28. What is their biggest fear? What in general scares them? How do they act when they’re scared?
super detailed questions about simon | still accepting.
to be quite honest , si isn’t really ... scared by most things . he has this emptiness ... this inability to feel most stuff that is only changed whenever he chases and kills someone . however ! i think the closest si gets to ever being scared is to the idea of getting caught before he wants it himself . in a way , he does want to get caught . he does want the world to see and to everyone that knew him know how well he fooled them , he wants for people to finally see him for what he truly is : the deep web monster who abducts and bids people and then throw some of their body parts across the country ( most specifically in the west / midwest part of the country , although mostly on the last one ! ) . to put it in shorter words : he wants to be immortalized someday .
for people to make films , write books , produce shows about him and therefore never truly letting his story die . but not only he wants glory , as he wants greatness . si has a pretty big ego , tbh ! he really wants to be one of the biggest / most successful / hardest to get serial killers in america . he wants to be the one children are afraid of at night , the first thing people think about when the deep web is mentioned , one of the top three killers whenever an sk is mentioned as well . hell , even in his state ! whenever a tragedy in wisconsin happens by the human hand , he wants to be the first one they remember . and for that he knows he needs time to complete and master his work ! he does want to be caught and to get death sentence someday , but not now . i suppose the remote possibility of getting caught just now / someone in the law enforcement getting as near as possible to him or a victim miraculously escaping ... well , that would definitely set him on edge !
and when he’s on edge , which is how he reacts once something scares him , he gets impatient , ruthless and even impulsive : which , when he is okay , it’s the complete opposite way of how he acts ! he feels like he is lacking control , almost as if he’s become impotent in a way and that enrages him . it’s safe to say whenever he gets on edge he acknowledges later the big ol’ mess he’s made when he’s calm once again ! and therefore will try to create another plan to clean up all evidences that it ever happened , tbh .