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“Nikolai… you make me so happy. But there is something you need to know. You would have had a half sister. And she would have been much, much older than you. And any of your friends that like me like someone who could be their grandmother, possibly great grandmother. But you would have had a sister, I called her Rose before I lost her. I wish you could have met her. But if she didn’t die… I wouldn’t have met your father because I wouldn’t have pushed to much in my early history. I hope you can forgive me for being married and having another baby.”












