Jan 21
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it's been a while since i've logged in. a lot of things thing happened. mostly good & a little bad towards but the end of the year but it's okay i'll start a new journey in 2026. i'm back to reading more fanfics!
ahh, worked half day on christmas. it's okay, extra money! and since i don't really have anything to do at home. might as well work right? zz then slept like a log after work. feels great.
tempted to quit my job and go back to the US for 6 months.. but after that 6 months. i have to find a new job... and i hate going through interviews &&& thats one of the reason why i stay in one job for a long time. hhhhh decisions...
bruh i am finally taking driving classes next month, hope i pass my driving tests this time. the last time i failed once at driving and i stopped immediately bc i have like this fear of failing at things again so i stopped going and never to talk about it ever again. but now, i really need a car just to drive myself to work everyday.
my younger siblings are so lucky that my mom isn't strict with them as she was with me back then. i can't even watch tv durings school days, she would plug out the whole internet wiring thing and brought it to work with her. hm.. & her parasite boyfriend is living in our house without even paying the bills. sure he helped with the groceries but my mom has to pay him back and he stays here for free! lol!
my mom is being way too lenient towards my younger siblings now. they can get away with literally anything. tbh yes im being bitter over it. back then little mistakes became big one, the whole house turns upside down, just because i forgot to cook rice. i did the house chores when i was their age and still got called lazy and fat shamed me. my brother? people will have to tell him to do things or else he won't help, or automatically do things! my mom praised him when he did the laundry ONCE a month. fucking hell.
sold my old nintendo switch to my stepdad so he can give his step-son (i think his third wife's kid) a present for his birthday next week. my brother told me that he was surveying around town for it because his step son wanted it but it was quite expensive, like double the price compared to my place here, so i thought of selling it to him since i'm playing on oled now and the other just on the shelf collecting dust. why not right lol. ngl i kinda feel, a little bit upset? mostly bitter over it because decades ago when my mom and him were together, i asked him for a nintendo ds for my birthday and he said that i am not worth his money spending it away like that. haha it hurt me a lot and since then it was one of the reasons i don't see him as my dad anymore. & when his step son something, he got it immediately. haha idk, im nothing to him anymore neways so.
dont mind my mini rant, i needed to get something off my chest on somewhere because i burst into tears thinking about it. hahahaahah
c'mon i need to pay my bills. i am desperate