#howtosecret

[annasaurusworld]

I am bad at secrets

I do not know how to secret! I do not know why I am so terrible at keeping secrets...guys think withes are hot! So I'm fooling around with this guy and this girl and I'm suuuupper drunk! All of the sudden I just put myself as a witch and start kissing him....weird...so weird...what!? Why?!? Ugh?!? Aaahhh!!!

[tangent-thoughts-blog]

personally i hate getting made fun of.

it's just a bunch of shitty shit. i just hate everything.

you know those things that shouldn't bother you okay sure it's okay to make a few jokes here and there but when i'm with you all day and you just keep making fun of me and making jokes it doesn't feel okay.

listen, i don't like sharing people. i don't like investing myself in people not because i think i'm going to get sick of them but because eventually they all leave. sure it's nice having a close group of friends but when it feels like your two so called best friends are closer and you're the outsider in everything it just it doesn't feel okay.

it feels like i'm about to get left and to be honest it feels like i can't relate to anyone so i'm just going to casually throw myself into something and pretend like i don't care but the truth is i care more than anything and i don't know what to do with myself.

i don't people see how hard i try to relate or how hard i try in general like what's the point.

i'm literally tired and drained.

i just. i can't do this anymore.