I guess I had some type of a break through the other day.
Throughout my life I always enjoyed learning. I was the kid who spent all my free time reading science journals and poetry and unraveled the world of math at a young age. Meaning I've always been a head of everyone else except I had one major flaw. I despised being forced to do something, especially if I hated it. From that my grades weren't the best and I would never go to school.
Someone's intellect shouldn't be based off of what the result of them hating is. It should be what they become from doing what they love.
So, for the past week I sat home and made a mental list of people who I would have to "dumb down", in a sense, to converse with, use no facts at all in a response t questions that have been asked, believe they are better then me (not saying I'm perfect but this applies to friends who've been spoiled and bases who they are based off of what they have seen to be popular on the internet), or have no use in my life. I have enough drama in my life and I do not need any more.
Since then, my life-long depression has cleared up a tad, anxiety has plummeted, and life in general has gotten so much better. I even wake up with a smile for once every now and then.
Yes what I'm doing is "mean" but you know what? I'm beyond done being nice and would rather be an asshole with very few friends then a shallow tool with hundreds.
