when you have a general idea of whats wrong with you in your head but things change so often or have various depending factors but your not able to be a functioning people so something is obviously wrong but you just don't know how to transfer the brain things to the person so when they ask you a question you just sorta sit there in pondering silence trying to figure out how to explain the thing but you cant cuz how do communicate brain language??? So nothing ever gets done or you fear they may interpret what you say the wrong way or think your lying because of all the other factors that come into play or this thing might not affect you one day but it really does another AHHH
but at the same time you have no idea whats going on and your just along for the ride cuz your body and mind do what they want but your just kinda sitting in the back watching it all go down in a reclining lawn chair with a drink trying to take a nap. i mean youve tried breaking it up but you cant and youve accepted that there just going to fight but you cant just leave them alone to do there thing cuz theyll break something or hurt themselves so you gotta shout at them to break it up every once in awhile. and its all just one big dysfunctional family that makes you you
im in here somewhere
