#heavyfeeling

[homesmarter]

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[iankarlo]

Drowning

There are some things that made me happy and sad lately. It has been a really difficult track to take lately. Unstable feeling, anxiety, sleepless nights, work stress, and wrong decisions. 

I don’t know why I still keep going. I am out of myself yet I look forward to experience new things. I am a believer yet I doubt myself. I am scared that maybe one day, I lost my interest in everything I do. What will happen to me?

I am still unsure how I could make myself lovable. I always fail to get a good relationship. Didn’t I deserve to have someone with me? Am I always getting left behind or being taken for granted. 

I just tried to keep myself composed as much as possible. I tried not to make things look alright yet the feeling I am carrying is too heavy to proceed. My heart is weary, my body is dying and my soul is slowing taken away.

When will experience it? My usual question to myself. 

Am I not worthy?

Am not lovable?

Am I not enough?

Am I really just a friend?

Am I really nothing?

The rain kept going back to me until the storm destroyed own land. My land that I am trying to rebuilt million little times yet the surge of strong waves that crashes to the aisle of shaking feelings - I drowned. 

Too heavy to carry. 

Too tired to keep going

Too fake to know the truth.

Slowly fading and dying.

Good night.

Love Always,

Iyaaan

[ghera]

Day 18 : Flu vaccine done. ✅ #100happyday #challenge #happy #sore #heavyfeeling

[lovelylianne]

This too shall pass . . . why hasn't it yet?