HIM will never be over as it will always live in each of us.
It took me a while before I found the courage to talk about it here. So yes, as we all know by now HIM is disbanding. Just writing the words hurts like hell. I still can't believe it's happening. When you've been hanging onto something so dear to your heart, you tend to take it for granted and think that it will last forever. HIM is and has always been more than a band to me.
They shaped the person I am today, they brought me the most amazing friendships and unexpected love. If it wasn’t for them, my life would litterally be completely different. I would never have met my girlfriend in here by fangirling over them and then moved countries to be with her. I wouldn’t have so many incredible and loyal friends that I met because of out love for them.
I was a lost 13 year old kid when I heard their music for the first time and what they gave me then cannot ever be forgotten. Acceptance, empowerment, courage and love.Their music, interviews, everything about them pushed me into being the best version of myself that I could be. They were warm and comforting in times of need. HIM has always been a huge part of me and my safety blanket. That is why I just cannot accept or concede it to be ending, because they always were more than a band. They will always be a part of me no matter what happens, I will always rely on them and have their posters on my walls. I will always follow, support and love every single member in their future projects and keep on being the giant HIM nerd I have always been. I can't deny that it hurts immensly and breaks my heart but I need to respect their choice, that's the least I can do. Just remember that as long as we are here to cherish what they've given us, HIM will never be over.
I will in a way or another go to at least one of the announced lives. Most likely in Koln with my girlfriend and perhaps Hamburg (Germany), also seriously considering Amsterdam. Let me know if you guys go to one of these or somewhere else. If any of you would like to meet up it would be amazing.
I love every single one of you and will always be here for you, will keep on posting HIM related things forever.
