HAETORIA PLSSSSSSSS, DONGHAE LOVING HER MORE THAN NICKHUN!
She deserves better.
The thought crosses my mind as I watch her face light up at the sight of him. I don’t really get what she sees in him. Yes, he is tall, handsome and with great physique but that doesn’t make up for the fact that he is a lying, cheating bastard.
And it wasn’t like Victoria was not aware of her boyfriend’s activities. She had caught him on more than one occasion yet she still accepts him. It frustrates me that she allows him to hurt her over and over again yet I knew why.
She loves him.
And despite his actions of infidelity, he loves her too.
On one drunken occasion, I remember Victoria confiding in me about her troubles with Nichkhun. We were never really the best of friends, nor confidants, but I guess at that time she just needed willing ears to listen and at that time I was more than willing.
It was that time that she revealed to me about he boyfriend’s infidelity. Nichkhun was a good friend, a fellow idol that I hanged out with on several occasions. I have always had a good impression of him but everything changed that night.
I listened as she ranted to me about how she found her boyfriend in the same bed with another woman. In the same bed that he made love to her previously. She told me how she broke up with him that instant only to accept him back several hours later with the typical explanation of it being a mistake and a promise of it never happening again.
She knew that the promise was broken a mere week after they were spoken. Friends had told her about his activities and she had caught him again after the first time yet they still stayed together.
“I know I should leave him. I know I don’t deserve this but I just can’t let him go. I love him, oppa. So much that I am willing to take all the pain as long as at the end of the day, he comes home to me.
“I know I’m going to sound crazy saying this but I know that he loves me too. Do you know, every time he comes home to me after being one of his women, he would lie beside me on the bed, hug me from behind and cry on my shoulder and whisper ‘Sorry’ until he falls asleep? He doesn’t want to hurt me yet he doesn’t know how to stop.
"I hate myself most of the times because a simple smile from him can make my day. Every time he kisses me, I forget all the times he had hurt me. The way he holds me while we make love makes me feel alive. He understands me in a way other people couldn’t.”
As I listened to her words, I wanted to interrupt her and tell her that Nichkhun wasn’t the only man in the world. That there was another man out there that can make her feel the same way or even more that what Nichkhun can make her feel without hurting her at every turn. I wanted to tell her that I could be that man for her. I could love and take care her more than Nichkhun does. That if she would just give me a chance to be with her, she would never hurt ever again.
I look at her now and I know that it’ll always just be a dream that would never come true.













