okay, so i haven’t been able to draw recently. like, i can’t produce art. i’ll even try to use a base, and it still will suck terribly. It’s freaking me out because (and this may sound a little stupid) drawing lets me know that i am doing okay. it’s like my self care. let’s say i came to @john-mulaney-left-nostril saying horrible things about myself. they’d probably say “have you drawn recently?” and then i’ll be like 👁👄👁 . then, i will draw and everything will be okay for a few minutes.
i don’t know why i’m struggling so much. maybe it’s because of a recent falling out i’ve had with a girl i’ve been friends with since preschool. maybe it’s the fact that school is back and everything is different. maybe it’s even because in sixth grade a girl told me she liked me and asked if i thought that was weird and being surprised and stupid i said “yes.” i still feel terrible about that. it’s a little ironic, considering that i’ve discovered myself to be a
pansexual crackhead
soo yeah. does anyone know how to help me get back on my feet?