#howdoifixthis

[fleuraven]

so i wanted to check my book (that only has one character info page for now) to see did i get any views but when i typed my username on google only thing i saw i some site named novelhd, i dont get it why did they publish my already free book, on top of it book doesnt have any real chapters up .

[cinanombun]

Somehow shattered a lightbulb in my washer. Thats just my luck!

[winterinkspill]

No matter how many lazy days I have, I still feel extremely burnt out :(

[asribunn]

For some reason my notifications haven't been working so I'm not getting them. I'm kinda confused.

[sarahsquishy]

Uhm..

When you give every bit of your heart and soul to someone, and they just ghost you... it’s the worst feeling in the world.

[anecdotalpoison]

#howdoesthishappen #craziness #howdoifixthis #ipad

[hartbeepscairns-blog]

Poor Hartbeeps-mobile 😢 #hartbeepscairns #cairns #howdoifixthis ?! (at Hartbeeps Cairns)

[happinessexistsinside]

A Revelation

Okay so, about 30 minutes ago, we had managed to put our daughter to bed. Obviously she woke up crying. Since I was already awake, I went into her room to comfort her. Cue the screaming... At this point I realize that I no longer matter to my baby.. She could care less if I ceased to be. All she wants is Daddy... When this hit me, it felt like someone had ripped my heart out of my chest. When she wants to fall asleep in someones arms, that used to be me. Now its all about Daddy. Working weekend doubles followed by evenings has destroyed my relationship with my daughter. At times, I feel as if I don't matter in this family. He concentrates on her. She only wants him. And here I am. A depressed third wheel wondering where I went wrong.. Its killing me. I know I said in a previous post to not ever let your babies go but I did.. And I am paying for it. She hates me. She cries and I try to comfort her but she pushes me away in favour of daddy.. I feel like an insignificant speck marring an otherwise beautiful family life. Everything is progressing but I am stationary. Just trying to figure this shit out. How do I go back to how it used to be? How can I mend my relationship with my Princess? How can I start feeling like I matter to someone?! Used to be I was the only one bitty girl wanted. Now, I am the only one she can't wait to get away from. I am a stranger in my own life... Every day its Dadda Dadda Dadda. She only says Momma followed by Eat or Pee... Thats it. I give up.