyxdavies]

baby don’t cry || lorifer

[jenny-donovan]

loralyxdavies:

Of course, she didn’t. How was she supposed to know? Loraly stared at her friend’s hands over her stomach and wondered if she’d be able to hear a heartbeat. Did they even have a heart beat this early or were they still a little blob? She decided she didn’t want to check. Because if she heard one and then Jenny made a choice… Suddenly, all anger left her and she only felt concern for the blonde beside her. “Have you- you’ve told Andrew, right? What did he say?”

“Y-Yeah, he came over earlier. He was... surprised.” It was the easiest explanation she could give Loraly. “I still have t-to tell Mom though. I’m sure s-she won‘t be happy. Not that I c-can blame h-her.” Finding out that her daughter was pregnant was sure to give Helena a shock. Especially considering they’d never had to even discuss sex before. 

[loralyxdavies]

baby don’t cry || lorifer

[jenny-donovan]

loralyxdavies:

Loraly ran both her hands through her messy hair, trying not to let her anger get out of control. She’d had a harder time controlling her emotions; when she was sad, she couldn’t stop crying. When she was angry, she craved blood. She couldn’t let that happen now so she simply focused on her words even as her hands balled into fists. “Yes you were, but he should have known better. You were drunk and inexperienced and he- I don’t care how drunk he was, he should have known.” But then she realised she didn’t know how Jennifer felt about it, so she stopped fuming for one moment to meet her eye. “What are you going to do?” 

“I-I don‘t know.” Jennifer murmured, her hands moving to cover her stomach. She wasn’t  sure there was much she could do. Having a baby at her age in the middle of the war seemed like a perfect recipe for disaster and pain. But the alternative sent a shiver up her spine. Jenny wasn’t sure she would be able to go through with that option.

[loralyxdavies]

baby don’t cry || lorifer

[jenny-donovan]

loralyxdavies:

It was obvious Jennifer was nervous and it was only making Loraly more nervous as well. She reached over and let her hand rest lightly on her friend’s knee, hoping to calm her fidgeting. But then suddenly two words left the blonde’s lips that had Loraly freeze where she was. A range of emotions washed over her as she slowly put those abstract words to reality and her gaze dropped to Jennifer’s belly. Her best friend was pregnant with her cousin’s child, making her technically an aunt. “Wha- how-” Her emotions finally settled on anger as a thought crossed her mind. “You didn’t use protection? I’m gonna slap Andrew; how could he do that to you?!” 

“I-Its not just his fault!” Jennifer hurried to explain. She didn't want Loraly to be angry with Andrew over something they’d both done. It wasn’t fair to him. And she didn’t want to cause problems between the two of them. Especially not with how important they both were to her. “We were b-both irresponsible. P-Please don‘t be upset w-with him.” 

[loralyxdavies]

baby don’t cry || lorifer

[jenny-donovan]

loralyxdavies:

Loraly followed the blonde to the couch, trying not to look too worried as she tried to guess what was about to be said. She sat down beside her friend and watched her patiently, even though she just wanted to know what was going on. Her brow furrowed slightly at Jennifer’s reminder of an event Loraly was sure she’d never forget and nodded slowly, obviously confused. “Yes… Not really something I can easily forget. Are you okay? Did something else happen that night?”

“N-No... I mean yes b-but I didn’t.... realize.” She finished lamely, her fidgeting becoming more pronounced. Jennifer took another deep, shaky breath, trying to calm herself down. She knew it was ridiculous of her to be this nervous. Better to rip off the band-aid quick and get it over with. “I-I’m pregnant.” 

[loralyxdavies]

baby don’t cry || lorifer

[jenny-donovan]

loralyxdavies:

Hearing Jennifer’s words and the way she said them brought the brunette’s full attention to her. So what Loraly had thought she’d seen had been true; her friend had been crying. “Yes, of course. Should we sit or..?” Her brow was furrowed, the look of concern written on every inch of her face. This didn’t seem good or she’d have been smiling, and that scared Loraly. Jennifer didn’t deserve any more bad things in her life, not after all she’d already been through. 

"I - uh - sure.” Jennifer said, needing the extra few seconds to bolster her courage for another round of confessions. Moving over to the couch, Jennifer perched on the edge of the seat, her hands nervously clasped together in her lap. “I... I’m...” She tried to start but stopped, the words not coming to her. Jennifer had thought that telling Loraly would be the easiest, but she’d been wrong. It was just as nerve-wracking as telling Andrew had been. “You r-remember that Andrew a-and I slept t-together?”

[jenny-donovan]

arabelladxnna:

“You’re welcome,” Arabella responded immediately. What else could she say? This was just another event in a long series of attacks. She almost felt like she ought to be used to it by now. But that was impossible. “If there’s anything else you need, as far as sweet goes, I’m here. I can’t help with much else, I’m afraid.”

“Company might be nice.” Jennifer said quietly. “O-Only if you want t-to, of course.” She amended, realizing how her words had sounded. Despite Dominique's assurances, Jenny was still worried about Andrew and Loraly. It wasn't like either of them to be absent from the scene of an attack. They were both too protective for their own good.