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[queen-of-diamondss]

These are the thoughts that have been rattling in my head ever since like 2012. #growingup #gettingmyshittogether #howdopeopledoit #repost #pink #twitter https://www.instagram.com/p/BnmVFLgBRkt/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=em9xb5yksa8o

[blahblahsandblahs]

Blah blahs.

Welp. First blog post. Yay right?! I never have the chance to write how I feel or even review how my day has been, and I think this is a space where I can just get in touch with myself and see where I am. 

So here it goes. I work with children and I aspire to become a teacher. I finished my ECE certificate and then I ended up finishing up my degree so I could apply for the teaching programs. Heartbroken, I didn’t get in because of long waitlists and competitive applicants. BOOOO. 

I am currently working at a out of school care children’s centre and so far I’m really liking it because of all the fun activities we get to facilitate. YAY. It definitely gives me a feel of being a leader of my own classroom. I just applied for a team coordinator position, which is basically a supervisor. My future inlaws don’t agree with it because it’s too far and the shifts BLOW. By the way, I don’t drive because I’m a nervous wreck and I suck at it. 

My fiancee says that I should apply for it anyway because it would be good experience for me! He wasn’t exactly thrilled for it because of the shitty hours (split shifts) and my lack of driving skills, but he did mention that it would benefit me in the long run in my teaching career. 

I’m boring with myself with all this work and school talk. Promise the next post will be a bit juicier, but I really wanted to talk about all this because of my excitement but lack of confidence. My confidence has always been so low when it came to the important things: driving, school, work, LIFE. I guess insecurities have gotten to the best of me because I never felt good enough for anything, and personally anyone. I hate admitting it because I am a completely different person in society; I laugh, I socialize, I portray myself as impulsive but outgoing, but deep down I’m such a sack of stupid insecurities. What am I in high school?

Anyway, I wanted to express this issue of myself because I feel like I can really boost myself up, but I’m just not sure how. Pretty stuck if you ask me.

[jason-ali]

Got a bit lazy, I'll finish the camera later. #sketches #combiningtwothingsIlikeintoone #detailingistootedious #howdopeopledoit

[thetrill-ist]

dang writing a break up speech is hard

[thechocolatemermaid]

I do NOT understand how people can have #nocheats October with all the pumpkin porn around here..I live for this time of year, and I will NOT apologize!

[chasing-catastrophe]

I can honestly say, I never learned to fake the perfect smile.