personal blood fam stress
damn, family trauma is not a static entity in my life. it just takes new forms. whereas before I was ashamed when my mother talked about trans people like they are moon craters or incapable of being self-aware, I am still deeply disappointed by her lack of effort in educating herself or pronouning me correctly, constantly. We are years into this conversation and it's clear how we differ in recognizing who I am.
NOW I'm at the point where I recognize how engrained racism, heteronormativity, victim-blaming, and ableism are in not only my own blood family but the fabric of most people in this country. The racism and ableism stands out to me the most and boils my blood. The white liberal viewpoint is a fucking bullshit, non-accountable lie that will continue to stratify us all under this white supremacist, capitalist, cishetero system.
I can't...... This is a reminder that white folx have a fuckton of work to do. This is a reminder that my chosen family is a rosy jewel that is non reflective of the rest of the world.