Since I’m clearly not very open about some of these, here’s some things I hate, and yes some deal with myself:
1. I hate that I tend to love and trust people too fast. I also fall deep in love way to fast and sometimes I can’t hit the breaks unless someone helps me. So if you catch me doing this please don’t let it continue unless you believe there’s a chance in the future. My heart can only take so much at this point because of this.
(Listed first because it’s the biggest one, the rest follow in no particular order.)
2. Being ignored. Yes I understand, people get busy or distracted, things happen to phones or other ways we communicate. But if something comes up, find a way to tell me. And please don’t read my message and not at least send an “ok” or some acknowledgment that I’ve been noticed.
3. (Kinda goes with previous) I hate that I am not good at knowing whether I’m annoying someone, or if someone hates me, I literally have a fear of people I hold close hating me. My insecurities make me who I am and it’s one of the reasons why I constantly message all of my friends to make sure they’re alright and ask if there’s anything I can do.
4. Shitty tanks in FF14. There I said it, y'all know who you are.
5. Beer. Yes I literally hate beer. Not only can I not stand the taste but I also have to stock the crap every night.
6. When friends mention they’re angry and don’t say anything about or even say that it doesn’t have anything to do with me. I can forgive the latter. But if you don’t say something I’m going to automatically assume its about me, and it does keep me up at night analyzing everything I’ve done the past month.
7. Crystal Pepsi. Like seriously did you really……just no.
8. Genji. Because screw you and your reflection.
9. Unexpected family outings. Like you could at least tell me an hour ahead. Please.
10. Trying to make plans with someone who has had the opportunity and ability to go out for at least three times in the past year but chooses not to. Not naming names, but you know who you are.
11. Trying to pay for something when I’ve already said I would pay, like honestly its a little demeaning.
12. (Last one for now I swear) When people aren’t honest about their feelings towards me. I may have a lot of emotional baggage and scars but that doesn’t make me weak. Just tell me. Please for both our sakes. That goes for ALL my friends. I WANT to know how you feel. Don’t leave me to wonder about it every night.
13. (Oh and oooone more thing) Please don’t say no when I get a gift for a friend, I’ve done this for so many friends and they all insist I shouldn’t have done it. But you know what, I DON’T CARE. It makes me happy to go to a friends house and see that they have something I gave them. For me its literally a token of friendship, a way to say, “Here, this is a part of me that you’ll always have and I will never take back.”