heyyyyy jaunty :] luring you out from the small hole in my wall 🪤 can you share your thoughts on brent and sophist and sadomasochism? ~@brentolo3 <3
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LASKDFLA omg... okay, i wanna talk about it cause it's so fascinating to think about, esp after talking about it with ya lasdkfla
so, the thing with sm, along with bdsm, is that when you first hear it, you immediately think of chains, bondage, absolute pain, and the real kinky shit. and that's part of it! however, i would argue that it's considerably the most trusting of all practices -- you are basically indulging with what makes you very vulnerable and having it be exploited by someone you love and trust. what would normally scare people gives you the utmost comfort when you first get strapped in or you feel that riding crop up your thigh. it allows individuals to expand the boundaries of their sexuality
( on that note, a very interesting read about sm! )
for brent, taking part as the role of a sadist is an interesting one. he isn't one to rlly submit, physically or emotionally. not to say he's a control freak, but his mind does wonder on what it would be like to just...take control. control their will, their needs, dangle their freedom in front of them to see how far a person will go in terms of experiencing pain and humiliation. there had also been thoughts on like.... he doesn't like or want to hurt people. he truly doesn't, yet those intrusive thoughts start to creep up on him. there are often times when he thought about having to smack someone after they mouth off at him. punish someone after they've done something so fucking stupid that he feels the need to throw their head into the ground over and over again. his anger, unadulterated and unfiltered, is kinda visceral to the point that it scares him a lil bit. he already doesn't handle emotions well nor does he stop and dwell on them for any longer than he's comfortable, so the fact that he'd have to restrain himself at times would be concerning lol
he does take it out on gaming, whether with rivals or some other, but it doesn't satisfy that itch in him. doesn't feel that ego rush after bringing someone to their knees or whimpering at what he's done. he wants to see someone writhing underneath him. to look up at him with fear, devotion, and above all -- love :) he isn't the type to say "i love you". he doesn't need to hear it to be comforted or satisfied
just laying there, vulnerable and exposed to his eyes and letting him strip you down to the bone, is more than enough for him :)))
for sophist, it'd be no surprise that he'd enjoy receiving pain more than he does inflicting it. he's essentially this:
i just think it's very interesting to view this as like...an antithesis to having vernias love him and dote on him?? like yeah, it feels very good and warm to be loved by vernias and even nick, but sometimes...sometimes he likes to be admired in a different way. that someone else will love him for the more...personal flaws of him lmao. that he's still more desirable even when he's all beaten up and degraded / humiliated or when he's saying the most vile shit and still being sought after to be tamed
travvy also thought of a good point with it -- "almost a facet of religious trauma. The idea that you have to suffer and sacrifice to be good, to be deserving, exaggerated to such a strong degree"
like he can't help the insecurities and his own intrusiveness either. in his mind, he has to be punished for that, for sure, or at least…learn that having that and some not so pleasant thoughts can be good for someone, whether to be used to set him straight or what have you. it's also due to the fact that sophist still has to act or be…normal?? towards vernias and nick. like not as a facade or anything where he's being deceitful, but he still doesn't trust himself to not hurt either of them, either with his words or actions. with brent, it's like he's free to act worst because brent will simply take it out on him instead of feeling hurt or offended
and that's what this whole routine is for them: it's about sincerely coming across something new in someone, something new to learn, something they didn't know yet, didn't get to get close to before. that primal desire to understand each other even when they're already obsessed with one another ( srsly, the amount of times brent just has sophist in mind, a lil more than sophist does with brent, is extremely noteworthy lmao ). it's them asking each other:
"do you rlly love me despite what i am capable of doing?"
"do you rlly love me despite what i am doing to you? what i am making you do?"
"do you rlly love me despite how much you give me? how much you take away from me?"
"do you rlly love me when i take you apart? after you've witnessed me defiling you then putting the pieces back together?"
"do you rlly love me when you tremble after i say a specific word? when you can read the small tics and gestures on my face and in my words and tremble on what will come later on?"
