Progress Is Success
Today I got my second stripe on my belt! I got my second stripe in 20 days!
Lately the Sensei has been noticing me and how aggressive and progressive I have become. Last week he had told me that I was the person who progressed the most over the past month and how he is really impressed. I'm extremely excited. I hope to be a high white belt before I leave for college. I want to go into the other school already with my high white, so it doesn't take longer to progress because they will have to get to know me. There's so much more I want to do! That diffidently brightened my day.
Lately I have been tired but it feels nice to go to work and go to gym afterwards and then going to bed early. Knowing that I'm doing productive things in my day. I woke up at 8:30 and stayed up until now (11:49 PM). before I couldn't have done that. I am taking Benadryl to help me sleep but its also a bad allergy season and its helping me with that as well so I don't mind, but when school starts I hope to take interest in some eastern medication to help me sleep better.
I have been having some trouble with self image. I see more and more acne appear on my face and I was never a person that had that trouble. I also see it appearing on my body and its freaking me out I feel so unattractive. My face is chubby, my body is chubby. I haven't lost the pounds that I wanted to in the time I have been going in the gym. so I was upset and I told my mom. I didn't want to go to the dermatologist because I didn't want to have to deal with another medical bill, that also stressed me out into thinking how am I going to pay for all my bills. Luckily talking to my mother made me realize the possibilities and how eventually everything will work out for the better.
I Am Always Trying To Get Better.
I Am Always Willing To Get Better.
I Will Get Better.
I Am Better.