The situation at my house isn't great. And I say house because this place never felt like home. Maybe when I was younger, yes, but not now.
My relationships with the people here aren't great. The only good relationship I have is my mother. The only good thing I have going in my life is my mother and I am so grateful for that.
My friends aren't the best either. I just feel like I can't trust them and that I'm alone. That I can't tell them shit.
But even with all of this, I always try to be optimistic. Even though the world is fucked up right now and there may not even be a future for someone like me, I always hope.
I hope, that one day, I will be living somewhere that I want to live. Somewhere that I can call home.
I hope, that one day, I can get lost in healthy relationships and that I'll never feel like a burden to people.
I hope, that one day, I'll be able to love myself and that I will always have love for the people in my life.
I hope, that one day, I will be able to wake up next to the love of my life and smile like an idiot because I made it.
I'll finally have the life that I deserve. That everyone deserves. We all deserve to love like it's our last day, to dream like we can't stop, to live like never before.
So we will continue to hope. Hope for a future that we deserve in this fucked up world.
Because that's all we can do for now.
Hope...
