Selfish stage of grief?
I got into graduate school. I moved out of my childhood home and into an apartment with my boyfriend.
If my mom was here I would call this growing up.
But since shes not I feel like I am abandoning my family. And in a way I know that I am.
My dad has had some legal issues, which I will get into at a later time, that doesn’t allow him to drive. My middle brother still has not gone into college which he dropped out of his first semester and promised to go back ever since. My youngest brother is only 10 and I’m not there.
I try and forget about these things because I need to do this for myself. Grad school is hard. I spend most of my time studying and I am really determined to do well.
At times I do feel selfish.
My middle brother, although not in school has really stepped it up for my family. He drives my brother to school, and my dad to work and to the appointments he needs to be at etc.
I sometimes feel really selfish in what I am doing. I don’t think my mom would want me to feel this way I don’t think my dad even thinks this, but sometimes I feel like I am being selfish. I don’t want to think about the issues my dad is having. I don’t want to think about why my brother can’t get himself back in school. I want to make myself successful and then I can worry about them. What does that make me?