Lucifer only thinks he cares about Sam. He cares that Sam was made for him. He cares that Sam’s body is his. He cares that Sam is his. He cares that Sam is supposed to be him. He doesn’t see Sam as an individual but rather just more of himself. They’re the same person, or they’re supposed to be in his eyes. All of this is one reason that he tortures Sam in the Cage. He doesn’t just hate him for putting him back in his prison. He hates him for defying him, for being an individual. But at the same time he doesn’t know how to give up that belonging and intimacy, so he just becomes obsessed with him.
Your Tsundere!Med post made me think of what if Medivh notices just how popular Khadgar is?
On one hand, Medivh’s proud of him. Khadgar’s come a long way from being that awkward punk that arrived on his doorstep so many years ago. Khadgar went from being tossed to Medivh to get rid of him to leading that same city.
Medivh notices how Khadgar behaves around most other people. He’s funny and charming and even Medivh finds himself a little attracted to that. It’s only when Khadgar cracks some jokes he’s used himself that Medivh realizes: “Oh, he’s acting like me...” Flattery aside, it worries him, just how much is Khadgar acting and what’s he really feeling.
There’s also Khadgar’s popularity. He is well liked. Getting visits from champions and old friends, getting gifts and care packages, and being fretted over and admired. Medivh feels jealous, not of Khadgar, but how he looks at his champions. There’s a certain glimmer in his eye, his tone becomes more genuine.
It’s not practical getting jealous over Khadgar sharing that side of himself. It’s downright childish! But a darker part of Medivh feels that side of Khadgar is his.
Medivh’s a little cold to Khadgar’s champion at first, he even becomes a little colder to Khadgar. He’s like a cat that’s been introduced to something new. Medivh doesn’t like it. Khadgar is urging them to get along because he cares about them both deeply.
Moroes meanwhile is watching this shitshow in the background while borrowing the champion’s Darkmoon Faire popcorn toy. He’ll have words with Medivh later, he’s being a brat like his mother. But for now, it’s a trainwreck that’s entertaining to watch.
@ladymischievous
Now THIS is what I’m talking about. Possessive Med is my fav. (and maybe just a little bordering on creepy..)
And he notices things. Medivh is perceptive. He’s always talking about his champions.. They’re always THERE. And he feels..almost like a third wheel when with them because he’s missed a lot lbr. It’s been how many years?
He’s kind of on the out. He knows Khadgar but he doesn’t. On both sides they’re both learning who they other is now. They’ve both been through much and it changes you.
They’re the same…but different.
Khadgar’s attention used to be solely on him. That blind sort of hero worship. And you know some part of Med loved that. He’s as starved for love as Khadgar is.
It’s there still but..not. Khadgar is older. he can stand on his own two feet.
He doesn’t need him anymore.
And that..scares him?
He didn’t contact Khadgar after being resurrected for several reasons. First it was he thought he was dead on the other side of the dark portal so there’s that but you know he heard about it when he returned, alive and well.
But he didn’t go to him. Khadgar was better off without him surely. After everything he’d done to him? he needs to learn how to stand on his own two feet.
but now that he’s seeing the results of that..he’s not sure he likes the fact that it means sharing him.
To be fair Khadgar is quite honestly the only person Med has left. All his friends and family are dead.
And they always had a special connection (gay). An understanding that he’d never had with anyone else. (and lbr as much as he’d scoff he adores Khadgar as much as Khadgar adores him)
And oh..he seems so close to these champions. The softer, genuine way he speaks to them, the way he lights up when he sees them, a clear history between them (i dont necessarily mean romantic) that he knows nothing about, inside jokes he doesn’t get.
He’s an absolute third wheel when they’re around. (in his mind)
Khadgar goes to them for help. Emotional support even. Why not HIM? Okay he knows why but…
I’m fucking dying at the thought of someone being like “ay khadgar where’s your special pal.” and medivh who’s perched on his shoulder in raven form (he’s being low key okay) just PUFFS THE FUCK UP
SPECIAL PAL? What does THAT mean???? And he’ll mock him for it but he’s deeply disgruntled.
And presumably they never acted on romantic/sexual impulses back then (although the feelings were quite clearly there and still are) and he’s like woah wait a fucking second…he REALLY doesn’t like this.
And he’s so..petty. Like his mother. Like who do these people think they are? They really think they know him? They don’t know him like he does. Right?
And it’s really a deep underlying fear that Khadgar doesn’t need or want him anymore. And that’s his…person. And they think they can take his place? Hmph. Doubtful..right?
It comes out as him being downright passive aggressive towards both Khadgar and the champion/s. (because he’s not about to sit khadgar down and talk about his feelings)
And for all narcissistic tendencies he’s deeply insecure in this. Because he doesn’t know where they stand right now anyway.
And he’s aware it’s childish. It’s a little creepy really how much he wants to keep Khadgar all to himself. Although he’d be satisfied with just knowing Khadgar wants him there.
He’s delighted come BFA when Khadgar comes to Karazhan. (To Him) It’s just them again. How it should be. With only the occasional visitor/visiting champion.
And they fall back into their rhythm but it’s still bothering him. And maybe he wants him to be his in ways that decidedly aren’t innocent. And it’s much harder to ignore now that there really isn’t anything standing in the way besides the uncertainty it’s reciprocated.
And maybe he’d be satisfied if claimed him the most intimate way one can. There’s his confirmation he’s special to him. There’s his assurance Khadgar is still his.
Alas, he’d rather not send Khadgar running in the other direction because he tried to get in his pants. (it wouldn’t but he doesn’t know that)
And in quite possibly the most primal petty way he hates the thought of someone touching his Khadgar. Someone seeing him like that, at his most vulnerable. He doesn’t like that at all. Nope.
He’d know how to take care of him. They wouldn’t.
And lbr Khadgar is having similar concerns. They’re both figuring out where they stand now.
Feelings are complicated :/
(hmm giving me ideas for that one collar fic..)
I feel so bad for Moroes tbh. But you know he finds it hilarious. If it gets too out of hand he’ll step in surely but oh..is it fun to watch Med get taken down a few pegs.
I’d feel bad for him if he wasn’t such a bitch ;)
\also I dont know why I made this but it wouldn’t get out of my head
