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Black and Blue - Three

Pairing: Detective Loki x Reader

Summary: She saw the world in black and blue

Requested: Nope

Chapter Warnings: Some swearing I think??, mentions of past abuse

A/N: So here’s the third part of BAB! I really like this one so I hope you guys enjoy it as well! Please remember to let me know what you think - reblog, comment, send asks, I love hearing from all of you :) and remember that tag requests are only accepted through my inbox xx

One // Two // Four // Five

Y/N Y/L/N saw the world as pain and waiting.

Somehow the worst part about it was the waiting.

Because at least when the pain came it was happening. She knew how bad it was. 

Whereas with the waiting, she had to calculate every decision she made carefully. She had to anticipate what it would be like. What he would be like. How much the inevitable pain would be.

For the longest time she had loved the colour blue. Even after he had come along she had loved it.

Loved him.

The blue eyes that would beam at her. Sparkle in joy. 

Blue eyes she could get lost in. That could set her free.

Blue eyes like the sky.

She had come to loathe the colour blue. 

For too long it was the only colour she could see. He wouldn’t let her see any other. 

And even when she was permitted to look at his colours there was no sparkle anymore. No birds flying in his blue sky. 

Now there were clouds in his sky.

///

Y/N was less surprised than she had thought she would be upon seeing Loki entering her newly renovated cafe the next day. 

She allowed herself to scan over his face properly, taking in his features. She had come to the conclusion that he didn’t mind her looking at him. Taking him in. He hadn’t commented on it. On her meeting his eyes.

There were bags under his eyes. His hair was unkept compared to it’s usual gelled-back style. 

“Are you okay?” She asked quietly as he reached the front of the queue.

“Long day,” he muttered, pulling out his wallet. 

Y/N knew all about his long day. It had been on the news that morning when she woke up. Alex Parker had been released from jail.

She considered phoning the Dovers or the Birches to check up on how they were doing but she wasn’t sure if it would be appreciated or not.

“Did you sleep last night?” She blurted out despite herself. It was none of her business really, she knew that. But Loki just looked too exhausted.

“I was following leads,” he told her following a brief hesitation. “Coffee?” He asked finally and Y/N nodded.

“Of course.”

“And... and one of those... one of those brownie things?” He added unsurely. An unwarranted shyness in his voice.

“I’m actually sold out of them - but... would come cookies do?” She questioned, biting her lip in worry as she saw the disappointed look on Loki’s face.

“I - uh - are they good?”

“They’re my sisters favourite?” Y/N offered, lips twitching a little at the edges as she watched Loki not his head.

“I guess I can trust her judgement,” he muttered. He passed her over the exact change and Y/N smiled to herself as she took it, waiting until he was down the other end of the counter to make room for the next person in line until she began to prep his order.

Instead of putting his money into the till, she opened up the box where she would put the baked goods and placed it in there instead, grabbing a napkin and writing: I told you it was free before closing the lid immediately and beginning to make his coffee.

“Hey, Detective?” She asked, placing the lid on the take away cup and handing that with the box of cookies over to him.

“Yeah?” 

“You... you’ll find them, right?” Y/N questioned, biting her lip nervously as she waited for his response.

Silence fell thick between them, broken only by the background chatter of her other customers.

“I’m not giving up on them.” 

That was enough for Y/N.

///

Loki had a usual.

He’s come into her bakery-turned-cafe every day while he was working the Dover/Birch case of the missing girls.

He’d order the same thing every day - coffee, black, no sugar, and then something from the cabinet of baked treats that Y/N picked out for him.

She hated to admit that she had begun to bake things especially for him that she thought he would like. She couldn’t believe he had never had baked goods growing up and so it seemed that she was trying to make up for that single handedly.

Y/N looked forwards to his visits into her shop. She looked forwards to the five minutes of conversation that they would share.

The bags around Loki’s eyes got darker every day and his shoulders sagged a little more, carrying the weight of two worlds on his shoulders.

And yet, despite the huge, crippling weight carried on his back Loki always mustered up a smile for her. A tired, overworked smile but a smile nonetheless.

Occasionally he’d even update her on the case, how it was going and how far along it was.

Mostly, though, they just spoke about mundane things. New chairs Y/N had bought, new mugs that Loki liked or new recipe’s she was trying out. Things which had no real relevance to anything.

But they would always - always - pass the money backwards and forwards between them. It was a game at this stage. To find the most creative way to get the other person to accept and keep the money. But they never kept it. They would always hand it back to the other person the next day with a mischievous smile on their face in the knowledge that they’d be getting it back in only a few hours time.

In those five-minute interactions she felt safer than she did the rest of the day.

So she missed him on the day that he didn’t come in.

But that turned to worry when she heard the news and found out that he was in the hospital with Anna.

Y/N closed up a little early that day, filling a box she had set aside for him with almost everything that she had left - brownies, cookies, salted caramel shortbread, cheesecake, angel cake and a cinnamon bun.

She made two drinks in to go cups - two chai lattes. 

Y/N had coerced Loki into trying one one day that he came in late and she refused to serve him caffeine, insisting he needed sleep and Loki had admitted that he liked them.

Though he wouldn’t be caught dead ordering one for himself.

Y/N was nervous as she walked up to the hospital. Her fingers drummed relentlessly on the box as she balanced the two take-away mugs on top of it.

“Name?” The bored receptionist asked, barely looking up at Y/N.

“Y/N? Y/N Y/L/N,” she breathed.

“Who are you here to see? And what’s your relation?”

“Detective Loki? I’m his... his friend.”

That got the receptionist’s attention and she looked up in shock.

“You’re friends with dark and stormy?” She asked, her nose wrinkling just a tad and Y/N bit her lip to prevent herself from giggling. The woman focused on the box in her hand. “What’s in the box?”

“Just some food,” Y/N said.

“From the bakery in town?” Y/N nodded. “I love that place,” the woman admitted with a grin.

“Thank you,” Y/N bit her lip to stop her smile getting too wide and the woman’s eyes widened a little.

“Oh shit! That’s where I recognise you from! I used to come in every day on my way to work before I moved house! Your bakery is the best thing that’s happened to this town this year,” the woman insisted and Y/N smiled shyly down at her feet.

“Thank you,” she said again, biting her lip.

“Sorry - he’s in room 102,” Y/N nodded her head at the woman and began to walk through the way that she had been shown.

Y/N paused outside of Loki’s door. She shifted awkwardly from foot to foot, debating whether or not she ought to go in.

Would he appreciate her coming to visit him?

She took a deep breath and raised her hand to knock on the door.

There was a subdued ‘come in’ from inside and Y/N pushed the door open.

“Hey,” she said, watching Loki’s head snap up to look at her.

“Y/N?” Y/N walked over to the side of his bed and placed the box and chai lattes down on his bedside table.

“Is it okay I’m here?” She asked and Loki swiftly moved into action, shifting to make room for her on his hospital bed as he nodded.

“Yeah! Yeah, of course!” He patted the sheets next to him with a small, unsure smile.

Y/N sat down at the very edge of the bed.

“I just... wanted to make sure you were okay,” she admitted softly.

“I am,” Loki said immediately, clearly seeing the doubt on her face. He reached out hesitantly and took her hand, giving her time and space to pull away if she wanted to. “I promise.”

Y/N squeezed his hand.

“I brought you a chai latte? And some... things I had left over in the bakery that I thought you’d like?”

“You didn’t have to do that,” Loki told her.

“I know - I wanted to.”

“I’ll pay you back,” he promised and Y/N squeezed his hand again, assuring herself that he really was okay.

She hadn’t realised how worried she had really been until right now.

“How many times do I have to tell you not to?” Loki let out a raspy chuckle.

“Thank you.”

///

“Hey,” Y/N sat down on the seat at the table opposite Loki. He looked up from his paper work confused.

“Oh - hi,” a small smile graced his face, softening his features. “Don’t you have to work?” Y/N grinned, gesturing around them.

“You’re the only customer, Loki,” the detective laughed gently as silence fell between them.

“David.”

“Pardon?”

“My name - it’s David,” he smiled at her, his fingers playing with the handle of his mug. “Can you... could you call me that?”

“If that’s what you want,” Y/N agreed, biting her lip.

“Yeah - I really do.”

Silence fell over them again, comfortable and light as opposed to the heavy, awkward ones that Y/N was used to.

Anna had been found just over a week ago, Loki having been released from the hospital the day after he had been admitted, though he hadn’t been allowed to drive immediately from the amount of painkillers he was on and had rung Y/N to ask if she would pick him up.

Y/N had been happy to agree and help him out, shutting the bakery for half an hour as she drove to the hospital. Though she had been reluctant to drive him anywhere other than his home, especially when he said he wanted to go to Mrs Parker’s home.

But Loki had been insistent and Y/N couldn’t help but give in to his pleas.

Loki found Keller. He was still in the hospital a week later and Loki had visited him, unsure of whether the man would want to see him or not but needing to discus the case and what would follow with him.

Since closing the Dover/Birch case for good, Loki had dove straight into his next one and had been spending even more time at Y/N’s cafe, often coming to sit in there rather than take away, reading over his case notes in the corner booth by the window - which had essentially become reserved for him by now. 

“I was wondering something,” Loki finally spoke again, though his eyes were fixed on his mug of coffee.

“Yeah?”

“Would you... maybe... ever, like... I mean... would you...” Loki bit his lip and shook his head. “Doesn’t matter.”

“David?” Y/N considered taking his hand across the table but wasn’t sure if he would appreciate the contact. 

He never did.

“Would you... maybe... could I take you out for dinner sometime? I mean you said that - that you hadn’t really eaten out since you moved here and... I just...”

Y/N closed her eyes.

Her mind flooded with images. 

Pictures of blue, blue eyes.

Or black spaces.

And red. Red everywhere.

With the screams.

The fear.

The doubt.

The unknowing.

But - but she had taken refuge in the unknowing recently. She liked the unknowing. 

Loki was the definition of unknowing. So maybe...

“Yeah... yeah, I’d like that.”

[bearingwater]

March Forecast for Aquarius

March is a pivotal month for you because your co-ruling planet, Uranus, makes a major move—and that doesn’t happen often! After spinning through Aries and your communication center since March 2011, unpredictable Uranus will change signs on March 6, entering Taurus for a seven-year stint in your domestic fourth house.

Home and family get a jolt of electrifying energy as Uranus in Taurus brings unrest to your nest until April 2026. From moving to renovating to a shifting cast of characters under your roof, you could be planting AND pulling up roots quite a few times. A female relative, possibly your mother or a maternal figure, could play into events. Some Water Bearers might get a bout of “baby fever” and make a shocking decision to adopt or try IVF (Uranus rules technology) if conventional pregnancy isn’t an option. Others could experience empty-nest syndrome or suddenly require more autonomy and space to disconnect from the demands of needy loved ones. With “mad scientist” Uranus here, you might start a successful online business from the comfort of your own home. Cottage industry, anyone?

Uranus is the planet of sudden change and innovation, and as a slower-moving “outer planet,” it takes 84 years to return to each zodiac sign. Its mission is to make us think outside the box, to break up stagnant energy and to push for progress at all costs. Its energy can be jarring and upsetting at times; liberating and exhilarating at others. Luckily, you’re a sign that embraces change, despite being one of the four “fixed” signs. That said, changemaker Uranus is in “fall” in security-seeking Taurus, its least comfortable position. You may need to make adjustments and decisions that won’t always be easy.

Take the example of our friend, a Capricorn mom of four, who just experienced Uranus in her fourth house from 2011 to 2019. A couple years ago, she moved from a home she lived in for more than 20 years so her aging mom could join the household. But with independent Uranus at the helm, this arrangement cramped their style so badly, they stopped speaking for weeks! Finally, her mom moved into affordable senior housing, and our friend released herself from a lifetime of codependent guilt. All’s well that ends well…though in true Uranian curveball fashion, this was NOT the “happily ever after” she expected.

With energizer Mars also in Taurus until March 31, this new chapter could announce itself boldly. Mars can add motivation and stress in equal measure. Watch for friction under your roof. If you’ve got a beef with relatives or roomies, address it directly without unleashing a tidal wave of resentment and fury. Instead, let Mars inspire you to get a home-based business going or to tackle an ambitious decorating project that’s heretofore only lived in your imagination and on Pinterest boards.

This is all happening against the backdrop of Pisces season as the Sun marches through your productive and prosperous second house until March 20. You’ve got even more mojo to crunch numbers, craft plans or slip on the painter’s overalls. On March 6, the same day as Uranus’ big move, the year’s only Pisces new moon fires up your money and work sector. From scoring a plum project to booking a premium client to landing a new gig, this lunation opens a powerful portal for “what’s next” in your work life.

But don’t rush to accept any offers. From March 5 to 28, communication planet Mercury will be retrograde in Pisces, which could foil travel, technology and interactions—especially those related to your finances. Comb through statements, double-check your bills and strengthen your passwords. Miscommunications can flare with colleagues or clients, so practice patience and be sure to clarify all instructions and expectations. You can’t be too careful now! Job-hunting? Since Mercury retrograde rules the past, connecting with old coworkers could turn up a surprising lead.

Lightness arrives on March 20, when the Sun leaves your hardworking second house and moves into Aries, igniting your social and vibrant third house. You’ll be back to your breezy Aquarian ways, flitting among your fans and followers, hopping between spring hikes and (ambitiously) al fresco outings. What are ya, the Easter bunny? You might even rally your crew for a bigger getaway because March 20 will bring the first of TWO consecutive full moons in Libra and your globetrotting ninth house. The urge to travel and explore new horizons hits hard, and since this is the year’s third and final supermoon, your wanderlust will be off the charts. If you’ve been working on an entrepreneurial or creative venture for the past six months, your efforts could come together now. La luna in your higher-education sector may even inspire a return to school or a personal-growth workshop. Considering a leap of faith? This full moon might just be your moment to take a gamble on your dreams. But give yourself until April 19, the date of a rare second Libra full moon that can help you seal the deal. Make this one a calculated risk instead of an impulsive move by taking four weeks to think it through.

As a bonus, you’ll receive some useful insight from your own intuition! March 20 will also bring a flowing trine between energizer Mars and penetrating Pluto, which sync up in the most emotional zones of your chart. From a dream to a flash of psychic insight, you might get THE answer you’ve been searching for using logic, reason and all the left-brained tactics. With these powder-keg players activating your unconscious zone, buried feelings could bubble forth like lava from a dormant volcano. If old wounds or repressed hurt surfaces, send out an immediate SOS for support. You don’t have to go through anything alone, Aquarius. A relative could come through with unexpected advice today. Lean on your clan for encouragement and wisdom.

Love & Romance

Spring fever hits Aquarians a little early this year! Vixen Venus is grooving through your sign from March 1 to 26, putting a frisky spring in your step! You’ll be craving more independence and room to let your flirty side free. Even attached Water Bearers may need some breathing room, but that doesn’t mean you’re planning to stray. This is a liberated AND loving transit, and you want to wring every drop of passion out of it!

Yet at the same time, determined Mars is barreling through stalwart Taurus and your foundational fourth house, which could make you a bit sensitive when you don’t get your needs met. And with the cosmic lovebird singing very different tunes, you could be inadvertently sending out mixed “come here/now go away” messages.

The two will lock into a tense square on March 21, which could confuse you AND a love interest. Neither of you will want to budge on your position, so if you can’t come to a compromise, consider having a night (or a few) apart until cooler and more agreeable heads prevail.

Relief comes once Venus shifts gears into gentle Pisces and your security zone on March 26, syncing up with Mars’ grounded energy. Enjoy that week as much as possible and catch up on self-care. On March 31, the red planet races into Gemini and your passionate, pleasure-seeking fifth house. Spring fever is in full effect!

Key Dates

March 1: Venus-Uranus Square Watch the knee-jerk reactions today. They could come out of left field and catch even you by surprise. With unpredictable Uranus in your communication center at cross-purposes with the love planet, you might blurt out something you immediately regret. Unless you actually want to wreck a good relationship, rein yourself in before you unleash a world of trouble.

Money & Career

Keep an eye on those funds, Aquarius. While the Sun is in Pisces and your financial sector until March 20, Mercury will also be retrograde (backward) here from March 5 to 28. With the planet of technology and communication gone rogue, you might have a few job hiccups or misunderstandings with colleagues. Proofread before you click “send,” and aim for perspicuity in your correspondences.

Mishaps aside, the March 6 Pisces new moon could bring a fresh funding source within the next few weeks. Use this clarifying moment to look at where you would like to be six months from now, at the corresponding Pisces full moon. What actions can you take or which new habits might you adopt to reach your goals? Plot your moves now, along with check-ins so you can correct course as needed.

With motivator Mars in Taurus and your foundational fourth house until March 31, establishing a nest egg could feel especially urgent. And once innovator Uranus, your co-ruler, starts its seven-year visit to Taurus on March 6, building financial (and emotional) security will become a new adventure. Uranus rules change, and this cosmic shift could inspire a move, a property sale or even a job offer with relocation in the next phase of your life.

The March 20 Libra full supermoon could already inspire some ideas for how that could look. As la luna beams into your visionary ninth house of travel and entrepreneurship, the seeds of an indie venture could turn from a sparkle in your eye to something much bigger!

Key Dates

March 13: Sun-Jupiter Square Your enthusiasm is contagious, but don’t get carried away by something until you have proof positive that it can work—or that the numbers are realistic. Jupiter expands everything it touches, and today, as it connects to the Sun in your money house, you might be a little more optimistic than is warranted. Pro tip: You’re not “raining on anyone’s parade” if you conduct one more round of due diligence!

Love Days: 13, 17 Money Days: 23, 6 Luck Days: 21, 30 Off Days: 15, 19, 28