You're the worst person for me
The wrong person at the wrong time
But still in my mind I can ignore all of it
Your horrible behavior, your unplaced anger and your cheap comments
I can ignore all of that
And remember
Remember the feel of your hand in mine
The feel of the comfort you provided
The feel of your reassuring presence
The feeling of being the passenger princess on our precious but limited scooty rides where I could rest my head on your back and just breathe out
I didn't know our time was short orelse I would have made good effort to make the bad memories better.
Like the awkward and angry silent treatment scooty rides
Like those moments when we broke each other's hearts.
All I have now is memories. Memories that slowly fade away. I can remember the feeling of you but it fades with time too.
I want that feeling back. So desperately. I don't want to forget. I don't want you to forget.
But you're my wrong person at the worst time.
So, I don't think I want you back.
Just that feeling.
Any feeling.
I want the feeling back.
And so, I force myself to remember when you broke my heart, when you behaved horribly so that I can remind my heart that maybe it felt good at the time, but that's all that was. A moment. A feeling. Destroyed by the flaws of human beings.