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[ltcolonelfamilyman]

“Do you love me?”

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Alright, so pushing Roy’s buttons for the better part of the evening may have not been the best of ideas. But damn it had been fun flustering and frustrating his Raven. It was also how he’d landed himself pinned under said Raven, those dark eyes not amused as they looked down at him, and a disapproving frown turning those soft lips. 

That’s when he’d shot the question at him.

Not once did Maes flinch at the intensity or even at the question. Instead, green eyes became tender as they looked up into glimmering coal. his smile widening softy to match. “What do you think?” he asked, wrapping his arms around Roy and pulling him down on top of him entirely. 

As he did, he claimed Roy’s lips in a passionate kiss, making sure his Raven could feel just how silly that question was... and just how much he did indeed love him. He wouldn’t let up on him until he was sure any uncertainty Roy felt would have melted away. 

“Of course I love you... more than anything. I wasn’t kidding when we got home from Ishval Roy...” Maes’ expression turned more serious. “I said I would push down every bad thing I’d done and be the man the person eventually chose needed. I’m guessing you didn’t realize then that I’d chosen you...”

[ltcolonelfamilyman]

“Like I expected, you’re much comfier than my pillow.”

Soft Starters // Accepting

His own restless mind had woken him, the nightmares keeping him from sleep. Sitting up, he had intended to thumb through one of the report folders for the next day again hoping to help himself find sleep again. That was when he noticed Roy tossing and turning himself. His Raven didn’t appear to be having any better luck sleeping.

Maes was about to reach over and wake him, not able to stand the fact that Roy was suffering his own mind as well that night, when he’d started awake on his own. Simply giving Roy a soft smile, he shook his head as if to say he didn’t even need to ask, that he already knew and knew what Roy wanted. A moment later, Maes had slipping back down and Roy was laying against his chest. 

“Like I expected, you’re much comfier than my pillow.”

“You just like to listen to the sound of my heart beating,” he chuckled, lightly brushing his fingers through Roy’s hair. Ever since he’d come back, Roy had seemed to end up in this position with him all the more, almost as if he were making sure that his heart really was still beating, that he really was here and not some figment of his imagination. It hardly bothered him though, he welcomed it because he liked having Roy curled up with him just as much. 

Slowly, as Roy would drift back to sleep, so would he. Hopefully they both could get some rest... and the ghosts of the past would stay there, at least for one more night.

[ltcolonelfamilyman]

Jealous much?

@burningflamesofhell (X)

Roy couldn’t deny how the words made him feel and as they had been spoken while strong arms wrapped around him, his cheeks actually began to darken just a bit. The whole actions of course had surprised the girl who at first glance had been quite literally flirting with the Colonel. But at the look in Hughes eyes she did just that, she backed off. “Oh…s-sorry, I hadn’t meant to come between something…” The woman stammered her own cheeks darkening with embarrassment when she turned to leave.

Placing his hands over Hughes forearms Roy glanced at his Wolf. “Hughes…” he started softly and then turned slightly still allowing the man to hold on to him. “It’s alright, she wasn’t causing any harm.” Even as he spoke he somehow knew that wasn’t going to be enough to calm down his Wolf’s jealousy. At least not right then and there.

Seeing that she had indeed taken the hint, Maes relaxed but only a bit. He wasn’t even entirely sure what had come over him, growling with his eyes as he’d done...

“I know,” he sighed, leaning his head a bit against Roy’s shoulder. “I guess it was just... well... I leave you alone for five minutes and...” There was a light growl of frustration that interrupted his thoughts. “Just because someone’s not all over someone else... jeez...”

[ltcolonelfamilyman]

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Quiet nights, the craziness of the day left behind... just him and his Raven. This was what Maes lived for. It was these evenings that had made it all worth it just to have this, to have him. 

It was a rare occasion. Usually when they curled up on the sofa to relax it was Roy who usually managed to end up in his lap, but tonight Maes had managed to reverse things. Every now and then it was nice to let go of being the protective one, to give in to Roy a little. It had only taken him being held as a hostage, having his death faked, and be on the verge of losing everything he truly cared about day in and day out for nearly a year for him to learn that he didn’t always need to be the strong one it seemed. It was okay to let his guard down once in awhile.

This night he’d let Roy win, let him coax him into resting in his lap, and it had ended up with Roy running his fingers through his hair. Why had he waited so long to let him do this? 

At first, Maes had found himself a bit apprehensive, only for the fact that the last person he’d allowed to do this was his mother in the days before he’d found the courage to attempt to stand up to his father. She’d do it to ease him after his father had gone off again, either on him or her or both of them, for whatever reason he’d deemed worthy that day. It was something that brought up old ghosts he’d spent so much of his life trying to bury down... that had been why... the ease got overshadowed by the dread, the anxiety, and the pain.

Slowly he’d relaxed into it though, letting that shadow fade back into the dusty corners of his mind. He wasn’t a child anymore and he wasn’t being consoled as one either. This was someone who loved him, someone who didn’t turn a blind eye when things around them went to hell like his mother so often had... Roy wasn’t trying to placate him with empty gestures of comfort. Once he allowed himself to realize it and believe it, Maes had no trouble finding comfort in the action, even letting his eyes slip closed.

That would prove to be a bit of a mistake, though he wouldn’t realize it at first. No, it wasn’t until he felt the bit of moisture slip from beneath his closed lids and take on a light chill from the air as it crept over his skin that he’d realize he was crying. For the first time in his life, Maes truly felt safe with someone. Who knew all it would take was a light brush of those fingers in his hair for him to finally see it.

[ltcolonelfamilyman]

You’re not a monster

@burningflamesofhell (X)

Being tugged against Maes as the other slipped down beside him had Roy leaning in and actually lowering his hands back to against his arms instead of the back of his head. He knew Hughes was right, that they had to do what they had to, in order to survive, all they did was survive something that didn’t have to happen.

Letting out a small shuddering sigh Roy lifted his head just a bit and leaned his cheek against Maes upper arm and shoulder. “Sometimes I wonder if that’s all we’re good for…to kill and survive for Bradley…” He practically spat the name of the man whom they had just been following orders from during that time of slaughter. Another sigh and he turned into his wolf resting his forehead now on Hughes shoulder and wrapping his arms around the other.

He wasn’t the only one suffering, wasn’t the only one reliving those days years later. “Hughes…will we ever be free?” The words slipped from his lips on a whisper barely filling the distance or what little there was left of between them.

Roy curling into him like this, making himself so small... it hit Maes even harder than his Raven thinking himself a monster. This man should never feel or look this small, not with everything that burned so bright inside of him. He knew better than to discourage it though, knew that Roy needed to work this and if this was how he chose to do it, so be it. It wasn’t as if he’d leave his side after all.

As those arms wrapped around him and he felt the warmth of Roy’s body ever more against him, Maes would wrap him up a bit more completely. “That’s just the ghosts talking,” he soothed. “You know there’s more than just that, or at least there will be. Why the hell are we working so hard to get you into that seat hmm?”

Lightly he ran his fingers through the other’s hair. “That’s when we’ll be free Roy... then someone who has a conscience will be calling the shots. You’ll be calling the shots. I trust in your heart and I know you’re a smarter and more compassionate man than he is... I just need you to remember that.”

[ltcolonelfamilyman]

“Generally speaking, if you think something you want to do is wrong, it is.”

Once Upon A Time Starters // Accepting

“Then I wouldn’t be with you...” he replied, his voice quiet. The thoughts had seen fit to creep back in again. Maes had flipped them over and over... what he would do when that day inevitably came. How long could they honestly make people believe that they were just bachelor room mates? At their age... well most men of their age were married, though, truthfully... in loveless marriages...

Sighing, Maes raked his hand back through his hair. “I’m sorry Roy. I know being with you is the furthest thing from wrong... I just worry that the outside world won’t be so certain. I know how things can be out there, how closed minded people can be... the last thing I want to do is hold you back just because... because I love you.”