#hilda things

[aphalleos]

ANYWAYS is like. hacking and programming considered a super power? cause Hilda can do that

[aphalleos]

Unexpected Pregnancy: Sweden x Alleos

Kinda based on a convo I had regarding if Alleos got pregnant with @darkest-shadows-of-scandinavia . Hilda wouldn’t be happy and would go to all sorts of extremes to avoid having a child.

1258 words, and there is essentially suicide in this!

Hilda was in tears. This couldn’t be happening. It couldn’t be. She looked down to the little device in her hands and broke down again. Throwing the device across the room, she rested her head in her knees and sobbed. This didn’t go unnoticed; a special someone who had been making his way specifically to check on her had heard the sobbing. That someone was Berwald. Knowing something was up, he entered the room without hesitation.

“Hilda?” said Berwald urgently. Sitting next to her on the bed, he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her in close. “Hilda, please tell me what’s wrong. This isn’t like you at all.” The whole Nordic family was well aware that she hadn’t been feeling the best as of late-- vomiting frequently, fatigue before her watch would reach low charge, headaches, violent mood swings… things of the like. Initially, it was assumed that Eduard was attacking her again. However, deep in her heart Hilda knew damn well it was something more.

Reluctantly, Hilda moved from his arms and over to the wall where the device hit. Then she went to the trash can to retrieve a few more similar devices, and soon enough Berwald was able to put together what they were. Those devices she held were none other than pregnancy tests. Mouth agape and eyes wide, he looked up to Hilda, who handed the devices over. “Read them.”

Berwald’s hands were trembling as he took the devices, and surely enough-- they were positive. “Hilda, I…” Berwald, on one hand, really wanted to start a family of his own with the woman he loved. However, he knew Hilda didn’t like kids. She was awkward enough around Peter and Erland as it was, but maybe now that she was going to have her own that would change?

“This… this is the worst thing that could happen. I fear it would be too late to abort it.”

His heart dropped. “Well, why don’t we go to a doctor before assuming anything?”

To the suggestion, Hilda nodded desperately. Without hesitation, Berwald went off to make an appointment, just for the very next day.

FFW to after the appointment…

Now Hilda was a complete and total mess. The doctor had confirmed that yes, she was pregnant, and she was too far along to abort it. For Hilda, that only meant one thing-- she would have to deal with the physical trauma it would cause to her body to deliver it. Not to mention how mentally fucked up she already was from all of this…

Without another word, she stormed past the family before anybody could ask what was up, entering the little pocket world and travelling from Copenhagen to Alleos with ease.

“Is she okay?!” Matthias asked urgently. He was about to go after Hilda, but Berwald quickly grabbed a hold of his arm.

“Leave her be. She… she needs some time alone.”

Matthias heaved a heavy sigh. Hilda could be a handful, but he felt the need to know what was going on. “Fine. Just… please tell me what’s going on. She’s my kid after all, I just need to make sure she’s okay.”

Berwald hesitated, but eventually spoke up. It was important that the whole family understand why she was in such a terrible place at the moment. “To keep it short… she’s pregnant. She didn’t know how far along she was until today, and she doesn’t want to keep it. But… it’s too late to do anything about it.”

This left the whole family crushed and speechless. Everybody stared at Berwald, unable to find anything to say.

FFW a few days-- with Hilda…

Hilda was in a bit of an emotional frenzy. Well, reasonably so-- she valued her life as it was. To have a child, especially when she was so young, was a nightmare come true for her. Why did she have to be one of the unfortunate few to not even know she was pregnant until it was too late?!

Already, the stress had become too much. She couldn’t take this, and there was no way in hell she’d be able to live with knowing that she destroyed her body for something she didn’t even want. Hell, as far as she knew, she couldn’t have even gotten pregnant!

Her mind was racing, until she made it to her office. Her gaze fell onto that one sacred area-- the networking closet. With no hesitation, she made her way over and signed into the client computer. With just a little bit of tweaking, she was able to disable all firewalls and antivirus, leaving the network completely vulnerable. With her heart pounding and adrenaline pumping through her body, she then used her personal computer to sign into a few… more than shady websites, posting the IP address and other network credentials. She informed people to attack the network with whatever they had; preferably something so devastating that would damage the network beyond repair. Seeing as she was cyber based, this really was the only way for her to go.

People jumped on the opportunity as she expected, and she laid down on the couch as she waited. It didn’t take long at all for the pain to begin hitting her-- and by god it was excruciating. Immediately, she recoiled, curling up into a ball as she hissed in pain. Tears had already sprung up to her eyes and started dripping from them. The pain was like no other she’d ever felt. However, she remained almost completely silent. She just… writhed in the pain, right there on her couch. Her phone rang and buzzed with calls and texts, but just like the last few days she blatantly ignored it all.

It didn’t take long at all for a sense of peace to wash over her, and her body relaxed. Her mind went just about completely blank, and she knew the feeling-- everything was being erased entirely. The network and its data would soon enough cease to exist.

With Berwald...

Berwald could feel in his bones that something was up. He’d called and texted Hilda almost endlessly during the last few days. And, as she usually did when she was having a bit of an episode, she refused to answer or even read anything. It was only this fateful day Berwald just knew something was wrong-- perhaps fatally wrong. He spoke no words as he exited the estate, rushing over to Alleos and near breaking the door in with ease. There he found his Hilda on the couch, looking spaced out as ever.

Oh no.

He could already tell this wasn’t good.

“Hilda…?” his quiet voice rumbled as he made his way over. He touched her hand, and she just barely gazed over to him.

“Ber… I’m sorry…” her voice trailed off, and her eyes fluttered shut. Like that, the server was just… completely dead. It had been destroyed beyond repair and then it just ceased to exist.

Berwald just remained in his position, completely at a loss and in shock. She was once as happy as she could have been with the Nordics, and he knew her too well to know that she really did go out of her way to cause this. Entirely out of the fear of having a child…

Berwald began crying, and boy the tears showed no damn sign of stopping. Now he was in pain, and it was like no pain he’d ever felt before. That said a lot considering how long he’d been around for.

“Hilda, I’m sorry.”

[aphalleos]

/* * * * *

she finally kind of has. some sort of casual look (under the cut because I finally learnt how to change the resolution)

- kinda funky but I’ve been told that she’s not necessarily normal so I decided to vibe with that

- very monochromatic

- COMFY

- please put on shoes. you’re gonna get slashed

- listen, idk if this is the casual look but tbf it can’t be too far off. she wants to live confy

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[aphalleos]

𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐮𝐚𝐠𝐞 ,  𝐧𝐨𝐧 - 𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐛𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 !

bold what applies ( or is associated ) with your muse. repost, don’t reblog !

i’ll also italicize what sorta applies :]

tagged by:  @paralianprince THANK YOU <3

tagging:  @koansim // @chianchau @toberoundistobefree @hetaliavoid (Raya!)

𝘿 𝙀 𝙁 𝙀 𝙉 𝙎 𝙄 𝙑 𝙀 𝙉 𝙀 𝙎 𝙎  ——  an eyebrow raised.  arms crossed at chest. hands on hips. crossing legs.  fake smile. fist - like gestures.  fig leaf position.  glares.  taking a step back. twitching ( trigger ) fingers.

𝙍 𝙀 𝙁 𝙇 𝙀 𝘾 𝙏 𝙄 𝙑 𝙀  —— hand - to - face gestures. head tilted.  far - off stare.  furrowed brow. peering over glasses.  placing glasses earpiece in mouth.  taking glasses off - cleaning.  pinching bridge of nose.  pursed lips. stroking chin.

𝙎 𝙐 𝙎 𝙋 𝙄 𝘾 𝙄 𝙊 𝙉  —— arms crossed.  fake smile. fiddling  /  fidgeting with clothes or items. keeping distance. narrowed eyes. shifty eyes.  shifty smiles. sideways glance. touching or rubbing nose.

𝙊 𝙋 𝙀 𝙉 𝙉 𝙀 𝙎 𝙎  &  𝘾 𝙊 𝙊 𝙋 𝙀 𝙍 𝘼 𝙏 𝙄 𝙊 𝙉  ——  agreeable nods.  leaning into. open hands.  open arms.  hand - to - face gestures. hands folded in lap. head tilted.  maintaining eye contact.  relaxed sitting. short touches.

𝘾 𝙊 𝙉 𝙁 𝙄 𝘿 𝙀 𝙉 𝘾 𝙀  —— an eyebrow raised.  devil may care attitude.  hair flip. hands behind back. hands on hips.  hands on lapels of coat. puffed out chest. shoulders back. smug smiles.  upturned chin.

𝙄 𝙉 𝙎 𝙀 𝘾 𝙐 𝙍 𝙄 𝙏 𝙔  &  𝘼 𝙉 𝙓 𝙄 𝙀 𝙏 𝙔  ——  biting fingernails.  chewing on pen or pencil. chewing on lower lip. chewing on upper lip. clearing throat.  eager to leave. fidgeting fingers.  fiddling with clothes. hands in pockets.  nervous laughter. peering over shoulder. perspiring hands. playing with hair. playing with pocket change. poor eye contact. rubbing thumb over opposite thumb.  running palms down pant legs.  shifty eyes.  shy smiles.  sighing. snapping in retort. swaying  /  can’t stand still. walking away mid - conversation.

I always knew Hilda was very reliant on her body language to convey her thoughts and feelings, but this was a good reflection to see what more I could add while IC!

[aphalleos]

/*I wanted in!*/

CREDS: @marakama

[aphalleos]

Hilda would rather die than to ever have children.

[aphalleos]

♥ For Ber and Tino

Berwald:

If we kissed...

[] Quickie. [x] Tongue. [] Softly bite your lip. [] We wouldn’t. [x] Long and meaningful. [] Let’s hit up the bedroom. [] You remember last time? [] Awkward… [] Lol no.

Would I go out with you?

[x] Yes, definitely. [] No. [] I want to, but it wouldn’t work. [] Maybe. [] Nope, you’re like family. [] You’re cute, but probably not. [] Just simply not my type. [] If I knew you better. [] Already did. [] I don’t know.

If we took a picture together, we’d be…

[x] Hugging each other. [] Just chilling. [] Holding hands. [] Kissing. [] Acting dumb. [] Normal picture. [] You holding me from behind.

You are…

[] Cute/Pretty. [] Good looking. [] Sexy. [xxxxxxxxx] All of the above

You + me + room = …

[] Movies. [] Cuddling. [] Hanging out. [] Kissing. [] Playing games. [x] Everything. [] Wouldn’t let you in.

You should…

[] Hit me up. [x] Be mine. [x] Marry me. [] Reblog this so I can send you a heart. [] be studying

If we got married, I’d…

[] Divorce you. [] Make kids. [] Take your money and bounce. [] Smash every day. [] I would cheat on you. [x] Be faithful. [] Kill you in your sleep [] We wouldn’t

Tino:

If we kissed...

[] Quickie. [x] Tongue. [x] Softly bite your lip. [] We wouldn’t. [] Long and meaningful. [] Let’s hit up the bedroom. [] You remember last time? [] Awkward… [] Lol no. [x] “Beat your ass to the ground and establish dominance over you meow.”

Would I go out with you?

[x] Yes, definitely. [] No. [] I want to, but it wouldn’t work. [] Maybe. [] Nope, you’re like family. [] You’re cute, but probably not. [] Just simply not my type. [] If I knew you better. [] Already did. [] I don’t know.

If we took a picture together, we’d be…

[] Hugging each other. [] Just chilling. [] Holding hands. [] Kissing. [] Acting dumb. [] Normal picture. [x] You holding me from behind.

You are…

[] Cute/Pretty. [] Good looking. [] Sexy. [xxxxxxxxx] All of the above

You + me + room = …

[] Movies. [] Cuddling. [] Hanging out. [] Kissing. [] Playing games. [x] Everything. [] Wouldn’t let you in. [x] “More beating your ass to the ground-- meow!”

You should…

[] Hit me up. [x] Be mine. [x] Marry me. [] Reblog this so I can send you a heart. [] be studying

If we got married, I’d…

[] Divorce you. [] Make kids. [] Take your money and bounce. [] Smash every day. [] I would cheat on you. [x] Be faithful. [x] Kill you in your sleep “Playfully. If you get startled at me grabbing your ankle I know fully well you wouldn’t expect a big ball of tiger to jump on you in your sleep.” [] We wouldn’t

[aphalleos]

for @bates--boy : stagesoflife {

♖ - Their first friend

}

My first friend... you mean as a nation, or just... in general? [She looked up in thought. She didn’t want to focus on the past-- she lived in the ‘here and now’ and would much prefer to discuss that.] ...As I am now, then. 

[Even more thinking. Just answer the question, Hilda. He won’t bite-- he’s not high right now.]

Well... the Nordics! More specifically Berwald... I feel like we’re fairly similar. He’s really patient and nice, and... [A bit of heat rushes to her face. She adores Berwald.] He lets me go into his workshop with him. It’s always nice to help him out. Not only that, but he lets me go there whenever, actually, to work on my own projects if I want. In return, he’s willing to come over to mine and just... hang out. I enjoy just sitting outside and looking at the stars with him. He also makes really good coffee...

[Realising that she’s rambling, she cuts herself off there.]

Yes... I currently consider Berwald my first friend as a nation, and most certainly my closest at the time.