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It was nice when it lasted. I was really really excited about everything Tom. Now the magic’s gone. We can still be friends Tom lol
Well, the excitement is gone in a way... but the affection stayed and in a way that is scary. :/
I don't get this nervous thrill anymore, whenever I see new pictures or anything. I know what he looks like, I know that he can act. I don't get surprised by every new appearance. A lot of it is just like seeing... yes maybe an old friend. "Hi Tom. Nice to see you again." Yet, when something touches me, which doesn't even have to be new. It's more like getting hit by a club from time to time. It doesn't happen always, but when it does it shakes me to the bone. :/
I'd love to have the excitement for something new again, but there hasn't been anything or anyone in a long time. xD
I usually get bored pretty easily and change through affections on a weekly or monthly basis. Tom just doesn't leave any space for anyone else though. Four years and he's still bound to stay. That bastard. I tried to kick him out and replace him, but it simply doesn't work. - I have a great and huge imagination. Leave some space for others! And not just other versions of you!!!!!!
