#hersupermagicsmile

[scalpelsuperstar]

@hersupermagicsmile

     it had been on callie’s mind for months already. not the sexuality thoughts, rather the thoughts of telling someone - and arizona in particular. ever since she’d learned that the blonde was openly gay a part of her had been drawn to form a friendship with her. not that she wouldn’t have been friends with arizona if she was straight, but that extra little tug helped her to know that she was safe from losing any sort of relationship she built with the blonde if she ever came out to her. she’d dreamed about coming out to arizona for so long. they’d been alone only a few times; like twice when they rode together to attend events for school. numerous times she could have let the words slip through her lips in arizona’s car but... they just never came up. but today? today was the day she was gonna do it. amidst their whole day spent together, alone - a rare opportunity as teenagers. while marathoning whatever tv series that was she pretend to be incredibly interested in to get to spend time with her friend, she was going to say it. she just needed to get those words out and have someone that she could be GAY with. that she could talk to about girls and all those things and to help her through this difficult phase in her life. it didn’t matter to her a bit that the other girl was in a relationship. that wasn’t what callie was here for. all she wanted was to confide in a friend her deepest secret where she knew she would be safe. and while if she was asked out she would certainly consider it, she wasn’t exactly into the idea of dating. 

[seriouslytorres]

          “I’m not —— I don’t really know what that means,  arizona.  what don’t you want?”   she felt her heart pick up its speed in her chest,  much like it always did whenever she was around the other woman.  @hersupermagicsmile  |  cont. from x

[proudbrother]

ARIZONA ( @hersupermagicsmile )

     “how many times do i have to tell you to keep out of my room! i don’t care if you needed a note card or a pencil or whatever the hell... just don’t go in there!”

[lostkiids]

     “ are you busy? they’re showing finding dory on t.v. tonight and i was thinking maybe you could come over and we’d watch it together? ”

              @hersupermagicsmile     s.c.

[ofheartbeat]

@hersupermagicsmile continued from [x]

     the tears, they just started streaming down the little girls face. she still really didn’t understand things, but she understood them much better than that night she vaguely remembered anymore when arizona had come to see her while she & callie were staying at meredith’s. the small memory only popped into her head because of those words, you’re my girl & once those hit she couldn’t stop crying. she didn’t understand why things couldn’t go back to how they used to be. why she couldn’t have both her moms at the same time just the way most of the other children she knew her age got to live with both their parents. “why can’t i stay mommy? i want to stay with you.”

[girlinthebcr-blog]

{ @hersupermagicsmile is on c a l l }

{Ⓖ} “I am not d e p r e s s e d. Arizona, let me be perfectly clear: I am n o t depressed. I don’t need therapy, or counseling. I am f i n e. Please, just d r o p it.”

[scalpelsuperstar]

@hersupermagicsmile continued from [x]

[ sms  ↹ calliope torres ] i know i said you could stay here until you found a place but, i can’t sleep with the living room tv excessively loud like that.

[ sms  ↹ arizona robbins ↹ 11:52pm ] sorry, i’m sorry [ sms  ↹ arizona robbins ↹ 11:53pm ] okay i turned it down. can you still here it?

[scalpelsuperstar]

ARIZONA ROBBINS ( @hersupermagicsmile )

     this could not have been a more emotional day for the ortho surgeon. arizona showing back up from africa for HER & finding out she was pregnant with mark’s baby. it was just so much & trying to juggle the two was incredibly difficult. she just couldn’t wait to get home & hopefully forget about things for a little while. arizona would have some place to stay, right? a hotel room or something. she just couldn’t bare to see her right now. all the old emotions came running back & then the guilt set in. no. she was not going to feel guilty about this baby. so why did arizona have to go & trap her in the elevator, force her to talk. fine, if that’s what she wanted - to talk - then that’s what she would give her. all those things arizona was saying. the way the blonde made her feel so wanted that was the least she could do. & then that forgiveness stuff. that just fade her melt. arizona scolding her for not being able to forgive. if only she knew. & then love. it was like arizona knew exactly what to say to get to her.  stay calm callie. she grounded herself & looked right into the blonde’s eyes.

               “you want another chance?”