is this your first experience breaking up with someone? why is this time more painful?
I consider break-ups and heartbreak two different things. I have been broken up with before, and I have broken up with people before. You can be in a “relationship” (time doesnt mean anything) and it can end and not hit you as hard as someone else who really “broke your heart.”
I have gone thru a few break ups and I broke up with people before but I think this was my most “painful heartbreak” because she was literally my dream girl. She had everything I wanted in a person. In the beginning I was the skeptical one. The tables flipped. I was hesitant to make it official, to get on a plane to go meet her, while she wanted these things. She got my walls to come down and got me to trust her and believe her and take the risk. So I felt safe. Like I took the risk because I believed she would be different. And then she left. I wished she would have talked to me about it before but I was blind-sided for sure. I just got a text and that was that. Never got to hear her voice again. So it felt like a betrayal and a crushing heartbreak at the same time.
So it hurt a lot. Still hurts. Because she “loved me” and then she changed her mind that fast.