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Killian pours out some heartjuice

Submitted by Killian on Fri, 10/05/2012 - 08:09 It's really late, and I'm bored, and I'm about to drop some heavy feels on y'all.  First things first, I'ma do a "Soop" and give you some "feelin" music to read to. Linky here  And so we shall begin.  Hi, I'm Killian. Some of you may know me. Some of you may not. That's ok.  First, I'd like to attempt to make this a non anti-Kabam thread (and probably fail). It won't be an "im quitting" thread either. It is exactly what the title suggests. I'ma drop some feels. But I sure as hell aren't gonna be playing like I used to. And I'm sure as hell not spending money on Realm for a long time.  Let's go back in time, shall we? When Realm was budding, it was young and flawed but oh, so brilliant. In early July or so of 2011, I fell in love. Not a love of passion, but one of obsession. I was hooked harder than a heroin has-been getting reacquainted with the stuff. Every day, before school, after school, weekends, weekdays. I struggled in class because I had skipped sleep to farm on the many necros I seemed to have a fetish for. There were friends, coming from that feeling when someone gave you back your loot. Yes, the time of grave looting. Of no SB. The time of Bismarck, Clocking, Dynexio, Brutus, Seto, AntiLOL's immortal glory. All that and so much more. I met people that I never thought could be so kind. They were friends that helped me blow off steam from a nasty divorce, although none of them knew the peace of mind they gave me. I remember talking for so long about everyday things with everyday people, halfway across the world, and smiling because all as good. I remember getting scammed. I remember the absolute, jaw-dropping, heart-warming awe as the guild I called friends so much more than the people I physically met, raised things for me, when I had nothing, and when Nutella wanted to visit his girlfriend in Indiana and we did WC's for him to raise money. I remember sending this to the developers in June, 2012. I know that you must get these every day, but I have a story for you, whichever dev is reading this. I think you might enjoy it.  This game, Realm of the Mad God, is unlike anything anything I've ever seen. I put in countless hours and money into it, and I DON'T REGRET A CENT. This game, with its elements that seem tiny at first, become wonderful. They become something so much more than a game. I can honestly say that this game has changed my life, in one of the best ways. It may be a shadow of what I might feel in the real world, but It taught (and still does) me to cope with loss, and not to hold things so close to me. There are lessons in here, from the world's economy, to what you should really value in life, and how to survive when its gone. Its absolutely wonderful, and I can say that it has changed my life drastically, as weird as it sounds. A few days ago one of my friends on here was going to quit, Nutella by IGN. He wanted to sell his account to pay for a plane ticket to visit his long-distance girlfriend in Indiana. We decided to run some Wine Cellars. We did, and we raised to 300+ USD to help pay for his plane ticket! This is just one example of what this game can do. It helped a friend finally see the girl of his dreams, and that itself can justify everything this game exists for. Its beautiful. I have donated to this game, and I don't regret any of it. I look forward daily to coming home and popping up this tab. The people here, way back when, were incredible. Everyone knew everyone, we all helped out, people dropped stuff. It was amazing. Now this game is growing beyond what I thought could be possible, and all that I'm filled with is happiness, that other people are experiencing the bliss, and the lessons to be learned in Realm. Its amazing, and I thought you might want to know. You helped, not just me, but everyone, in some way, shape, or form. Even the fresh-faced newbies who die and ragequit, and never come back, LEARN SOMETHING. They may not even realize it, but in the back of their mind, the next tragedy won't hit them so hard. This game not only gave me a distraction (and more than a distraction. I'm thoroughly addicted), but it helped me through a few hard times myself by toughening me up for losing the people I love the most.  So thank you. Thank you so much for creating this. I can walk away a better man now, because of this. -Killian ... It shows, and quite well, I might add, the love and passion the people have for this game. To some, it's a time-well, to others, it's more. I just wanted you to see this, and wish you the best on making Realm a place that stands out from all the others. Yes, I am referring to the Pay-to-Win games that you are associated with. I joined almost a year ago, when there were only a few people who really played the game, and the community was so small, everyone knew each other. It was a great time, and while it's been lost after Google Chrome Store, Kongregate, and Steam, the echo of the amazing community is still there. I remember Realm as so much more than a game. To me, it was so much more than a game. I can't help but remembering looking at quitting posts then and saying "Im never going to quit". I still say that, but now, I'm not so sure.  There was always a host of emotions that followed Realm in my mind. Happiness, excitement, shock, horror, exuberant joy, loving play, hated death. The simple mental smile at seeing "Hey Killian!". Looking up to good players and actually respecting them as celebrities. The life was the life. And then multiboxing. Duping. It all washed away. Friends left. Friends I dearly miss. I've watched so many come, so many go, and I miss them all. Now I fear I'm be one of them. I always come back in the end. But the day always comes.  And now Kabam has killed the game, and I feel it more than a lifelong pet dying. What can you say to that? I've spent the last few days reading old and new forum threads, and it's clear as day that what Kabam murdered was not the game, but what made the game so beautiful. The people. The loving and nurturing community that made a grin plaster my face harder than any doom bow drop or golden stat. Realm was the place where a man could do so much and have it matter to the people that mattered to him. Maybe some people who don't play games wold call the things we've built on here a "real" friendship or even anything that matters, but they can go fuck off.  But i've tried to look at it in every light, but the truth is there. Realm is dying. Maybe it's already dead to the community that cared so much. All I know is it's not taken seriously anymore. MID EDIT (because I can): Moar music for you to listen to. HERE I'll still play and make youtube videos, but the golden age of RealmoftheMadGod has passed.  Because the biggest problem with Kabam isn't the P2W. Or their skewed views, or their inability to drop some pride and take some suggestions from the peoples of the game.  It's the fact that a new player, and an old player make no difference to them. The old vets, the ones who survived when Realm was such an immensely small and amazing thing, are just as full of money as the new crop of players coming in from Kongregate. It makes no difference if the old crowd gets alienated. We're just older, more ragged sacks of money. And the new content? I don't have much to say on the new content. I'm mostly just indifferent. Kabam tried, and I applaud their gesture for new content, but I just can't get excited about it. Maybe that's just me.  Ninjas aren't balanced at all, nor are the ideas in the real character of the Realm that we know. But what would Kabam know about that? They're too proud to ask for any user input. So, what I think will happen is:  Realm will move on, but the spirit that we know has already been killed.  I think a lot of us reached our breaking point with the Linkshot incident. Of course, both parties are still on good terms with each other, and it was handled quite maturely. But, it still stands that Kabam is not what we want, and the rift is already too wide.  I've honestly given up. And it hurts me so much to say this.  But it's true. Realm will move on. It's still growing in terms of numbers. Hell, look at its standings on Steam. Quite high. But the spirit, the comradeship of the old WS Realm is gone. Now a bit on what I will be doing...  I still play. Usually a few minutes every day.  I'm still keeping up on the forum stalking.  The guild Awesome may or may not be in either hibernation or a state of suspended animation. Just make sure that everyone knows that no matter what, I'll still always be in Awesome.  Always. So fuck off.  I'm not gonna be paying any money or supporting Realm directly at all. I'm just not for where it's headed. It's a bit spiteful of me, but I'm one of those who can't just let what I remember go.  The mumble I hang out in is always active, and we play a LOT of games together, meaning all my friends from Realm I can still talk to and shit. So that's good. At least the guys who have stuck around for this long get to keep in contact. I don't know really how to wrap all this up. Most all of this has been a couple days of hard thinking, and a rush of stream-of-thought content. But I'll do my best To all of you guys out there. Those new and old. Hello to those I haven't met, and a How do you do to those I have. I'm Killian, and I am no longer addicted to Realm of the Mad God. The game I loved has died, and in its place stands a structure so different to what I know, I'm not even bothering to relearn it. I'll see some of you in the coming days, but most, I might not see again. I won't be playing as much, and even though I dread the day, the hour might come where I never log on again. Thanks for your time. You, the community, have taught me so much. Be the best you can be.