I struggle with ill intentions, yeah, maybe more than most
But I saw the sun rise, pouring light up on the coast
I wish I was pouring light, I wish I wasn't pouring Tos'
And my wish is my command, but I ain't strong enough to cope
The formation of your face has me clinging on to hope
Inability to change my past has grabbed me by the throat
When I try to make amends, my words get caught up and I choke
But I promise real pain in these lyrics that I wrote
I chose a path that's filled with just as much beauty as pain
Ignored the former and sunshine felt like standing in rain
Ignored the former abusing drugs and it snuffed out my flame
Cause I been having nightmares in this bed that I made
To get up out this hole, an NDE's what I need
Time is cruel, it made me crueler, that's what's happened to me
But there's a light in this tunnel that's been waiting for me
Then maybe someday, somewhere, you'll be happy for me
