" We shouldn't have to fight. It isn't FAIR — " Why was it so hard for them to find some peace? Why was he struggling so much to carve out a little bit of happiness for them? Ever since they had met it had been seemingly impossible for them to not end up threatened sooner or later. First through his brother, then the police, both of their pasts trying to catch up with them. Beyond, Madelyne — none of it had worked out for them. They had done what they could to atone, to work for their happiness and yet ... they had still ended up chased out of paradise, confused, robbed of everything they called their own. He sunk to his knees, resting his head on her lap. " What if it never ends? What if this is just what our lives are going to be FOREVER? "
Only alone with her did he finally allow the weight of the last few months to fully break down over him. What if this was all there was to life for them? Pain. Were they destined for nothing but nightmares? " I'm scared, Janine, what the hell do we do now? " His voice was barely more than a whisper now as he tried and failed to choke back tears. " This isn't how it was SUPPOSED to be. "