This too shall pass
When you are in a challenging point in life, what's the best thing to hear? I'll give you a hint, it's not "it's going to get better", "you will be okay", and it definitely isn't "it's not that bad." That isn't what is going to get you through that challenging point, you know you'll be okay, that it will get better, and that it could be worse. Humans survive, it's what we do best. Being a first time mom is my challenging point in life, being a single mom is even more challenging. And when you feel like you fail, even when you try so hard, it drains you. This is why I started this, I needed a place to vent and maybe make another mom not feel so alone. Tonight I was texting my best friend since basically birth, we are both new moms, and it was so comforting for her to say how hard it is and how she doesn't know what to do when either, it's a breath of fresh air. That is what you need to hear when you are going through a challenging point, people who feel as you feel and aren't afraid to admit that this shit is hard. My son took 2 one hour naps from 5am-8:30pm today. Two fucking one hour naps. This boy is like the energizer bunny and Mama cannot keep up. But he was in the best mood, smiling, giggling, chatting up a storm, he even rolled during tummy time (although gravity had a lot to do with it). Days like today it's hard to be mad that he didn't nap because we had such a good day. I am completely exhausted and gave up trying to get him into his crib. I'm a firm believer when he's ready, he will go willingly. But that's okay, because there is tomorrow and I get another night of sweet baby cuddles, waking up to his gummy smile and having his little hand on my chest. It doesn't get much better than that. Remember the good days when you have a bad day, and that is what will get you through. The smiles overpower the tears, the giggles overpower the screams, and happy days overpower the restless nights. It ain't easy Mamas, but it will always be worth it. Learn to rest when you're tired, don't quit. A little human counts on you every day, keep your sanity intact though, because your happiness matters just as much as theirs.