@hokkoshi said: "i miss the way you say my name." - chojuro / tadashi
he hadn't been back for long, not even a week, but chojuro's memory of him is improving -- slowly, surely, so much so that tadashi often feels as if chojuro's spoken thoughts are but needle pricked words chosen specifically to stick into his flesh and he doesn't know who is hurting more from the entire situation. again, chojuro says something that catches tadashi off guard and for the longest time, the homura responds to him with silence, only quietly moving from chair to table as he motions distant lover over. they've had better days, tadashi thinks, remembering back when tadashi would stay for a little longer or leave a little faster, before strings were attached and chojuro was something more than ass to chase, but things have changed from then to now.
now, chojuro is haunted with missing memories and lost time, marked with diluted chakra that's all but fizzled out from the past and tadashi's yet to anything about it. ( he might leave again. staying still makes him uneasy and he doesn't know what to do with the way his gut violently turns. ) eventually, chojuro meets him at the table and tadashi snakes his arms around the other, lowering his head onto shoulder and he breathes out slow, shallow breaths. " this isn't good for you, " ghost finally offers, slowly shifting just enough to look for any expression change in chojuro's face before he allows his eyes to fall closed, mouth pressed against shoulder and tadashi refuses to kiss him. " i am not good for you. "















