WIP Wednesday?? Yes, WIP Wednesday!
Rylen nearly ran to the Chevalier’s quarters, warring between thinking too hard and not at all. His thoughts were a sudden whirlwind and his chest tightened with each aggravated step. How was it that he both knew what to do and had no idea? How was it that in a matter of a few months his life had turned itself on his head? Kirkwall, Cullen, the Inquisition, Haven, Corypheus, Skyhold, the Western Approach. Each miniscule event felt like it had led him straight here. Was it much of a stretch to believe it had led him to her? Every step, every decision, for what? To shake his faith, to upend everything he knew and leave him grasping at broken lines of the Chant searching for answers. Answers that no one fucking had. It was too much to believe for a bloody moment that things could be simple. His life had never fucking had that luxury. Never.
Joining the Templars wasn’t simple. Watching his elder brother leave to never return wasn’t simple. Serving his Order by honoring his vows wasn’t simple. Fixing Kirkwall wasn’t simple. The Conclave wasn’t simple. Forming the Inquisition wasn’t simple. Doing nothing else but finding bodily relief in a beautiful woman wasn’t fucking simple.
Everything had to be complicated. He made everything so bloody complicated. Try as he might to shut himself down or block out the worst of his personality, he still managed to destroy the things the Maker gave him. The marks on his face would forever be a testament to that, to his asanine ability to make the largest mess he possibly could at any given moment. A fuckup, a deserter, and a moron.
The supposed ‘Knight-Captain’ Rylen summed up in one fucking sentence.
Rylen banged on the wooden door of Chevin’s quarters. The sound echoed off the corridor, loud and obnoxious. Maybe he’d wake all the lieutenants up. Maybe he wanted everyone to be as miserable as he was.
He didn’t wait for a response. Rylen shouldered the door open and didn’t feel sorry when he found Chevin half-naked, groaning loudly and rubbing his eyes.
“I need to speak with you.”
“About Ke—the Inquisitor.”
“Who else?” Chevin yawned.
“Look, I don’t need you being smug with me or giving me any shit I just—” Rylen dumped his uniform unceremoniously to the floor, he kicked the door closed. He paced the room. He didn’t know bloody where to even begin. He took a shaky breath and ran his fingers through his hair in agitation. “I just need your fucking help.”
“All right, all right, my friend.” Chevin eased himself out of bed, still sluggish, and rolled his head from side to side in small circles. “Remind me never to ask you for a wakeup call.”
Just sent the chapter to my Beta. I might even have it up tonight! :D