Hello sweeties, I’ve taken a little break from writing as I’ve been in this whirlwind since loosing my job back in March. From April - pretty till much now I’ve been in communication with chatGPT coming up with all these grand ideas to make money (a writing retreat, then a writing course) but what I actually realised is that leaning on my own understanding is WAY more important than AI.
Sure, business can go from 0 to a 100 in one month, but that’s usually the exception and not the rule. Often there is a period of planting roots, of showing up when no one is clapping, of looking stupid to the world but having a delusional level of self belief. This is a process. One unfortunately ChatGPT fails to highlight. So yes, I thought I would make 10k per month from a retreat no one knew existed, so I built the website, the stripe checkout page, the instagram, rented a villa, filmed content there. All for zero results. I tried. But deep down it was more about getting paid then the heart and soul of what I was doing. I wanted to appear successful, for my ego. I actually can’t bare the thought of being in a villa with total strangers for an extended period who have paid and have high expectations from me. So then I pivoted, a course. I did run the writing course with more soul. But it still didn’t reap the results I had anticipated with my consults with ChatGPT, so again I felt like a failure.
But what was really going on was I just needed to listen to myself. I needed to be still, to actually enjoy my period of not working (we’re in month 4). My body has been through so much stress and pressure for quite frankly no results. I would have been better to book a holiday with the time, money and energy I invested into my retreat idea. I was forcing ‘doing’ into a season of ‘being’. So now I am going back to my heart and soul. I am burning all these ideas, and I am absolutely not consulting with AI for my future.
Anyway this is a little life update. I’m looking forward to posting more on here, and just being back in my flow. Sharing whatever wisdom pours through, and being kind to myself during this transition period. Xoxox
