May 10, 2024
why is it impossible to betray my body the chemicals refuse to be misleaded to be arranged in a different way, to a different outcome to a different feeling, a different reaction -- nothing works.
i tried, i begged, i held it all so tight stopped breathing, slept through it, created a distraction, a meaningless wrath simple and complex pain inflictions
just thinking about it, bawl eyes, coarse teeth, raw throat, so idiotic. stupid and bloody.
how am i able to fake it for show and leave the mauling to my own eyes???
how are they not able to see the black hole i become whenever honey glazes my heart?
#i saw a video of a tall pretty girl and started to go insane#im sorry this is actually the real truth. ill be better next time#so ridiculous raw cannibal about liking women like .. ok ms shauna!#honey references... hell yeah#i love you Lottie matthews and natalie scatorccio. but you didnt see this here. you did not#i was so in love back when i wrote this lollll#dec25 rereading and DAMN i was in love when i wrote this LMFAO