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You knew before he said anything.
The way Joe stood in the kitchen, gym bag by the door, keys already in his hand—it wasn't the careful movements of someone still healing. It was the contained energy of someone ready to get back to work.
"They cleared you," you said.
It wasn't a question. You already knew.
He turned, and there it was in his eyes—that determination that used to make you feel safe and now made your stomach drop.
"Yeah," he said simply. "I'll be active for Sunday."
The casual way he said it—like it wasn't roughly six weeks post-surgery, like the doctors hadn't said twelve weeks minimum, like your world hadn't tilted sideways—made something cold settle in your chest.
"Six weeks, Joe." Your voice came out steadier than you felt. "They said twelve."
"That was a minimum timeline." He set his keys down but didn't move closer. "Everyone heals differently. I've been working my ass off—"
"I know you have—"
"—doing everything they've asked. Extra sessions, every protocol." His jaw tightened slightly. "The doctors wouldn't have cleared me if I wasn't ready."
He wasn't wrong about the work. You'd watched him grind through recovery like it was a opponent he could out-prepare. Early mornings at the facility, extra PT sessions, meticulous attention to every exercise and restriction. He'd done everything right.
But six weeks wasn't twelve weeks, no matter how hard he'd worked.
"It's only been six weeks," you said again.
"And I'm ahead of schedule." There was an edge to his voice now. "That's what happens when you actually do the work."
"You look good. I know you do." You tried to keep your voice level. "But that doesn't mean—"
"What?" He cut you off, frustration bleeding through his usual control. "What doesn't it mean? I'm moving well, the doctors are happy with my progress, I'm not in pain—"
"It's been six weeks—"
"You keep saying that like it's some magic number." Joe ran a hand through his hair. "Bodies don't heal on a fixed timeline. Mine is healing faster."
"Or the team is pushing you back faster."
His expression went cold. "That's not what's happening."
"How do you know?" You took a step toward him. "The team is losing without you. You really think there's no pressure on the medical staff to get the franchise quarterback back on the field?"
"That's not how it works."
"Isn't it?" Your voice rose slightly. "They're employees, Joe. Just like you. And their jobs depend on winning games."
He went quiet. You'd hit something true and you both knew it.
"I trust them to do their jobs," he said finally, voice low.
"Even when their jobs depend on getting you back out there?"
Silence stretched between you. Joe's jaw worked like he was trying to find an argument that would land, but couldn't.
"I don't doubt that you've worked hard," you said, softer now. "I don't doubt that you look ready. But Grade 3 tears don't care how many extra PT sessions you do. They don't care that the team needs you. They heal on their own timeline."
"So what do you want me to do?" His voice had an edge you rarely heard. "Keep sitting? Wait the full twelve weeks even though I'm ready now?"
"I want you to be sure. Not just cleared. Actually sure."
"I am sure."
"I'm not."
The words hung in the air between you, honest and raw.
Joe's expression shifted—something between frustration and hurt. "This is my career. My body. My choice."
"I know." Your throat felt tight. "And I can't stop you. I'm just asking you if you can wait four more days."
"Why?" He finally moved closer. "What's four days going to prove?"
"Maybe nothing." You met his eyes. "But if something goes wrong on Sunday and you could've prevented it with four more days..."
You didn't finish.
Joe stared at you for a long moment. Then he sank onto the couch, elbows on his knees, hands clasped.
"Four days," he said finally. "Thanksgiving."
"Thanksgiving."
The agreement should have felt like relief. It just felt like postponing the inevitable.
Neither of you moved. The silence felt heavy with everything still unsaid.
Then Joe reached for your hand. Pulled you closer until you were standing between his knees.
"I hate that you're scared," he said quietly, looking up at you.
"I hate that I can't stop being scared."
His hands settled on your hips. Solid. Grounding.
"I know you think I'm not listening. Or that I don't care what you think." His voice was lower now, stripped of the earlier defensiveness. "But I do. It matters."
Your throat tightened. "Joe—"
"You matter," he continued. "What you think, what you feel—it matters to me."
You hadn't realized how badly you needed to hear that until the words landed.
"I know I'm asking you to trust something you don't trust. I know that's not fair." His thumbs brushed against your hips, an absent, soothing gesture. "But I need you to know—I'm not being careless. I'm not being stupid. I've worked my ass off to get back, and I wouldn't go out there if I didn't believe I was ready."
"I know you believe that," you whispered.
"And I need you to believe that I hear you. That I'm waiting those four days because what you're feeling matters more to me than proving something on Sunday."
He pulled you down onto his lap, and you went, tucking yourself against his chest. His arms came around you immediately, solid and sure.
"I love you," he said quietly, into your hair. "You know that, right?"
You nodded against his shoulder.
"I need you to say it."
You pulled back enough to look at him. "I know you love me."
"And I need you to know that you're not invisible in this. You're not just... background noise while I make decisions." His hand came up to cup your face, thumb brushing your cheekbone. "You're the person I come home to. The person I want to call after games. The person whose opinion actually fucking matters to me."
Your eyes burned. Joe didn't talk like this often. Didn't lay himself bare emotionally unless it really counted.
"I just don't want to watch you get hurt," you said.
"I know. And I can't promise that won't happen." His forehead pressed against yours. "But I can promise I'm being as smart about this as I know how to be."
He was quiet for a moment, then: "Four more days. And when I go back out there, I need you to trust that I did everything I could to be ready. Can you do that?"
You thought about it. Really thought about it.
"Yeah," you said finally. "I can do that."
It wasn't a lie. You could trust that he believed he was ready. That he'd worked for it. That he wasn't being reckless on purpose.
You just couldn't trust that it was enough.
But sometimes love meant trusting the person even when you didn't trust the situation.
Joe kissed you—soft, lingering, like he was sealing a promise.
When he pulled back, his hands were still framing your face. "We're okay?"
"We're okay."
"Even though you think I'm being stubborn?"
"Even though I know you're being stubborn."
That got a huff of laughter from him. His arms tightened around you.
"I worry too, you know," he said quietly.
"About what?"
"That I'm asking too much. That you'll get tired of this—the schedule, the injuries, the pressure. That one day you'll decide it's not worth it."
You pulled back to look at him properly. "Joe—"
"I know what I'm asking you to sign up for. And I know it's not easy." His voice dropped lower. "So when you push back, when you worry—it's not annoying. It's not you being dramatic. It's you giving a shit. And that matters to me more than you know."
"I'm not going anywhere," you said firmly.
"Promise?"
"Promise."
He kissed you again. Slower this time. Less about reassurance and more about connection.
When you broke apart, you stayed curled in his lap, his arms around you, your head tucked under his chin.
Four days wouldn't fix your fear. Wouldn't make the timeline longer or the clearance more trustworthy. Wouldn't change the fact that Grade 3 turf toe injuries didn't care how hard you worked.
But Joe had heard you. Had chosen to wait not because he doubted himself, but because your fear mattered to him. Because you mattered to him.
He'd said it plainly, the way he said everything important: you weren't background noise. Your worry wasn't a burden. It was proof that you cared, and he valued that.
You still didn't trust the clearance. Still thought six weeks was too soon. Still knew you'd hold your breath every time he dropped back in the pocket once he returned.
But you trusted him. Trusted that he wasn't being careless. Trusted that he'd heard you even if he couldn't give you what you really wanted—which was for him to wait the full twelve weeks, or better yet, not play football at all.
That was the thing about loving Joe Burrow: you didn't get to protect him from the thing that made him who he was. You just had to trust that he valued you enough to be as careful as his nature allowed.
Four more days. Then Thanksgiving. Then you'd watch him go back out there and hope that everyone who'd cleared him was right.
And even if they weren't—even if your fear proved justified—at least he'd know you'd been there. Worrying. Caring. Loving him enough to fight for four more days.
That would have to be enough.
You stayed like that as the afternoon light faded—you in his lap, his arms secure around you, the melted ice pack forgotten on the coffee table.
Outside, Sunday was four days away. Thanksgiving was eight. The season stretched ahead with all its uncertainty and risk.
But right now, in this moment, you had each other.
And sometimes that was the only sure thing either of you could hold onto.
Reader Request: Reader has been working for the bengals since Joe got drafted. She can be a social media admin, public relations liaison or even a physical therapist. She’s been in love with him but it is unrequited while he was with Olivia and when they break up she thought that she had a chance but he starts seeing the influencer but please make it a happy ending. Angst as fuck but happy ending. I want to see this girl yearning for fucking years before she gets him and I want him to realize that she is the love of his life.
Pairing: Joe Burrow x Reader
Word Count: 20k
Requested: No | Yes
Warnings: Slow burn, unrequited love, emotional repression, late-night work sessions, professional boundaries being pushed to their limit, that sick feeling when you realize he’s seeing someone else, and the kind of yearning that makes you spiral in your group chat. No resolution yet, just a lot of tension, timing issues, and feelings no one wants to name.
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Author's Note: So here’s Part One. I’m hoping this will be a two-parter, but let’s be real, I’m long-winded so we’ll see. My goal with this section was to really sit in the unrequited part. The slow burn. The quiet ache. The years of showing up, holding back, staying professional, and still falling deeper anyway. The almosts. The not-quites. The timing that never seemed to line up.
I’m also a little nervous because this is my first request and I really hope I got it right. Fingers crossed it hits the way it’s supposed to.
If you’re here for the angst, the emotional spiral, the girl who’s been in love with him for years while pretending it’s fine, this part’s for you. The heartbreak isn’t over yet, but the foundation is laid.
* * *
July 2020 - Cincinnati Bengals Training Facility
The media room buzzed with activity, camera equipment being assembled, lighting adjusted, and PR staff running through talking points. First overall draft pick. Heisman Trophy winner. The savior of Cincinnati football. The narrative had been constructed well before Joe Burrow ever set foot in the building.
Y/N Y/L/N checked her camera settings for the third time, methodically working through her mental checklist. First official shoot as a Bengals staff member, and they'd assigned her to the franchise quarterback. No pressure.
Her phone vibrated against the table. Three texts in a row from the sibling group chat that hadn't stopped since she'd landed the job two weeks ago.
Matt: Don't drop the camera when you see him
Aaron: Ask him if he'll sign my jersey
Lucas: Remind him that the Y/L/N family has survived a lot of bad quarterbacks
Y/N rolled her eyes but couldn't help smiling as she typed back a quick response.
Y/N: I'm a PROFESSIONAL. Unlike some people I know.
Lucas: I’m professionally jealous that you're breathing the same air as our franchise savior
Growing up with three football-obsessed brothers in Louisville had prepared her for this world in ways her master's degree in sports management never could. She'd spent her childhood being dragged into backyard games, learning to throw a perfect spiral out of self-defense, and developing an encyclopedic knowledge of plays and statistics just to hold her own at the dinner table.
"He's on his way down," announced Kayla from PR, clipboard pressed against her chest.
"Everyone ready?"
Y/N nodded, adjusting her Bengals polo, still crisp and new against her skin, and straightened her posture. The room settled into expectant silence, cameras at the ready, the culmination of months of draft speculation about to materialize in the doorway.
When Joe Burrow entered, there was none of the fanfare his status might have suggested. He walked in with a quiet confidence that seemed to belong to someone much older than twenty-three. Dressed in Bengals gear that still looked just slightly unfamiliar on him, he surveyed the room with calm, observant eyes. His expression remained neutral, but there was something assessing in his gaze, taking in details and remembering faces.
"Good morning everyone," he said, nodding to the room.
Y/N watched through her viewfinder as PR staff introduced themselves, directing him to his mark for the initial photoshoot. She captured his handshakes, his nods, the way he listened carefully to instructions. Professional, focused, but with none of the arrogance that often accompanied first-round quarterbacks.
"We'll start with some standard shots," Kayla explained. "Then move to action poses with the ball."
As if on cue, an assistant hurried forward with a football, but in his eagerness, he fumbled the toss. The ball spiraled awkwardly through the air on a collision course with an expensive light setup.
Without thinking, Y/N stepped forward from behind her camera, catching the ball one-handed before it could cause any damage. The leather felt familiar against her fingers, a muscle memory from countless backyard games. She transferred the ball to her right hand in one fluid motion and sent a perfect spiral directly to Burrow.
He caught it easily, but his eyebrows lifted slightly, and that subtle Joe Burrow expression of being impressed without overstating it. The hint of a smile played at the corner of his mouth.
"Nice hands," he commented.
Heat rushed to Y/N's cheeks, but her voice remained steady. "Growing up with three brothers," she explained, already retreating to her camera. "You either learn to catch or get hit in the face a lot."
Something flickered in his eyes, recognition, maybe, of someone who understood the language of the game beyond the surface. He spun the ball in his hands, considering her for a moment longer than necessary before turning his attention back to the waiting PR team.
As the photoshoot continued, Y/N fell into the rhythm of her work, directing Joe through various poses with professional efficiency. However, something had shifted in their interactions, and a natural ease was developing between them. He responded to her cues without question, seeming to trust her judgment on angles and lighting in a way that surprised the more veteran staff.
"Can we get a few looking directly into the camera?" Y/N requested, adjusting her position.
Joe locked eyes with her through the lens, his gaze steady and unreadable. For a brief moment, it felt like everything else in the room had faded away, leaving just her, him, and the camera between them. Y/N swallowed hard, maintaining her composure as she captured the shot.
"Perfect," she said, her professional mask firmly in place. "Now just a slight smile, nothing forced."
The corner of his mouth lifted genuinely this time. Not the media smile he'd been giving the other cameras, but something quieter. Something real.
Click.
Later that evening, as Y/N sorted through the day’s photos from her new cubicle, she paused on the last shot. There was something in his expression she hadn’t noticed before. Focused, almost curious, like he wasn’t just looking at the camera but through it. Not vacant. Not posed. Just present.
She quickly moved to the next image, ignoring the flutter in her stomach. This was Joe Burrow, the franchise quarterback. She was just the newest media team member and was lucky to land a job during a pandemic. Whatever she thought she saw in that photograph was professional respect at best, her imagination at worst.
Her phone buzzed again.
Lucas: So... did you embarrass us or what?
Y/N glanced back at the photo on her screen, at those steady eyes looking directly into her camera, and smiled to herself.
Y/N: I was the picture of professionalism. Just caught a rogue football one-handed, saved thousands of dollars in equipment, and threw a perfect spiral to Joe Burrow. No biggie.
The response was immediate, all three brothers texting simultaneously:
Matt: WHAT
Aaron: YOU THREW A PASS TO JOE BURROW
Lucas: WE'RE GOING TO NEED DETAILS. ALL OF THEM. NOW.
Y/N laughed, setting her phone aside without responding. Let them stew in their jealousy for a while.
She returned to the images, continuing to sort through them with methodical precision, telling herself that this was just the first day of many, that Joe Burrow was just another player she'd be working with, and that the way he'd looked at her through the camera meant nothing.
But as she exported the final selections, she couldn't help saving that one particular shot to her personal folder. Joe looking directly into her lens, that hint of a genuine smile, eyes alive with something that might have been curiosity.
* * *
The COVID Protocol Meeting
August 2020 - Virtual Team Meeting
“And that’s the revised media protocol for the season,” Kayla concluded, her face serious in the Zoom window. “Limited in-person access, virtual press conferences, and strict distancing during the interviews we do conduct face-to-face.”
Y/N scribbled notes, mentally calculating how these restrictions would affect their ability to connect fans with the team. Everything would be more distant, more sanitized. The exact opposite of what made sports culture thrive.
“We need to address the fan engagement problem,” the director of media relations added. “No fans in the stadium means we’re losing that community connection that’s central to the Bengals experience.”
Y/N hesitated, then unmuted herself. “I have some ideas, if you’re open to them.”
Several of the veteran staff members exchanged glances, the new hire speaking up so soon. But Kayla nodded encouragingly.
“Go ahead, Y/N.”
“First, what if we did cardboard cutouts in the stands? Fans could purchase their photos to be placed in the seats. It gives them a presence in the stadium, provides visibility during broadcasts, and could generate revenue we could direct toward COVID relief efforts in Cincinnati.”
The director nodded slowly, making notes.
“Second,” Y/N continued, her confidence building, “I know the team is planning the march to the National Underground Railroad Freedom Center and the $250,000 pledge to community programs. We could create a digital content series highlighting the social justice initiatives. In-depth interviews, behind-the-scenes footage, educational components. It’s meaningful content that connects to what’s happening beyond football.”
“And third, we need to replace in-person interactions with virtual ones. Q&A sessions with players, live-streamed limited-access practices, interactive social media challenges. The fans need to feel part of the Bengals community even when they can’t physically be here.”
When she finished, there was a moment of silence before the director spoke.
“These are solid, Y/N. Particularly the social justice series.” He looked around the virtual room. “Let’s form working groups to develop each of these. Y/N, I want you on the social justice content team, coordinating with player involvement.”
After the meeting ended, Y/N’s phone pinged with a direct message from Kayla.
Impressive first strategy meeting. The rookie quarterback is participating in the Freedom Center march. Since you’ll be handling content for that initiative, I’m making you the point person for his involvement. Virtual introduction tomorrow at 10.
Y/N stared at the message, excitement and anxiety wrestling in her stomach. Three weeks into the job, and she was already working directly with the franchise quarterback on a project that actually mattered.
* * *
August 2020 - Virtual Meeting
Y/N logged into the Zoom call five minutes early, double-checking her presentation on the Bengals’ planned social justice initiatives. She’d spent half the night researching the National Underground Railroad Freedom Center and preparing thoughtful questions about what aspects of the initiative Joe might connect with most.
At exactly 10:00, a new window appeared in the meeting. Joe Burrow sat in what looked like a home office, wearing a plain gray t-shirt, his expression attentive but neutral.
“Good morning,” Y/N began, professional despite her nerves. “I’m Y/N Y/L/N from the media team.”
“The one with the good arm,” Joe replied, that hint of recognition in his eyes. “Kayla mentioned you’re heading up content for the social justice initiative.”
Y/N nodded, momentarily caught off guard that he remembered her. “That’s right. We’re developing a content series around the team’s commitments, particularly the Freedom Center march and community programs.”
She shared her screen, outlining the proposed series – player perspectives on social justice, educational components about Cincinnati’s history with the Underground Railroad, and documentation of the team’s ongoing involvement in community programs.
“We want this to be authentic, not performative,” Y/N explained, watching Joe’s reactions carefully. “So I wanted to talk with you directly about what aspects of this initiative matter most to you personally.”
Joe leaned forward slightly, his expression shifting from polite attention to genuine engagement.
“I appreciate that approach,” he said. “A lot of teams are putting out statements, but how many are actually listening to the communities they claim to support?” He paused, considering. “My platform comes with responsibility. I want to use it to amplify voices that don’t get the same audience I do automatically.”
Y/N found herself nodding, impressed by his thoughtfulness. This wasn’t a PR-trained response; this was someone who had clearly been reflecting on his position and influence.
“What if we structured part of the series that way?” she suggested. “Instead of just documenting the team’s involvement, we could use player platforms to highlight community organizers and local leaders who’ve been doing this work for years.”
Something changed in Joe’s expression – a spark of interest, a subtle shift as he reassessed her.
“That’s exactly the right approach,” he said. “I’d be on board for that. Actually…” he hesitated, then seemed to make a decision. “I’ve been having conversations with some of the veteran players about organizing additional player-driven initiatives beyond what the team has planned. Would that be something you could help develop content around?”
Joe Burrow was a rookie, sure, but already, he was stepping into leadership. And now, somehow, he was bringing her into it.
He looked right at her this time, more serious than before.
“I might be a rookie, but I want to help create the right culture here.”
Y/N tried not to show her surprise. Joe Burrow, rookie quarterback, was already taking leadership on social initiatives and was bringing her into the conversation.
“Absolutely,” she assured him. “Whatever you guys decide to do, I can make sure it’s documented thoughtfully. Just keep me in the loop.”
Joe nodded, seeming satisfied. “Will do. Send me the schedule for the Freedom Center content when you have it. And Y/N?”
“Yea?”
“I meant what I said about amplifying other voices. That includes inside the organization. If you have ideas, bring them directly to me. I might be a rookie, but I want to help create the right culture here.”
After the call ended, Y/N sat back in her chair, processing. Joe Burrow wasn’t just another entitled athlete performing social consciousness for the cameras. There was a genuine commitment there, a willingness to listen and learn.
Her phone buzzed with a text from Lucas.
Lucas: How’s life shaping the Bengals’ social media empire?
Y/N smiled to herself.
Y/N: Just had a meeting with Burrow about the social justice initiatives. He’s actually… impressive. Not what I expected.
Lucas: Damn, they’ve got you working directly with QB1 already? Moving up fast, sis.
She didn’t respond, still thinking about Joe’s parting words. Bring ideas directly to me. It was an unusual level of accessibility from the franchise quarterback, especially to someone so new.
Y/N opened her laptop and began outlining additional concepts for the social justice series, feeling for the first time like she might be building something meaningful in this role and finding an unexpected ally in Joe Burrow.
* * *
September 2020 - Cincinnati
The morning of the team’s march to the National Underground Railroad Freedom Center dawned clear and crisp. Y/N arrived early, coordinating with the small camera crew allowed under COVID protocols. She had two jobs today: document the event and support Joe’s involvement.
Players and staff gathered in small, distanced groups, many wearing masks with “END RACISM” printed across them. Y/N moved among them with her camera, capturing candid moments of conversation and preparation.
She spotted Joe standing slightly apart, reviewing what looked like notes on his phone. Approaching cautiously, she asked, “Everything good for today?”
He looked up, recognition crossing his features. “Y/N. Yeah, just reviewing some history on the Freedom Center. Figured I should be informed if they ask me questions.”
Something about his diligence touched her. Many players showed up for PR events with minimal preparation, but here was Joe Burrow, studying historical context before a march.
“The content team put together some background materials,” Y/N offered. “I can send them to you.”
“That would be helpful,” he nodded. “I want to get this right.”
As they began walking toward the starting point, Joe asked, “You’re from Kentucky, right? Louisville?”
Y/N looked at him in surprise. “Yeah. How did you remember that?”
A slight shrug. “You mentioned your brothers when we talked about the social justice series. Said they grew up playing football in Louisville.”
Before she could respond, they reached the gathering point, and Joe was pulled into a conversation with veteran players. Y/N stepped back into her professional role, camera ready, but she couldn’t help reflecting on Joe’s unexpected recall of personal details she’d mentioned only in passing.
The march itself was powerful, players, coaches, and staff walking together toward the Freedom Center, a physical demonstration of commitment to addressing racial injustice. Y/N documented it all, but found her lens repeatedly drawn to Joe. Despite being a rookie, he walked with purpose, engaged in serious conversations with teammates and staff.
At the Freedom Center, the team gathered for a group photograph and brief remarks. Y/N positioned herself to capture reactions, smiling slightly when Joe adjusted his stance to be more visible in her frame. She didn’t think he even realized it yet, but he was already learning how to work with the camera and with her.
As the formal portion concluded, Y/N was reviewing footage when Joe approached, now carrying a Freedom Center brochure.
“Did you get what you needed?” he asked, nodding toward her camera.
“Plenty of good material,” she confirmed. “Thanks for being so aware of the documentation needs.”
“That’s your job, right? Making us look good,” he said, that ghost of a smile appearing briefly.
“Making you look authentic,” Y/N corrected. “There’s a difference.”
Joe considered this, then nodded in apparent approval. “You planning to go through the exhibits while you’re here?”
“I want to, but I need to get this footage back for initial editing.”
Joe glanced at the brochure in his hand. “I’m going to take a look around. Part of the point was to learn, not just be seen here.” He hesitated, then added, “Let me know what you think of the final content package. I’d like to see how this whole initiative comes together.”
“Will do,” Y/N promised, trying not to read too much into his interest in her work.
As Joe walked away toward the museum entrance, Y/N’s phone vibrated with a text.
Matt: Saw coverage of the march on ESPN. Did you meet any of the players?
Y/N smiled to herself, thinking of Joe reviewing historical notes and asking for her feedback on the content.
Y/N: Working directly with several of them on this project. They’re taking it seriously. More than just a PR move.
She tucked her phone away and packed up her equipment, reflecting on how the Joe Burrow she was getting to know differed from both the media portrayal and her own initial expectations. There was a thoughtfulness to him, an attention to detail that extended beyond football.
Y/N glanced toward the museum entrance where Joe had disappeared. The flutter in her stomach when he’d remembered details about her family, the way her pulse had quickened when he’d approached her earlier, these weren’t just professional responses to a colleague.
Oh no, she thought, the realization dawning with uncomfortable clarity. She was developing a crush on Joe Burrow. The franchise quarterback. Her literal job assignment.
Y/N forced herself to turn away, focusing intently on packing her equipment. This was exactly the kind of complication she couldn’t afford in her first real career position. She was here to document the Joe Burrow era, not catch feelings in the middle of it.
But as she headed back to the media van, she couldn’t quite shake the image of Joe studying historical notes before the march, his quiet determination to get things right. Or the way his eyes had met hers when he’d asked about her Kentucky roots, attentive and genuinely interested.
Professional boundaries, she reminded herself firmly. Just doing my job.
Even as she thought it, Y/N knew she was already in trouble.
* * *
October 2020 - Paul Brown Stadium
“This is surreal,” Y/N murmured, walking between rows of cardboard cutouts staring blankly from the stands. Her idea had turned into rows of life-sized fan cutouts, filling the empty seats with frozen smiles and silent support.
She snapped photos for social media, occasionally recognizing faces of season ticket holders who had submitted their images. The empty stadium echoed with the sounds of her footsteps and the occasional distant voice of facilities staff.
“Quite the crowd you’ve assembled.”
Y/N turned to find Joe Burrow standing a few yards away, hands in the pockets of his team-issued sweatpants. He wasn’t scheduled for any media today, and she hadn’t expected to see him.
“Tough audience though,” he added with that subtle lift at the corner of his mouth. “No matter how well I play, they never cheer.”
Y/N laughed despite herself. “But they never boo either. Built-in supportive fanbase.”
Joe moved closer, studying the cardboard faces. “This was your idea, right? Kayla mentioned it in a media briefing.”
“One of them,” Y/N confirmed, surprised he knew. “Part of our COVID adaptations.”
Joe nodded, walking slowly between the rows. “Creative solution. Kind of eerie, but better than completely empty stands.” He stopped at a particular cutout, an elderly man wearing what looked like decades-old Bengals gear. “Some of these go back generations of fandom.”
“The team means a lot to this city,” Y/N said, joining him. “Even when the seasons are rough.”
“Especially then,” Joe replied, his expression thoughtful. “Loyalty means more when it’s tested.”
They stood in oddly comfortable silence, surrounded by the two-dimensional crowd. Y/N was acutely aware that this was the first time they had been completely alone together, no cameras or meetings structuring their interaction.
“We’re setting up for a socially distanced filming session,” Y/N finally explained, gesturing to her camera. “Fan messages to play during the broadcast.”
Joe glanced at her equipment, then at the stands. “Need help?”
Y/N stared at him. “You’re volunteering to help set up a PR shoot?”
“I’ve got an hour before film study,” he shrugged. “Figured I’d see how the other side of this works. I’m usually the one being pointed at, not the one setting things up.”
Before Y/N could respond, her phone rang, Kayla from PR, probably wondering where she was with the setup.
“Go ahead,” Joe said, already picking up one of the lighting stands Y/N had brought. “I’ll start getting these positioned.”
The call was brief, Y/N confirming she was already at the stadium preparing. When she hung up, she found Joe had already assembled the lighting setup, positioned exactly where it needed to be.
“You’ve done this before,” she said, surprised.
He gave a small smile. “Enough times to know where the light should hit.”
As they continued setting up, Y/N was struck by how easily they worked together, a wordless efficiency developing as they prepared the filming area. Joe would anticipate what she needed next, handing her equipment before she asked or adjusting lighting as she checked camera angles.
“My brothers would never believe this,” Y/N muttered, almost to herself.
“What’s that?”
“The franchise quarterback doing setup work for a social media shoot,” she said, a little sheepish. “They think I spend my days chasing you around with a camera, not actually doing anything.”
Joe smiled, a real one this time, not just the hint of one. “Happy to help rewrite the narrative.”
He glanced back at the rows of cutouts. “What did they think about your idea, by the way? The cardboard fans?”
“They actually thought that was brilliant,” Y/N admitted. “They submitted their own photos. They’re around here somewhere.”
“Which ones?”
“Row 23, I think? Three guys who look suspiciously related to me, wearing vintage Boomer Esiason jerseys.”
Joe immediately changed direction, heading for Row 23. Y/N followed, amused by his curiosity. He stopped when he found them, three cardboard men in their early thirties, indeed wearing matching vintage jerseys, grinning widely at the camera.
“The Y/L/N brothers,” Joe observed, studying their faces. “I can see the resemblance.”
“God help me,” Y/N sighed.
Joe turned to her with unexpected seriousness. “You’re lucky. To have family that supports what you do like that.”
There was no bitterness in his voice, just a quiet sincerity that made Y/N pause. Before she could respond, the stadium doors opened and the rest of the media team arrived, ending their private conversation.
“Thanks for the help,” Y/N said quickly as Joe prepared to leave. “Unexpected but appreciated.”
He nodded, already shifting back into the more reserved demeanor he typically displayed around staff. “Good luck with the shoot.”
As he walked away, Y/N turned back to the cardboard crowd, her eyes lingering on her brothers’ frozen smiles. You’re lucky, Joe had said, with something like wistfulness in his voice. Another unexpected glimpse beneath the composed exterior of Joe Burrow, not just the focused quarterback or careful public figure, but someone who noticed family bonds and valued them.
And despite her best efforts, Y/N couldn’t ignore how her heart had raced when he had studied her brothers’ faces with such genuine interest, or the warm flush that had spread through her when they had worked side by side, moving with that easy, inexplicable synchronicity.
This is dangerous territory, she thought, forcing herself to focus on the technical aspects of the upcoming shoot. She was here to capture the Joe Burrow era on film, not fall for it firsthand. Developing feelings for Joe Burrow would be professionally reckless and personally painful, especially when he was already in a relationship. Olivia wasn’t a rumor or a tabloid story. She was his longtime girlfriend, dating back to Ohio State. They didn’t post much, but when they did, it was enough to remind everyone where things stood. Including Y/N.
Earlier, while organizing the cutouts by section, Y/N had paused at a familiar trio in the lower bowl. Joe’s parents. And Olivia. All smiling. All submitted together.
Y/N had kept moving, pretending it didn’t sting.
Now, standing among hundreds of cardboard faces and listening to her own heart speed up at the memory of working alongside him, she reminded herself again. This wasn’t a crush. This was a complication. One she couldn’t afford.
Later, reviewing footage from the fan message recordings, Y/N found an unexpected clip at the end of the day’s files. Joe had recorded a brief message directly to camera before leaving.
“To all the cardboard fans,” he said, that subtle humor evident in his eyes, “we hear your silent cheers. And to the real fans watching from home, we feel your very real support. Stay safe, and we’ll see you back in these stands as soon as possible.”
It was perfect content, genuine, thoughtful, with just enough warmth to feel personal without being overly sentimental. Y/N added it to the editing queue, knowing it would resonate with fans.
But as she worked late into the night on the final cut, she kept thinking about Joe among the cardboard crowd, noticing her brothers’ faces, helping with equipment no quarterback would typically touch. The Joe Burrow the public saw, composed, occasionally reserved, and the Joe Burrow who noticed details, who said you’re lucky with quiet sincerity.
Two versions of the same person, and Y/N was beginning to suspect she was one of the few people who got to see both.
* * *
Early November 2020 - Virtual Children's Hospital Visit
"You're on in five, four, three..." Y/N counted down silently with her fingers, giving Joe the cue to begin.
He smiled into the camera – that media-ready smile he'd perfected over the season, warm but controlled. "Hey everyone at Cincinnati Children's! Sorry I can't be there in person this year, but I wanted to say hello and answer some of your questions."
Y/N sat behind her laptop, coordinating the virtual visit while Joe interacted with children appearing on screen one at a time. Despite the technical constraints, he managed to make each conversation feel personal, giving children his full attention, answering their sometimes rambling questions with patience.
Between children, while the hospital staff set up the next patient, Joe glanced at Y/N for guidance.
"You're doing great," she mouthed, giving him a thumbs up. "Four more to go."
He nodded, taking a sip of water. This was their fifth virtual charity event together, and they'd developed an efficient shorthand. Y/N could read the subtle shifts in his expression that indicated when he needed a break or when technical issues were frustrating him. Joe, in turn, had learned to trust her direction, responding to her non-verbal cues without question.
The final child was a twelve-year-old boy recovering from surgery, wearing a handmade Burrow jersey over his hospital gown.
"My question is," the boy began shyly, "what are you doing for Thanksgiving since things are different with COVID?"
The question caught Joe off-guard, a flicker of something vulnerable crossing his face before his media composure returned.
"That's actually a great question," he replied. "Olivia and I are keeping it small at our place this year. She's from Ohio too, so we're staying local instead of seeing extended family. It's different, but we're making it work, just like you're making things work at the hospital."
Y/N kept her expression professionally neutral, even as something inside her deflated. Of course Joe had someone. Of course they lived together. Y/N had seen enough social media tags to know that Olivia was his long-term girlfriend from Ohio who'd supported him through his college career at LSU and his transition to the NFL.
The information wasn't new, she'd heard casual mentions of Olivia in conversations around the facility, but hearing Joe speak about her with such warmth and familiarity made their relationship suddenly more concrete.
After the call ended, Joe stretched in his chair. "Think that went okay?"
"It was great," Y/N assured him, busying herself with equipment breakdown so she wouldn't have to meet his eyes. "Those kids were thrilled."
"Thanks for coordinating all this," Joe said. "These virtual events could be awkward, but you make them run smoothly."
Y/N nodded, focusing on cable management with unnecessary precision. "Just doing my job."
"Still," Joe insisted, "it makes a difference having someone who..." he paused, searching for the right words, "gets it. Gets the balance between the PR stuff and what actually matters."
The sincerity in his voice made Y/N look up, against her better judgment. Joe was watching her with that quiet intensity that sometimes replaced his more guarded expression – the look that made it feel like he was really seeing her.
"Thanks," she managed, hating the flutter in her chest. "That means a lot."
An awkward silence stretched between them, until Joe cleared his throat. "So, uh, any plans for Thanksgiving? Going back to Louisville?"
"Can't this year," Y/N shook her head. "My oldest brother's wife is pregnant, so they're being extra cautious about COVID. We're doing a big Zoom call instead."
Joe nodded, understanding in his eyes. "That's tough. First holiday away from family?"
"Yeah," Y/N admitted, surprised by his perception. "It's weird, but it's just one year, right?"
Joe seemed about to say something else when his phone buzzed. He glanced at it, a genuine smile spreading across his face – the unguarded kind that Y/N rarely witnessed.
"Olivia's wondering when I'll be home," he explained, already standing and gathering his things. "I should get going."
"Of course," Y/N nodded, the professional mask firmly back in place. "Have a great rest of your day."
He hesitated for a beat at the door, like he was going to say something else. But then his phone buzzed again, and the moment passed.
She stayed seated after he left, letting the quiet settle in. It wasn’t like she hadn’t known about Olivia. But hearing him talk about her like home—that was harder than she expected.
* * *
November 22, 2020 – Paul Brown Stadium
Y/N stood frozen behind her camera as the Washington defensive lineman crashed into Joe’s planted leg. Even from her position on the sidelines, she could tell immediately that something was catastrophically wrong. The unnatural angle. The way Joe’s body crumpled.
For a terrible moment, the stadium fell silent.
Then everything accelerated into chaos. Medical staff rushing onto the field, players from both teams taking a knee, coaches huddled in urgent conversation. Y/N’s training kicked in, her hands steady on the camera despite the sick feeling in her stomach, documenting what no one wanted to see but everyone needed to remember: the moment that changed the trajectory of Joe Burrow’s rookie season.
Through her lens, she watched as players from both teams approached Joe before he was loaded onto the cart. Even from a distance, Y/N could see his face, pale with pain but somehow composed, nodding at his teammates as medical staff secured his leg.
The cart began its slow journey off the field, passing near where Y/N stood. She lowered her camera for just a moment, their eyes meeting briefly through the crowd of concerned staff. Y/N gave him a small nod, part acknowledgment, part encouragement. The corner of Joe’s mouth lifted slightly in recognition before he was driven away, disappearing into the tunnel.
Hours later, after processing footage, filing preliminary reports, and fulfilling media obligations, Y/N sat alone in her office, staring blankly at her computer screen. The official announcement had come: torn ACL, MCL damage, additional structural issues. Joe Burrow’s rookie season was over, and a long rehabilitation lay ahead.
Her phone vibrated on the desk.
Matt: Just saw the injury. Absolutely brutal.
Lucas: You were there on the sideline? Damn.
Aaron: Recovery timeline?
Y/N appreciated their concern but couldn’t find the energy to respond with more than a brief acknowledgment.
Y/N: It’s bad. ACL, MCL. Looking at 9+ months probably.
She set the phone down and turned back to her computer, focusing on what she could control, organizing footage, preparing content plans for a team that would continue without its central figure.
A knock at her door pulled her from her thoughts. She looked up to find Kayla standing there, expression uncharacteristically subdued.
“Crisis management meeting in ten,” she said. “Oh, and you’re being assigned to Joe’s rehabilitation documentation.”
Y/N tried to keep her expression neutral. “Documentation?”
“The team wants to chronicle his recovery journey,” Kayla explained. “Limited access, very controlled narrative. Needs someone he’s comfortable with, who understands both the football and PR sides.” She gave Y/N a meaningful look. “He asked for you specifically.”
After Kayla left, Y/N sat motionless, processing this development. Amid the pain and chaos of a season-ending injury, Joe had thought to request her for the rehabilitation coverage. Had remembered her name in what must have been a blur of medical discussions and difficult conversations.
Her phone buzzed with a text from an unexpected source.
Joe: Heard you’re documenting the comeback tour.
Y/N stared at the message, surprised he was texting so soon after the injury. She’d assumed he’d be wrapped up in medical consultations and processing the devastating news.
Y/N: If you’re sure that’s what you want. We can assign someone else if you’d prefer.
The response came quickly:
Joe: I want someone who won’t make this into a pity story. Someone who gets it.
Y/N’s fingers hovered over the keyboard, deliberating her response. Professional, she reminded herself. Keep it professional.
Y/N: Then I’m in. We’ll document the comeback on your terms.
Joe: Surgery’s next week, December second. We’ll get going after that.
Y/N: Got it. Focus on healing. I’ll handle the content strategy.
She watched the typing bubble flicker on and off before one last message came through.
Joe: Thanks, Y/N. For everything today.
She knew he meant her work on the sidelines, the professional documentation of a difficult moment, but there was something in those simple words that felt more personal. An acknowledgment of their brief eye contact, the small nod of encouragement she’d offered when she’d lowered her camera.
Y/N: Always. That’s what I’m here for.
Setting her phone down, Y/N turned back to her computer, already mentally outlining a rehabilitation content strategy that would balance the team’s PR needs with Joe’s dignity and privacy. This assignment would mean more direct, one-on-one work with him over the coming months. More opportunities to witness the person behind the professional facade. More chances for her inconvenient feelings to deepen.
Y/N sighed, rubbing her temples. She should request a different assignment. She should maintain more professional distance. She should stop the flutter in her chest whenever Joe sought her out specifically.
She should do a lot of things.
Instead, she opened a new document and titled it Burrow Rehabilitation Content Strategy, already knowing she was in far too deep to turn back now.
* * *
Early/Mid December 2020 – Rehabilitation Center
“Just a few more clips today,” Y/N assured Joe, adjusting her camera as the physical therapist prepared for the next exercise. “We’ll keep it brief.”
Joe nodded, his face drawn with the familiar tension that came with these early rehab sessions. Two weeks post-surgery, every movement was still an exercise in controlled pain management. Y/N had been documenting the start of his recovery, creating carefully edited content that showed determination without exploiting vulnerability.
“Ready when you are,” she told the therapist, who nodded and turned to Joe.
“Let’s work on those quad activations again. Ten contractions, five-second hold each.”
Y/N captured the session with practiced ease, knowing when to focus on Joe’s face, when to catch the therapist’s coaching, and when to lower the camera out of respect. She’d developed an intuitive sense for the line between honest storytelling and intrusion.
After thirty minutes, the therapist called it. As he stepped out to retrieve Joe’s chart, Y/N began packing her equipment.
“How’s it look?” Joe asked quietly, nodding toward her camera.
Y/N glanced up. She knew he wasn’t asking about framing. “It looks like exactly what it is. The beginning of a comeback story.”
A hint of a smile touched his mouth. “Pretty boring content so far.”
“The best comeback stories start slow,” Y/N replied, zipping her bag. “Makes the highlight reel more satisfying when it hits.”
Joe adjusted his position on the table, wincing. “This part doesn’t make the highlight reel, huh?”
“Only the parts where you’re showing superhuman determination,” she said. “Not the ones where you’re calling the PT sadistic.”
That earned a real laugh, though it quickly turned into a grimace. “You’re honest. I appreciate that.”
Y/N paused, sensing a shift. After two weeks of filming his rehab, the professional boundaries were still in place, but the nature of the work created a certain closeness. Documenting someone’s pain, frustration, and tiny victories had a way of drawing people closer, whether either of them liked it or not.
“The team wants an update for social tomorrow,” she said, steering them back to safer ground. “Any preferences for the message?”
Joe rubbed his thigh just above the brace, thinking. “Keep it simple. No dramatic promises. Just… I’m working. Progress is happening. Grateful for the support.”
“Done,” Y/N nodded, making a note. “I’ll send a draft for approval.”
“I trust your judgment,” Joe said. “You haven’t overplayed any of this.
“That’s why you requested me, right?” Y/N asked, trying to keep the tone light, though the question had lingered since she got the assignment.
Joe’s eyes met hers. “Yes. You see the person, not just the story.”
The honesty in his voice caught her off guard. Before she could respond, her phone chimed.
Kayla: Need the rehab footage by 3pm for review.
“Work calls,” Y/N said, holding up her phone. “I should get this back to the facility.”
Joe nodded. “Same time Thursday?”
“I’ll be here,” she said, collecting the last of her gear.
As she reached the door, Joe called after her. “Hey, Y/N?”
She turned. “Yeah?”
“You doing anything for Christmas?”
She shrugged. “Staying in Cincinnati. My brother’s wife is pregnant, so we’re playing it safe.”
“That’s tough.”
“It’s fine,” she said, forcing a smile. “First Christmas away from family, but honestly, not the worst thing happening this year.”
“Right,” Joe said, though something in his expression flickered. “See you Thursday.”
That evening, Y/N returned to her apartment to find a care package from her brothers: Louisville bourbon, family photos, and University of Kentucky gear to “keep her from turning into a full-time Bengals fan.” The gesture made her laugh, but it also made her chest ache. The distance felt heavier than usual this year.
While editing footage from the day’s session, she noticed again how different Joe seemed in rehab. He wasn’t performing. He wasn’t polished. Just quiet, steady effort. It was more compelling than any mic’d-up segment she’d ever shot.
Her phone buzzed.
Kayla: Rehabilitation content is getting excellent engagement. Team’s impressed with how you’re handling the narrative. Authentic but respectful.
Y/N replied with a quick thanks, then sat staring at the paused frame on her laptop—Joe mid-contraction, jaw tight, eyes focused. She knew this wasn’t supposed to be personal. But somehow, it was starting to feel that way.
She closed her laptop firmly.
Joe Burrow was her subject. Not her friend. Not anything more. The fact that he trusted her with his recovery story was a professional compliment, not a personal invitation.
Even as she thought it, Y/N knew she was lying. But sometimes, professional survival required a certain amount of self-deception.
* * *
December 24, 2020 – Y/N’s Apartment
Y/N’s apartment felt too quiet on Christmas Eve. She’d decorated half-heartedly, a small artificial tree with a few ornaments, some lights strung around her living room window—but the holiday spirit was hard to capture alone in a city where she still felt like a newcomer.
She was curled on the couch watching Die Hard (a Y/L/N family tradition her brothers had insisted she maintain) when her phone buzzed with a notification from the building’s security desk.
Package delivered for Y/L/N – front desk
Puzzled, Y/N paused the movie and headed downstairs. She wasn’t expecting anything, and her family’s gifts had arrived days ago.
The security guard handed her a medium-sized package wrapped in simple brown paper with her name written in neat block letters. No address. No shipping label.
“Guy dropped it off about an hour ago,” the guard said. “Said it was important you got it tonight.”
Back in her apartment, Y/N carefully unwrapped the mystery package to find a plain white box. Inside was a Cincinnati Bengals snow globe, but not the kind sold at the team store. This one was custom-made with meticulous detail: a miniature Paul Brown Stadium filled with thousands of tiny cardboard cutout fans. When she shook it, confetti in Bengals colors swirled around the stands.
A small card rested beneath the snow globe.
Y/N – Thought you should have something to remember your first season with the team. The cardboard fans deserve a place on your shelf. – Joe
Y/N read the card twice, just to be sure she hadn’t imagined the signature. Joe Burrow had found a custom snow globe with cardboard fans—a perfect tribute to her COVID initiative, and had it delivered to her apartment on Christmas Eve.
While she was still absorbing that, her phone buzzed with a text from an unknown number.
Did it arrive in one piece? The guy at the shop was worried about the cardboard details.
She saved the number before responding.
Y/N: It’s perfect. How did you even find something like this?
Joe: Custom order. Guy downtown does specialty snow globes. Took some convincing to add cardboard people instead of snow.
Y/N: I don’t know what to say. Thank you.
She hesitated, then added:
Y/N: How’s rehab going? That last session looked tough.
His reply came quickly.
Joe: Getting there. PT says I’m ahead of schedule, but it still feels too slow. Olivia’s tired of me being restless about it.
The casual mention of Olivia brought her back to earth. Of course they were spending Christmas together, Joe recuperating, Olivia looking after him.
Y/N: Well, the snow globe was incredibly thoughtful. This officially puts my Secret Santa game to shame.
Joe: Wasn’t Secret Santa. This was just… a thank you. For handling the rehab documentation the right way.
Y/N sat with that for a moment. Joe had gotten her a separate, personal gift. Something he’d commissioned, thought about, followed up on. It wasn’t part of any exchange. It wasn’t required.
Before she could figure out what to say without giving herself away, another text came through.
Joe: Merry Christmas, Y/N. See you for the next rehab session.
Y/N: Merry Christmas, Joe. Rest up, comeback next season is gonna to be epic.
She set her phone down and picked up the snow globe again, turning it over in her hands. Outside her window, snow had started to fall over Cincinnati. Her first Christmas in a new city felt a little less lonely.
Y/N knew she should guard her heart. Joe Burrow had a girlfriend he clearly cared about. This was just a thoughtful gesture from someone who noticed details and appreciated hard work. Nothing more.
But as she placed the snow globe on her nightstand before bed, she couldn’t help the warmth that settled in her chest. Couldn’t quiet the voice that whispered
He was thinking about you on Christmas Eve.
* * *
January 2021 – Rehabilitation Center
“That’s good for today,” the physical therapist said, making notes on Joe’s chart. “You’re pushing hard, but remember what we discussed about not overdoing it.”
Joe nodded, jaw clenched in a way Y/N had learned to recognize as pain management. The session had been particularly grueling, testing new movement patterns that clearly challenged his healing knee.
“I’ll send these notes to the medical team,” the therapist continued. “Same time on Thursday?”
“I’ll be here,” Joe confirmed, his voice controlled but tight.
As the therapist left, Y/N began packing her camera equipment, giving Joe a moment to compose himself. She had been documenting his rehabilitation for six weeks now, establishing a careful routine: arrive early, capture what was needed, create space for recovery between exercises, and never make him feel watched during moments of struggle.
“That looked rough today,” she said, keeping her tone neutral as she stored memory cards.
Joe exhaled slowly, adjusting his position on the treatment table. “PT says that’s good. Means we’re pushing boundaries.”
Y/N nodded, recognizing the stock answer he gave to staff and coaches. After weeks of these sessions, she had become adept at distinguishing between Joe’s responses—the media answers, the team answers, and, occasionally, the real ones.
“We got good content,” she assured him, shifting the subject. “The determination shots will play well with fans. And that moment with the resistance band tells a clear progress story from last week.”
Joe made a noncommittal sound, staring at the ceiling. Y/N continued packing, assuming the conversation was over, when he suddenly spoke.
“What if I can’t come back from this the same?”
The question hung in the air, so quietly spoken that Y/N wasn’t sure she was meant to hear it. She turned to find Joe still staring upward, his carefully maintained composure showing rare cracks.
Y/N set down her equipment and moved closer. She reached for the camera she had just packed.
“Off the record,” she said, showing him as she turned off the device completely. “Nothing recorded.”
Something in Joe’s expression shifted, relief, maybe, or recognition that she understood what he needed in this moment.
“Everyone keeps saying I’ll come back stronger,” he continued, voice low. “The team, the media, the fans. ‘Joe Burrow’s comeback will be legendary.’ But what if it’s not? What if this,” he gestured to his braced leg, “changes things permanently?”
Y/N leaned against the treatment table, giving him space but staying present. “What does your PT actually say? Not the public version.”
“That I’m ahead of schedule but have a long way to go,” Joe answered. “That most players come back from ACL tears, but it can take a full season to feel normal again.” He paused. “If normal even exists after this.”
Y/N nodded, considering her response carefully. This wasn’t a moment for empty reassurance or team talking points.
“I tore my ACL my senior year,” she said, surprising him with the personal reference. “Playing soccer at UK. Doctor said I might not play again. Six months later I was back on the field.” She paused. “Different, but better.”
Joe turned to look at her fully, genuine surprise breaking through his frustration. “You tore your ACL?”
“I did,” Y/N said. "The rehab was brutal. I used to ice my knee and cry in the training room bathroom so my teammates wouldn’t see.”
“What changed?” Joe asked, fully engaged now. “How did you get from bathroom tears to ‘better’?”
“I stopped fighting the process,” Y/N said simply. “Started respecting the injury instead of resenting it. And I learned that ‘same as before’ is the wrong goal. You don’t get the same body back. You get a new one that moves differently.”
She hesitated, then added, “But here’s what no one tells you—the mental game changes too. You become more strategic when you can’t rely on pure physicality. You see the field differently. You anticipate because you have to. Some of my best plays came after the injury, not before.”
A moment of connection formed as Joe finally met her eyes, a small smile forming. “You don’t bullshit me. That’s why I like you.”
Y/N felt that flutter but kept her composure, moving back to her equipment. “The comeback narrative isn’t bullshit. It’s just incomplete without acknowledging the struggle.” She picked up her camera bag. “And Joe? No one who’s watched you work these past weeks doubts you’ll be back. The question is just who you’ll be when you get there.”
Joe nodded slowly, processing her words. “Thanks. For the honesty. And for turning off the camera.”
“Some moments aren’t for documentation,” Y/N said. “Though if you ever want to talk about the mental side of recovery for the content series, I think it would resonate. Athletes don’t discuss that enough.”
“Maybe,” Joe said, his professional mask gradually returning. “I’ll think about it.”
As Y/N prepared to leave, Joe called after her. “Hey, Y/N? Your team ever regret drafting you after the injury?”
Y/N smiled despite herself. “I wasn’t exactly first-round NWSL material, Joe. But no. The injury made me a better player. Different, but better.”
She could feel his eyes on her as she left, aware that something had shifted between them—a new layer of understanding beneath their professional relationship. For the first time, Joe had seen her not just as the person behind the camera, but as someone who truly understood his struggle from the inside.
It was a connection she hadn’t planned for. And one that would make staying professional a little harder every week.
* * *
April 2021 - Y/N’s Apartment
“They’re absolutely taking Chase,” Lucas insisted through the Zoom call, his voice slightly delayed over Y/N’s laptop speakers. “Burrow needs weapons more than protection.”
“That’s insane,” Aaron countered, his window lighting up. “They’ve got to take Sewell. What good are receivers if your quarterback is getting murdered every play?”
Matt’s face appeared in the third window. “Y/N, you literally work there. What are they thinking?”
Y/N took a sip of her beer, settling deeper into her couch as the NFL Draft coverage continued on her TV. The brothers’ traditional draft night debate was in full swing, though this was the first year they’d done it virtually instead of crammed into someone’s living room.
“I’m in media, not the front office,” she reminded them. “And even if I knew anything, I’m not sharing confidential information with you degenerates.”
“Come on,” Lucas pressed. “You’ve been filming Burrow’s rehab for months. He must have dropped hints about who he wants.”
Y/N shook her head. “Professional boundaries, remember? I document the recovery. I don’t gossip about draft preferences.”
In truth, Joe had mentioned Chase during a rehabilitation session the previous week. A casual “Be nice throwing to Ja’Marr again” while working on his passing motion. But Y/N took her role seriously. What happened in those sessions stayed there, unless approved for team content.
Her phone buzzed with a text, offering a welcome distraction from her brothers’ continued debate.
Joe: You watching?
Y/N stared at the message, surprised. It was draft night. She had assumed Joe would be watching with friends, family, or Olivia.
Y/N: Of course. Annual Y/L/N family tradition, now over Zoom.
Joe: Predictions?
Y/N thought carefully about her response, hyperaware of her brothers still arguing loudly through her laptop.
Y/N: My brothers are arguing Chase vs Sewell. Heated debate in progress. I’m staying neutral.
Joe: Smart. But off the record?
She smiled at his persistence.
Y/N: Off the record, I think your LSU connection might win out over conventional wisdom.
Three dots appeared, disappeared, then reappeared.
Joe: We’ll see in about 4 picks. My phone’s been blowing up all night. Needed a normal conversation.
Something warm bloomed in Y/N’s chest at the implication, that texting her constituted “normal” for Joe, a respite from the pressures of draft night.
Y/N: Happy to talk about it like a regular person. How’s the knee today?
Joe: Good session this morning. Getting stronger. Doctor says I’m where I should be at 20 weeks.
“Y/N, who are you texting? You’re missing the debate!” Matt called through the Zoom.
“Just work stuff,” she replied absently, watching the three dots appear on her phone again.
Joe: Olivia says hi. She’s been impressed with the rehab content series.
Y/N’s fingers froze over her keyboard. The sting was immediate, the kind that crept up slowly even when she thought she’d braced for it. Of course Olivia was there. Of course they were watching the draft together. The reminder sat heavy.
Y/N: Tell her thanks and hey back.
She set her phone down and forced her attention back to her brothers and the draft coverage. On screen, the Bengals’ pick was approaching, the tension building as analysts debated the same Sewell-versus-Chase question that had divided the Y/L/N brothers.
When Commissioner Goodell announced “Ja’Marr Chase, wide receiver, LSU,” Lucas erupted in triumph while Aaron groaned dramatically. Y/N felt her phone buzz again but didn’t look right away, instead watching the coverage of Chase celebrating with his family.
Finally, she glanced down.
Joe: Like I said, LSU connections matter.
Y/N couldn’t help smiling, imagining Joe’s subtle satisfaction at the pick.
Y/N: Lucas says you’re welcome. Apparently he’s taking credit for Chase like he was in the war room.
Joe: Tell him I’ll let Chase know he’s got fans in Louisville. Heading into calls. Appreciate the breather.
Y/N: Anytime. Congrats on the reunion tour.
She set her phone aside and rejoined her brothers’ now-heated debate about the wisdom of the pick. But part of her mind lingered on that text exchange—on being the person Joe reached out to for normal amid the draft night chaos, and on the complicated feelings that continued to develop despite her best efforts to contain them.
The rehabilitation documentation had created a unique space between them. Not quite friendship. Definitely not romance. But something intimate nonetheless. Joe trusted her. Relied on her perspective. Valued her discretion.
It was enough, she told herself. And for now, it had to be.
* * *
July 2021 - Training Camp
The energy at training camp was electric, fans lining the practice fields for their first glimpse of Joe Burrow back in action after his devastating injury. Y/N moved efficiently through the crowd, capturing fan reactions and b-roll for the team’s social content.
“Y/N!” Kayla called, waving her over to the media area. “We need you on Burrow’s first team drills. Main camera, tight focus on his movement and confidence. This is the money shot everyone’s waiting for.”
Y/N nodded, adjusting her equipment as she headed to the designated position. After months documenting Joe’s rehabilitation journey, the painful early sessions, the gradual progress, the breakthrough moments, this felt like the culmination of a shared experience. Though she’d never say it aloud, she felt oddly protective watching reporters and cameras gather, knowing many were hoping to capture any hint of hesitation or weakness in his return.
When Joe jogged onto the field in full practice gear, a roar went up from the assembled fans. Y/N watched through her viewfinder as he acknowledged the crowd with a casual wave before joining the quarterbacks group. His stride looked natural, confidence evident in his movement. If he felt any apprehension about this first public session, it didn’t show in his body language.
Throughout the early drills, Y/N maintained her professional focus, capturing exactly what the team needed, Joe’s throwing mechanics, his footwork, the way he planted on the surgically repaired knee. But she couldn’t help the surge of satisfaction each time he executed a perfect dropback or stepped confidently into a throw, knowing how hard he’d fought for each of those movements.
During a brief water break, Joe glanced toward the media area, his eyes finding Y/N’s camera with practiced ease. He gave a subtle nod, something like acknowledgment or even gratitude, before turning back to his teammates. Y/N swallowed hard, refocusing her lens. That small gesture felt significant, a private recognition of the journey they’d documented together.
“Looking good out there,” commented a reporter standing nearby. “Can’t even tell which knee was injured.”
“That’s the point,” Y/N replied, not looking away from her viewfinder. “Months of work to make it look effortless.”
After practice concluded, Y/N was reviewing footage when she noticed Olivia standing near the family area, waiting as Joe finished speaking with coaches. She was stunning even in casual clothes, her easy confidence evident as she chatted with other players’ family members.
Y/N had managed to avoid direct interaction with Olivia throughout the rehabilitation documentation. Their paths rarely crossed during Joe’s recovery. Now, watching her welcome Joe with a warm embrace after practice, Y/N felt the familiar ache that she’d become adept at ignoring.
“Y/N, right?”
Y/N turned to find Olivia standing beside her, offering a friendly smile.
“Yes,” Y/N confirmed, professionalism automatically kicking in. “Nice to see you again.”
“I wanted to thank you personally,” Olivia said, surprising Y/N completely. “Joe mentioned how you handled the rehab documentation. Keeping it about the work, not turning it into some dramatic sob story. It meant a lot to him. To both of us, really.”
Y/N managed a smile, her grip tightening slightly on the strap of her camera bag. “Just doing my job,” she said, steadying her voice. “Joe made it easy. He was committed from day one.”
“Still,” Olivia insisted, “he said you understood what he needed from those sessions. Not many media people get that part right.” She paused, glancing toward where Joe was still engaged with coaches. “Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks. It’s been a rough few months.”
The sincerity in Olivia’s voice made Y/N feel suddenly guilty for her complicated feelings. This woman clearly loved Joe and had supported him through an incredibly difficult recovery.
“He’s looking great out there,” Y/N offered. “All that work is paying off.”
Olivia nodded, relief evident in her expression. “That’s what the doctors are saying too. Though he’s still pushing too hard, in typical Joe fashion.”
Y/N couldn’t help but smile at that familiar truth. “Some things never change.”
“Exactly,” Olivia agreed with a knowing look. As Joe approached, she added quietly, “Anyway, thanks again. Looking forward to seeing the season content you create.”
Joe approached from across the field, catching sight of them mid-conversation. His brows lifted slightly, a flicker of something unreadable passing over his face before he smoothed it out with a nod.
“Everything okay?” he asked.
“Just thanking Y/N for her work during your recovery,” Olivia explained, her hand finding his naturally. “The content series has been really well done.”
Joe’s eyes met Y/N’s briefly. “She gets it right. Always has.”
The simple validation shouldn’t have meant as much as it did. Y/N nodded professionally, already stepping back. “Just capturing what’s there. You looked solid today. Confidence reads clearly on camera.”
“Months of practice,” Joe replied, the hint of a private joke in his eyes, a reference to their many conversations about perception versus reality in the rehabilitation content.
“I should get this footage back for editing,” Y/N said, gesturing to her camera. “Good to see you both.”
As she walked away, Y/N tried to sort through her conflicting emotions. The professional pride in seeing Joe’s successful return. The personal satisfaction of having been part of his recovery journey. The complicated ache of witnessing his relationship with Olivia up close, their easy intimacy, their shared experience of his injury.
Y/N had maintained appropriate boundaries throughout the rehabilitation process, focusing on the work rather than her inconvenient feelings. But seeing him back on the field, confident and strong after all those difficult sessions, stirred something deeper than professional satisfaction.
Her phone buzzed with a text from Kayla: Need the practice footage ASAP. National outlets requesting clips of Burrow’s return.
Y/N welcomed the distraction, focusing on the immediate demands of her job. There would be time later to process the complex emotions of this day, and to reinforce the professional walls that seemed increasingly necessary as the new season approached.
* * *
2022 Season – January 2023
“And Joe Burrow leads the Cincinnati Bengals back to the AFC Championship game for the second straight year.”
The announcer’s voice boomed through the stadium as Y/N captured the sideline celebrations, moving efficiently through the chaos to document the team’s triumph. After a remarkable comeback season in 2021 that took them to the Super Bowl, the 2022 Bengals had faced enormous expectations. They were meeting them with another deep playoff run.
Y/N had established herself as a key member of the media team, promoted to Social Media Coordinator at the start of the season. The role gave her broader responsibilities beyond player-specific content, though she still handled much of the quarterback and skill position documentation.
As players embraced on the field, Y/N captured Joe’s celebration with his teammates. The confident smile, the easy leadership that had developed over three seasons. When he glanced toward her camera and gave a subtle nod of acknowledgment, Y/N felt the familiar flutter she’d learned to ignore.
Their professional relationship had evolved over the past year. The intensive connection of the rehabilitation period had naturally shifted as Joe returned to full strength and Y/N’s responsibilities expanded. They still worked together regularly, but the intimate space of those recovery sessions, where vulnerability and trust had created something unique, had given way to the more structured interactions of normal team operations.
Later, in the locker room, Y/N navigated between celebrating players and capturing authentic moments for the team’s social platforms. Joe stood at the center of a media scrum, handling questions with the composed confidence that had become his trademark.
“Y/N!” called Chase, waving her over to a group of receivers. “Get this for the official account.”
She smiled and directed her camera toward their celebration. This was her world now. Trusted by players, respected by staff, the voice behind the team’s digital presence. The professional success was everything she’d worked for, even as she maintained careful boundaries with the quarterback who had once trusted her with his most vulnerable moments.
After finishing the required content, Y/N was packing her equipment when she sensed someone approaching.
“Good game to capture,” Joe said, now changed from his uniform but still flushed with victory.
“Congratulations,” Y/N replied, her smile genuine. “Back-to-back championship games is no small feat.”
“The content team has been killing it this season,” he said, nodding toward her coordinator badge. “That promotion was well-deserved.”
“Thanks,” Y/N said, a little surprised he’d noticed. Since his full return, their interactions had been mostly professional. Still friendly, but nothing like the closeness they’d shared during his recovery. “Everyone makes it easy to create good content.”
Joe gave a small shrug. “Still. You’re the one shaping how it’s remembered.”
Y/N smiled at that. “Well, my job’s bigger now. I’m not just chasing quarterbacks around anymore.”
A comfortable silence settled between them. The kind that only develops between people with shared history. For a moment, Y/N felt a faint echo of their rehabilitation sessions, when conversation had flowed naturally despite the professional context.
“Olivia’s organizing a team gathering if we make the Super Bowl,” Joe said, breaking the quiet. “You should come. The whole media team is invited, but”, he paused, searching for the words, “it would be good to have you there. After everything.”
Y/N nodded, maintaining her professional composure despite the unexpected invitation. “Thanks. That would be nice.”
Joe seemed about to say something else when Chase called his name from across the locker room. “Quarterback meeting in five.”
“Duty calls,” Joe said with a quick smile. “See you around, Y/N.”
As he walked away, Y/N finished packing her equipment and tried to parse the brief interaction. There had been something in his expression. Not quite nostalgia, but recognition of their unique history. The rehabilitation journey had created a connection that, while carefully professional, had left its mark on both of them.
Y/N’s phone buzzed with the brothers’ group chat.
Lucas: Another AFC Championship! Bengals social team crushing it with the content.
Matt: They better be paying you overtime for playoff coverage.
Aaron: How close are you and Burrow these days? Still working together often?
Y/N stared at Aaron’s question, unsure how to answer. The truth was complicated. They worked together professionally, but the intensity of their connection during his recovery had naturally faded as circumstances changed.
Y/N: Professional relationship. I work with all the players in my coordinator role. But yes, still see him regularly for content.
She tucked her phone away and headed for the media room, where immediate deadlines awaited. The answer hadn’t been a lie, exactly. But it hadn’t captured the nuance of whatever existed between them. The lingering awareness, the comfortable silences, the way his eyes still found her camera in crowded moments.
Y/N had become expert at compartmentalizing these thoughts, focusing instead on her professional success and the exciting playoff run ahead. Whatever complicated feelings remained were her burden to manage. Not Joe’s, and certainly not something that would ever interfere with the career she’d worked so hard to build.
Even if, occasionally, she still caught herself watching him through her viewfinder a moment longer than strictly necessary.
* * *
February 2024 – Joe’s Home Gym
Y/N adjusted her camera, capturing Joe as he completed another set of wrist stabilization exercises. Four months into his second major injury recovery in three years, the rehabilitation routine had become familiar to them both. This session was taking place in the home gym Joe had built after his ACL recovery, a space that reflected his methodical approach to training, all clean lines and functional equipment, personal touches minimal.
“How’s that feeling compared to last week?” Y/N asked, lowering her camera as Joe finished the exercise.
“Better,” he replied, flexing his wrist carefully. “More control. Less hesitation.”
Y/N nodded, making notes for the recovery update that would be released to fans later in the week. As Social Media Coordinator, she no longer had to handle the daily documentation of Joe’s recovery, but she had still accepted his request to personally oversee the key elements of his rehabilitation content. After the success of their first recovery series, the team had readily agreed.
“The fans will be happy to see the progress,” she said, reviewing the footage. “They’ve been worried since Baltimore.”
“Four years with the Bengals and two seasons ended by injuries,” Joe commented, a rare note of frustration breaking through his composure. “Not exactly what anyone had in mind.”
Y/N looked up from her camera. “The comeback narrative plays well the first time. Second time, it reads as resilience. Those aren’t bad stories to have attached to your name.”
He gave her a small smile, the kind reserved for when she cut through the media spin to something more genuine. It was a look Y/N had catalogued without meaning to, along with his game-day focus, his press conference diplomacy, his unguarded moments of triumph. Four years of documenting Joe Burrow had left her with an encyclopedic knowledge of his expressions.
As his physical therapist entered to begin the next series of exercises, Y/N stepped back, camera ready but maintaining a respectful distance. She had perfected the art of being present without imposing, of capturing vulnerability without exploiting it.
“Y/N,” Joe called as the PT finished setting up. “The team said you’re heading to the combine next week?”
“Yeah, they want feature content on potential draft picks.” She adjusted her lens. “First time being on that side of the process.”
“Tell them to find someone who can stay healthy,” Joe said, that subtle humor in his eyes. “Someone boring who never gives the social media team anything dramatic to document.”
Y/N laughed. “I don’t know. Documenting your injuries has been good for my career. Got me this promotion.”
“Happy to help,” Joe replied dryly, though something in his expression shifted and grew more serious. “You deserve it. You always see the person beyond the player. Not everyone does that.”
The simple observation caught Y/N off guard. Before she could respond, the PT motioned that they were ready to begin the next exercise, and the moment passed.
Later, reviewing the footage alone in her apartment, Y/N paused on a frame that captured Joe mid-motion, his expression reflecting the focus and determination that defined him. After nearly four years, she still found herself studying these images longer than necessary, still felt that familiar tug of emotion she had long since accepted but never fully conquered.
Her phone buzzed with an incoming call. Sam, a colleague from the PR department who had gradually become her closest friend on the team.
“Please tell me you’re not still working,” Sam’s voice carried the easy warmth Y/N had come to rely on. “It’s almost midnight.”
“Just finishing up the Burrow rehab content,” Y/N replied, closing her laptop. “Wanted to get ahead before the combine trip.”
“How’s our quarterback looking?”
“Good,” Y/N said, careful to keep her tone professional. “Recovery’s on track. Should be cleared well before training camp.”
There was a brief silence before Sam spoke again. “And how are you doing with all of this?”
Y/N hesitated. She had never explicitly discussed her feelings for Joe with anyone. Not her brothers, not her colleagues. But over the past year, Sam had noticed things, the way Y/N’s expression changed when Joe entered a room, how she instinctively anticipated his needs during media sessions, the careful distance she maintained in group settings.
“I’m fine,” Y/N said automatically. “Just doing my job.”
“Uh-huh,” Sam replied, the skepticism evident in her voice. “And has that job gotten any easier in the, what, almost four years you’ve been doing it?”
Y/N sighed, glancing at the snow globe still sitting on her nightstand, a reminder of a Christmas Eve long ago. “It’s not like that. We work well together. We have a professional rapport. That’s all.”
“Y/N,” Sam said, her voice gentler now. “I’ve seen how you look at him when you think no one’s watching. And I’ve seen how he seeks you out in a crowded room, how his eyes follow you. Whatever’s between you two, it’s not just professional rapport.”
Y/N felt a familiar tightness in her chest. “Even if there was something, which there isn’t, he has Olivia. Four years together. That’s not nothing.”
“True,” Sam conceded. “But that doesn’t change what I’ve seen.”
After hanging up, Y/N moved to her window, looking out at the Cincinnati skyline that had become home. Four years. Four years of building a career, of establishing herself as a respected voice within the organization, of carefully maintaining boundaries while documenting the career of Joe Burrow.
Four years of feelings that hadn’t faded, despite her best efforts.
For the first time, Y/N allowed herself to fully acknowledge the truth she had been dancing around since that first photoshoot when a rookie quarterback had caught her perfect spiral and looked at her with surprised recognition.
She was in love with Joe Burrow. Had been for years.
Admitting it felt both crushing and freeing, like finally naming something she had been avoiding for a long time. But recognition didn’t change reality. Joe was with Olivia. Y/N was his colleague. The boundaries between them were necessary and fixed.
As she prepared for bed, Y/N made a silent promise to herself. When she returned from the combine, she would create more distance. Focus on other players. Delegate more of Joe’s content to her team. For her own preservation and for the career she had worked so hard to build, she needed to step back from the center of Joe Burrow’s world, even if she had helped hold it together.
It was time to tell a different story. One where she wasn’t caught in a perpetual state of yearning for something that couldn’t happen. One where she was the main character again.
* * *
March 2024 - Bengals Media Suite
Y/N had been back from the NFL Combine for exactly four hours when the whispers reached her. Moving through the facility's open office space, she noticed the furtive glances, the conversations that hushed as she approached, the unmistakable atmosphere of gossip in circulation.
"What's going on?" she asked Sam, who was leaning against the doorframe of the media suite, phone in hand.
Sam's expression shifted to something cautious, almost apologetic. "You haven't seen the news?"
"I just got off a plane. What news?"
Sam hesitated, then turned her phone screen toward Y/N. There it was, a sports blog headline blown up for emphasis: "Bengals QB Joe Burrow and Longtime Girlfriend Split After Four Years."
Y/N felt the floor tilt beneath her, but kept her expression carefully neutral. "When did this break?"
"This morning," Sam said, watching her face. "It's been confirmed by multiple sources. Apparently, it happened a couple weeks ago, before your trip."
Y/N nodded mechanically, her mind racing to process this information while maintaining outward composure. "Well, I hope they're both okay. Break-ups are rough."
Sam raised an eyebrow at her deliberately casual tone but seemed to understand Y/N's need for discretion in the middle of the office. "The PR team's in emergency mode trying to control the narrative. You might want to be prepared for questions about the social media approach."
"Of course," Y/N replied, already moving toward her office, seeking privacy to collect herself. "Thanks for the heads-up."
Once behind her closed door, Y/N sat heavily in her chair, the news still reverberating through her. Joe and Olivia had been together since before her time with the Bengals. Their relationship had been a constant backdrop to her own complicated feelings, a fixed reality that had allowed her to keep those feelings firmly contained. With that boundary suddenly removed, Y/N felt exposed, as though a wall she'd been safely hiding behind had vanished.
Her phone buzzed with a group text from her brothers, who had clearly seen the news.
Matt: Don't think we didn't notice you've been radio silent on the Burrow news.
Lucas: Is he okay? Getting bombarded with questions as the resident Bengals expert in the family.
Aaron: More importantly, are YOU okay?
Y/N stared at Aaron's message, surprised and unsettled by his perceptiveness. Had she been that transparent all these years?
Y/N: Just got back from the combine and learning about it with everyone else. Don't have inside info. And obviously I'm fine, it has nothing to do with me.
The response was immediate:
Aaron: If you say so, sis.
Y/N was saved from replying by a knock at her door. Kayla, the head of PR, stood there with a tense expression.
"We need to coordinate on the social media approach," she said. "Engagement's through the roof, but we need to strike the right tone. Respectful distance while acknowledging the fans' interest."
"Absolutely," Y/N replied, grateful for the professional focus. "I'll draft a content strategy for the coming weeks."
"What are you thinking?" Kayla asked, leaning against the doorframe.
Y/N considered for a moment. "Actually... I think we don't acknowledge it at all."
Kayla's eyebrows shot up. "Not even a brief statement?"
"Joe has never discussed his personal life publicly before," Y/N explained. "He's always kept that separate from his football identity. Starting now would set a precedent that his private life is fair game for public consumption."
"The fans will want—"
"The fans want football," Y/N interrupted gently. "We continue with regular football content, draft prep, team developments. We respect the boundary he's always maintained between his personal and professional life."
Kayla studied her thoughtfully. "That's... actually a solid approach. Let me run it by the team. Also, Joe's asking for you to handle his NBC Sports interview next week personally. Seems like he might be on the same page."
After Kayla left, Y/N sat motionless, absorbing this new development. Even amid personal upheaval, Joe still trusted her judgment, still sought her specific perspective. The weight of that trust felt heavier now than it ever had before.
Throughout the day, Y/N buried herself in work, drafting content plans, holding strategy meetings, responding to media inquiries. Every task provided a welcome distraction from the thought that circled her mind: Joe was single. For the first time since she'd known him, Joe Burrow was single.
It was nearly seven when her office phone rang.
"Y/N Y/L/N," she answered automatically.
"It's Joe."
She straightened in her chair, professional mask firmly in place despite the privacy of her office. "Hi. How are you doing?"
A soft exhale on the other end. "Been better. But surviving the media circus."
"I'm sure," Y/N said, keeping her tone carefully neutral. "We've drafted a content approach that should help."
"Kayla mentioned your strategy. No acknowledgment. Keep it focused on football."
"I hope that aligns with what you want," Y/N said, suddenly uncertain. "I just thought—"
"It's exactly what I want," Joe interrupted, his voice warm with approval. "That's why I'm calling about the NBC interview. I need you there."
Y/N paused, confused. The NBC interview was a major opportunity, but not typically something that required her personal oversight. "I can assign our best team—"
"I want you there," Joe interrupted, his voice quiet but firm. "You understand that not everything needs to be a story. You respect the boundaries. That's rare in this business."
Y/N felt a rush of professional pride mixed with something more personal. "I'll be there. We'll make sure they stay focused on football."
"Thank you," Joe said, relief evident in his voice. "And Y/N? Thanks for not asking why it happened. Everyone else has."
After hanging up, Y/N sat in the quiet of her office, the lights of Cincinnati beginning to twinkle in the early evening darkness outside her window. The professional boundaries she'd promised herself felt suddenly more essential and more fragile than ever before.
Joe needed her expertise. Her professional judgment. Her ability to maintain boundaries when everyone else wanted to cross them. That's what this was about—nothing more. She couldn't allow herself to read anything deeper into his request, couldn't let hope take root where it had no business growing.
Yet as she packed up her things to head home, Y/N couldn't quite suppress the small, persistent voice that whispered through her careful defenses.
He's single now. And the first person he called was you.
The Next Day - Bengals Conference Room
Y/N arrived early to prepare for the content planning meeting, arranging her presentation materials and reviewing her notes on the NBC interview format. She'd spent half the night crafting the perfect approach, one that would allow Joe to gracefully deflect personal questions and maintain focus on football.
The door opened, and Y/N looked up, expecting to see the PR team. Instead, Joe entered alone. He was dressed casually in Bengals athletic wear, hair slightly tousled, expression calm but tired around the eyes. Without the usual buffers of coaches, staff, or other players, his presence seemed to fill the empty conference room.
"Morning," he said, setting down his coffee. "Hope I'm not too early."
"Not at all," Y/N replied, her professional demeanor instinctively taking over. "I was just setting up."
Joe nodded, taking a seat at the table, not across from her as she expected, but at the adjacent corner, close enough that she could detect the faint scent of his aftershave. "So what's the game plan?"
Y/N pulled up her presentation, grateful for the distraction of work. "I've drafted a content strategy for the NBC interview. The approach is straightforward—if personal questions come up, we have prepared deflections that redirect to football topics without acknowledging the headlines directly."
She walked through the key points, outlining potential questions and suggested responses, maintaining eye contact with the screen rather than with Joe. This was familiar territory, the professional space where she felt confident and in control.
"This is perfect," Joe said when she finished. "No drama, no personal details, just football."
"You've always kept your private life private," Y/N agreed, finally meeting his gaze. "No reason to change that approach now, regardless of the circumstances."
Joe studied her for a moment, his expression warming. "You've always understood that about me. Even from the beginning."
"It's my job to understand what players need in terms of media strategy," Y/N replied modestly.
"No," Joe countered, leaning forward slightly. "Other media staff push for personal angles, human interest stories, emotional hooks. You never have. You respect the boundaries I set, sometimes before I even articulate them."
The directness of his praise caught her off guard. "I just try to see the person behind the player."
"And that's why I trust you," Joe said simply. "You see me as a person first, not as content to be packaged."
He paused, his expression shifting to something more contemplative. "I've been thinking a lot lately about the frames we put around ourselves. The stories we let others tell about us. The parts we keep private."
"That makes sense," Y/N offered carefully. "Especially with everything going on now."
Joe nodded slowly, his gaze never leaving hers. "I've started to realize how exhausting it is to maintain those frames. To always be seen through someone else's lens. I'm starting to wonder what it would be like to just... be seen. Without the frame. Without the lens."
There was something in his voice, an undercurrent of meaning Y/N couldn't quite decipher. Before she could respond, the door opened and the PR team filed in, breaking the moment with their arrival.
As the meeting proceeded, Y/N maintained her professional focus, presenting her strategy and responding to questions. But beneath her composed exterior, her mind kept returning to Joe's words, to the strange intensity in his eyes when he'd talked about being seen without a lens.
When the meeting ended, Y/N gathered her materials, aware of Joe lingering as the others filed out.
"The NBC interview is Tuesday at ten," she confirmed, keeping her tone light and professional. "I'll have the final prep materials to you tomorrow."
Joe nodded, but seemed distracted. "Y/N," he began, then stopped, glancing at the partially open door. "Never mind. We can talk about it Tuesday."
As he left, Y/N remained in the conference room, trying to make sense of what had just happened. In four years of working closely with Joe Burrow, she had learned to read his expressions, to anticipate his needs in professional settings, to recognize the difference between his media persona and his authentic self.
But today he had looked at her differently. Spoken to her differently. As though seeing her fully for the first time, or perhaps allowing her to see him without the careful filters they'd both maintained for so long.
Y/N gathered her things and headed back to her office, reminding herself of the promise she'd made just days ago. More distance. More professional boundaries. Less emotional investment in a relationship that existed primarily through a camera lens.
Yet as she settled at her desk, Y/N couldn't shake the feeling that something fundamental had shifted. Joe Burrow was single for the first time since she'd known him. And for reasons she couldn't yet understand, he seemed to be looking at her in a way he never had before.
Tuesday's interview suddenly felt like much more than a standard media appearance. It felt like standing on the edge of something new and unknown. Something that both thrilled and terrified her in equal measure.
* * *
March 2024 – NBC Sports Interview Setup
The NBC Sports crew had transformed a corner of the Bengals facility into a sleek interview set, complete with a branded backdrop and professional lighting. Y/N surveyed the space with a critical eye, making quiet adjustments and mental notes about camera angles as the crew finished setup.
“All set on your end?” asked the NBC producer, a woman with sharp eyes and a no-nonsense tone.
“We’re good,” Y/N confirmed, checking her notes one last time. “Just a reminder, football questions only. No personal inquiries.”
The producer’s smile tightened. “We’re aware of your guidelines. Though our viewers may find the personal angle relevant.”
“They’ll have to find that content elsewhere,” Y/N said pleasantly. “Joe’s here to talk about his recovery and the season ahead.”
Before the producer could respond, Joe walked in, dressed in Bengals gear, his easy confidence settling over the room. Y/N watched as he greeted the crew with practiced professionalism, calm but fully present.
“Everything look good?” he asked, joining her at the edge of the set.
“All set,” she said. “We’ve reviewed the outline and reestablished the limits.”
Joe nodded. After four years of media work together, their rhythm was seamless. Y/N knew where to stand, when to flag a break, how to redirect a question with a subtle cue. They didn’t need to talk much anymore.
“Five minutes, Mr. Burrow,” an assistant called.
“I’ll be over there,” Y/N said, gesturing to her post just off-camera. “Remember the deflections if they press."
Joe reached out, catching her arm gently. “Hey.” His voice dropped. “Thanks for handling this. For knowing what I need.”
Y/N met his eyes. “That’s what teammates do, right?”
A smile flickered across his face, referencing a conversation from years ago. “Right. Teammates.”
The interview began smoothly. Joe fielded questions about his wrist, the off-season program, and his expectations for the year ahead. The host was polished and respectful, at first.
Then came the shift.
“So, Joe, with everything going on in your personal life lately, how has that impacted your mindset heading into the season?”
Y/N tensed, ready to intervene, but Joe’s glance toward her stopped her. He had it.
“I’m focused entirely on football right now,” he said evenly. “My recovery’s on track. We’re building something special here. That’s where my head is.”
The host pressed gently. “But a change like that, after four years, has to affect your mental approach.”
Y/N’s fingers hovered, ready to call it, but Joe held her gaze. Calm. Steady.
“One thing I’ve learned is that some parts of life belong to the public and some don’t,” he said. “I’ll talk about every detail of rehab, film study, preparation. But my personal life stays personal, not because it’s secret, but because it’s mine. I hope people can respect that.”
The host, sensing the firm line and the soundbite, moved on.
Thirty minutes later, the interview wrapped. The NBC crew began packing up. Y/N was reviewing her notes when the producer approached.
“That was good television,” she said, sounding almost impressed. “We didn’t get the personal angle, but his response was better than any breakup statement.”
“He meant every word,” Y/N said.
When the room cleared, she found Joe still in his chair, scrolling through his phone.
“You handled that perfectly,” she said, sitting down across from him. “The personal boundary line, clean and confident.”
“I had a good coach,” he said with a faint grin, then set his phone down. “You free for lunch? I could use some normal conversation.”
Y/N blinked. In four years, they’d rarely had lunch that wasn’t attached to a content shoot or a meeting. “I’ve got a review at two, but I’m free until then.”
“Great,” Joe said, already standing. “I know a place where no one will bother us.”
* * *
Local Cafe – 45 Minutes Later
The place Joe picked was small and tucked away on a quiet side street, the kind of cafe that didn’t advertise and clearly didn’t care to. No branding, no social media walls — just warm lighting, scratched wood tables, and a menu written in chalk. They sat in a corner booth, out of view from the street, menus already half-forgotten between them.
“I come here when I need to breathe,” Joe said, catching the way Y/N looked around. “Owner’s son played D-II ball. He doesn’t care who I am. No photos, no questions. Just food and quiet.”
“Everyone needs one of those,” Y/N said, settling into the seat. “A spot where no one asks for anything.”
Joe looked at her, curious. “Where’s yours?”
She blinked, surprised by the question. “East side. Little cafe in the back of a bookstore. Average coffee, great scones. Nobody cares about sports. I just sit and read and pretend I’m not attached to a team account.”
Joe grinned. “That actually tracks. I can picture it. You with a book, probably judging the plot structure.”
“It’s a curse,” she said, smiling. “Comes from too much content review.”
They ordered lunch. The conversation stayed easy, lighter than it ever was at the facility. Joe asked about her brothers, recalling random details she didn’t even remember mentioning. Y/N asked about his training plans, casually weaving in suggestions for future content ideas without falling into work mode completely.
“So,” she said, nudging her empty plate away, “how’s the wrist holding up after all that expert-level pointing in the interview?”
He flexed his hand theatrically. “Strong enough to gesture with purpose.”
Y/N snorted. “That’s going on the injury report.”
Joe leaned back, relaxed in a way she didn’t often see. “This is nice. No cameras, no checklists. Just… lunch.”
Y/N nodded. “There’s a reason I didn’t bring the content kit.”
“We should do it again,” he said, casual but sincere. “Lunch. Coffee. Whatever. Just… not at the facility.”
She felt it then, that small shift. The line they’d both been quietly standing on for years moving slightly, the rules changing under them.
“I’d like that,” she said, keeping it light. “Might help with brainstorming.”
Joe tilted his head, giving her a look that was equal parts amused and direct. “Not for work. I mean just to hang out.”
Y/N blinked, a quiet flush rising to her cheeks. “Oh. Yeah, okay. That’d be nice.”
She looked down for a second, then back up, trying to play it off with a quick smile. “Not just for work, then.”
Joe smiled too, something almost teasing in his eyes. “Not just for work.”
Back at the facility, they walked side by side until the hallway split. Joe paused before they parted.
“Thanks for today. The interview. Lunch. All of it.”
“Just doing my job,” Y/N said, the reflex kicking in before she could stop it.
Joe looked at her, steady. “No. It’s always been more than that with you.”
And then he turned and kept walking, leaving Y/N standing there, trying not to replay the sentence before she’d even finished hearing it.
* * *
April 2024 – Bengals Facility Media Room
Over the next few weeks, a new pattern emerged. Joe would seek Y/N out after meetings or rehab sessions, suggesting coffee breaks or lunch outings that had less and less to do with content planning. They started talking more, not just about football or strategy, but about music, families, the random thoughts they didn’t usually share with coworkers. A friendship was forming, one that felt separate from everything else they’d been before.
“Y/N!” Sam called, poking her head into the media room where Y/N was editing draft day content. “Lunch plans?”
“Can’t today,” Y/N replied, eyes on her screen. “Meeting Joe about his charity event next month.”
Sam leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed, already smirking. “That’s the third ‘meeting’ this week. Someone’s becoming a regular.”
Y/N glanced up. “We’re just talking through logistics.”
Sam raised an eyebrow. “Sure. Logistics. Of your friendship. That just so happens to involve daily lunch plans.”
Y/N sat back, crossing her arms. “We’re friends, Sam. Is that so strange?”
“Not strange,” Sam said. “Just new. And very different since the breakup.”
Y/N went still. “So what if it is?”
“Just… don’t act like you don’t know what’s happening,” Sam said gently. “You’ve been in love with the guy for years, and now he’s single and spending more time with you than anyone else on the team.”
“Keep your voice down,” Y/N muttered, glancing at the open door. “And no, nothing’s happening. We’ve always worked well together. That hasn’t changed.”
“Except it has,” Sam said. “You’re not just filming him in the weight room anymore. You’re texting. Hanging out. Laughing in the break room like it’s nothing. It’s something. And I just don’t want to see you get hurt pretending it’s not.”
Y/N didn’t answer right away. She stared at her screen, the video paused on a frame of Joe walking into a press conference, casual and calm and so familiar.
After Sam left, Y/N closed her laptop and sat with the weight of the conversation. She knew Sam wasn’t wrong. The boundaries between her and Joe had shifted. The conversations had changed. So had the silences.
Joe texted.
Joe: Still on for lunch? Found a new place with killer sandwiches.
Y/N: Definitely. Meet you in the lobby at 12:30?
Joe: Perfect. Looking forward to it.
Three simple words.
Looking forward to it.
And she was too. That was the part she didn’t know what to do with.
* * *
July 2024 – Training Camp
Training camp came in hot, literally and figuratively. The facility pulsed with energy: players returning, rookies getting loud welcomes, schedules tightening, everything moving fast. Y/N moved with it, camera slung over her shoulder, coordinating her media team between drills and pressers. This year, she had more responsibility, more people to manage, more angles to cover.
On the field, Joe looked sharp. The wrist held up. His throws were crisp, timing on point. Y/N tracked him through her lens, quietly relieved. This was the version fans had been waiting for. And she’d seen every step it took to get back here.
“Looking good out there,” she called as he passed during a water break.
“Feeling good,” Joe said, tipping the bottle back. “Might actually survive a full season.”
“Don’t jinx it,” she warned.
He grinned, and for a moment it felt like spring again, when they were texting about books and sneaking off for lunch and everything between them felt easy.
But something had shifted. Subtle, but noticeable. Their lunches had slowed. His texts, less frequent. He still sought her out during media stuff, still made space for her during press days. But the familiar rhythm had changed. More distance. A little quieter.
Y/N told herself it was camp. The pressure. The tunnel vision. Still, it lingered.
One night, after most of the building had cleared out, she spotted a familiar figure in the film room. Joe, hoodie on, eyes on the screen.
“Don’t you ever take a break?” she asked from the doorway.
He looked over, offered a tired half-smile. “Not this time of year.”
She stepped inside, sliding into the chair next to him. “Even quarterbacks need to let their brains cool off.”
Says the woman who’s been here since dawn.” He nodded toward her camera bag.
“Touché.”
They sat in silence for a beat, the room lit only by the frozen frame on the screen.
“You’ve been kind of MIA lately,” Y/N said lightly. “Everything good?”
Joe didn’t answer right away. His eyes stayed on the paused film. “Yeah. Just… camp mode. Lot to lock in.”
She nodded. “If you need a break from all this, I’m around. We could grab dinner, talk about literally anything but football.”
That made him smile, just barely. “I’d like that. Maybe next week? When it slows down.”
“Deal.” She stood, grabbing her bag. “Don’t stay too late.”
As she walked back through the dim hallway, she couldn’t shake the quiet knot in her chest. Something was different. Not bad exactly, just… not what it had been. And maybe Sam had been right, that the closer they’d gotten, the more it risked tipping into something unspoken.
Maybe Joe felt that too.
Still, whatever this was between them, it mattered. And if keeping it meant backing off, Y/N could do that.
She had before.
* * *
November 2024 – Late Night
Y/N’s phone lit up with an incoming call, dragging her out of a dead sleep.
Sam (2:47 AM)
She answered immediately. “What happened?”
“You haven’t seen your phone yet?”
“No, I just got in from the flight and crashed.”
Sam exhaled. “Joe’s house got broken into tonight. While we were still in the air.”
Y/N sat up, heart pounding. “Wait, what? He was on the plane.”
“I know. That’s what makes this weirder. Apparently someone showed up at his house and found a shattered window. Cops were called. No one hurt, but it’s all over the internet.”
Y/N blinked. “Who showed up?”
Sam hesitated. “A woman. Ellie James.”
The name hit like ice water.
“She told police she was his employee. But fans already clocked her. She’s a 21-year-old model. Big on Instagram, runway work, a couple of campaigns. TikTok found her instantly.”
"It's blowing up on X right now. Apparently, he's been seeing someone for months. No one had any idea, not even the team."
Y/N was already unlocking her phone.
“‘Break-in at Joe Burrow’s home while team in Texas. No injuries reported.’”
“‘Ellie James identifies herself as “employee” in police report. Fans suspect more.’”
“‘Burrow and Ellie James: timeline of a secret relationship?’”
“They’ve got screenshots, tagged photos, weird little clues going back to July. That’s when people think they started seeing each other. Which—” Sam hesitated. “Kind of lines up, right?”
It did. July was when Joe had started pulling back. When their texts slowed, when their lunches stopped, when the tone of everything between them shifted into something more careful and less open.
Sam continued, “She wasn’t living with him, but she had access. Enough to be there alone. That’s the part everyone’s running with. The whole internet’s treating it like confirmation they’ve been together for months.”
Y/N didn’t speak. She couldn’t.
“Kayla called an emergency meeting for seven,” Sam added gently. “You’ll be in the room. We’re keeping it quiet for now, no official posts, no statements, but it’s gonna be messy. Just… be ready.”
After the call ended, Y/N scrolled through her phone. Headlines were popping up faster than she could keep track: Model Found Inside Joe Burrow’s House After Security Alarm Trip. Woman Identifies as Employee. Internet Says Otherwise.
Photos from Ellie’s Instagram. Old likes on Joe’s posts. A resurfaced clip from preseason camp that now felt painfully obvious. The puzzle pieces were already being assembled by fans who needed no confirmation to draw conclusions.
Y/N dropped her phone onto the bed and stared into the dark. It all made sense now, why he’d started retreating, why the easy momentum between them had suddenly stalled. While she’d been wondering what changed, he had already been moving toward someone else.
And she hadn’t known. Not once had he mentioned Ellie. Not to her. Not in passing. Not even after everything they’d shared.
She let herself lie back down, though sleep wouldn’t come again. Her chest ached with the kind of heartbreak you can’t rationalize away. Four years of working beside him. Of being trusted. Of feeling like maybe, just maybe, she was something more than just a colleague.
But tonight made it plain. She hadn’t been the one he’d let in. Not to his house, and not to the private parts of his life he kept so fiercely protected.
Y/N blinked up at the ceiling, a tear sliding quietly into her hair. She would go to the meeting in the morning. She would do her job.
But in this quiet hour, there was no protecting herself from the truth.
He had let someone else in.
And it wasn’t her.
* * *
November 2024 - Bengals Facility, 7:00 AM
The conference room was already filled when Y/N arrived, PR staff and executives huddled around the table, phones buzzing with alerts, coffee cups scattered like defensive positions. Dark circles under eyes revealed who had been up all night tracking social media fallout. Kayla stood at the head of the table, a slideshow of current headlines projected on the wall behind her.
Y/N took a seat beside Sam, grateful for the friendly face amid the tension. She'd spent the hours since Sam's call cycling through shock, hurt, and professional resolve, finally landing on a numb determination to get through this day with her dignity intact.
"Good, we're all here," Kayla began, silencing the murmurs. "As you're aware, there was an incident at Joe's residence last night while the team was returning from Dallas. The situation has escalated with social media speculation about his relationship with Ellie James, the woman present during the break-in."
Y/N's eyes remained fixed on her notebook as Kayla continued detailing the situation: security footage being reviewed, police statements, media requests flooding in. The office was buzzing with opinions about how to handle the revelation of Joe's apparent secret relationship.
"We need a clear, consistent message," said Marcus from PR. "Confirm the relationship, express appreciation for privacy during this unexpected exposure, pivot back to football."
"We should get ahead of this," another executive agreed. "Have Joe make a brief statement addressing the speculation directly."
"No," Y/N said quietly, then louder when several faces turned toward her. "No. That's exactly what we shouldn't do."
Kayla gestured for her to continue. As Social Media Coordinator, Y/N's perspective on public messaging carried weight, especially regarding Joe, with whom she'd worked closely for years.
"Joe isn't going to want to talk about this," Y/N continued, keeping her voice steady despite the emotional undercurrent. "He's never discussed his personal life publicly before. Not with Olivia, not after their breakup, not ever. We need to let him lead and share what he wants to, if anything."
"But the speculation is already overwhelming," Marcus countered. "The internet's connecting dots, creating narratives—"
"And that's the internet's problem, not ours," Y/N interrupted firmly. "This wasn't a planned reveal. His home was broken into. His privacy was violated. And now we're sitting here discussing how to package his personal life for public consumption?" She shook her head. "He deserves better from us."
A silence fell over the room as her words sank in.
"Y/N's right," Kayla said finally. "Joe's always maintained clear boundaries between his personal and professional life. Our job is to respect and reinforce those boundaries, not erode them further."
"So what do we do?" someone asked.
"We focus on the break-in as a security matter," Y/N suggested. "We acknowledge the incident without commenting on personal details. We prepare for questions but don't volunteer information Joe hasn't chosen to share himself."
The meeting continued with logistics planning, security protocols, media management strategies. Y/N participated with professional focus, offering insights on social media monitoring, content approaches, protective messaging. No one in the room would have guessed from her composed exterior the turmoil beneath the surface, the personal devastation she was carefully compartmentalizing to do her job.
As the meeting concluded, Kayla approached Y/N. "Joe's coming in at ten for a scheduled press briefing about Sunday's game. After this, reporters will obviously try to shift focus. Can you prep him? You've got the best sense of how he'll want to handle this."
Y/N nodded, her stomach twisting at the prospect of facing Joe after last night's revelation. "I'll handle it."
10:15 AM - Press Prep Room
Y/N was reviewing notes when the door opened and Joe walked in. He looked tired but composed, dressed in standard team attire, a baseball cap pulled low over his eyes. For a moment they simply looked at each other, the air between them heavy with unspoken complications.
"Hey," he said finally.
"Hey," Y/N replied, professional mask firmly in place. "You okay?"
"Been better," Joe admitted, taking a seat across from her. "I'm guessing you've heard."
"It's been a busy morning," Y/N confirmed neutrally. "The team's concerned about how to handle the media today."
Joe nodded, studying her with that perceptive gaze she'd come to know so well. "What do you think I should do?"
Y/N took a deep breath, pushing aside every personal feeling to focus on what Joe needed professionally right now.
"I think what happened was an invasion of privacy in more ways than one," she said carefully. "First the break-in itself, then the public speculation. You don't owe anyone anything, Joe. Not explanations, not confirmations, not details about your personal life."
Joe's expression softened slightly. "That's what I figured you'd say."
"The reporters will try to ask," Y/N continued. "They'll find roundabout ways to bring it up. But you can respond the same way you always have when personal matters arise. Redirect to football. Maintain your boundaries. We're not confirming or commenting on anything you don't want to discuss."
"Thank you," Joe said quietly. "For understanding. For not..." he hesitated, "not asking questions yourself."
Y/N felt a flash of hurt at the implied gratitude for her professional distance, when all she wanted was to ask why he'd never once mentioned Ellie during their countless lunches, their growing friendship, their shared confidences. But she pushed it down, focusing on the task at hand.
"That's my job," she said simply. "To help you navigate the public aspects of your career while respecting your private ones."
They spent the next fifteen minutes reviewing likely questions and deflection strategies, maintaining a careful professional rapport that revealed nothing of Y/N's inner turmoil or whatever Joe might be feeling about this unexpected exposure of his private life.
As they finished their prep, Joe paused before standing. "You know, in all these years, you're the only one who's never tried to frame me according to what others want to see. Who's never pushed for more than I wanted to give."
The irony of his gratitude for her professional boundaries when she'd spent years carefully hiding how much more she wanted from him was almost too much to bear.
Something flickered in Joe's expression, a moment of searching, before he nodded and stood. "Right. Let's get this over with."
Press Conference
Y/N stood in the back of the room as Joe stepped up to the podium, dressed in Bengals gear, posture steady, expression unreadable. The media had been buzzing since early morning, the room packed with local and national reporters, every one of them waiting for a chance to ask the question that had consumed the internet overnight.
Before they could.
Joe adjusted the mic slightly, then spoke with calm clarity.
“I know there’s been a lot of attention around my name in the past twenty-four hours. Out of respect for the people involved and for myself, I’m going to say this once. I feel like my privacy has been violated in more ways than one, and way more is already out there than I would want out there and that I care to share.”
He paused, letting the silence settle over the room.
“I’m here to talk about football. That’s what I’ll be answering questions about today.”
The room went still. Not stunned, but quieted. Everyone knew exactly what he meant. He wasn’t dodging. He was drawing a line.
Y/N exhaled slowly, a complicated ache settling in her chest. It wasn’t what they’d written together, but it was unmistakably him, measured, respectful, honest. Joe didn’t deny or explain. He simply protected the parts of his life he hadn’t invited anyone into.
A few reporters tried to pivot back toward the story, but Joe held firm, calmly redirecting every question to Sunday’s matchup, his wrist recovery, the team’s progress. He gave them nothing else.
When it ended, he stepped down from the podium and looked once toward the back of the room. His gaze met Y/N’s for half a second. A silent acknowledgment. Then he was gone.
Sam appeared beside her. "That wasn't what we prepped, but it worked."
"Better than what we prepped," Y/N agreed, her professional assessment genuine despite her personal turmoil. "No one's going to push after that."
"And how are you handling it?" Sam asked quietly, concern evident in her voice. "This can't be easy."
Y/N kept her eyes forward, not trusting herself to maintain composure if she looked at her friend. "I'm fine. It's not about me."
* * *
November 2024 - Bengals Media Office, Later That Day
Y/N sat at her desk, monitoring media coverage of Joe's press conference. His direct statement had effectively shut down the most invasive questions, though speculation about Ellie James continued across social platforms. She was crafting guidance for the social media team when a knock sounded at her open door.
She looked up to find Joe standing there, changed from his press attire into casual team workout gear.
"Got a minute?" he asked.
Y/N nodded, professional mask firmly in place despite the sudden acceleration of her pulse. "Of course."
Joe closed the door behind him and took a seat across from her desk. For a moment, he just studied her, those observant eyes taking in details in a way that had always made Y/N feel simultaneously seen and exposed.
"I went off script," he finally said.
"It was better," Y/N replied honestly. "More authentic. Set a clearer boundary."
Joe nodded, a small smile touching the corner of his mouth. "That's what I figured you'd say." He hesitated, then added, "I wanted to thank you for how you handled everything this morning. Sam mentioned you shut down the suggestions to make some official statement about... everything."
Y/N shrugged, keeping her expression carefully neutral. "I just did what you would have wanted. Protected your privacy."
"You always do," Joe said quietly. "Even when others don't."
An uncomfortable silence settled between them, heavy with unspoken questions. Y/N kept her focus on her professional role, refusing to acknowledge the hurt and confusion swirling beneath her composed exterior.
"The coverage should die down in a soon," she said, gesturing to her monitor. "We'll maintain regular football content, no acknowledgment of the personal angles. The usual approach."
Joe nodded, but made no move to leave. Instead, he leaned forward slightly, his expression shifting to something more serious.
"Look, Y/N... about Ellie."
"You don't owe me any explanations," Y/N interrupted quickly, heart suddenly pounding. "Your personal life is your business."
"I know, but given everything..." Joe trailed off, seeming uncharacteristically uncertain. "We've been friends. Having lunch, talking. It feels weird not to acknowledge it."
Friends. The word stung despite its truth. "It's really okay, Joe. I understand why you'd keep your relationship private. You always have."
Joe studied her face. "It's complicated. More complicated than what people are assuming."
Y/N felt a flicker of something, not quite hope, but curiosity, before she tamped it down. Whatever was happening between Joe and Ellie James, it wasn't her business unless it affected his public image, which was her professional concern.
"Complicated or not, it's yours to share or not share," she said carefully. "On your terms. When and if you want to."
Joe nodded slowly, seeming both grateful and somehow disappointed by her response. "Right. Well, I should let you get back to work."
He stood to leave but paused at the door. "I was thinking maybe we could grab lunch soon. Like we used to. I miss our conversations."
The invitation hit Y/N like a physical force, stirring up the complicated feelings she was trying desperately to compartmentalize. Part of her wanted to accept immediately, hungry for any connection with him. Another part knew that continuing their friendship after last night's revelation would only prolong her heartache.
"Let's see how the schedule looks," she replied, a neutral response that neither accepted nor rejected. "Things are pretty hectic right now."
Something flickered across Joe's face, disappointment, perhaps, before he nodded. "Sure. Just let me know."
After he left, Y/N sat motionless, staring at the door. That conversation had left her more confused than ever. Joe seemed to want to maintain their friendship, perhaps even explain whatever was happening with Ellie, while Y/N was still reeling from discovering the relationship existed at all.
Her phone buzzed with a text from Sam.
Sam: Just saw QB1 leaving your office. You okay?
Y/N: Fine. Just discussing press conference fallout. Professional stuff.
Sam: Available for wine and venting later if needed. No judgment.
Y/N smiled despite herself, grateful for her friend's support.
Y/N: Might take you up on that.
She turned back to her work, focusing on the tangible aspects of her job rather than the emotional complications. Whatever Joe's relationship with Ellie James was, whatever "complicated" meant in this context, Y/N needed to accept that she had been firmly placed in the "friend" category. And perhaps it was time to accept that and establish some healthier boundaries of her own.
That Evening - Sam's Apartment
"So he just showed up at your office to thank you, then vaguely called his relationship with Model Barbie 'complicated'?" Sam asked, refilling Y/N's wine glass. "What does that even mean?"
Y/N sank deeper into Sam's couch, the professional composure she'd maintained all day finally crumbling in the safety of her friend's apartment. "I have no idea. And I didn't ask."
"Why not?" Sam demanded. "After four years of pining—"
"I don't pine," Y/N interrupted defensively.
"Fine, after four years of 'professionally admiring from an appropriate distance,'" Sam amended with air quotes, "don't you deserve some answers? Especially after how close you two got this year?"
Y/N took a long sip of wine. "What would I even say? 'Hey Joe, why didn't you mention your secret girlfriend during all our lunches and conversations?' Or maybe 'Just wondering why you pulled back right when I thought we were getting closer?'"
"Yes!" Sam exclaimed. "Exactly those questions!"
"That's not who we are," Y/N sighed. "I've spent four years respecting his boundaries, his privacy. I can't suddenly demand explanations about his personal life just because I'm hurt."
"But that's the thing," Sam said gently. "You're not just a colleague anymore. You became friends, real friends. And friends tell each other when they start dating someone."
Y/N stared into her wine glass, confronting the truth in Sam's words. "Maybe we weren't as close as I thought."
"Or maybe there's more to the story," Sam suggested. "He called it 'complicated,' right? That's not exactly 'madly in love.'"
"It doesn't matter," Y/N said firmly. "The point is, I've been holding onto this hope that maybe, someday, he might see me as more than a friend or colleague. But the reality is, when he became single, he didn't turn to me. He found someone else. Someone completely separate from his football life."
"And you think that's what he wants? Separation?"
Y/N nodded slowly. "It makes sense. I represent his professional world, the cameras, the documentation, the public scrutiny. Ellie represents something completely different. Something private."
Sam studied her friend's face. "So what are you going to do?"
"My job," Y/N replied simply. "I'll keep doing my job excellently. And I'll start creating some healthier boundaries for myself." She took another sip of wine. "Including not accepting lunch invitations that will only make it harder to move on."
"And if he persists? If he wants to explain this 'complicated' situation?"
Y/N considered the question, recognizing both the temptation and the potential pain. "Then I'll listen. As his friend. But with no expectations beyond that."
Sam seemed skeptical but supportive. "Just promise me you'll prioritize yourself this time, not just his privacy or comfort."
"I'm trying," Y/N admitted. "Four years of habits are hard to break."
As they continued talking, Y/N's phone buzzed with an incoming text. She hesitated before checking it, already knowing who it would be from.
Joe: Just wanted to check how you're doing. Today couldn't have been easy for you either, managing all the fallout. Thanks again for having my back.
The sincerity of his concern, even amid his own privacy crisis, was quintessential Joe Burrow. Y/N stared at the message, debating whether to respond.
"Him?" Sam asked, watching her face.
Y/N nodded.
"What are you going to say?"
After a moment's consideration, Y/N typed a response that embodied her new resolution: friendly but with clearer boundaries.
Y/N: Just doing my job. Everything will settle down soon. Get some rest, we have a game to win Sunday.
She set her phone aside, ignoring the immediate notification of his reply. Tonight was about processing, about beginning to disentangle her heart from the web of hope and expectation she'd woven around Joe Burrow.
Tomorrow would be about moving forward. Professionally excellent as always, but with a new personal awareness that what she'd spent years hoping for simply wasn't going to happen.
It was time to protect her heart as carefully as she'd always protected Joe's privacy.
* * *
November 2024 - Game Day
The stadium hummed with energy as Y/N moved along the sidelines, camera in hand, documenting pre-game preparations. Despite everything, she found comfort in the familiar routines, the professional focus required to capture the right moments, the technical aspects of her job that left little room for emotional distractions.
She had successfully avoided direct interaction with Joe since their office conversation, managing team social media remotely when possible, delegating player-specific content to her staff when appropriate. The distance was self-protective, a necessary step toward accepting that their relationship would never be what she had hoped.
As players took the field for warm-ups, Y/N kept her camera trained on rookies and highlight plays, deliberately avoiding lingering on the quarterback. She was reviewing footage when a voice spoke behind her.
"Avoiding me?"
Y/N turned to find Joe standing there, helmet in hand, pre-game intensity evident in his posture but a question in his eyes.
"Of course not," she replied smoothly. "Just focusing on the content plan."
Joe studied her, that perceptive gaze seeming to see through her professional excuse. "You haven't answered my texts. Declined two lunch invitations. That's new."
Y/N maintained her composed expression despite the confrontation. "It's been a busy week. Lots of media management after everything that happened."
"Right," Joe said, clearly unconvinced. "Y/N, if something's—"
"You're about to play a game," she interrupted gently. "That's where your focus should be. Not on lunch plans or texts."
A mix of frustration and concern crossed his features. "This conversation isn't over. But you're right about the timing."
As he turned to head back toward the team, Y/N called after him. "Joe?"
He looked back.
"Good luck out there."
The corner of his mouth lifted in that subtle smile she knew so well. "Thanks. I'll need it against this defense."
Y/N watched him jog back to the quarterback group, his form perfect, his presence commanding attention without effort. She would always admire that about him—the natural leadership, the focused intensity, the quiet confidence.
But admiration could exist without expectation. Respect without romantic attachment. Professional excellence without personal entanglement.
At least, that's what Y/N was determined to learn.
As the game began, she threw herself into her work, capturing key moments, coordinating with her team, creating the content that brought fans closer to the action. This was what she excelled at. What she had built her career on. What had earned her respect throughout the organization.
And if her heart ached when the camera caught Joe celebrating a touchdown, when he glanced toward the sideline where she stood, when he gave his post-game interview with that mixture of humility and confidence she'd documented for four years—well, that was her burden to bear.
Her phone buzzed with a text as she was packing up her equipment after the game.
Joe: We need to talk. For real this time. Not about work.
Y/N stared at the message, her new resolution already being tested. Every instinct urged her to agree immediately, to hope that "complicated" might somehow explain why he'd kept Ellie a secret from her, even as they'd grown closer as friends.
But the reality was painfully clear. Joe had chosen someone else. Someone young and beautiful, someone entirely separate from his football life. Someone he'd wanted to keep private. The "complicated" aspects of his relationship with Ellie didn't change the fundamental truth: he didn't see Y/N the way she saw him.
Y/N: I'm heading out of town tomorrow. Family visit. Can it wait until next week?
It wasn't technically a lie. She had been planning to visit her brothers sometime soon, and now seemed like the perfect opportunity to gain some distance and perspective.
Joe: If it has to. But Y/N, I hate how things are between us right now.
She paused, fingers hovering over her keyboard, temptation warring with self-protection.
Y/N: We'll talk when I get back. Good game today.
Putting her phone away, Y/N finished packing her equipment, her mind already planning her impromptu trip to Louisville. Maybe time with her family, away from the daily orbit around Joe Burrow, would help her find the strength to maintain a friendship with him while accepting the reality of his relationship with Ellie.
Because one truth had become painfully clear: being Joe Burrow's friend, confidant, and trusted colleague was both a privilege and a form of exquisite torture when you were in love with him.
Something had to change. And since she couldn't change her feelings, she would have to change the dynamics of their relationship, for her own sake.
Even if that meant creating distance where she'd once sought closeness.
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When a reluctant NFL quarterback appears on The Tonight Show after a heartbreaking Super Bowl loss, the last thing he expects is a surprise guest: Riley Carter, chart-topping musician and the celebrity crush he accidentally reveals to millions.
What begins as a viral moment turns into something deeper. Across cities and seasons, tour dates and training camps, Joe and Riley build a relationship through FaceTime calls, quiet reunions, and late-night flights. But when their private romance collides with the public eye, they’re forced to ask:
How do you protect something real when the world wants to claim it?
Hide is about connection in unexpected places, the intimacy of small moments, and the reality that sometimes, love has to learn how to live in the in-between.
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pairing: joe burrow x reader
wc: 1.4k
a/n: @coasttocold i'm working through them! i'm a prethanksgiving decorator so i really enjoyed writing this one.
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"We should put the tree up this weekend."
Joe didn't look up from the playbook spread across the kitchen island. "It's not even Thanksgiving."
You paused in the doorway, mug of coffee halfway to your lips. "So?"
"So we decorate after Thanksgiving." He made a note in the margin, his tone matter-of-fact. "That's how it works."
"That's how you think it works."
"That's how it actually works." He glanced up then, the corner of his mouth twitching. "There's an order to holidays."
You'd been dropping hints all week—lingering a little too long on Instagram posts of decorated living rooms, playing Christmas music while you made dinner, casually mentioning how early it got dark now and how nice some lights would be.
He'd noticed. Of course he'd noticed. Joe noticed everything.
He just wasn't budging.
"We could get it done before your schedule gets completely insane," you tried.
"My schedule is always insane."
"It takes time to decorate properly—"
"It takes three hours, max."
"Everyone else is already decorating—"
"Everyone else is wrong." He said it so simply, so definitively, that you almost laughed.
"You're impossible."
"I'm structured." He returned his attention to the playbook.
--
Over the next few days, you mounted what could only be described as a campaign.
You tried logic: "What if we just do the tree? Not the full decorations?"
Joe raised an eyebrow from where he sat on the couch, watching film on his tablet. "That's worse. That's just delayed decorating."
You tried emotion: "But I love Christmas. Don't you want to enjoy it longer?"
"You'll love it just as much in two weeks," he said, not unkindly. "We'll enjoy it plenty."
You tried negotiation: "What if we get everything ready but don't plug it in until after Thanksgiving?"
He actually laughed at that one. "So we just live in a dark Christmas house for two weeks? That's your compromise?"
"I'm trying to work with you here."
"No, you're trying to manipulate me into decorating early." But there was affection in his voice, the hint of a smile playing at his lips. "I appreciate the effort. Answer's still no."
You put on Christmas music while making dinner. He tolerated it—even hummed along once or twice—but didn't budge.
You showed him pictures of beautifully decorated houses. He glanced at them and said, "Ours looks fine now."
You mentioned how cozy the lights would make everything. He pulled you onto his lap and said, "You're plenty cozy without them."
Which was sweet, and distracting, and completely unhelpful to your cause.
--
By the time Wednesday rolled around—exactly one week before Thanksgiving—you'd accepted defeat.
"Okay," you said that morning, leaning against the kitchen counter while he made coffee. "After Thanksgiving. You win."
Joe paused, the coffee pot hovering mid-pour. "Yeah?"
"Yeah." You shrugged, trying for casual even though you were disappointed. "It's your house too. If after Thanksgiving matters to you, then after Thanksgiving it is."
He studied you for a moment, those sharp eyes cataloging something you couldn't quite read. Then he nodded once and finished pouring. "Okay."
You didn't bring it up again.
Not when you scrolled past Christmas content on your phone. Not when you drove past houses already strung with lights. Not when the home improvement store's holiday section called to you like a siren song.
Joe had drawn a line, and you respected it. That's how relationships worked—sometimes you compromised, even when it stung a little.
Even when all you wanted was to make your home feel like the Christmases you'd dreamed about as a kid.
--
Thursday afternoon, you were curled up on the couch with your laptop, supposedly working but mostly online shopping for gifts, when Joe emerged from his home gym.
"Get the boxes," he said.
You looked up, confused. "What?"
"The Christmas decorations." He stood there in gym shorts and a t-shirt, hair damp with sweat, expression neutral. "Get the boxes."
Your heart did something complicated in your chest. "Joe—"
"Before I change my mind."
You stared at him. "It's not even Thanksgiving."
His mouth twitched. "I'm aware."
"But you said—"
"I know what I said." He crossed to where you sat, still looking down at you with that unreadable expression. "You stopped asking."
"Because you said after Thanksgiving."
"And you accepted that." Something shifted in his face—softened. "You were disappointed, but you accepted it anyway."
You didn't know what to say to that.
"So get the boxes," he said again, gentler this time. "Before I remember I have principles about holiday decorating."
You were off the couch in seconds.
--
The storage was in the garage, and you were already pulling out containers when Joe appeared behind you, taking the heavier boxes from your hands without comment.
"You don't have to do this," you said, even though you were already mentally planning where everything would go. "I know it's not your thing."
"It's your thing." He stacked two boxes and lifted them easily. "That makes it my thing."
The casual way he said it—like it was obvious, like there was no other possible conclusion—made your throat tight.
You followed him inside, arms full of garland.
--
Decorating with Joe was exactly what you'd expected: efficient, methodical, and punctuated by dry commentary.
"That's not straight," he said when you hung the first strand of garland over the mantel.
"It's whimsical."
"It's crooked."
"Whimsically crooked."
He sighed, but you caught the smile he tried to hide as he crossed to fix it.
When you couldn't reach the top of the doorframe for the mistletoe, he appeared behind you without a word, one hand steadying your waist while the other guided yours to the right spot. The heat of him against your back made you forget what you were doing for a second.
"Hanging mistletoe," he murmured against your ear, "seems like a strategic choice."
"I'm very strategic."
His laugh was quiet, breath warm on your neck. "I noticed."
You definitely got distracted after that. The mistletoe could wait.
--
An hour later—after the detour and after you'd both caught your breath—you stood back to assess your progress.
The tree was up but not decorated yet. Garland wound around the stair railing. The mantel had candles and greenery. It wasn't finished, but it was started, and the whole house already felt different.
You glanced at Joe, who was studying the tree with the same focus he usually reserved for defensive schemes.
"Thank you for this," you said quietly.
"It's just decorations."
"It's not just decorations."
He looked at you then, and you could see he understood. That this wasn't about winning an argument or getting your way. It was about the fact that he'd noticed what mattered to you and chosen to care about it too.
"I know," he said simply.
Then he pulled you close, one arm around your waist, and you stood there together looking at your half-decorated house.
"I can't believe you caved," you said after a moment.
"I didn't cave. I reconsidered my position based on new information."
"You caved."
"This is why we don't decorate early." But there was no heat in it. "You get insufferable."
You tilted your head back to look at him. "You love it."
His expression softened in that way it did when he let his guard down. Just for you. Just like this. "Yeah."
--
Later, when the boxes were mostly empty and you were both sprawled on the couch surrounded by tissue paper and tangled lights, you curled into his side and surveyed your work.
The tree lights cast a warm glow across the room. The garland caught the last of the evening sun. It wasn't perfect—you still had ornaments to hang and stockings to put up—but it was exactly what you'd wanted.
"Still think we should've waited?" you asked.
Joe was quiet for a moment, his fingers tracing absent patterns on your shoulder. He looked around—at the lights, the decorations, your face when you smiled at the tree.
"Ask me after Thanksgiving."
You laughed and felt his chest move with his own quiet laughter.
But you saw it in his face: he didn't regret it. Maybe he'd never be a "before Thanksgiving" person by nature, but he was the kind of person who'd break his own rules when it mattered.
Not because you'd worn him down or won an argument.
Because he loved you.
And somehow, the decorations looked better knowing he'd put them up two weeks early just to see you smile.
Outside, the November evening was cold and dark. But inside, surrounded by Christmas lights in mid-November and the man who'd hung them for you, everything felt exactly right.
Could you write a series where Joe meets a princess and they end up having a royal love story? He gives king energy so I feel like it could be fun lol
pairing: joe burrow x princess amélie
wc: 5.8k
warnings: none
a/n: anon, you were right. i had fun writing this. big thank you to my beta @crazytheoriststrawberry for the help. i took some creative joe liberties here — he’s a little ooc from how i usually write him. i hope this is what you were looking for. thanks for the request.
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The luxury suite overlooking SoFi Stadium hummed with controlled energy—dignified conversation in French and English, the clink of champagne flutes, the occasional burst of restrained enthusiasm when something significant happened on the field below. Princess Amélie Montclair stood near the glass, one hand resting lightly on the railing, her attention fixed on the organized chaos unfolding seventy yards away.
Her father, Prince Henri, stood beside her, explaining a play formation with surprising fluency. Her mother and brother conversed with the NFL commissioner and several other dignitaries near the bar. This trip—ostensibly about Monaco's partnership with the league's youth literacy initiative—had turned into something unexpectedly compelling.
She'd expected spectacle. American sports were nothing if not theatrical. What she hadn't expected was to be genuinely captivated.
Specifically, by number nine.
Joe Burrow moved through the pocket with an economy of motion that reminded her of the dancers she'd watched at the ballet—every step deliberate, every gesture purposeful. No wasted energy. No unnecessary flourish. He seemed to exist in a pocket of calm while chaos erupted around him, calling plays with the kind of quiet authority she recognized intimately.
"He's quite good, isn't he?" her father remarked, catching the direction of her gaze.
"He's exceptional," Amélie corrected, watching Burrow release the ball with mechanical precision. Touchdown. The stadium erupted. "The way he commands without demanding attention... it's unusual."
Her father smiled knowingly but said nothing.
Three hours later, the Bengals had won, and Amélie found herself at a reception hosted by the league—the kind of carefully orchestrated diplomatic affair where she smiled, made conversation with sponsors and officials, and represented Monaco with appropriate grace. The venue was elegant but sterile, all polished surfaces and corporate branding. Her security detail maintained their usual perimeter while she navigated the room with practiced ease.
She was accepting a glass of champagne from a server when she noticed a shift in the room's energy—subtle, but unmistakable. Heads turning, conversations pausing just slightly.
Joe Burrow had just walked in.
He wasn't in a suit. He was still in his postgame look—dark joggers, a Bengals hoodie, his hair damp and unstyled. The Super Bowl MVP trophy must have been somewhere safe, but he carried himself with the same calm command she'd observed during the game. He was clearly making an obligatory appearance before heading to whatever real celebration awaited him.
Their eyes met across the room, and something shifted in his expression—recognition, interest, decision. He started toward her with unhurried confidence.
"Your Highness."
Amélie turned fully to face him. Up close, he was taller than she'd expected, his eyes a striking blue-green that seemed to take in everything without obvious effort.
"Mr. Burrow," she replied, offering her hand. "Congratulations. That was a masterclass in composure under pressure."
His handshake was firm, brief. "Thank you. Though I have to say, performing in front of royalty added a layer I wasn't expecting."
There was the barest hint of humor in his voice—dry, understated. She liked it immediately.
"I hope we didn't make you nervous," she said, matching his tone.
"Not nervous," he replied. "Just... aware." His eyes held hers, direct but not challenging. "You know how it is. Always being watched."
Something shifted in her chest. Most people either treated her title like a novelty or tiptoed around it like a barrier. He'd just acknowledged the reality of it—the weight—without making it strange.
"I do," she said simply.
A beat of understanding passed between them. Then he nodded toward a quieter corner, away from the main crowd. "Mind if we...?"
"Please."
They moved toward the windows, and Amélie's security adjusted position smoothly, maintaining visual contact without crowding.
"So," Joe said, "how much of the game did you actually understand, and how much were you just being diplomatic?"
Amélie laughed—a real laugh that surprised her. "More than you'd think. My father played rugby. I grew up understanding strategy and formations. American football isn't so different. That play-action on third down in the second quarter was brilliant, by the way."
Joe's eyebrow lifted slightly. "You caught that?"
"The safety bit hard on the fake. Left the middle wide open." She smiled. "I told you—I understand the game."
"Clearly." There was genuine respect in his voice now, not the patronizing surprise she sometimes got from men when she demonstrated knowledge of sports.
"The literacy initiative," Joe said, shifting topics with the ease of someone used to press conferences. "That's your focus?"
"Children's education, primarily," Amélie confirmed. "Reading, access to books, early childhood development. Monaco is small, but we try to have an outsized impact where we can."
"That matters," Joe said, and she could tell he meant it. "More than people realize."
"You support similar work in Ohio, don't you? I read about your foundation."
His eyebrow lifted slightly. "You did your homework."
"I always do."
Another beat of understanding. Two people who prepared, who took their responsibilities seriously, recognizing that quality in each other.
"Can I ask you something?" Joe said.
"Of course."
"Does it ever feel like performing? The public part of it?"
Amélie considered the question—really considered it, because he'd asked it seriously. "Sometimes," she admitted. "But I think there's a difference between performing and presenting. I'm not pretending to be someone else. I'm just... offering the version of myself that serves the moment."
Joe nodded slowly. "Yeah. That's a good way to put it."
"You do the same thing," she observed. "I saw your post-game interview. You were careful with your words, but you weren't putting on a show."
"Can't afford to be fake," he said. "People see through it eventually."
"Exactly."
They stood in comfortable silence for a moment, both looking out at the city lights. Amélie was acutely aware of how rare this was—a conversation that felt genuine rather than obligatory, with someone who understood the particular weight of living in public view.
"How long are you in Los Angeles?" Joe asked.
"I fly back to Monaco on Wednesday."
"That's three days."
"It is."
He turned to face her fully, and she did the same. His expression was thoughtful, measured, but she caught something else underneath—interest, certainty, maybe both.
"Have dinner with me tomorrow," he said. Not quite a question, but not a demand either.
Amélie felt her pulse kick up slightly. She should be careful. She should consider the optics, the complications, the inevitable media attention. She should do a dozen things that protocol and experience had taught her.
Instead, she said, "Yes."
Joe's mouth curved into a small smile—the kind that seemed like it didn't appear often but meant something when it did.
"I'll text you the details," he said.
"You don't have my number."
"Not yet."
She laughed again, pulling out her phone and handing it to him. He entered his information with quick efficiency, then called himself so he'd have hers.
"There," he said, handing it back. "Now I do."
Someone from the Bengals organization was gesturing to Joe from across the room—time to move to the real celebration. She saw him notice, saw him read the social cues the way he'd read defenses all night.
"Your Highness," he said, formal again but with warmth underneath.
"Amélie," she corrected. "When it's just us, it's Amélie."
Something flickered in his eyes—surprise, pleasure, recognition.
"Amélie," he repeated, like he was testing the weight of it. Then, quieter: "Joe."
"I know," she said, smiling. "Everyone knows."
He smiled at that—a real one, not the careful media version.
She started to turn, then paused. "Joe?"
"Yeah?"
"Thank you for asking seriously. About the performing thing. Most people don't."
He held her gaze. "Most people don't understand it."
"No," she agreed. "They don't."
She walked back to her family, conscious of his eyes following her across the room. When she glanced back from near the exit, he was still watching, and she felt something shift in her chest again—something like recognition, like the beginning of certainty.
Her brother leaned in as they walked toward the elevators. "That was Joe Burrow."
"I know."
"You were talking for twenty minutes."
"I know."
"Amélie—"
"Marc," she said gently, "I know."
But as the elevator doors closed and she saw her reflection in the polished brass, she realized she didn't know. Not really. Didn't know where this would go or what it would mean.
She only knew that for the first time in years, she wanted to find out.
Her phone buzzed in her clutch.
Joe: Tomorrow. 7pm. Somewhere quiet. Just us.
She smiled, typing back quickly before she could overthink it.
Amélie: Perfect.
* * *
Week One: First Private Date
Joe took her to a small Italian restaurant in Santa Monica—the kind of place that didn't advertise, where the owner greeted regulars by name and the kitchen closed at nine. He'd reserved the back patio, strung with simple lights and separated from the main dining room by trailing vines and old brick.
Amélie arrived in jeans and a simple sweater, her hair pulled back, minimal security visible but undoubtedly present. She looked more relaxed than she had at the reception, younger somehow without the formal polish.
"This is perfect," she said, taking in the intimate space.
"Figured we could use somewhere we can actually hear each other," Joe replied, pulling out her chair.
They ordered wine, appetizers, neither of them touched much, and fell into conversation picking up exactly where they'd left off—easy, direct, substantial. She told him about growing up in Monaco, the strange balance of privilege and constraint. He told her about Athens, Ohio, about the weight of expectations that had followed him since high school.
"Do you ever resent it?" Amélie asked, twirling her wine glass. "The pressure?"
Joe considered the question. "Not resent. But I'm aware of it constantly. Every decision gets analyzed. Every mistake gets amplified."
"Yes," she said quietly. "Exactly that."
"You get it," he said, and it wasn't a question.
"I do." She met his eyes across the table. "Most people think visibility is the hardest part. But it's not. It's the constant calculation. Knowing that everything you do reflects on something bigger than yourself."
"And you can never fully turn it off," Joe added.
"Never."
The conversation shifted—lighter topics, shared observations about Los Angeles, travel stories, books they'd both read. Joe found himself laughing more than he had in months, drawn out by her dry humor and the way she listened with complete attention.
As the evening stretched on, the restaurant began closing around them. The owner brought complimentary limoncello with an indulgent smile, clearly charmed by Amélie's genuine thanks in flawless Italian.
"Show off," Joe said when the owner retreated.
"You're one to talk, Mr. Super Bowl MVP."
"That's different."
"How?"
"That's just football."
Amélie laughed. "Just football. Right."
They walked to where his car was parked, the night air cool off the ocean. Joe's hand found the small of her back—casual, protective. When they reached her car, he turned her toward him.
"I'm glad you said yes," he said.
"I'm glad you asked."
He kissed her then. Slow, purposeful. Her hands moved to his shoulders and he pulled her against him, one hand cupping her face.
When they broke apart, both slightly breathless, Amélie smiled. "Well."
"Yeah," Joe agreed.
"When do you fly back to Cincinnati?"
"Wednesday morning. Same as you to Monaco."
She nodded, something shifting in her expression—calculation, decision. "Tuesday, then. I'd like to see you again before we leave."
"Done."
They saw each other twice more before they left Los Angeles—lunch overlooking the ocean where they barely noticed the view, and a last breakfast where neither wanted to acknowledge the approaching separation.
At LAX, standing near the private terminal entrance, Joe pulled her close.
"This doesn't have to end here," he said.
Amélie looked up at him. "No. It doesn't."
"I'll call you tonight."
"You better."
* * *
Week Three: Monaco
Joe landed in Nice on a Thursday afternoon, his brief off-season window carefully guarded. A car met him at the airport—discreet, professional—and wound through the familiar hillsides until Monaco spread below, impossibly pristine against the Mediterranean.
Amélie met him at a private entrance to the palace, no cameras, no fanfare. She wore a simple dress, her smile genuine and immediate.
"Welcome to Monaco," she said.
"Thanks for having me."
She took his hand naturally, leading him inside. The palace was stunning—old world elegance, high ceilings, art that belonged in museums—but she moved through it like it was simply home, pointing out favorite paintings, sharing stories about various rooms with easy familiarity.
"My family is eager to meet you," she said as they walked through a private garden. "But I wanted you to myself first."
"I appreciate that."
They had lunch on a terrace overlooking the sea, just the two of them, catching up on the weeks apart. They'd talked every day—texts, calls, the occasional FaceTime—but being in the same space again felt different. Settled something that distance had left unsettled.
"Tonight," Amélie said, "dinner with my parents. Nothing formal. Just... dinner."
"I can do dinner."
"They're going to like you," she assured him.
"How do you know?"
"Because I like you. And they trust my judgment."
That evening, Joe met Prince Henri and Princess Catherine in a private dining room that felt more like a well-appointed home than a palace. Henri was warm, direct, asking about football with genuine interest. Catherine was elegant and observant, her eyes moving between Joe and her daughter with maternal assessment.
"Amélie mentioned your foundation work," Catherine said over the main course. "Mental health and hunger, yes?"
"Yes, ma'am. Youth mental health and food insecurity. They're connected—kids can't focus on learning if they're dealing with anxiety or don't know where their next meal is coming from."
"Amélie sees the same thing," Henri noted. "The children who struggle most in her literacy programs are often facing exactly those challenges."
Joe glanced at Amélie. "Hard to read when you're just trying to survive."
"Precisely," she said quietly.
The dinner stretched for hours—wine, conversation, stories. Marc, Amélie's brother, joined for dessert and immediately began grilling Joe about playoff strategy. By the end of the evening, Joe felt less like he was performing and more like he was simply... present.
"Walk with me," Amélie said after they'd said goodnight to her family.
She led him through the gardens to an overlook where Monaco spread below them, lights reflecting off the harbor. The air was soft, scented with jasmine and salt.
"They loved you," she said.
"You sound surprised."
"I'm not. But I'm relieved." She turned to face him. "This is moving fast, Joe."
"I know."
"Does that scare you?"
He considered the question honestly. "No. Should it?"
"Most people would say yes."
"I'm not most people. Neither are you."
Amélie smiled. "No. We're not."
He pulled her close, and they stood there for a long moment, the city quiet below them, the future uncertain but somehow less daunting together.
"How long can you stay?" she asked against his chest.
"Four more days."
"Then we'll make them count."
They did. Joe met the children at one of her literacy centers, watching her read stories in three languages, her warmth genuine and unscripted. She showed him her favorite hidden spots in Monaco—quiet cafes, art galleries, a bookshop where she'd spent hours as a child. They had dinner with her friends, walked the waterfront at night, stole moments of privacy where they could.
On his last evening, they sat in her private sitting room—her space within the palace, comfortable and personal. Books everywhere, soft furniture, photos of family and friends.
"I don't want you to go," she admitted.
"I don't want to leave."
"But you have to."
"Yeah."
She curled against him, his arm around her shoulders. "We'll figure this out."
"We will," he agreed, believing it.
* * *
Week Five: Cincinnati
Amélie arrived in Cincinnati on a cold March afternoon, her visit carefully scheduled around Joe's training obligations. He met her at the private terminal himself, no driver, no fanfare.
"Welcome to Ohio," he said, pulling her into a kiss that had been weeks in the making.
"It's freezing," she said, laughing.
"It's March. This is warm for us."
His house was exactly what she'd expected—modern, minimal, clean lines and empty walls. Functional but not particularly personal.
"Joe," she said, looking around. "Do you actually live here?"
"What's wrong with it?"
"Nothing's wrong with it. It's just... stark."
"I call it minimal."
"I call it sad." But she was smiling, already imagining how to add warmth. "We're fixing this."
"We?"
"Yes, we. You're not living in a museum."
That evening, Joe brought her to meet his parents at a local spot—upscale enough to feel special but still comfortable. Robin and Jimmy were instantly warm, treating her like someone they'd known for years rather than royalty they'd just met. “So you’re the princess our son won't shut up about," Robin said with a knowing smile.
Amélie laughed. "He talks about me?"
"Constantly," Jimmy confirmed. "It's actually annoying."
Joe just shook his head, but his hand found Amélie's under the table.
The dinner was easy, full of laughter and stories. Robin asked about Monaco, genuinely curious. Jimmy wanted to know about European football—soccer—and seemed delighted when Amélie admitted she found American football more strategic.
"She's a keeper," Robin told Joe pointedly as they left.
"I know, Mom."
Over the next few days, Amélie integrated into Joe's world with surprising ease. She came to his training sessions, unbothered by the cold or the early mornings. She charmed his teammates—Ja'Marr especially, who immediately adopted her as a little sister and appointed himself their unofficial bodyguard.
"You're good for him," Ja'Marr told her one afternoon. "He's different. Lighter."
"He's good for me too," she replied.
* * *
One night, curled up on his couch—the only truly comfortable piece of furniture in his house—Amélie brought up the thing they'd been dancing around.
"We need to talk about logistics," she said.
"I know."
"You have your season. I have obligations in Monaco. We live on different continents."
"I know," he repeated.
"So what do we do?"
Joe was quiet for a moment, his fingers tracing patterns on her arm. "We make it work. I can fly to you during bye weeks. You can come here when you're able. It's not ideal, but—"
"But it's worth it," she finished.
"Yeah. It is."
She kissed him then, slow and deep, trying to convey everything she felt but hadn't quite said yet.
"I'm falling in love with you," she whispered against his mouth.
Joe pulled back just enough to meet her eyes. "Good. Because I'm already there."
* * *
Week Six: The Moment They Know
It happened on a Tuesday night, three weeks after Cincinnati. Joe was in his home gym, finishing a late workout when his phone rang. Amélie's name lit up the screen.
"Hey," he answered, immediately hearing the strain in her breathing.
"Hi. Sorry, is this a bad time?"
"Never." He sat on the bench, giving her his full attention. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing. Everything. I don't know." She sighed. "We had this state dinner tonight. Five hours of making conversation, smiling for photos, being 'on.' And all I could think about was how much I wanted to call you."
"So you called me."
"So you called you," she confirmed. "Tell me about your day. Something normal."
So he did. Told her about training, about the new plays they were installing, about Ja'Marr giving him grief about being a homebody again. Nothing profound, just the details of his day. And he could hear her relaxing, breathing easier.
"Better?" he asked after a while.
"Much. You steady me, you know that?"
"You do the same for me."
There was a pause, comfortable but weighted with realization.
"Joe," Amélie said quietly, "I think we're going to do this."
"Do what?"
"This. Us. The whole complicated, impossible thing."
"It's not impossible."
"No," she agreed. "It's not."
"Amélie?"
"Yes?"
"I'm going to marry you."
The words hung in the air between them, certain and inevitable. Not a proposal, just a statement of fact.
"I know," she said softly. "I'm going to marry you too."
They stayed on the phone for another hour, talking about nothing and everything, both knowing something fundamental had shifted. Not a decision made, but a future acknowledged.
When they finally hung up, Joe sat in his gym for a long moment, his phone still in his hand. Then he opened his calendar, looking at the next training break.
Two days later, he called the palace.
"I'd like to request a meeting with Prince Henri and Princess Catherine," Joe said. "In Monaco. As soon as possible."
The palace secretary didn't miss a beat. "I'll coordinate with Their Highnesses and get back to you within the hour, Mr. Burrow."
The meeting was scheduled for the following week. Joe told Amélie he had some business in Europe, but kept it vague. She didn't push, used to the demands of his schedule.
When Joe landed in Nice, a car was waiting. Not the usual driver, but one of Henri's personal staff. The meeting had been arranged in one of the palace's private drawing rooms—intimate, away from any official business.
Henri and Catherine were both waiting when Joe arrived. Catherine's knowing smile told him she'd already guessed why he'd come.
"Your Highnesses," Joe began once they were all seated. "I'll keep this brief. I love your daughter. I want to marry her. And I'm here to ask for your blessing."
Henri and Catherine exchanged a glance—one of those wordless conversations that came from decades of marriage.
"You've known each other six weeks," Henri said, though his tone wasn't disapproving.
"Yes, sir."
"That's fast," Catherine added gently. "Even by modern standards."
"It is," Joe agreed. "But I've never been more certain of anything in my life."
"Not even football?" Henri asked.
"Not even football."
Catherine leaned forward slightly. "What makes you so certain?"
Joe considered the question—really considered it, because they deserved his honesty. "She understands the weight of living for something bigger than yourself. The constant scrutiny, the expectations. But she also makes me feel like I can just be myself." He paused. "And I'd like to think I do the same for her."
"You do," Catherine said immediately. "We've seen the difference in her."
Henri stood, walking to the window that overlooked the gardens. "Amélie has always known her own mind. From the time she was a child, when she decided something, it was decided. No wavering." He turned back to Joe. "She's decided on you."
"I hope so, sir."
"She has," Catherine confirmed. "We both can see it."
Henri returned to his desk, opened a drawer, and pulled out a small velvet box. Catherine's eyes immediately softened.
"This belonged to my mother," Catherine said quietly. "She wore it for sixty years of marriage."
Henri opened the box. Inside was a ring—Art Deco, elegant, a central diamond flanked by smaller stones in a platinum setting. Unmistakably vintage, unmistakably royal, but not ostentatious.
"Amélie was very close to her grandmother," Catherine continued. "She would be honored to wear this."
Joe took the box carefully, understanding the weight of what they were entrusting to him. "I—thank you. Both of you."
"You have our blessing," Henri said, extending his hand. "And our support. This won't be an easy life—the scrutiny, the distance, the logistics. But we believe you're prepared for it."
"We believe you're right for each other," Catherine added, rising to embrace Joe warmly. "Welcome to the family, Joe."
Joe shook Henri's hand, then accepted Catherine's hug, the weight of the moment settling over him. "Thank you. I won't let her down."
"We know you won't," Catherine said, stepping back. "She wouldn't have chosen you if you would."
Joe flew back to Cincinnati the next day, the ring secured in his carry-on, a plan forming in his mind about when and how to ask.
He didn't have to wait long.
* * *
Two weeks later, Joe was back in Monaco.
He'd told Amélie he had a few days off and wanted to see her—nothing unusual, they'd been stealing time together whenever they could. She'd been delighted, immediately clearing her schedule as much as possible.
It was their second morning together. The first day had been spent catching up—dinner with her family, a late night talking in her sitting room, falling asleep tangled together in her bed. Easy. Comfortable. Right.
Now it was Saturday morning, unseasonably warm for April. They'd slept late, had breakfast brought up to her private quarters—coffee, pastries, fruit neither of them touched much. Amélie was curled up in the corner of her sofa, bare legs tucked under one of Joe's t-shirts she'd claimed as her own, reading a book she'd been trying to finish for weeks.
Joe sat across from her in an armchair, ostensibly looking at his phone but mostly just watching her. The morning light caught in her hair, and she had that small crease between her eyebrows she always got when she was focused. She'd laugh at something on the page occasionally, or make a small noise of disapproval, completely unselfconscious.
This, he thought. This was what he wanted forever.
The ring was in his pocket. Had been since he'd arrived yesterday. He'd thought about elaborate plans—sunset on the terrace, somewhere meaningful, something orchestrated. But watching her now, comfortable and unguarded in her own space, he realized he didn't want orchestrated.
He wanted this. Real. Simple. Them.
"Amélie."
She looked up, marking her page with her finger. "Hmm?"
"Marry me."
For a moment, she didn't move. Just looked at him, the book still in her hand, her expression shifting from casual to something else entirely—surprise, recognition, certainty.
"What?" she said softly.
Joe stood, crossing to the sofa. He pulled the velvet box from his pocket and opened it.
Amélie's breath caught. Her free hand came up to cover her mouth as she stared at the ring—her grandmother's ring—gleaming in its vintage setting.
"That's—" she started, her voice breaking slightly.
"Your grandmother's," Joe confirmed, sitting beside her. "Your father gave it to me two weeks ago when I flew to Monaco to ask for his blessing."
"You asked my father?" Tears were already gathering in her eyes.
"Of course I did." He took her hand, the one not covering her mouth. "Amélie, I've known for weeks that I want to spend my life with you. I know it's fast. I know it's complicated. I know we'll have to figure out a thousand logistical things. But I've never been more certain of anything."
She set the book down with trembling hands, both of them now gripping his.
"You're everything I didn't know I needed," he continued, his voice steady and sure. "You understand the pressure, the expectations, what it means to live for something bigger than yourself. But you also make me feel like I can just... be. Not the quarterback, not the face of the franchise. Just Joe."
"Joe," she whispered, tears spilling over now.
"I love you," he said simply. "I want to build a life with you. I want to figure out how to split time between Monaco and Cincinnati. I want to support your work and have you support mine. I want mornings like this for the rest of my life." He paused, his thumb brushing over her knuckles. "So. Marry me."
Amélie let out a sound between a laugh and a sob. "You really asked my parents?"
"Two weeks ago."
"And they gave you my grandmother's ring?"
"Your mom said she'd want you to have it."
"Joe Burrow," she said, shaking her head in wonder. "You really just proposed to me on a random Saturday morning while I'm wearing your t-shirt and haven't even brushed my hair."
"Yeah," he said, a small smile playing at his mouth. "Is that a problem?"
"No," she said immediately, emphatically. "No, it's perfect. It's so perfect for us." She cupped his face with both hands. "Yes. God, yes. Of course I'll marry you."
Joe slipped the ring onto her finger—a perfect fit, like it had been waiting for her. Amélie stared at it for a moment, this piece of her grandmother now sitting on her hand, connecting past to future.
Then she kissed him, deep and certain, tasting like coffee and tears and promise.
When they broke apart, both slightly breathless, she laughed—pure joy, unrestrained.
"We're engaged," she said, like she was testing the words.
"We're engaged," Joe confirmed.
"My mother is going to cry."
"Your father already looked a little misty when he gave me the ring."
"Did he?" Amélie grinned. "He likes you so much. They both do."
"Good. Because I'm not going anywhere."
She kissed him again, softer this time. "Six weeks ago, I watched you win the Super Bowl and thought you were impressive. Now I'm going to marry you."
"When you know, you know," Joe said simply.
"Yes," Amélie agreed, looking at the ring again, then back at him. "You do."
They stayed on the sofa for a long time after that, wrapped around each other, talking about the future in the same direct, certain way they'd talked about everything else. No pretense, no performance. Just two people who'd found in each other something rare and necessary.
Eventually, Amélie's phone started buzzing insistently on the side table.
"That's my mother," she said, not moving to answer it. "Your father probably called mine."
"Probably," Joe agreed. "You going to get it?"
"In a minute." She settled more firmly against his chest. "I want this to be just ours for a little longer."
Joe pressed a kiss to the top of her head. "Take all the time you need."
But Amélie was already sitting up, reaching for her phone with her left hand—the ring catching the light. She paused, looking at it again, then at Joe.
"I love you," she said. "I'm going to love you for a very long time."
"Good," Joe replied. "Because I'm planning on forever."
She smiled—bright and certain and entirely his. "Forever works for me."
When she finally answered her mother's call, Catherine's delighted tears were audible even to Joe. Plans would need to be made, announcements coordinated, logistics figured out. There would be press and scrutiny and complications.
But sitting in Amélie's private sitting room, the morning sun streaming through the windows, her grandmother's ring on her finger and Joe's arm around her shoulders, none of that seemed daunting.
Just the beginning of something they'd both been certain of since that first night in Los Angeles—when a quarterback and a princess recognized in each other the same quiet strength, the same understanding of duty, the same capacity for love that didn't need to be loud to be absolute.
pairings: joe burrow x riley carter (oc) 🐩🎸🤘🌙
wc: 6.4k (she's pretty long)
an: y'all. this has been in the drafts since the Hide days. i cannot tell you how excited i am to finally put it out. even if only two people are interested in this sucker, it brought me so much joy to write, and i've been having a pretty low couple of weeks energy-wise so i really needed this one. i've gotten so many amazing requests for the Foundverse and i want to thank everyone who's sent them in. keep them coming, even if it's just small little blurbs. i love joe and riley and writing for them. 🤍
JOE
Barbie had been asleep since seven.
Full dead weight—fifty pounds of curly brown poodle—draped across Joe’s thighs, claiming them entirely. One ear was flipped inside out. Her paws twitched every now and then as she chased something in her sleep, something she’d never catch awake. Joe had stopped trying to reach his phone twenty minutes ago. It was pinned somewhere under her, out of reach. When he shifted, she’d given one low grumble to make it clear that retrieving it wasn’t going to happen.
So he just sat there.
Riley’s living room was loud. Not music-loud. Not yet. But people loud. The kind of noise that happened when Riley and the guys got going. When a plan that had existed on a group chat for weeks finally became real. The energy shifted from casual to almost manic.
Pete was in the kitchen, shirtless for reasons never explained, digging through a drawer for a bottle opener. He was explaining to Andy why the band’s second EP was “objectively better” than their first. Andy sat cross-legged on the floor next to the record player. He rolled a joint on the back of a vinyl sleeve with the kind of focus Joe usually reserved for game film. Daniel was on the other end of the couch, quiet as always. He nursed a beer and scrolled his phone. Every now and then, he’d look up at Pete and Andy, smile faintly, and look back down.
Riley was somewhere between the bedroom and the bathroom. Joe could track her movements by sound: the click of her uncapping a bottle, the scrape of a drawer opening, her voice drifting down the hall when Pete yelled a question she didn’t fully answer. She’d been in the bathroom for a while. This usually meant she was halfway through getting ready, had become distracted by a song playing on her phone, and sat on the bathroom floor for ten minutes before realizing she was supposed to be getting dressed.
He knew her routine better than she thought he did.
Pete found the bottle opener, cracked two beers, handed Andy one without looking, and kept talking. “I’m just saying, the production on the first one was clean, but it didn’t have any grit. The second one sounds like they recorded it in a crawl space, and that’s the whole point.”
“The first one has better songs, though,” Andy said, not looking up from his work.
“Better hooks. Not better songs. There’s a difference.”
“There’s not.”
“Daniel.” Pete pointed across the room. “Tell him.”
Daniel glanced up from his phone. Took a sip of his beer. “I’m not getting involved.”
“You’re already involved, you’re sitting right there.”
Daniel looked at Joe. Joe looked at Daniel. Neither said anything. Daniel went back to his phone.
Joe liked Daniel.
The joint was rolled. Andy lit it, took a pull, passed it to Pete, who accepted it mid-sentence without breaking stride. The kitchen was starting to smell sweet and heavy. It mixed with whatever Riley had sprayed in the bathroom and the general scent of her house: candles, dog, old wood, and something that was just her.
Joe watched all of it from the couch. Barbie hadn’t moved. His legs were going numb.
This was the plan: they were going. He was staying. That had been the arrangement since the show was added to the group calendar two weeks ago. Riley had asked once, casually, if he wanted to come. Joe had said, “I’m good” in the way that meant, “Have fun, I’ll be here.” And that was fine. He meant it. He didn’t need to go to a punk show. He didn’t know the band or the venue. He was perfectly content to sit on this couch, with this dog, and wait for Riley to come home—buzzing and happy, smelling like a venue—and crawl into bed next to him.
That was the plan.
Except now it was nine o’clock. The house was full of noise. Riley laughed about something down the hall. Pete was getting louder. Andy passed the joint to Daniel, who took one hit and passed it back. Joe looked down at Barbie, asleep, dead to the world. Not a single thought happened behind that curly face. He thought: I don’t want to be here when they leave.
Which was stupid because this wasn't his thing. At all. Joe listened to rap. He knew rap. He could hold a conversation about it, argue about albums and producers, and who fell off and who didn’t. He’d been to shows where the bass hit your sternum, and everybody knew every word, and it made sense to him. The energy, the production, the structure of it. It tracked.
Punk was... he didn’t even know what punk was, really. He knew what it sounded like. Riley played it around the house sometimes, and it always sounded like someone was angry at their instruments. Fast and loud and formless in a way that made his brain itch because he couldn’t find the pattern. He’d asked Riley once what the appeal was, and she’d looked at him like he’d asked why people breathe.
But Pete did something with his hands while he talked that reminded Joe of how Ja’Marr got before a game. Andy hummed something under his breath. It wasn’t a melody so much as a feeling. Riley laughed again from down the hall, bright and unguarded. The kind of excited that made her careless and loud and herself.
And Joe was on a couch. With a sleeping dog. On a Saturday.
He didn't let himself spiral. If he did, he'd talk himself right out of it. Like every other time.
So he just blurted it out, almost surprising himself.
“Can I come?”
It came out quieter than he intended. Pete didn’t hear him. Andy didn’t hear him. Daniel heard him. Daniel always heard everything. He looked up from his phone and gave Joe a look that was either surprise or amusement or both, but said nothing.
Joe cleared his throat. Slightly louder. “Hey. Can I come tonight?”
Pete stopped mid-sentence. Turned from the kitchen with a beer in each hand. Andy looked up from the floor. The joint was burning between his fingers, forgotten.
A beat. Then Pete’s whole face changed.
“WAIT. Are you serious?”
“I mean.” Joe looked down at Barbie. “She’s been out since seven. I’m not sitting here alone on a Saturday.”
“YES.” Pete set both beers down on the counter too hard. “Yes. You’re coming. This is happening.”
“I just asked if—”
“No, it’s decided. You said it. It’s done. You can’t take it back.”
Joe looked at Daniel. Daniel shrugged one shoulder. You did say it.
Riley’s voice came from the hallway. “What’s happening? Why is Pete yelling?”
“I’m always yelling,” Pete said.
“He’s not wrong,” Andy murmured.
Riley appeared in the doorway of the living room. Half-ready. Mascara on one eye. Hair clipped up in that way that meant she wasn’t finished with it. Oversized t-shirt, she was clearly about to change out of. She looked at Pete, at Andy, at Daniel, at Joe.
“What?”
Pete pointed at Joe as if he were presenting evidence to a jury. “He wants to come.”
Riley’s face opened up. This warm, immediate brightness she didn’t try to manage. She looked at Joe, and her whole expression went soft.
“You really want to come with us, lovey?”
Giving him the out if he wanted it while making it very clear she hoped he wouldn’t take it.
Joe shrugged. Barbie shifted on his lap, resettled, and didn’t wake up. “She’s been out since seven. I’m not sitting here alone on a Saturday.”
Riley tilted her head. Studied him for a second. Then she crossed the room, leaned down over Barbie, and kissed him. Soft. Unhurried. Her hand on his jaw, thumb brushing his cheek. She tasted like the wine she’d been drinking while she got ready. She smelled like that vanilla perfume she wore. When she pulled back, her face was right there, close enough that only he could hear her.
“This makes me really happy. Just so you know.”
Then she straightened up, turned toward the hallway, and pointed at his feet without looking back. “Wear shoes you don’t care about.”
She disappeared into the bathroom. Joe heard the door close. Then, muffled, what sounded a lot like a small, private laugh.
“I call shotgun,” Pete said.
“That’s Riley’s seat,” Andy said.
“Not tonight, it’s not.” Pete grabbed his beer back off the counter. “Tonight I have things to discuss with this man. Riley can have a shotgun on the way home. This is important.”
Andy looked at Joe. “You know what you just signed up for, right?”
Joe carefully lifted Barbie off his lap. She woke halfway, blinked at him with enormous brown eyes, circled once, and collapsed onto the warm spot he’d left on the cushion.
“No,” Joe said. “Not really.”
Andy grinned. “Good luck.”
RILEY
She’d been robbed of shotgun, and she didn’t even care.
Pete had planted himself in the front seat before Joe even had his keys out. He connected his phone to the Bluetooth. He was already pulling up whatever playlist he’d been building in his head since Tuesday. He had that look—the one that meant he was about to be a lot.
Riley climbed in behind Joe. Andy slid in next to her, smelling like weed and the cologne he always put on too late. Daniel took the other side, the window seat, already leaning his head against the glass.
Joe started the car. He adjusted his mirrors and did the thing where he checked all of them twice before pulling out—like they were about to merge onto a runway instead of Riley’s street.
Pete didn’t even wait for them to hit the end of the block.
“Okay. So.” He turned in his seat to face Joe, one leg tucked under him, completely ignoring his seatbelt. “You need context.”
“I really don’t.”
“You really do.” Pete was already hitting play. The opening track was fast and messy, and the vocals came in like someone falling down stairs. “This is from the second EP. The one I was telling Andy about. Ignore the production, it’s supposed to sound like that.”
Joe’s face did something very subtle. A slight tightening around his eyes.
Riley pressed her lips together and looked out the window.
“The guitarist used to be in this other band, doesn’t matter which one, but he brought this whole different energy when he joined. Like, before that, they were more straightforward, more like... I don’t know, garage punk but tighter. And then he came in and everything got weirder and heavier and way more interesting.”
“Weirder and heavier,” Joe repeated.
“Just listen.” Pete turned it up. The bass was rattling something in the dashboard. “This part right here. Hear how the drums drop out?”
“I hear all of it,” Joe said. “At once.”
Andy snorted next to Riley. She bit down on her knuckle.
“No, but that’s the thing.” Pete was undeterred. He was never deterred. “It’s not supposed to be separated out. You’re not supposed to hear the parts. You’re supposed to feel the whole thing. It’s not like... It’s not a track, it’s a wave.”
“A wave,” Joe said.
“Yes.”
“With screaming.”
“It’s not screaming. It’s... elevated vocals.”
From the backseat, Daniel, without looking up from his phone: “It’s screaming.”
“TRAITOR.”
Riley lost it. Full laugh, the kind that came from her stomach and made Andy flinch because it was right in his ear. Joe’s eyes flicked to the rearview. Found hers. Held them for half a second. The corner of his mouth moved just enough.
He was enjoying this.
Pete recovered fast. He always did. “Okay, forget the EP. Let me play you the single they dropped last month. This one’s more accessible.”
“Accessible,” Joe said, like he was learning a new language.
“For you. Accessible for you.”
“What does that mean?”
“It means it has a hook.”
“The other ones don’t have hooks?”
Pete paused. Genuinely considered this. “They have... moments.”
“Moments.”
“Will you stop repeating what I say?”
“Will you start making sense?”
Andy was crying. Actual tears. Riley had her face buried in his shoulder, and her whole body was shaking. Daniel had turned toward the window, but his shoulders were moving.
Pete played the single. It was marginally less chaotic. There was a melody in there somewhere, buried under distortion and a drummer who seemed personally offended by the concept of a time signature. Joe listened. His head didn’t move, his fingers didn’t tap on the steering wheel, but Riley could see him processing it. Trying to find something to hold onto in the noise.
“It’s fast,” Joe said finally.
Pete waited for more. More didn’t come.
“That’s it? It’s fast?”
“It’s very fast.”
“Joe.”
“What do you want me to say? It sounds like a car accident in a guitar store.” He said it completely flat. No malice. Like he was describing the weather.
Pete turned to the backseat. “Riley. Your boyfriend.”
Riley held up both hands. “I didn’t make him come. He volunteered.”
“I’m regretting that,” Joe said. But he was almost smiling.
Pete turned back around, shaking his head, already queuing up something else. “Okay. Okay. I’m going deeper. I’m going to their first stuff. Before the second guitarist. Raw, uncut. If this doesn’t hit you, I don’t know what to tell you.”
“You could tell me nothing,” Joe offered. “That’s an option.”
“It’s not, though.” Pete pressed play. “Not tonight.”
* * *
They were somewhere on the 101 when Joe finally asked.
“What’s the venue called again?”
“The Smell,” Pete said, like it was a normal thing to say.
Joe waited. Nobody elaborated.
“The Smell.”
“Yeah.”
“That’s the name.”
“That’s the name.”
Joe looked in the rearview. Riley was grinning at him. Andy had his eyes closed but was smiling. Daniel was still looking out the window, but his shoulders were doing the thing again.
“Why is it called The Smell?”
Pete and Andy answered at the same time.
“You’ll know when you walk in.”
“It smells like shit.”
Pete turned around. “I was trying to let him experience it organically.”
“It smells like shit, Pete. That’s the experience.”
“It doesn’t smell like shit,” Riley said, leaning forward between the seats. “It smells like... history.”
“History that smells like shit,” Andy said.
“It smells like a hundred bands have sweated in a room with no ventilation for twenty years,” Daniel said quietly, still facing the window. “Because that’s exactly what happened.”
Riley was quiet for a beat. Then she sat up straight, put on the voice, the one Joe recognized immediately.
“The smell... that smells... smelly.”
Andy wheezed. Pete slapped the dashboard. Daniel actually laughed out loud, which almost never happened.
Joe just looked at her in the rearview. Held her gaze for exactly two seconds.
“Alright, SpongeBob.”
Riley beamed at him. The kind that crinkled everything and showed all her teeth and made her look like she was seventeen and getting away with something.
* * *
Riley settled back into her seat. Andy passed her what was left of the joint, and she took a small hit, let it sit, let it go. The car was warm and loud, and Pete was on a mission, and Joe was driving with both hands on the wheel, absorbing Pete’s lecture with the patience of a man who’d sat through a thousand press conferences and knew how to let someone talk without giving anything away.
But every now and then, his eyes came to the rearview. And every time, they found her first.
She’d dated musicians her whole adult life. She’d been with people who lived inside music, who breathed it, who could talk about chord progressions and production until the sun came up. Joe couldn’t do any of that. He didn’t know this world. He’d asked her once what the appeal of punk was, and she’d stared at him like he’d asked her why she needed oxygen.
But he was here. In the car. Driving. Sober, because someone had to be. Letting Pete yell at him about a band he’d never heard of, wearing shoes he didn’t care about, because he didn’t want to sit on the couch anymore while she went somewhere without him.
Andy nudged her with his elbow. Said nothing.
Riley looked at the back of Joe’s head. The line of his neck. His hands on the wheel.
The car turned onto the freeway, and Pete was still talking, and the music was still loud, and Joe merged into traffic like this was any other Saturday night.
JOE
The Smell did not look like a venue.
It looked like a place you’d walk past on purpose. A storefront on a block that didn’t seem to know what it wanted to be. No marquee. No bouncer. Just a door, a handful of people smoking outside, and a hand-lettered sign that Joe had to squint at to confirm was real.
He parked on the street. Pete was out of the car before the engine was off.
Andy took his time. Stretched in the street. Looked at Joe over the roof of the car with a grin.
Daniel was already walking. Hands in his pockets, unhurried, the way Daniel did everything.
Riley came around to Joe’s side. Took his hand. Her fingers sliding between his like they belonged there. Her eyes were bright from the weed, and the wine, and the excitement, and she looked up at him and squeezed once.
“You good?”
“I’m good.”
“It’s going to be loud.”
“I’ve been in stadiums.”
“It’s not the same kind of loud.”
Then she pulled him toward the door.
There was no ticket counter. No scanner. A guy at the door with a stamp and a cashbox. Eight dollars. Cash. Joe had to dig a bill out of his wallet because he couldn’t remember the last time he’d paid for anything with paper money.
Riley tugged him through the entrance, and the smell hit him first.
It was exactly what they said it would be.
Sweat. Old beer. Something underneath both of those that had probably been there since the building went up. The kind of smell that had settled into the walls and made peace with itself a long time ago.
Joe breathed through his mouth. Didn’t say anything.
Riley looked up at him. “Don’t.”
“I didn’t say anything.”
“Your face said it.”
“My face is neutral.”
“Your face is offended.”
She was right. He rearranged it.
The room was small. Smaller than he expected. Low ceiling, no real stage, just a slightly raised platform against the back wall with amps and a drum kit that looked like it had survived several wars. The floor was concrete. The walls were covered in flyers, stickers, and what might have been graffiti or art. The lighting was just whatever was already on.
And it was packed. Wall to wall. People pressed into every corner, talking over each other. Joe was taller than almost everyone in the room. He could see over the entire crowd, which meant the entire crowd could theoretically see him, but nobody was looking. Nobody cared.
Riley still had his hand. She pulled him through the crowd like she had GPS for this specific room, weaving between people, knowing exactly where she wanted to be. Close to the front but not at the barrier. Off to the side just enough.
She knew this place. She’d done this before. Probably a hundred times.
People kept recognizing her. Not Joe. Her. A girl with blue hair grabbed Riley’s arm, and they screamed at each other for thirty seconds in a way that seemed to communicate actual information. A guy in a denim vest covered in patches nodded at her, and she nodded back. Someone handed her a beer from somewhere, and she took it without questioning the source, which made Joe’s brain short-circuit a little.
She introduced him to everyone. Just “this is Joe.” Not his last name. Not what he did. Just Joe. People said hey. A couple of them shook his hand. One girl looked him up and down and said, “Cool shirt,” and Joe glanced down at himself like he’d forgotten what he put on. The black cattaco shirt. A cat in a taco. Riley had bought it for him as a joke months ago, and he’d worn it enough times that it wasn’t a joke anymore.
“Thanks,” he said.
The girl nodded like he’d passed some kind of test. Riley pulled him forward, grinning into his shoulder.
Pete materialized out of the crowd, somehow already holding two beers. He shoved one into Joe’s free hand. “Opener’s about to start. Stay close to us until the main set, then me and Andy are going in.”
“Going in where?”
Pete just grinned and disappeared again.
“The pit,” Riley said.
“The pit.”
“You’ll see it.”
Joe took a sip of the beer Pete had handed him. It was warm already. He didn’t ask any more questions.
* * *
The opener was three songs in before Joe even realized they’d started. It was just noise, then slightly more organized noise, and then a band. The singer was screaming into a microphone that was feeding back, and the guitarist was playing like he owed the instrument money, and the drummer was hitting everything, including things that weren’t drums.
Joe stood behind Riley and watched the room change.
It started at the front. People pushing forward, pressing toward the platform, the energy tightening like a coil. Then it spread backward in waves. Movement, bodies, the crowd becoming one thing that breathed and surged in a rhythm Joe couldn’t predict. He’d seen sixty thousand people move in a stadium, and it had never felt like this. This was smaller, hotter, and closer.
Riley was moving in front of him. Not dancing. Swaying. Shifting her weight. Her head bobbed to something he couldn’t find in the chaos. She knew the opener. She was mouthing words.
The opener finished. The room got louder somehow, everyone talking at once. Pete reappeared, drenched and grinning.
“That was just the opener.”
“I’m aware,” Joe said.
“You doing okay?”
Joe looked down at him. “I’ve taken hits from three-hundred-pound linemen.”
Pete clapped him on the shoulder. “This is going to be worse.” He said it with love.
The lights, what little there were, dropped. The room erupted. And the band walked on.
The first chord was a physical thing. Joe felt it in his chest, in his teeth, in the bottoms of his feet through the concrete floor. The crowd surged forward. Pete and Andy vanished. Just gone. Swallowed into the mass of bodies churning in front of the platform.
Joe widened his stance. Put himself behind Riley. One hand on her hip, the other holding his beer. The wall of people in front of them was moving, crashing, reforming. He could see Pete’s head surface occasionally in the pit, mouth open, screaming along, arms tangled with strangers. Andy was somewhere in there, too, probably the one responsible for the shoe Joe saw fly up and come back down.
Someone stumbled backward out of the pit’s edge and hit Joe’s shoulder. Real contact. The kind that would’ve started something in a different room. Joe absorbed it. Took a sip of his beer. Kept Riley’s space clear. The guy didn’t even turn around. Just threw himself back in.
Riley didn’t notice. She was watching the stage, singing along, her whole body vibrating with something Joe couldn’t access but could feel radiating off her.
She was different here.
Not performer Riley, the one who commanded stages and owned rooms. Not the Riley who curled up next to him on the couch and talked about nothing until they fell asleep. This was something underneath both of those. The girl who fell in love with music in rooms like this, who probably stood in this exact spot at seventeen with Pete next to her and her whole life ahead of her.
She was free here. And Joe was standing behind her, holding a warm beer, in a room that smelled like decades, and he thought:
Yeah. Okay.
He didn’t get it. The music was still loud, fast, and formless to his ears.
But he got her in it. And that was enough.
* * *
Riley leaned back into him somewhere around the fourth song. The back of her head against his chest, her weight settling into him, her hips still moving to whatever she was hearing that he wasn’t.
Joe let his chin drop closer to her. His hand was still on her hip. His thumb moved against the strip of skin between her shirt and her jeans.
She tipped her head back and said something. He couldn’t hear it. The music was everywhere, in the walls, in the floor, in the space between his ribs. He bent down, and she tried again, her lips close enough to his ear that he could feel the shape of the words more than hear them.
Still couldn’t make it out. It didn’t matter. Her mouth was right there, and her eyes were half-closed and bright, and she was looking at him like he was the only still thing in a room full of motion.
He kissed her.
Didn’t think about it. Didn’t check the room or calculate who might be watching or do the thing he always did in public, where he measured the risk of being seen. None of that. He just put his mouth on hers because she was there, and the room was dark and loud, and nobody in this building gave a single shit about Joe Burrow.
Riley made a sound against his lips that got swallowed by the music. Her hand came up to the back of his neck. Her fingers in his hair. She kissed him back like they were the only people in the room, which, in every way that mattered to Joe, they were.
She turned around to face him fully. Arms around his neck, up on her toes in her boots. The band was still playing. Pete was still somewhere in the pit. The room was still hot and loud, smelling like it had earned its name.
Riley’s face was right there. Flushed. Happy. She was looking at him with that expression, the one that wasn’t a question but felt like one.
“You know I love you, right?”
He said it close to her ear. Because the room was loud and these words were for her, and he wanted to make sure she heard every one of them.
Riley went still. She pulled back just enough to see his face. Searched it for a second.
He meant it like breathing. Like it just fell out of him.
Riley put her hand on his jaw. Ran her thumb across his cheekbone.
“Yeah,” she said. Soft enough that he read it more than heard it. “I know.”
She kissed him again. Slower this time. His hands on her lower back, hers in his hair, and the band was playing, and the pit was churning, and none of it mattered.
When she pulled back, she stayed facing him. Tucked herself against his chest, her arms around his waist, her cheek against his sternum. He rested his chin on top of her head and held her, and the music kept going, and he still didn’t know a single song, but his chest was full of something that had nothing to do with sound.
RILEY
The lights came up, and the spell broke the way it always did. Too fast. One second, the room was alive and borderless, and the next, it was just a room again, small and hot and full of people blinking at each other like they’d been underwater.
Riley kept her face against Joe’s chest for another second. Two. Let the ringing in her ears settle. His heartbeat. His hand was still on her back.
Then Pete’s voice cut through everything, the way Pete’s voice always did.
“THAT WAS THE BEST SHOW THEY’VE EVER PLAYED.”
He said this after every show. Every single one. Riley lifted her head and found Pete shoving through the crowd toward them, soaked through, shirt clinging to his chest, hair plastered to his forehead, grinning so wide it looked like it hurt. Andy was behind him, limping slightly, a bruise already blooming on his cheekbone. He looked thrilled about it. Daniel emerged from somewhere near the back wall, calm as ever.
“Tell me that wasn’t insane,” Pete said, grabbing Joe’s shoulder. “Tell me.”
Joe looked at him. Drenched. Shirt ruined. Eyes wild. Pete looked like he’d been through something religious.
“It was loud,” Joe said.
“LOUD. He says loudly.” Pete turned to Riley. “Your boyfriend went to the best show of the year, and all he has is loud.”
“Leave him alone,” Riley said, but she was laughing.
Daniel appeared at Riley’s side. He handed her a water bottle.
“Good night,” he said.
“Really good night.”
He nodded toward Joe, who was still letting Pete talk at him. “He stayed the whole time.”
“He did.”
Daniel didn’t say anything else. He just looked at her the way Daniel looked at everything, like he’d already understood it five minutes before everyone else.
* * *
They spilled out onto the sidewalk, and the air hit Riley’s skin, and she felt alive in the way you only feel after a show. Not just awake. Alive. Like everything had been turned up and now the volume was dropping, but her body was still humming at the frequency the room had left behind.
She had Joe by the hand, and she was bouncing. Actually bouncing. Her feet wouldn’t stay flat on the concrete. She was talking too fast; she knew that, pulling on Joe’s arm, then turning to Pete, then back to Joe, then shoving Andy.
“The second song. The SECOND song. When the bass came in and everybody just—”
“YES.” Pete was walking backward, facing all of them, arms wide. “And then the breakdown at the end where he just stopped playing and let the feedback—”
“That wasn’t feedback, that was intentional—”
“IT WAS FEEDBACK, AND IT WAS BEAUTIFUL.”
Andy was hopping on one foot, trying to fix whatever had happened to his shoe. “Can we talk about the drummer? Can we please talk about the drummer?”
“We’re talking about the bassist.”
“The drummer was doing something illegal up there.”
“Daniel, tell them about the drummer.”
Daniel, walking with his hands in his pockets, five feet behind everyone: “The drummer was good.”
“GOOD? Good?! Riley, tell Daniel—”
And through all of it, Riley’s hand was in Joe’s. She kept pulling away to gesture, to grab Pete, to point at Andy, but she kept coming back. Every time.
Joe was quiet. But not his usual quiet. He was smiling. This soft, easy thing on his face that Riley kept catching when she turned back to him. Like he was watching something he didn’t totally follow but liked anyway because of the people in it.
They got to the car, and Pete yelled “SHOTGUN” for the third time that night, and Riley didn’t even acknowledge it because she was already turning to Joe.
She looked at him on the sidewalk. Under the streetlight. His cattaco shirt and his messed-up hair from where she’d had her hands in it, and his face still carrying that quiet smile.
She stepped into him. Hands on his chest. Up on her toes.
“Thank you for coming.”
“You already thanked me.”
“I’m thanking you again.”
She kissed him. Right there. On the sidewalk. Under whatever ugly light was bolted to the side of whatever building they were standing next to. His hands came to her waist, and she felt him smile against her mouth, which made her smile too, and for a second, they were just two idiots grinning into a kiss on a street that smelled almost as bad as the venue.
She didn’t know someone was watching. She didn’t see the phone. She didn’t know that across the street, some twenty-three-year-old with a Twitter account had just taken a photo that would rearrange the internet by morning.
She just kissed him. Because he was here. Because he came.
Pete honked the horn from inside the car. Andy was banging on the back window. Daniel was waiting by the rear door with the patience of a man who’d been standing near these people for fifteen years.
Riley pulled back. Joe’s hands were still on her waist.
“Shotgun on the way home,” she said.
“Pete’s already in the seat.”
“Pete can move.”
“I don’t think Pete can move. I think Pete lives there now.”
She laughed. Kissed him one more time, quick. Then she went around to the back and climbed in next to Andy, who was already half-asleep against the window.
Joe got behind the wheel. Adjusted his mirrors. Both of them. Twice.
Riley watched him from the backseat. The line of his neck in the streetlight. His hands finding ten and two.
Pete was asleep in forty-five seconds. Head against the window, mouth open. Andy was gone before they hit the freeway, slumped against Riley’s shoulder. Daniel was awake but quiet, scrolling through his phone.
The car was silent for the first time all night.
Riley leaned forward between the seats. Put her hand on the back of Joe’s neck. Scratched lightly at his hairline the way he liked.
He didn’t say anything. Just tilted his head toward her hand. The smallest movement.
She stayed like that for a while. Her hand on his neck. The freeway lights slide over the dashboard. Three sleeping bodies and one quiet one, and Joe driving them all home.
JOE
He woke up to Barbie standing on his chest.
Not lying on him. Standing. All four paws planted on his sternum, staring down at him with the intensity of an animal who had been abandoned for an entire evening and wanted him to know about it.
“Morning,” Joe said.
Barbie sneezed in his face.
“Fair.”
He could hear Riley somewhere to his left. The particular sound of scrolling. A small exhale through her nose that could have been a laugh.
Then another one. Definitely a laugh.
Then a third, louder, the kind she made when she was trying to hold it in and failing.
Joe turned his head. Riley was propped up against the headboard, knees pulled up, phone six inches from her face. Her hair was everywhere. She was wearing his cattaco shirt, which she’d apparently stolen at some point between the car and the bed. She looked like she hadn’t been awake long, but she’d been awake long enough to find something.
“What,” he said.
She glanced at him. Bit her lip. Looked back at her phone.
“Nothing.”
“It’s not nothing. You’re making the face.”
“I’m not making a face.”
“You’re making the face you make when you’re about to show me something I’m not going to like.”
Riley pressed her lips together. Her eyes were doing the thing where they got bright and glassy right before she completely lost it. She took a breath. Composed herself. Failed immediately.
“Okay.” She turned the phone toward him.
Joe squinted. The screen was too bright. He blinked, waited, and the image sharpened.
It was them. Last night. On the sidewalk outside The Smell. Riley on her toes, hands on his chest. His hands are on her waist. Mid-kiss. The venue's sign was half-visible behind them. The lighting was bad, and the photo was slightly blurry, and he was obviously, undeniably Joe Burrow, wearing a shirt with a cat in a taco on it, kissing his girlfriend outside a place called The Smell.
He looked at it for a long time.
“How many people have seen this?”
Riley’s composure broke. She dropped her face into her knees and laughed. Full, shaking, helpless.
“How many, Riley?”
She held up her phone without lifting her head. He took it. Looked at the post.
The tweet was simple. “Joe Burrow at the smell??? with Riley Carter??? on a SATURDAY NIGHT???”
He scrolled.
Forty-seven thousand likes. Eight thousand retweets. And climbing.
He kept scrolling.
Joe Burrow in a punk venue is the character development I didn’t know I needed
Riley Carter got this man at the SMELL. the smell. She is powerful beyond measure.
the way she’s kissing him on the sidewalk like nobody’s watching... because to them nobody was
Zoom in on the shirt. ZOOM IN ON THE SHIRT.
Is that... a cat in a taco
JOE BURROW IS WEARING A CAT TACO SHIRT AT A PUNK SHOW. This is not a drill.
Someone in the replies said “he drove,” and honestly, that’s the most romantic part.
I was there. He was standing behind her the whole set. just vibing. didn’t move. She was leaning back into him, and he had his arm around her, and I thought it was just some tall dude until they walked out and I was like WAIT.
This man went from the Manning Classic to the smell for this woman. That is LOVE.
The fact that he looks genuinely happy and not like he’s being dragged there. sir. SIR.
Riley’s hand on his chest in that photo... she’s so in love it’s stupid.
My friend was at the show and said Pete from the Rambles was in the pit, losing his mind, and Joe was just standing in the back, holding a beer, looking like a bodyguard who was having a good time.
Joe stared at the screen. Barbie had relocated from his chest to the space between their pillows, curling into a tight brown knot.
“The cat taco shirt,” he said.
Riley was wiping her eyes. “The cat taco shirt.”
“That’s what they’re focused on.”
“That’s what EVERYONE is focused on. You wore a cat taco shirt to a punk show, Joe. You’re a folk hero.”
He handed her phone back. Lay there for a second. Stared at the ceiling.
“Pete’s in the background of that photo lookin' goofy.”
Riley pulled it back up. Squinted. In the far left edge of the frame, barely visible, Pete was climbing into the passenger seat of Joe’s car. Shotgun. Even in a grainy photo taken by a stranger across the street, Pete was calling shotgun.
Riley started laughing again. The kind that took over her whole body and made Barbie lift her head in mild concern.
Joe watched her. The morning light was doing something to her face. His shirt was too big on her. Her mascara was smudged under one eye from last night. She was losing her mind over a blurry photo of them kissing outside a place called The Smell.
He reached over. Took her phone out of her hand. Set it face down on the nightstand.
“Hey,” she said.
He pulled her into him. She came easily, still laughing, her face against his neck. Barbie grumbled and resettled against their legs.
“For the record,” he said into her hair. “I had a good time.”
Riley pulled back. Looked at his face. Her smile was the slow one.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
She settled back against him. Her hand on his chest, right where it was in the photo. Her thumb was moving in a small circle over his heartbeat.
“Same time next month?” she said. “There’s a band Pete wants us to see.”
Joe closed his eyes. Barbie was warm against his legs. Riley was warm against his side. The house was quiet. Somewhere down the hall, Pete was probably still asleep in the guest room. Andy was on the couch. Daniel had gone home because Daniel always went home.
“Yeah,” he said. “Okay.”
Riley pressed her smile into his shoulder.
She didn’t need to say anything else.
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parings: joe burrow x riley carter (oc)
wc: 7000
an: okay, so this is it. the last chapter of seek.
i've been putting off posting this for a while now because i genuinely didn't want it to end. but here we are.
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The afternoon light filtered through the windows of the living room, the kind of lazy Cincinnati Sunday that felt stolen. Joe was on the couch, controller in hand, headset around his neck because he wasn’t actually talking to anyone—just playing to play. Something mindless. Relaxing in a way that required zero brain power.
Barbie was pressed against his thigh, her head resting on his leg. She watched the screen like she understood what was happening. She didn’t, obviously, but she watched anyway. Her tail gave a lazy thump every time Joe shifted or glanced down at her. She’d been like this since her first night—glued to him, following from room to room, looking at him like he hung the moon. Riley called it “embarrassing” how quickly Barbie had chosen her favorite parent. Joe called it “good taste.”
Riley was somewhere behind him, moving through the house as she always did when she didn’t have anywhere to be. She was restless, but not anxious—just alive. He tracked her by sound: the fridge opening, cabinets closing, her humming under her breath. It might have been a song she was working on, or just a jingle from a commercial. He’d stopped trying to tell the difference.
“You’re not even watching,” Joe said to Barbie, scratching behind her ear without taking his eyes off the screen. “You’re just here for the body heat.”
Her tail thumped again. Guilty as charged.
Riley’s phone rang from somewhere in the kitchen, and he heard her answer with a casual “Hey, what’s up?” The kind of greeting that meant she knew whoever was calling.
Joe kept his eyes on the screen, half-listening. He caught fragments: “Wait, are you serious?” A pause. “Johnny, don’t mess with me right now.” Another pause, longer this time. Her voice pitched higher. “Ireland?”
That got his attention. He paused the game.
Riley appeared in the doorway, phone still pressed to her ear, eyes wide. She was doing that thing where she talked with her whole face, her free hand gesturing even though John Ryan couldn’t see her.
“No, yeah, I—that’s incredible. Can I call you back in like ten minutes? I just need to—yeah. Yeah. Okay. Love you. Tell Niall I said hi. Okay. Bye.”
She hung up and stared at Joe.
He raised an eyebrow. “Ireland?”
“Niall Horan wants to write with me.”
He blinked. Processed. “One Direction?”
Riley let out a sound that was somewhere between a laugh and a scream. “Yes, Joe. One Direction Niall. He’s working on his next album, and apparently, he heard some of my stuff and told Johnny he wanted to collaborate and—” She stopped, pressing her hand to her chest. “I think I’m having a heart attack.”
Barbie’s head lifted at the commotion, looking between them with alert concern.
Joe set the controller down and turned to face Riley fully. She was vibrating, practically bouncing on her heels. Something warm spread through his chest at the sight of her, this excited.
“That’s a big deal,” he said.
“It’s a huge deal. Like—huge. Writing for someone else’s album, someone at that level—” She shook her head, still processing. “I’d have to fly to Ireland. They’re recording at some studio in Dublin, and they want me there for like a week, maybe ten days.”
“Okay.”
Riley paused, narrowing her eyes at him. “Okay?”
“Yeah.” He shrugged. “You should do it.”
“Just like that?”
“Birdie.” He stood up, crossing to where she was still standing in the doorway. Barbie immediately jumped off the couch to follow him, unwilling to be left behind. “This is exactly the kind of thing you’ve been working toward. Writing for other artists, getting recognized for that side of what you do. Why would I not want you to go?”
She searched his face for something—hesitation, maybe, or the old careful distance that used to creep in when her career pulled her away. She didn’t find it.
“What about Barbie?” she asked.
Joe glanced down at Barbie, who was sitting at his feet, leaning her full weight against his leg and gazing up at him adoringly. “What about her?”
“I can’t take her to Ireland. The logistics alone—”
“So leave her with me.”
Riley’s mouth opened, then closed. “You want to keep my dog for ten days?”
“Don’t you trust me with her?” He raised an eyebrow. “She likes me. She’s settled here. I don’t have anything planned.” He looked down at Barbie. “You want to stay with me, right?”
Barbie’s tail wagged so hard her whole body wiggled.
Riley was looking at him with something soft and wondering, the way she did sometimes when he surprised her by being exactly who she needed him to be.
“Call him back,” Joe said. “Tell him yes.”
___ ___ ___
The house was quiet in a way it hadn’t been since Riley arrived.
Not a bad kind of quiet. Just… different. Joe had gotten used to the noise of her—the humming, the piano at odd hours, the way she narrated her own actions when she thought no one was listening. “Where did I put my phone? I just had it. Barbie, did you see where I put my phone?” Barbie never answered, but Riley asked anyway.
Now it was just him and the dog, three days into their solo stretch, and they’d found a rhythm.
Barbie followed him everywhere. From the bedroom to the kitchen, then to the couch. From the couch to the bathroom, where she sat outside the door and waited like he might disappear. When he went to the facility for training, she sat by the door until he returned. Sarah had sent him a photo from the security camera—Barbie in the same spot for four hours, staring at the door. Her tail started wagging the second his car pulled into the driveway.
“You’re codependent,” Joe told her, scratching behind her ears as she pressed her head into his palm. “You know that, right?”
Barbie’s tail thumped against the couch cushion. She did not care.
He’d finished a morning workout and showered, and now he was on the couch with ESPN on mute. Barbie was stretched out with her head in his lap. His phone buzzed on the coffee table—Riley’s face lighting up the screen, a FaceTime request.
He answered, and there she was. Hair piled on top of her head, no makeup, wearing a sweater he was pretty sure she’d stolen from him before she left.
“Hi lovey,” she said, her whole face brightening when she saw him. “Hi, baby girl!”
Barbie’s ears perked at Riley’s voice. Joe tilted the phone so she could see the screen, and Barbie’s tail went into overdrive, her whole body wiggling as she tried to figure out how to get closer to the tiny Riley in the rectangle.
“She’s been like this all day,” Joe said. “Following me around, staring at me, sleeping on your side of the bed.”
“She loves you.”
“She’s obsessed with me. It’s concerning.”
“Can’t relate,” Riley deadpanned. Then her face shifted into something excited. “Okay, wait, I have to show you something. Hold on.”
The camera jostled as she moved, and then suddenly there were two other faces crowding into the frame—a guy with brown hair and an easy grin, and behind him, unmistakably, Niall Horan.
“Joe, this is Johnny and Niall. Guys, this is Joe.”
“Hey, man,” Johnny said, waving. “Heard a lot about you.”
“All good things,” Niall added, his accent thick. “She won’t shut up about you, honestly. It’s disgusting.”
“That’s not true,” Riley protested, but she was grinning.
“It’s very true,” Niall said. “Yesterday, she made us stop working so she could text you back. Said it was ‘urgent.’ It was a photo of a dog.”
Joe felt his mouth curve. “It was a good photo.”
“It was an excellent photo,” Riley agreed.
“You two are nauseating,” Johnny said cheerfully. “Anyway, nice to meet you, Joe. We’re stealing your girl for a few more days, but we’ll return her in one piece.”
“Maybe two pieces,” Niall said. “Depends on how the session goes tomorrow.”
Riley shoved him out of frame, laughing, and then it was just her again, walking into what looked like a hallway.
“They’re idiots,” she said. “But it’s going really well. Like, really well. We wrote two songs yesterday, and I think one of them might actually be something.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.” She was glowing. That specific kind of happiness she got when the work was good, when the music was flowing. He loved seeing it on her. “I wish you were here. But also I’m glad you’re not because I’m a mess and I haven’t slept and I look like a gremlin.”
“You look good.”
“You’re contractually obligated to say that.”
“I don’t remember signing anything.”
She smiled, soft and private, the kind of smile that was just for him. “I miss you.”
“Miss you too.” He glanced down at Barbie, still staring at the phone. “She misses you more, though. I’m pretty sure she thinks you abandoned her.”
“Tell her I’ll be home soon. Tell her mama loves her.”
“I’m not saying that.”
“Joe.”
“She’s right here. She can hear you.”
Barbie’s tail wagged at the sound of Riley’s voice saying her name. Riley made a kissy noise at the screen, which only made Barbie more agitated, standing up on Joe’s lap and nosing at the phone.
“Okay, I have to go,” Riley said. “Session in twenty. But I’ll call you tonight?”
“Yeah. Go make something good.”
“I will.” She paused, her face softening. “Thanks for taking care of her. I know you said you didn’t have anything planned, but still. It means a lot.”
“She’s easy,” Joe said. “We’re having a good time.”
Barbie’s tail wagged at the attention, even though she had no idea what they were talking about.
“Send me pictures,” Riley said. “I want daily Barbie content.”
“You’ve gotten three videos today.”
“And I want more.” She grinned. “Okay, I really have to go. Talk tonight?”
“Talk tonight.”
She waved, blew a kiss at Barbie, and then the screen went dark.
Joe sat there for a minute, phone in hand, Barbie warm and heavy on his lap. The house was quiet again. But it didn’t feel empty the way it used to—before Riley, before Barbie, before any of this. It just felt like waiting. The good kind.
“She’ll be back soon,” he told Barbie.
Barbie sighed deeply and put her head back down.
“Yeah,” Joe agreed. “I know.”
___ ___ ___
Joe saw it before anyone called him.
He was in the kitchen making a protein shake, Barbie at his feet waiting for something to drop, when his phone started buzzing. Not a call—just notifications. A lot of them. The kind of rapid-fire succession that meant something was happening online.
He ignored it at first. Finished the shake. Wiped down the counter. But the buzzing didn’t stop, and eventually curiosity won out.
He opened his phone to find 17 text messages, 4 missed calls, and his name trending on Twitter.
That was never good.
He clicked on the first link someone had sent him—Sam, just a URL with no context—and the page loaded slowly, buffering in that way that meant a lot of people were looking at the same thing.
And then he saw it.
Riley and Niall. Outside what looked like a pub, standing close together. Niall’s arm around her shoulders. Their heads tilted toward each other, his mouth near her ear like he was telling her something private. Her hand on his chest. Both of them are laughing.
Joe’s stomach dropped.
He scrolled. There were more. A whole series of them, taken from different angles, all telling the same story: Riley Carter and Niall Horan, looking cozy in Dublin. The headlines were already writing themselves.
RILEY CARTER SPOTTED WITH NIALL HORAN IN IRELAND—WHAT ABOUT JOE BURROW?
TROUBLE IN PARADISE? RILEY CARTER GETS CLOSE WITH ONE DIRECTION STAR
IS RILEY CARTER CHEATING ON JOE BURROW?
He could feel his jaw tightening. His grip on the phone was too hard. The old familiar spiral threatening at the edges—the one that used to send him inward, make him shut down, convince him that the safest thing to do was pull back before he got hurt.
Barbie whined at his feet, sensing the shift.
Joe made himself breathe.
He looked at the photos again.
They were walking out of somewhere—a pub, maybe, or a restaurant. Niall was leaning in close to her ear, probably saying something over the noise of the street. Riley’s head was tilted toward him to hear. One shot caught her mid-laugh, her hand raised like she was about to push him away, but frozen in the frame, it looked like she was touching his chest.
It looked intimate. It looked like something.
But Joe knew Riley. Knew she wouldn’t touch someone like that—not with him at home, not with what they were building. She was tactile with her friends, sure, but this wasn’t that. This was just a bad angle. A frozen millisecond that told a lie.
Joe knew what the old version of him would do. Stew on it. Let it fester. Convince himself it meant something. Wait for her to bring it up and then pretend it didn’t bother him while letting it poison everything.
Fuck that.
He called her.
It rang twice before she picked up, her voice breathless and confused. “Hey—sorry, I was just about to call you, I don’t know if you’ve seen—”
“I’ve seen.”
“Joe.” Her voice shifted, urgent. “It’s not—those photos are—”
“I know.”
Silence.
“You know?” she repeated carefully.
“I know what it looks like and I know what it is.” He leaned against the counter, making himself unclench. “I’m not spiraling. I’m not shutting down. I just wanted to hear your voice and have you tell me there’s nothing to worry about.”
More silence. Then, softly: “There’s absolutely nothing to worry about.”
“Okay.”
“We were leaving the studio. Niall was telling me this stupid joke about a goat—don’t ask, it’s a long story—and I was laughing, and someone got photos, and it looks… I know how it looks, Joe. But I swear—”
“Riley.” He cut her off gently. “I believe you.”
He could hear her exhale on the other end of the line. Relief and something else. Something that sounded like wonder.
“You do?”
“Yeah.” He looked down at Barbie, who was still watching him with her big brown eyes. “I’m not saying I didn’t feel a way when I saw them. I did. But I’m not going to let a couple of bad-angle paparazzi shots mess with what we have. That’s not who I want to be anymore.”
“Joe Burrow.” Her voice was thick now, teasing but tender. “Look at you, being emotionally mature.”
“Don’t get used to it.”
She laughed, watery and warm. “I love—” She stopped. Cleared her throat. “I really appreciate you calling instead of going dark on me.”
He caught the stumble. Filed it away.
“I’ll always call,” he said. “That’s the deal now.”
“Yeah.” She sniffled. “Okay. That’s the deal.”
They stayed on the phone for a few more minutes, talking about nothing—her session that day, what he’d had for lunch, Barbie’s ongoing campaign to sleep directly on top of him at all times. Normal stuff. Easy stuff. By the time they hung up, the knot in his chest had loosened completely.
His phone buzzed again. This time it was Helen.
Helen: Have you seen the photos?
Joe: Yeah.
Helen: Do you want to address it? I can draft something, or we can do a quick statement—
Joe: No.
Helen: Are you sure? The narrative is already building. We could get ahead of it.
Joe looked at Barbie. Barbie looked back at him. He had that podcast tomorrow—some sports show he’d agreed to weeks ago, the kind of easy promo his team liked him to do in the offseason. He’d been planning to go alone.
Joe: I know how I’m going to address it.
Helen: How?
He didn’t answer. Just looked at Barbie.
“You want to go for a ride tomorrow?”
Her tail wagged.
___ ___ ___
The studio was in downtown Cincinnati, one of those converted warehouse spaces with exposed brick. Joe had done a handful of these—enough to know the rhythm, the easy back-and-forth, the way hosts wanted him to be charming but not too polished, relatable but still impressive.
He was good at it. The professional version of himself, giving just enough to seem open without actually revealing anything.
Today was different.
Barbie trotted beside him on her leash as he walked in, her nails clicking on the concrete floor. The orange and black Bengals bandana around her neck had been Joe’s idea that morning—he’d found it in a box of merch someone had sent him and never opened. It fit her perfectly. She looked ridiculously adorable. She looked like she belonged to him.
She’d been calm in the car, sitting in the passenger seat like she belonged there, watching the city pass with her usual quiet dignity. Now she was alert, taking in the new environment, but not anxious. Just curious.
The producer met him in the hallway, a guy in his thirties with a headset and a clipboard. His eyes dropped to Barbie immediately.
“Oh—uh, hey. We didn’t know you were bringing…” He gestured vaguely.
"Yeah, she didn't want to be left alone today," Joe said.
“Right. Yeah. Of course.” The producer recovered quickly, already adjusting. “We can set up a bed for her or something? Keep her comfortable while you’re recording?”
“She’ll be fine with me.”
And that was that.
The hosts were two guys Joe had met once before—Mike and Danny, both former athletes, both loud in the way that podcast hosts tended to be. They ran a sports and culture show that walked the line between serious analysis and bullshit, which was probably why Joe’s team had booked it. Low stakes. Easy content.
They lost their minds when they saw Barbie.
“Burrow. What the hell.” Mike was already out of his chair, crouching down to Barbie’s level. “Who is this?”
“This is Barbie.”
“Barbie,” Danny repeated, delighted. “Joe Burrow has a poodle named Barbie. In a Bengals bandana.”
“She’s a fan.”
“Is she now?”
“Biggest one I know.”
Barbie, for her part, accepted the attention with grace. She let Mike scratch behind her ears, tail wagging politely, but her eyes kept flicking back to Joe. Making sure he was still there.
“She’s gorgeous,” Mike said. “I didn’t know you had a dog.”
“Semi- recent development.”
They got settled—Joe in the guest chair, Barbie curled at his feet after doing three circles to find the exact right position. The producers did their checks, the hosts put on their headphones, and then they were live.
The first twenty minutes were easy. Football stuff. Offseason training, thoughts on the upcoming roster, and a few questions about his recovery that he navigated with practiced ease. Barbie dozed through most of it, occasionally lifting her head when Joe’s voice shifted or when the hosts laughed too loudly.
And then Danny leaned back in his chair and grinned.
“Okay, we gotta address the elephant in the room. Or I guess the poodle in the room.” He gestured at Barbie. “Where did she come from? This is very off-brand for you, Burrow.”
Joe felt his mouth curve. He’d been waiting for this.
“She’s mine,” he said simply.
“Since when do you have a dog?”
"I'm solo parenting for a few days." He reached down to scratch Barbie's head, and she leaned into his hand without opening her eyes. "Her mom's out of town for work."
The words landed exactly how he intended. Casual. Easy. Like it was the most normal thing in the world.
Mike and Danny exchanged a look.
“Her mom,” Mike repeated slowly.
“Yeah.”
“And her mom would be…”
Joe just looked at him. Didn’t fill the silence. Let it sit there.
Danny laughed, shaking his head. “He’s not gonna say it. Look at him. He’s just gonna let us twist.”
"I don't know what you want me to say." Joe leaned back in his chair, the picture of relaxation. "I told you the story."
"You told us nothing, and you know it."
Joe shrugged. But he was smiling now, just a little. Just enough.
"She seems pretty attached to you," Mike observed, watching Barbie, who had rolled onto her side with her head pressed against Joe's ankle.
"She's got good taste."
"Clearly."
“We have an understanding.” Joe looked down at her. “She tolerates my schedule, and I give her the good treats. It works.”
Danny leaned forward, clearly not ready to let it go. “So when her mom gets back from this work trip… is Barbie going back too? Or is this a shared custody situation?”
Joe considered the question. Considered how much he wanted to say, how much he was willing to give.
“She goes where her mom goes,” he said finally. “But her mom’s been spending a lot of time in Cincinnati lately. So.”
“So.”
“So Barbie’s gotten pretty comfortable here.”
Another exchanged look between the hosts. The kind that said, "We’re not getting more than this,", but holy shit.
“Well,” Mike said, grinning, “I think that’s the most information Joe Burrow has ever voluntarily given about his personal life. I’m honored.”
“Don’t get used to it.”
They moved on after that—more football talk, some rapid-fire questions, a debate about whether Cincinnati chili was actually good that Joe refused to participate in—but the damage was done. Joe knew it. The hosts knew it. And by the time the episode dropped, everyone else would know it too.
Her mom’s out of town for work.
Her mom’s been spending a lot of time in Cincinnati.
He hadn’t confirmed anything. Hadn’t said Riley’s name. But he’d said enough.
After the recording wrapped and Joe was walking Barbie back to his car, his phone buzzed.
“Good girl,” he told her.
Barbie wagged her tail, satisfied with a job well done.
___ ___ ___
The teaser dropped three days after the recording.
Joe didn’t even know it was coming—his phone just started buzzing while he was at the gym, notification after notification until he finally pulled it out to see what was happening.
The podcast’s Instagram had posted a fifteen-second clip. Just Barbie, trotting into the studio in her Bengals bandana, Joe’s hand visible at the edge of the frame, holding her leash. The caption read: “We have some questions. Full episode drops in two weeks.”
That was it. No context. No audio. Just Riley’s dog in his team’s colors, walking into a podcast studio like she owned the place.
The internet did the rest.
By the time Joe got home from training, it was everywhere.
___ ___ ___
@sportsgossip: Some podcast just posted a teaser with a dog in a Bengals bandana?? No context??
@bengals_beat: Is that a poodle? In Bengals merch? Whose dog is this
@thatgirlkendra: okay but why would a podcast post a teaser that’s just… a dog walking
@cincyfootball: I’m so confused. What is this promo.
@nikiforov_stan: everyone’s asking about the dog but zoom in on the wrist. Those bracelets. I know those bracelets.
@joeburrowfan: WAIT. The pink Alo bracelet The orange and black one. That’s Joe. That’s Joe Burrow’s wrist.
@popcultureburner: okay so Joe Burrow is walking a poodle in a Bengals bandana into a podcast studio. Still confused.
@raборtupdates: STOP. ZOOM IN ON THE DOG. That’s a chocolate standard poodle. That’s BARBIE. That’s Riley Carter’s dog.
@barbietourdiary: I’D RECOGNIZE THAT DOG ANYWHERE. THAT’S BARBARA JEAN DELPHINE CARTER.
@midwestprincess: JOE BURROW HAS RILEY CARTER’S DOG???
@popcultureburner: wait wait wait. Didn’t deuxmoi just post that Riley was cheating with Niall Horan??? And now Joe has her dog???
@deaboringmoi: [screenshot of previous post] “Source says Riley Carter and Niall Horan have been ‘very close’ during Dublin sessions. Joe Burrow blindsided.”
@ramabortupdates: deuxmoi posting cheating rumors and then Joe casually showing up with Riley’s dog in Bengals merch is SENDING ME
@joeburrowfan: he didn’t say a single word. he just showed up with her dog. in a bandana. the cheating rumors are DEAD.
@thatgirlkendra: the way he’s just walking around with Barbie like it’s totally normal while the internet was trying to say Riley was cheating on him… this man is UNBOTHERED
@rabortupdates: Joe Burrow said “I’m not addressing those rumors with words, I’m addressing them with a poodle in team colors”
@midwestprincess: so let me get this straight. Riley is in Ireland WORKING. Joe has her dog. He put her dog in Bengals merch. He’s dog sitting for his girlfriend while she’s on a work trip. And deuxmoi tried to make it a cheating scandal???
@bengals_nation: he squashed those rumors without opening his mouth. that’s a QB1 move right there.
@popculture_tea: not joe burrow ending deuxmoi’s whole career with a fifteen second teaser clip
@joebrrr: they identified him by his BRACELETS and his GIRLFRIEND’S DOG. this is unhinged. i love it.
@nflwags_updates: Deuxmoi in shambles rn
@barbietourdiary: Riley just liked three tweets about Joe having Barbie. She’s watching this unfold in real time and LAUGHING.
@ramabortupdates: the fact that he didn’t do an interview, didn’t release a statement, didn’t have his team deny anything. He just showed up with her dog. King behavior.
@thatgirlkendra: imagine being deuxmoi and trying to start shit and then the internet identifies Joe Burrow by his bracelets walking Riley’s dog. I’d simply delete my account.
___ ___ ___
Joe scrolled through it all with Barbie curled against his side on the couch, her head in his lap, completely unaware that she was trending on three different platforms.
“You’re famous,” he told her.
She didn’t lift her head. Unimpressed with internet fame.
Riley had texted him a string of laughing emojis when the teaser dropped, followed by: “Bandana was a nice touch, Burrow.”
Joe: She looked good in it.
Riley: She looks good in everything. She’s a supermodel.
Joe: Wonder where she gets it from.
Riley: Smooth.
He hadn’t heard from her since that morning—she was deep in a session, she’d said, and probably wouldn’t surface until late. He didn’t mind. This was the rhythm now. She did her thing, he did his, and they found each other at the end of the day. It worked.
Not too long now, until she was home.
___ ___ ___
The next evening, Joe was in the kitchen reheating one of the meals his chef had prepped earlier that week—grilled chicken, roasted vegetables, rice. Simple. Easy. He’d already fed Barbie, who was now sprawled on her bed in the living room, watching him with sleepy eyes.
Music played low from the speaker on the counter. Something Riley had added to his rotation—a Maggie Rogers album she insisted he needed to hear. He’d resisted at first, but now he found himself putting it on without thinking. It sounded like her, somehow. Warm and restless and alive.
He was in a good mood. The kind of settled contentment that had become familiar over the past few months—the feeling of a life that actually fit. Training was going well. His wrist felt strong. Barbie was good company. And Riley would be back soon, and then the house would be full of her noise again, her music, her chaos.
He was looking forward to it. The waiting didn’t feel heavy anymore. It just felt like anticipation.
Barbie’s head lifted suddenly, her ears perking. She was staring at the front door, alert in a way she hadn’t been a moment before.
Joe turned down the burner, frowning. “What?”
Barbie was already on her feet, tail starting to wag, her whole body orienting toward the entrance.
And then he heard it. A key in the lock. The door opening. Footsteps in the entryway.
Barbie took off, nails scrabbling on the hardwood, and Joe heard a familiar voice say, “Hi baby girl, hi, I missed you, I missed you so much—”
Riley.
She wasn’t supposed to be back for like two more days.
Joe wiped his hands on a dish towel and moved toward the living room just as Riley appeared in the doorway, Barbie dancing around her feet.
She looked tired. Travel-worn, her hair pulled back in a messy knot, wearing leggings and an oversized sweater that might have been his. But she was smiling—or trying to—and her eyes were bright in a way that made his chest tight.
She didn’t say anything. Just stood there, looking at him.
Joe put the towel down slowly. “You’re early.”
“I’m early.”
“Everything okay?”
Riley didn’t answer. She walked past him, back toward the kitchen, her hand trailing across his arm as she passed. He followed, watching as she moved around the counter and turned off the burners on the stove and shut off the oven. He didn’t care.
This was hers. Her life. The life she’d always wanted that she’d somehow made happen. That he’d worked with her towards achieving. If she wanted to talk to him, he’d talk. If she didn’t want to say anything, he’d bask in the silence with her. If she needed to know his feelings, he gave them freely. She never wondered where he was when he wasn’t with her or felt disconnected from him. He needed to break her heart and his own to realize what was important to him.
Riley turned to him, reached up, and removed his snapback, then dropped it to the floor. Tangling her hands in his hair and letting him pull her hips in while he searched her face. Something was different; he could feel it.
“I’m done being careful,” Riley said, her voice low. “I’m done with baby steps. I’m done pretending I’m not all in when I am.”
His grip tightened on her waist. “Okay.”
“If you’re not sure—if there’s any part of you that’s still figuring it out—tell me now. Because I can’t do this halfway anymore, Joe. I won’t survive it again.”
“I’m sure.” His voice came out rougher than he expected.
“Then say it.” Her eyes were bright, her breath uneven. “I need to hear you say it.”
He knew what she meant. The thing that had been sitting in his chest for months, pressing against his ribs every time he looked at her. The thing he’d almost said a hundred times and swallowed back because the timing wasn’t right, because he was scared, because he didn’t know if he’d earned it yet.
His hand moved to her jaw, thumb tracing the line of her cheek, and he felt something crack open in his chest.
“I love you so much, Riley.” His voice broke on her name. “I’ve loved you every single day since you left. I loved you when I was too stupid to say it. I loved you when I didn’t deserve to.” He pulled her closer, needing her to feel it. “I’m never not going to love you.”
Riley’s breath caught. Her eyes were wet now, and she was looking at him like he’d finally given her something she’d been waiting for.
“I love you too.” She was laughing a little, or maybe crying, he couldn’t tell. “God, Joe. I love you so much.”
He pressed his forehead to hers, breathing her in. “I know. I’m sorry it took me so long.”
“You’re here now.”
“I’m here now,” he repeated. “I’m not going anywhere.”
She kissed him then—or he kissed her, or they met somewhere in the middle. It didn’t matter. What mattered was her mouth on his and his hands pulling her closer and the way everything else just fell away. The food on the stove going cold. The music still playing. Barbie, who had given up on getting their attention, and returned to her bed with a dramatic sigh.
None of it mattered.
Just this. Just them. Finally.
The kiss turned desperate almost immediately.
Riley’s hands were in his hair, pulling him closer, and Joe’s brain short-circuited somewhere between her tongue sliding against his and the sound she made when he lifted her onto the counter. Her legs wrapped around him instantly, ankles locking at the small of his back, drawing him in until there was no space left between them.
They’d done this before. Regularly. But this felt different—charged with something that hadn’t been there before. Or maybe it had always been there, and they just hadn’t been allowed to name it yet.
Now they had.
I love you so much, Riley.
I love you too.
The words were still echoing in his chest as he kissed down her neck, her head falling back to give him access. She was pulling at his shirt, untucking it from his joggers, her hands sliding underneath to press flat against his stomach.
“Off,” she breathed. “Take it off.”
He stepped back just long enough to pull it over his head, and then her hands were on him again—tracing the lines of his chest, his ribs, dragging her nails lightly down his abs in a way that made his muscles jump.
“I missed you,” she said, and it sounded like a confession. “I missed you so much.”
“I’m right here.” He pulled her sweater off, revealing a plain black bra underneath that somehow looked better on her than anything else could. “I’m not going anywhere.”
She kissed him again, softer this time, her hands cupping his face. He let himself sink into it for a moment—the tenderness of it, the relief—before the urgency took over again and he was reaching behind her to unclasp her bra, letting it fall between them.
Riley arched into him as his hands found her breasts, her breath catching when his thumbs brushed over her nipples. He ducked his head to take one into his mouth, and she gasped, her fingers digging into his shoulders.
“Joe—”
He loved the way she said his name. Loved that he could make her sound like that—wrecked and wanting.
Her hands moved to his joggers, shoving at the waistband impatiently. He helped her push them down, kicking them aside, and then he was reaching for her leggings, and she was lifting her hips so he could pull them off along with her underwear in one motion.
And then she was bare on his kitchen counter, and he was standing between her thighs, and she was looking at him like he was everything.
“I need you,” she whispered. “Please.”
He didn’t make her wait.
He pushed into her slowly, watching her face the whole time—the way her lips parted, the way her eyes fluttered shut, the way her whole body seemed to sigh with relief as he filled her.
“God,” she breathed. “Joe.”
He dropped his forehead to hers, giving her a moment to adjust, giving himself a moment to just feel this. The warmth of her presence around him. The smell of her shampoo. The way her hands gripped his biceps was like she was anchoring herself to him.
“I love you,” he said again, because he could now. Because he was allowed.
Riley’s eyes opened, wet and bright. “I love you too. Now move.”
He did.
It started slow—long, deep strokes that made her whimper against his mouth—but it didn’t stay that way. The months of careful, the weeks of waiting, the days of missing her while she was in Ireland—it all built up and spilled over until he was fucking her hard and fast, her back arching, her nails raking down his back, both of them too far gone to be quiet about it.
“Don’t stop,” she gasped. “Don’t stop, don’t stop—”
He couldn’t have stopped if he wanted to. His hands gripped her hips, pulling her to meet every thrust, and her head fell back, and he kissed the column of her throat, tasting salt and skin.
His thumb found her clit, and she cried out, her whole body tightening around him.
“That’s it,” he murmured against her neck. “Come on, Birdie. Let go.”
She shattered with his name on her lips, clenching around him in waves that pulled him right over the edge with her. He buried himself deep and let go, groaning into her shoulder, his whole body shuddering with the force of it.
For a long moment, neither of them moved.
Riley’s legs were still wrapped around him, trembling slightly. Her forehead was pressed to his shoulder, her breath hot and uneven against his skin. Joe’s hands had gone slack on her hips, his thumbs tracing absent circles on her hipbones as he came back to himself.
“Holy shit,” Riley said finally.
He huffed a laugh against her hair. “Yeah.”
She lifted her head, and her face was flushed, her eyes glassy, her hair a disaster. She looked wrecked. She looked perfect.
“I love you,” she said, like she was testing out the words. Seeing how they felt in her mouth.
Joe tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. “I love you too.”
She smiled then—slow and satisfied and a little smug. “We should have said that months ago.”
“Probably.”
“Think of all the ‘I love you’ sex we missed out on.”
He laughed, actually laughed, and pulled her closer. “We’ll make up for it.”
“Promise?”
“Promise.”
He lifted her off the counter—she yelped and wrapped herself around him—and carried her toward the bedroom. Barbie lifted her head as they passed, gave them a deeply unimpressed look, and put her head back down.
They had the rest of the night.
___ ___ ___
Joe woke up to sunlight and the smell of coffee.
The bed was empty beside him, but the sheets were still warm, and he could hear movement somewhere in the house. He lay there for a minute, letting himself feel it—the looseness in his muscles, the quiet in his head, the steady certainty that had settled into his chest sometime during the night and hadn’t left.
I love you so much, Riley.
I love you too.
They’d said it again. Multiple times. In bed, half-asleep, tangled together in the dark. It still didn’t feel old. He wondered if it ever would.
He pulled on a pair of sweatpants and followed the sound of the coffee maker to the kitchen, where he found a fresh pot but no Riley. Barbie was in her bed, watching him with her tail already wagging.
“Where’s your mom?” he asked.
Barbie’s ears perked, and she looked toward the living room.
And then he heard it. The piano.
He poured himself a cup of coffee and walked toward the sound, stopping in the doorway.
Riley was at the piano—the one he’d bought before he even asked her to come back, the one that had been sitting in his house for months like a promise he wasn’t sure he’d get to keep. She was wearing his Bengals hoodie, the one that swallowed her whole, the hood bunched up behind her neck. Her hair was piled on top of her head in a messy knot. No makeup. Bare feet tucked under her on the bench.
She looked like she belonged there. Like she’d always belonged there.
Her fingers moved across the keys, and Joe recognized the opening notes immediately. The song that had been following them since the beginning—since she played it in her house in New Orleans and he felt something shift in his chest that he couldn’t name. Since he found the album in that record store and bought it even though he didn’t own a turntable. Since she got a lamp tattooed on her ribs to prove that what they had was real.
This Must Be the Place.
Riley’s voice came in soft, almost like she was singing to herself.
“Home is where I want to be, but I guess I’m already there…”
Joe leaned against the doorframe, coffee forgotten in his hand. She didn’t know he was watching. She was just playing, just singing, existing in his space like it was the most natural thing in the world.
“I come home, she lifted up her wings. Guess that this must be the place…”
He pulled out his phone without thinking about it. Opened the camera. Hit record.
She still didn’t notice. Her eyes were half-closed, her body swaying slightly with the music, completely lost in it. The morning light caught the edge of her profile, the curve of her cheek, the way her lips moved around the words.
“And you’re standing here beside me. I love the passing of time…”
Joe held the phone steady, watching her through the screen. This was it. This was his life. This woman, in his house, at the piano he bought for her, wearing his hoodie, singing the song that meant them.
He didn’t want to keep it to himself anymore.
Riley’s fingers stilled on the keys as the last notes faded. She sat there for a moment, quiet, and then she turned her head and saw him.
“Hey.” A small smile. “How long have you been standing there?”
“Long enough.” He lowered the phone.
Her eyes dropped to it. “Were you recording me?”
“Maybe.”
“Joe.” She was already getting up from the bench, crossing to him with her hand out. “Let me see.”
He handed it over and watched her face as she played it back. The soft focus of the morning light. The oversized hoodie is slipping off one shoulder. Her voice, a little rough from sleep, filled the room.
When it ended, she looked up at him.
“Can I post this?”
He blinked. “You want to?”
“Yeah.” She looked back down at the screen, something settling in her expression. “I really do.”
Joe studied her for a moment—this woman in his hoodie, in his house, asking permission to tell the world exactly where she was.
“It’s your TikTok,” he said.
“That’s not what I’m asking.”
He reached out and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. “Post it.”
Riley smiled—slow and certain—and turned back to the phone. No caption. No context. Just her.
Then she set his phone down on the counter, and he pulled her in and kissed her.
pairings: joe burrow x riley carter (oc)
wc: 4,315
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Joe landed in Aspen a little after noon, the mountain air sharp and clean as he stepped off the plane. The drive to the rental house took twenty minutes, winding roads cutting through snow-dusted pines, and by the time he pulled up, the other guys were already there.
Inside, the energy was good. Easy. Sam clapped him on the shoulder as he walked in. Micah already had a beer open, and Zac was sprawled on the couch scrolling through his phone. The house was ridiculous—floor-to-ceiling windows, exposed beams, a kitchen that looked like it belonged in a magazine. The kind of place you rented when you wanted to feel like you were getting away.
"Took you long enough," Trae said from the kitchen, tossing Joe a water bottle.
"Good flight." Joe caught it, cracked it open. "What's tonight?"
"We were just figuring that out," Zac said, not looking up. "There's a spot in town someone recommended. Good food, decent bar."
"Sounds good."
They talked for a few more minutes—nothing important, just the rhythm of guys who'd known each other forever settling into a space. Joe set his bag down by the stairs, nodded along to whatever Micah was saying about the drive up, but his mind was already somewhere else.
After about twenty minutes, he just... left.
Didn't say anything. Just picked up his bag and headed upstairs.
No one stopped him.
His room was at the end of the hall—a king bed, another wall of windows looking out at the mountains, everything clean and untouched. He dropped his bag on the floor, closed the door, and pulled out his phone.
He didn't even think about it. Just called.
Riley answered on the third ring.
"Hey lovey," she said, and there was music in the background, something with a heavy bassline. "I didn't expect to hear from you so soon."
Joe sat on the edge of the bed. "Just wanted to hear your voice."
Riley laughed, and he could hear the smile in it. "How was the flight?"
"Good. Just got to the house."
"Yeah?" She sounded happy. Relaxed. "How is it?"
"It's nice. Big windows. Mountains everywhere."
"Sounds beautiful."
"It is." He paused. "How was today?"
"Good. Exhausting. Barbie keeps stepping on my feet because she thinks we're leaving without her. And Tomas just texted that they're running late, which means we're definitely not getting to the parade on time." She paused, and he heard the clink of glass, the sound of her taking a sip of something. "I've had two drinks already, and we haven't even left yet."
Joe smiled despite himself. "How many are you planning on?"
"However many it takes, baby."
He could picture her—sitting at her vanity or standing in the bathroom, mascara wand in hand, that loose, easy energy she got when she'd been drinking. Not drunk, just uninhibited. Happy.
"What about you?" she asked. "You gonna go out?"
"Probably. There's some place in town."
"Good." She was moving around—he could hear it in the way her voice shifted, closer then farther from the phone. "You're gonna have a good time."
"Yeah."
"What are you doing right now?"
"Sitting on the bed. Talking to you."
Riley hummed. "Alone?"
"Yeah."
"In your room?"
Joe glanced at the closed door. "Yeah. Why?"
"Just picturing it." Her voice had gone a little softer. "You sitting there. Probably looking all serious."
Joe smiled despite himself. "I'm not looking serious."
"You are. I can hear it." She paused. "I miss you."
"I've been gone six hours."
"And? I got used to you being there. Now my bed's gonna be empty tonight."
Joe leaned back against the headboard. "Yeah?"
"Yeah." Riley's voice dropped lower. "And nobody's gonna do what you did to me this morning before we left for the airport."
"Birdie."
"What? I'm just stating facts." She paused. "You could be doing other things with your hands right now. Since I'm not there to use mine."
Joe laughed. "Someone's feeling those drinks."
"And? I'm pacing myself." She laughed, lighter now. "God, I miss you. Is that pathetic? We just spent two weeks together, and I already miss you."
"It's not pathetic."
"Feels pathetic."
There was a pause. Joe could hear her moving again, the clink of glass, the sound of her taking another sip.
"Two weeks wasn't enough," he said quietly.
Riley went still on the other end. The music was still playing, but she wasn't moving anymore.
"I'm happy to be here," Joe continued. "But I'm low-key disappointed I'm missing Mardi Gras with you again."
Riley's voice softened. "I know. Me too."
He didn't say anything.
"But Joe," she said gently, "you've been wanting a guys' trip for a while. You're gonna have a good time. And I'll be here when you get back. Or I'll come see you soon. We'll figure it out."
Joe nodded even though she couldn't see him. "Yeah."
"Okay?"
"Yeah. Okay."
"Good." She paused. "Now go hang out with your friends before they come looking for you."
"They won't."
"They will. Someone's probably already noticed you disappeared."
Joe smiled. "Maybe."
"Definitely." She took another sip of whatever she was drinking. "Alright. I gotta finish getting ready. Text me later?"
"Yeah."
"Have fun, lovey."
"You too."
He was still saying goodbye when the door opened.
Sam stood in the doorway, one hand on the frame, his expression neutral but knowing.
"Yeah," Joe said into the phone, his voice a little quieter. "Okay. I'll text you later. Have fun."
He hung up.
Sam didn't move. "We're heading out."
"Yeah. Coming."
Sam nodded once, then turned and walked back down the hall.
Joe stood, pocketed his phone, and followed.
* * *
Dinner was at some upscale mountain place—wood tables, Edison bulbs, a chalkboard menu that took up half the wall. They got a booth in the back, ordered too much food and a round of drinks that turned into two, then three.
Joe was engaged. Laughing at Trae's story about nearly getting into a fight at a bar in Cincinnati, listening to Micah talk about his upcoming clothing collection, and throwing in his own commentary when it felt right. He was present.
But his phone kept buzzing.
The first video came through around seven.
Joe picked it up, swiped it open.
Riley's face filled the screen, beads around her neck, her hair a little wild already. She was grinning, turning the camera to show the street behind her—floats rolling past, people in costumes, the air thick with music and noise.
"Look at this," she was saying, her voice bright and a little too loud. "It's so good. I wish you were here."
The video cut off.
Joe watched it again.
Then a second one came through—this time her and Tomas and Marcus, all of them holding drinks, Riley in the middle with her arm around Marcus's shoulders. Someone was singing off-camera, and Riley was laughing, leaning into Marcus like she couldn't stand up straight.
Joe smiled and set his phone down.
Picked it back up a minute later and watched them both again.
"That Riley?" Sam asked from across the table.
Joe looked up. "Yeah. Mardi Gras just started."
Sam nodded. "She having fun?"
"Yeah." Joe glanced at his phone, then back at Sam. "The first Mardi Gras we spent together was two years ago. That's when I knew. Then last year we were broken up. Low-key feels like I'm missing it again."
The table had gone quieter. Not completely silent—Micah and Trae were still talking about something on the other end—but Zac was paying attention now.
"That's rough, man," Zac said quietly.
Zac, Micah, and Trae exchanged looks. They'd been there for last year. They knew what Joe had looked like then—hollow, obsessive, barely holding it together. This wasn't that. But it was something.
Joe shrugged. "It is what it is."
Then Trae leaned back, raising his glass. "Alright. Let's get some shots."
The moment broke.
Micah flagged down the server, someone made a joke about Trae's tolerance, and the conversation moved on.
But Joe checked his phone one more time before putting it away.
Riley had sent another video.
He didn't watch it yet. Just looked at the thumbnail—her face, mid-laugh, lights blurred behind her.
* * *
The next day, they were on the mountain by nine-thirty, and Joe forgot about everything else for a while.
The air was thin and cold, the kind that burned your lungs in a good way. Sam was already talking shit before they'd even gotten their skis on, something about how Joe was rusty, how he'd probably fall on his ass within the first ten minutes. Joe didn't take the bait, just clipped into his bindings and waited.
"You coming or what?" he called over his shoulder.
Sam grinned. "Oh, we're doing this."
They were.
Joe and Sam raced down the first run, carving hard, trading leads. Zac and Micah followed at a more reasonable pace, and Trae filmed the whole thing from the lift, probably planning to roast them both later. By the time they got to the bottom, Joe's legs were burning, and Sam was bent over, hands on his knees, laughing.
"Alright," Sam said between breaths. "You're not rusty."
"Told you."
They went again. And again. Joe was present—fully, genuinely having fun. The kind of fun that didn't require thinking, just moving, reacting, existing in the moment.
During a break around eleven, they grabbed a bench near the lodge. Joe pulled out his phone while Trae went to get coffee for everyone.
Nothing from Riley yet.
He pocketed it, stretched his legs out, and watched a group of kids wipe out spectacularly on the bunny slope.
They did another run, then one more, and by the time they stopped again, Joe's phone had finally buzzed.
He pulled it out.
Photo from Riley.
He opened it, and his entire face changed.
Riley and Barbie, both dressed as Barbies. Like, literal Barbie. Pink everything—Riley in a pink dress with a blonde wig, Barbie in a matching pink outfit with her own tiny wig. They were standing on a street corner, parade chaos in the background, both of them looking absolutely ridiculous and perfect.
Joe grinned.
"What is it?" Trae asked, leaning over.
Joe turned the phone so he could see.
Trae stared at it for a second, then started laughing. "Man, that looks way more fun than this."
Sam leaned in from the other side. "Wait, is that—"
"Yeah," Joe said. "That's Barbie. And Riley."
Sam shook his head, still smiling. "That dog lives better than I do."
"She really does."
Joe saved the photo, sent back a quick text: You two look great. Barbie's gonna be insufferable after this.
Riley responded immediately: She already is.
They skied for another hour. Joe kept checking his phone during breaks—another photo came through of Riley, Barbie, Tomas, Marcus, and two other dogs he didn't recognize, all of them in costumes. He didn't show that one to anyone. Just saved it and put his phone away.
By early afternoon, they were done. Legs tired, faces wind-burned, the kind of exhausted that felt good. They loaded into the car and headed back to the house.
* * *
Inside, someone—Micah, maybe—pulled out a joint and lit it.
The TV was on—some game, someone playing, others half-watching. Joe sat in the armchair by the window, legs stretched out, scrolling through his phone.
A voice memo came through from Riley.
He didn't think twice. Just hit play.
Riley's voice filled the room, still a little hoarse but bright: "So I just saw a SpongeBob float and immediately thought of you. Like it was very detailed. Patrick was there. Squidward. The pineapple house. I took a video, but it doesn't do it justice. Anyway. Hope you're having fun. Miss you."
Joe smiled.
From across the room, Sam said, "Dude, why does that sound way more fun than this?"
Joe looked up. "What?"
Sam gestured vaguely at the window, the mountains. "This. We're sitting in a house in Aspen. She's at fuckin' Mardi Gras."
Trae laughed. "He's not wrong."
Zac didn't look away from the TV. "You wanna go to New Orleans?"
Sam shrugged. "I'm just saying. Parades, music, and her dog in a costume? That sounds better than another day on the slopes."
Micah: "You've never even been to Mardi Gras."
Sam: "Exactly. So I'm trying to figure out what the hype is about."
* * *
Evening came fast.
They cleaned up, changed, and headed into town. The bar they picked was the kind of place that screamed Aspen—dark wood, leather booths, bartenders in vests, a whiskey list longer than the food menu. It was expensive and full of people who looked like they belonged there.
They got a table in the corner. Ordered drinks. The energy was good—loose from the weed earlier, relaxed from skiing, just easy.
About forty-five minutes in, Joe went to the bar to order another round.
He was waiting, leaning against the counter, when a woman approached.
She was attractive. Confident. Smiled at him like she already knew the answer.
"Hey," she said. "Can I buy you a drink?"
Joe glanced at her. "I'm good. Thanks, though."
She blinked, clearly not expecting that. "You sure?"
"Yeah."
She held his gaze for another second, then nodded and walked away.
Joe grabbed the drinks the bartender had just set down and headed back to the table.
He sat down. Nobody said anything, but Sam had noticed.
Joe was pulling out his phone when it buzzed in his hand.
Instagram notification.
He swiped it open.
Riley had posted.
It was a photo dump—her at parades, friends around her, Barbie in full costume, the city lit up in purple and gold. She looked happy. Alive.
The caption: Carnival 2025. Missing one.
Joe stared at it. Missing one.
Of course, it was about him. Who else?
He set the phone down. Picked it back up. Read it again.
Stood.
Zac looked up. "Where are you going?"
"Calling Riley. Be right back."
He didn't wait for a response. Just walked toward the door, stepped outside into the cold.
The street was quiet. A few people walking by, music drifting from another bar down the block. Joe pressed her contact, held the phone to his ear.
She answered after a few rings. "Hey."
"Hey. Just saw your post."
"Yeah?" She sounded tired but happy. "You like it?"
"Yeah." He paused. "You miss me?"
"Fishing for compliments?"
"Maybe."
Riley laughed. "You want me to tell you I've been thinking about you all day?"
"Have you?"
"What do you think?"
"I think you have."
"Then why'd you ask?"
"Wanted to hear you say it."
Riley sighed, but he could hear the smile in it. "Yeah, Joe. I miss you."
Joe smiled despite himself. "How was today?"
"Good. Exhausting. Barbie's still in her costume and refuses to let me take it off. And Tomas just texted that they're running late...again, which means we're definitely not getting to the parade on time…again." She paused. "How's Aspen?"
"It's good. We skied. Came back, hung out. Now we're at a bar."
"Sounds fun."
"It is." He paused. "Miss you though."
"Miss you too, lovey."
They talked for a few more minutes—nothing deep, just the sound of each other.
"Text me tomorrow?" she asked.
"Yeah. I will."
"Okay. Night."
"Night."
He hung up.
Stood there for another minute, just breathing in the cold, watching his breath fog in the air.
Then he went back inside.
All four guys were watching him when he sat down.
Sam leaned back in his chair, grinning. "You just left a bar to call your girlfriend."
Joe picked up his drink. "So?"
"So that's very domestic of you."
Zac: "He's been domestic. Where have you been?"
Sam: "Clearly missing things."
Everyone laughed. Joe shook his head but didn't argue.
Micah leaned forward, elbows on the table. "You two back together for real this time?"
The table went a little quieter. Not serious, but attentive.
Joe met his eyes. "Yeah. We are."
Trae: "Does she know that?"
Joe looked at him. "Yeah. She knows."
Pause.
"We just haven't said it like that yet."
Sam raised an eyebrow. "What does that mean?"
Joe shrugged. "We've been calling it 'figuring things out.' But we're together."
Zac set his drink down. "So what's different this time?"
The question landed heavier than the others.
Joe met his eyes. "I'm different this time."
* * *
Joe woke up later than usual, head a little foggy from the night before. The house was quiet but not silent—footsteps in the hallway, the sound of someone running water in the kitchen, the hum of people existing in various states of awake.
He stayed in bed for a minute, blinking at the ceiling, before reaching for his phone.
Text from Riley. Photo attached.
He opened it.
Sunrise over New Orleans. The sky was pink and gold, streaks of purple still visible. Streamers hung from trees, remnants of the night before. The city looked soft. Beautiful.
Caption: Morning after. City's still celebrating.
Then another notification. A video.
Joe tapped it.
Papa and Trina. They were at a parade—daytime, crowds thick behind them, music drifting through the speaker. Papa was waving at the camera, grinning wide.
"Tell Joseph we miss him!"
The video panned to show Trina laughing, then back to the parade, floats rolling past, people dancing in the street. Then it cut off.
Joe watched it again. Set the phone face-down on his chest.
He didn't respond. Riley was probably still asleep anyway—she'd been out until sunrise. He just stared at the ceiling for another long minute, then set his phone on the nightstand and got up.
Pulled on sweats and a hoodie. Headed downstairs.
The kitchen smelled like coffee. Micah was at the counter pouring himself a cup, and Trae was sprawled on the couch scrolling through his phone. Sam was nowhere to be seen—probably still asleep.
Joe grabbed a mug, filled it, and walked out onto the back deck.
The cold hit him immediately. The mountains stretched out in front of him, snow-covered and silent.
But all Joe could think about was New Orleans.
He sat down in one of the chairs, phone in hand, and pulled up the video again.
"Tell Joseph we miss him."
He watched it twice more before the door opened behind him.
Zac stepped out with his own coffee and sat down in the chair next to Joe without saying anything.
They sat in silence for a minute.
Then Zac: "You good?"
Joe: "Yeah."
But he wasn't good. And Zac could see it.
"What is it?"
Joe didn't answer right away. Just unlocked his phone and handed it over without looking at him.
Zac watched the video. Handed it back. Didn't say anything at first.
Joe stared at the mountains. "This is good."
Pause.
"But yeah. I wish I was there."
Zac didn't say anything for a long moment. Just sipped his coffee, stared out at the mountains.
Then: "What if we just went?"
Joe looked at him. "What?"
"To New Orleans. What if we said fuck it and went?"
Joe blinked. "We're in Aspen. We have two more days here."
"So? We can leave."
"You serious?"
Zac turned to face him. "Why not? You're miserable. Sam was literally saying yesterday that New Orleans sounds better. And I've never been to Mardi Gras either."
"You guys planned this whole trip."
"And we can unplan it." Zac stood, drained the rest of his coffee. "Come on."
He headed back inside.
Joe sat there for another second, then followed.
* * *
Inside, the energy had shifted slightly. Micah was on the couch now. Sam had emerged from his room, standing in the kitchen, eating a protein bar. Trae was still on his phone.
Zac set his mug down on the counter. "I have a proposal."
Everyone looked up.
"What if we went to New Orleans?"
Micah: "What?"
Zac: "New Orleans. Mardi Gras. What if we just went?"
Beat of silence.
Sam: "Right now?"
Zac: "Yeah. Like today."
Trae sat up straighter. "For Mardi Gras?"
"For Mardi Gras. For Joe. For whatever."
Sam didn't hesitate. "I'm in."
Micah blinked. "Seriously?"
"I've never been to Mardi Gras." Sam gestured vaguely toward the windows, the mountains beyond. "That looks way more fun than this."
Trae: "I'm down."
Everyone looked at Joe.
Joe: "There's nowhere to stay. It's Mardi Gras week."
Trae leaned back against the couch. "You know Riley will let us stay with her. Or she knows enough people who could house us."
Sam: "Does Riley have space?"
Joe: "She has a couch and a guest room. That's not enough for all of you."
Zac: "We'll make it work. Air mattresses, floors, whatever."
Sam: "I'll sleep on the floor. I don't care."
Joe: "You guys can't just show up and crash at her place."
Micah: "Why not? She knows us." He gestured to himself, then Zac and Trae.
Beat.
Trae pulled out his phone. "If we're doing this, we need to figure out flights."
Micah was already scrolling. "Looking now."
Suddenly, everyone was on their phones. Joe just stood there, watching them move.
Zac, after a minute: "There are a few commercial options, but we'd have to split up. Different flights, different times."
Sam: "What about private?"
Zac looked up. "You want to charter?"
"If we're doing this, let's actually do it. Get there at the same time."
Zac: "That's not cheap."
Trae: "So? We can afford it."
Zac started making calls, phone pressed to his ear, pacing toward the windows.
Joe realized: they were serious.
Sam, while Zac was talking to someone about availability: "If we're doing this, I'm flying Jess out too."
Joe: "Your wife?"
"Yeah. She'll kill me if she finds out we went to Mardi Gras and I didn't include her."
Joe almost smiled.
Zac hung up. "Got something. Leaves in three hours."
Micah: "From where?"
"Private airstrip about forty minutes from here."
Trae stood. "So we need to leave in like two hours."
Sam: "Then let's move."
Everyone started heading toward their rooms.
Zac turned to Joe. "You gonna call her?"
Joe: "Yeah."
"Now?"
"Now."
* * *
Joe went back upstairs, closed his door, and pulled out his phone.
He called Riley.
She answered on the fourth ring, voice rough with sleep. "Hey, lovey. You okay?"
"Yeah. I'm good. You sleeping?"
"Was. It's fine." He heard rustling, her shifting in bed. "What's up?"
Joe sat on the edge of the bed. "How would you feel about some company?"
Silence.
Then: "What kind of company?"
"Me. And the guys."
Riley was quiet for a second. "You're in Aspen."
"I know."
"And you want to come here. To New Orleans."
"Yeah."
"When?"
"Today. We'd get there tonight."
Another pause. Longer this time.
Then Riley laughed, soft and a little disbelieving. "You're serious."
"Yeah."
"Joe." Her voice shifted, warmer now. "Of course. Yes. Get here."
"You sure? It's five of us. And Sam's wife is flying in too."
"I don't care. We'll figure it out. I have a couch, a guest room. People can take floors. Or I'll ask around."
She laughed again, fully awake now. "Barbie's gonna lose her mind."
"Yeah?"
"She's been sad since you left. Keeps lying on your side of the bed."
Joe's chest did something. "Tell her I'm coming back."
"I will." Riley paused. "I'm really happy you're coming."
"Me too."
"Text me when you land?"
"Yeah. I will."
"Okay. See you soon, lovey."
"See you soon."
He hung up.
Stood there for a second, just holding the phone.
Then he grabbed his bag and started packing.
* * *
Chaos.
Everyone was packing, moving fast. Zac was on the phone again, confirming details with the charter company. Trae was throwing clothes into a duffel bag. Micah was in the kitchen, grabbing snacks for the flight—protein bars, water bottles, whatever he could find.
Sam was on his phone too, presumably with his wife.
Joe walked in.
Zac looked up. "Well?"
"Yeah. She said yes."
Sam pumped his fist. "Hell yes. Let's go to Mardi Gras."
The energy shifted. It was real now.
Everyone moved faster.
Joe headed upstairs to his room, grabbed his bag, and started throwing everything into it. Didn't bother folding. Just tossed it all in—shirts, jeans, his charger, toiletries.
He pulled out his phone.
Texted Riley: We're on our way. I'll text you when we land.
Her response came immediately: Can't wait.
Joe pocketed his phone, zipped his bag, and headed back downstairs.
Everyone was ready. Bags by the door. Zac was handling checkout with the rental company over the phone. Sam was still talking to his wife.
"Yeah, babe, I know. I'm getting you a ticket now. You'll meet us there."
Trae looked at Joe. "You ready for this?"
Joe: "Yeah."
Micah shook his head, grinning. "This is insane."
Zac hung up and grabbed his bag. "Alright. Let's go."
They loaded into the cars—two SUVs, splitting up for the drive. Joe ended up in the passenger seat of Zac's car, staring out the window as they pulled out of the driveway.
His phone buzzed.
Another text from Riley. Photo attached.
Her and Barbie on the couch, both looking half-asleep. Riley's hair was a mess, and Barbie's head was on her lap.
Caption: We're about to start getting the house ready. See you soon lovey.
Joe saved it.
Zac glanced over. "You good?"
Joe looked at him. "Yeah. Really good."
Zac smiled. "Good. Because this is fucking crazy."