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this is gonna be extra extra extra long so i’m gonna put in a read more here so...
exo exo exo!!! i don’t even know where to begin. this is gonna be such a cliche letter but i’m past caring because i’m so in love ok so here goes :))
i have been here for a very short time, i only began to get in to kpop in like october but i was putting off getting in to you all because i knew you were going to ruin my entire life. then i gave in, then it just spiralled and now i am a deluded exo stan and it’s wonderful.
i saw kai first, he was on a gifset which came up on tumblr and i was really intrigued because he looked so cute so i reblogged it and said “who is this kid???” i got told his name was kai, that’s all so i forgot about him.
then then mama awards came, and i saw people blogging about you saying how you all really deserved the awards you were given and i recognised kai, i was like “oh god it’s that kid again!!!”; the fact that you had came back in to my life so incidentally i said to myself “this is a sign you have to find out who these people are” so i looked you up on wikipedia and read all about you all. when looking through all the members. i watched showtime, your interviews, i even stayed up stressing out over who’s names i could remember.
your music videos are so breathtaking to watch, the sharpness of your moves and the singing and rapping create something so wonderful and i really wish everyone can see it. i wish people can see you as amazing artists and take interest instead of shoving you away because you’re ‘some weird kpop group’.
before i fell for you all, i was kind of down. school was bad, home was bad, but your shows and your songs and your entire beings made me so happy. you made me see everything different, you have introduced me to a fantastic pop culture, you have made me laugh and smile and cry countless times. everything you did just made me feel happier. thank you so much for that.
i know it’s been hard, and i know i wasn’t there when you needed the comfort over what happened with luhan and kris. but i’m here now and i am here to stay, when you’re upset we will help you and make you smile. they have moved on and are doing amazing things and so have you. there’s so much more to come. as chanyeol says in el dorado: no pain no gain!!!
now. sehun. i love you. as soon as i saw your face i was drawn to you. i was attracted to you instantly because i’ve never seen someone in my life who looked like you. i was constantly looking out for you in showtime, and i fell in love so much more. your whole aura is so mysterious, you can either be really serious and have the most majestic bitch face i’ve ever seen, or you’re a lovely little ball of fluff. there’s no inbetween for you. your dancing is on another level, it’s full of so much determination and effort, they ooze so much confidence. your solo stages put me in awe.
you’re constantly striving for something better, trying to be a better person both in talent and personality and that is everything i want to be. i want to be able to have that much motivation. and with the help of you, i can. i’ve gotten so much more self confidence just by knowing that if you were standing beside me when i felt like i was going to pass out in fear, you would be patting me on the back and telling me that i was going to be ok, that i was going to do well. i have no idea what i would do without you, sehun. i have no fucking idea. you’re my sun and my moon and my stars and my entire galaxy. without knowing that you are living and breathing doing some of the greatest things i don’t even think i would get myself out of bed in the morning. i love you a million times over, please don’t ever forget that, i know i won’t forget what you have done for me.
what drives me every single day is knowing that one day i will stand with my wonderful little family in the silver ocean singing your songs with you. knowing that one day i could possibly tell you all of this is what gets me up every day. i will finish school and meet you in the future with grades you’ll be proud of. if i can promise you one thing, it’s that i am always going to be here. i will always stand by you and cheer you; that’s what friends do, that’s what family do! so, to my beautiful and beloved sehun, chanyeol, kai, tao, lay, chen, baekhyun, suho, kyungsoo and xiumin, i love you and i will for a long time. thank you so much for everything you do, thank you for giving me a place to call home.
