As i got out of work i proceeded to the market to buy snacks for my all night study sesh tonight. I walked to the bus stop thinking my bus comes in at 2:11, but it came in at 2:19 and i was 20 mins early so i just sat on the bench and waited low key agitated. I was people watching with my headphones in my ear blasting my girl Beyonce when this lady approaches me and asked me if she could sit down next to me, of course I said yes.
She sat next to me and we had a coversation
L: Oh i see you went christmas shopping, a lot of sweaters you got there.
M: Yeah my family's christmas present.
L: Are you hoping for a good christmas this year?
M: Yes, of course. How about you?
L: I dont have anyone, I'm all alone. I actually came form qualcomm. Kids get everything they want.
M: i'm sorry, what do you mean?
L: qualcomm hosted an event for low income families for thier kids to have a small christmas. they gave them toys and food. you know a little christmas cheer, but i went all the way over there and they denied me entry. I think its because i don't have children and supposably it was invite only. I am a low income person too, why can't i have a little christmas cheer you know.. I don't know. i wasted, my time, and little money I had. Now im stuck waiting for a bus empty handed. I'm sorry to ask, but do you have any change i really would like a Carl's Jr. cheeseburger, there's one by my house and its only $2.50. that would be an awesome Christmas present, like really awesome
M: Of course, let me see what i can do. [i look in my wallet and i barely had a what i thought was $1 in coins she watched me struggle to look for something]
L: anything will help, i like coins, i need some to do my laundry anyways.
[I proceeded to hand her 65 cents i felt so bad, but that was all i had. i remembered i bought hellla munchies from the market]
M: I'm sorry thats all i have, but would you like some food? [i hand her a bag of guacamole chips]
L: [with a big smile on her face] YES YES i would! OH MY GOODNESS thank you so much, you are so sweet, these are the good chips too! not the cheap kind.
my bus was here and i needed to go so i needed to part ways with her.
M: I hope that you have a better christmas :]
L: thank you sweetie you have a good christmas too! god bless you.
my heart literally broke speaking to her, i wanted to do so much more for her, but in the time i had i couldn't. there are so many people out there that want a christmas, or not even that, but not to be alone for the holidays. i'm sitting here complaining about the issues i have with my father, but there are less fortunate people out there that would do anything to have a "family" for christmas and im over here still bitter. I may not have a lot or everything I want, but I am blessed with many things people DO NOT HAVE and i need to NEVER forget that.
Its the little things in life that we take for granted, 65 cents and a bag of chips made some stranger happy after a terrible day. we need to remember to live each moment as our last, and treasure the finer LITTLE things in life. I needed this conversation, this moment to remind me of the things i have taken for granted, the little things in life that people need to keep pushing.
God works in mysterious ways. he truly, truly does.
Give a little this holiday, it does A LOT :]
