All the sounds in the room where the quiet heart beat and the buzz of the monitors as the blonde laid there his skin almost matching the color of the sheets that he was laying on. his mind was still going a mind a moment thought, wanting to move...needing to move, needing to be able to hug his husband tightly and tell him, yell to him that he was okay, sure he could feel his husband holding his hand weeping and the only thing he wanted to say, the only thing he needed to say was that he was sorry everything was going to be okay that he was going to wake up and that they were going to be able to grow old together and that everything was his fault and he loved him more then anything in his life, if anything Grantaire was the reason he was still alive, the reason that he did not go into the sweet night that was calling him was because of the man that was tightly holding onto his hand grounding him.