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Favorite song from each soundtrack?

twilight ask meme

oh god, this is so difficult, i’ll have to do top three for each soundtrack!! i also adore basically the entirety of the new moon score, so jot that down.

twilight

bella’s lullaby

leave out all the rest

let me sign

new moon

roslyn

slow life

the meadow

eclipse

eclipse (all yours)

my love

with you in my head

breaking dawn part 1

turning page

cold

requiem on water

breaking dawn part 2

ghosts

speak up

a thousand years part 2

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edward’s thoughts on: his parents

EDWARD MASEN SR never really filled the role of father for Edward. While his career as a successful lawyer meant he could provide financially for his family, he never took a very hands on approach to parenting his son. More often than not, Edward Jr felt more like a burden to his biological father than his child. He would constantly try and make his father proud, only to receive little acknowledgement. Even so, when it came to trying to get him to the hospital when he got sick with the Spanish ‘Flu, Edward Jr did everything in his power to get him there. And when he died, he took on a lot of guilt about it, wondering if he should have done something sooner. 

ELIZABETH MASEN was the centre of Edward’s world as a human. If his father was an absentee parent, his mother filled both roles for him. He was always certain of his mother’s love, not feeling like he had to try and earn it like with his father. She doted on him, and while his father paid for the music lessons he received and the private schools he attended, she was the one who would attend every recital or congratulate every success. She was the one who tried to keep him safe from war, praying that his ideal of becoming a soldier would never come to pass. Nursing him, away from her own sickbed, she was the one who kept him alive only enough to ask Carlisle to save him. 

CARLISLE stepped into the father role that no one had ever filled for Edward rather quickly. After his transformation, and in the immediate years following it, Edward soaked up the knowledge Carlisle would provide him like a sponge. It didn’t take long for them to progress from friends, to best friends, to father and son. They know each other like no other, those three years together moulding a relationship neither had really had before. Edward always feels like he can go to Carlisle in a crisis, knows that his father will always do his best to be understanding and sympathetic. Above anyone else, Edward yearns to be like Carlisle. He is Edward’s hero.

ESME fit into a role Edward was missing in his life. With his father, he had felt little guilt giving Carlisle the moniker, but could he really replace his beloved mother? It turned out he had little to worry about. Still young enough to benefit from a mother, Edward quickly came to see Esme not as a replacement for Elizabeth, but someone willing to fill that same role with love and kindness. She had lost a son, and he a mother, and it made sense for them to bond over their shared grief. He loves Esme dearly, and hates the idea of ever hurting her. He knows he can always turn to her for comfort and reassurance in his times of need, and he enjoys being around her loving mind. 

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i want to take a little time out to talk about @carolinesnotbrokenjustbent​ / @heartofthecullens​. simply because it is her birthday , in my timezone since i am a day ahead. when i first came into the tvd fandom, i was new, i was nervous and i also had no idea what i was doing. my muse was rebekah and if any of you still remember, i think my first url for her was inguaribleromantico then it was something else because i had too many urls for her, apparently. my all time favourite was boundlessheartbreak, and i would like it back but it can’t because tumblr is dumb so now she’s over at @bcundlessheartbreak​. anyway, my threads were never serious because i’m known as a crack rper. and i met lia, and she took me in, and we bonded, and our muses bonded so now they’re besties with a pet tiger and rebekah opening up a cake store that sell dildo-shaped cakes. trust me, caroline tried to stop her but the girl said no. lia went through all of my complaints and me telling her about my personal drama outside of tumblr. and we also spam each other with food. we went from skype messaging to only tumblr because i rarely ever log on skype, and now discord because hoorah i caved and downloaded the app. the bottom line is, she’s such an amazing friend. despite all of the things that she went through, she remains the kind of person that doesn’t judge. she never judge me for the stupid shit that i did. or the stupid things that i said. she’s very supportive. and very passionate about her tv shows/movies because, i know. she gushes about it to me and i’ll be sitting here like what? i dont know these characters ! i just have too many shows to catch up on before i can be THAT passionate with her on her shows. most importantly of all, this girl needs a big vacation! she works way too hard and still manage to come on to give people updates like ...girl , go to sleep already.

anyway, lia, having you as my friend for these past years have been a great honour on my part. when i came back to tumblr not too long ago, i thought that i wouldn’t be able to find you again. like you’d gotten up and left the tumblr world just like lili did. but you didn’t and i was so, so relieved because i wasn’t ready to spread my wings and expand. and even though i’m already expanding, you are still one of my oldest and precious friend on this hellsite. seeing you on the dash, especially with the food porn, always bring a smile on my face. always bother me. even if i’m asleep. i’ll get to your messages, eventually XD 

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#hammy you've been a part of my life for nearly six years now#wow#you've been a part of my tumblr rp life for nearly my entire time on the site#i wrote a bunch of mushy tags when I reblogged this on Caroline and now i'm all emotional#thank you for being a part of my life all these years#I wish you endless happiness#<3<3<3#to all the new people I've met via this blog#THANK YOU#I am not fast but I think I am starting to figure things out for Esme and I can't wait to see what we can do together

ok --------first of all, i had no idea what you were talking about when you said you’re all emotional and you’re gonna go to sleep. i thought you were watching a show dlkjhlshs because when you messaged me, i was watching supergirl and i was thinking is lia watching supergirl too because it is very emotional. then right after i did a reply and scrolled down, i saw the tags. THE. TAGS. SIX YEARS. SIX BLOODY YEARS. HOLY FUCKING GOD. the crazy rides we took with rebekoline. the plots we had, especially the group plots. the whole me appearing and disappearing nearly 3 years ago because i was dedicating myself to my ex. then my baby when she came out. all those skype messages. now its discord messages and omg SIX YEARS!!! when i first found out your real name isn’t lia i was like wut? and girl idk you’ve stuck with me through thick and thin. all of my blogs jumping. never actually staying in one blog for long because what was that anyway?? maybe all my tvd/to blogs are cursed because didn’t i remade elijah not too long ago?? dslgjs you followed me on so many blogs. stuck through with my url changes for rebekah. and to this day, your caroline seems to be the only caroline that can wake my rebekah muse up with their tiger and dildo antics. it’s amazing, really. so i should be the one to say THANK YOU FOR BEING A PART OF MY LIFE. @heartofthecullens @carolinesnotbrokenjustbent

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    “--𝓛et me guess... Carlisle isn’t home at this time?” Alistair asked        as he stepped into the Cullen household, not sensing anyone else in        the building other than the matriarch, and himself of course. 

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lia: an aro rper sent esme an ask & idk if its meant to be dirty or my dirty mind just make it dirty me: omg what did he say? lia: one sec mid battle

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@heartofthecullens | starter call.

HIS GIFT MADE HER WORRYING all the worse. There was no escape from any of the suffering he had caused his family, that he continued to cause his family. Were he man enough, he’d just go, leave them to live their existences in peace. But Edward knew from experience that for some of them, that would just make matters worse. So he dealt with Esme’s worry, Carlisle’s escape from the house to the hospital, his siblings giving him a wise berth. 

“I wish you wouldn’t fuss so much.”

He was standing in the doorway to the living room, clothes dishevelled from several weeks of wearing them. His voice was flat even to his own ears, lifeless. It seemed only right. When she looked at him, Edward knew what she would see: dark eyes ringed by bruise-like shadows, pallor all the worse, all joy gone from his face. But it was just the two of them in the house. It had made it easier to come down from his room and interact.