Catch up and Update :)
Alright, I’ve been dead for a hot minute and I want to update everyone and also promise that this is going to be a good thing!
Okay, so I’ve been through a lot in the last few weeks and it’s been really difficult, but I’ve gotten through all of that and I’m very proud! So, no news on my lump yet, I see the doctor next week, but so far we aren’t too alarmed so I’ve nick named it Fergie because it’s a lovely lady lump. As for the car accident. I am totally fine, and the man who caused the accident can’t make a claim against my insurance so thankfully that won’t be an added expense for me! Beyond that, it will cost about $2200 to get my car fixed up but thankfully that is the discounted amount from just over 4k.
Further good news! I’ve been looking at my ED head on and have been working hard to stop tracking food, exercise for fun and wearing what I call “Scary clothing” so that I can combat my body dysmorphia. It’s been going well and I haven’t binged through out the last rough week!
Another fun thing, and I only mention this because its totally legal. Because I have my covid shot my dispensary gave me a free pre-roll which was a fun little treat!
(All questions are answered on April first and therefore are going to be time stamped for that lol)
57. Mon. March 22: What are you grateful for today? Head phones, my neighbors have work being done and their workers are WILDLY loud so I’m glad I can drown them out.
58. Tue. March 23: What are you proud of yourself for? I got dressed today! In a “scary” shirt and a skirt! I’m very excited to try and be more normal like other’s.
59. Wed. March 24: Favorite sweet? wafer cookies
60. Thur. March 25: What makes you happy? music, my sister, coffee, feeling accomplished
61. Fri. March 26: What are your strengths? perseverance. I always try to do better than I did yesterday and frankly, today I’m feeling good about that.
62. Sat. March 27: How did this week go for you?LMAO my accident was on this day. it was no bueno
63. Sun. March 28: What’s the plan for next week? survive.
64. Mon. March 29: What is your weakness? I get overwhelmed and become catatonic.
65. Tue. March 30: Can’t pour from an empty cup! How do you refill your cup? meditation, therapy and knitting.
66. Wed. March 31: What was the last compliment you got? My dad about twenty minutes ago when I came down in my outfit. He asked if I was looking extra nice to go anywhere. I said it is fighting the depression monster. He said I looked nice and he was happy for me.
67. Thur. April 1: When do you feel most at peace? Listening to my queer cottage core play list, laying in the grass with my dog and smoking a pre-roll. It is an ultimate relaxation that makes me feel connected to the earth and my body. I don’t want to come off as a stoner but honestly it’s fantastic for my anxiety!
