Sep 7, 2020
I always fall into crises after relationship breakdowns
Any kind
Its wild too
Coz the termination definitely sends me into a downward spiral
But what tips me over the edge is always completely unrelated and out of ny immediate control.
And then all I wanna do is turn to that person because, more often than not, they were who I was closest too.
And the knowledge that I can't do that and the why blends in with the crises and completely snowballs until I am nothing but self-loathing and destruction.
Trying to avoid the destruction.
Self-loathing is in full effect.
I think.
Maybe.
I dunno. I guess im Trying to fight it.
And uhh... well. I wouldnt say im doing best job
Fuggen CLEARLY.
