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[daughterofautumn]

today I went to work with extra sparkly eyeliner but it's coming off now my eyelids hurt #gimmealltheglitter

[inked-iwtfw]

January - 2019 - hsmuffintop

We all know how hard it is to find new writers on tumblr (let’s face it, it’s hard to do anything on tumblr these days), and that sometimes means talent gets buried. So, as two writers, we wanted to do something to highlight the wonderful talent the Harry Styles fandom has. 

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January’s brilliant author is @hsmuffintop

Find her writing HERE 

When did you start writing? Who inspired you to give writing a go?

I started writing in 2010, but didn’t post anything anywhere until 2011. I don’t remember anyone really inspiring me to write. It was more of a way to get everything inside my head out, a way to deal with my life and terribly complicated 17-year-old feelings.

Tell us your 1D/Harry origin story.

I knew about One Direction around 2011/2012, who didn’t? I will admit I was one of those people who “hated” them because they were popular, not really ever giving them a chance. But then, one fateful day in 2013, I watched the Best Song Ever video and with the thought of “oh, they’re all really pretty,” my whole life changed. I dove in headfirst and never looked back. Harry has always been my favorite, at first because I thought he was the hottest member of the band, but then I started learning more about him as a person and that solidified my love for him.

Tell us why Harry is your muse.

He’s just...the best. He’s so kind and genuine; I’ve never heard anyone who’s met him say anything negative about him as a person. He makes me feel better about myself, which is hard to explain, but I’ll give it a shot. It’s mostly because he’s so confident in himself, especially with his fashion choices, and he doesn’t care what other people think, which is a huge change from when 1D first started out. He’s grown to love himself over time and that’s really inspiring to me. He’s also got an amazing muscular body with some soft spots here and there, and that makes me feel better about my soft spots. If Harry has them and can be seen as so perfect by so many people, maybe mine aren’t so bad.

Do you tell people you write fanfic? Do you tell people you write at all?

I don’t usually tell people in regular conversation, but if the subject of writing comes up, and I feel comfortable enough with the person to share that it’s fic that I write, then I’ll tell them. Most of the time, it’s something I keep to myself.

Do you have a writing playlist, or do you need complete silence to write?

Definitely complete silence. It’s hard for me to listen to something and try to string words together at the same time, especially when I’m making up dialogue or trying to describe something.

What’s your favourite thing you've ever written.

I have a couple WIPs that I’m really proud of, but my favorite fic that’s been posted is We Gamble With Desire, my Zirry fic. I love writing those characters so much, and I’ve got so many timestamps and continuations planned for that verse. I could write in it forever, honestly.

What's your favourite thing you've ever read? Fanfic and non-fanfic?

Favorite book has to be either The Outsiders or The Last of the Really Great Whangdoodles. It’s a children’s novel kind of like The Chronicles of Narnia in that it’s about three kids who go on adventures in a fantasy world, but this world is created by the kids in their own imaginations. I’ve read it about ten times over the years and it never fails to make me happy.

Favorite fic, that’s a little more difficult. I’ve read so many! The first one to pop in my head is Landslide, one that I’ve only read once but has really stuck with me ever since. I think it sticks out because it’s the first actual AU that I read, one that takes place in 1976 with Harry as an undercover FBI agent and Louis as a suspected cult leader. It’s long, about 140K if I remember correctly, but it really gets you hooked fast. There’s also Big White Lie, an OT5 A/B/O fic (which I know some people aren’t into), and the Working For The Skin Trade series, in which girl!Niall is rich and hires male escorts to keep her company.

Do you tend to stick to one genre, or do you like to change things up a little?

I think all of my writing ends up being kind of the same. Mostly smut, some angst here and there, maybe some feelings sprinkled in. I’m trying to branch out a bit with some of my WIPs, so we’ll see what happens with those.

Do you have a fixed plan of what you're going to write, or do you just see where the story takes you?

A little bit of both? Sometimes I start with a fixed plan, then get to the end of that plan and go where the story takes me. Other times I start with a plan but it all goes right out the window once I start writing. It really depends on what it is I’m writing and what kind of mood I’m in while I’m working on it.

Is there a schedule you follow in terms of when you write? Or are you more impulsive and just write where and when you can?

Where and when I can, definitely. I can make plans to write on certain days, usually whatever weekday I have off from work, but sometimes motivation doesn’t line up with that. An idea will occasionally strike me when I’m at work or busy doing something else, so I’ll jot it down in my phone real quick so I don’t forget it. Maybe I should try and make a schedule for writing. It might work better than my current process.

Are your stories driven by plot or character?

Plot, I think. The ideas I have are usually more about the plot and less about the characters. If I feel like it’s going to be a long fic, I try and plan out the plot first and then figure out who I want my characters to be after. The main pairing probably changes two or three times before I find a couple that sticks and fits with the plot best.

Some readers are wary of leaving feedback because they're unsure how the writer will take it, how do you personally like to receive feedback? Do you want to be critiqued, or would you like to just know if they did or didn't enjoy what they've read?

I like people to let me know what they liked and didn’t like, and also suggestions of what they want to see next or what they think could have made the story better. It helps to know what people want to read so I can post things they’ll like.

Do you use a beta? If so, feel free to give them a shout out! How do they help you?

I don’t, but I would love to have one! I have a few friends who I can bounce ideas off of, but an actual beta would be lovely to have.

Is writing a hobby or do you have aspirations of writing professionally outside of fanfiction?

100% a hobby. I’ve played with the thought of writing professionally, because I love writing and getting paid to do it would be amazing, but I’m terrible at keeping to deadlines so professional writing probably wouldn’t be a good idea for me.

Do you post your writing in other places? Where do you you find to be the best place for your work?

I’ve only posted my writing on Tumblr and AO3. I think they’re both good platforms because it’s easy to post writing on them and feedback is easy to give and to get.

Favourite writing trope?

Oh, man. There’s so many to choose from! I like writing “they’re in love and everyone knows it but them” and all of its variations, and I love reading “oh no! There’s only one bed/couch/seat left! Whatever are we to do??”

AU or OU?

AU. I’m not great at coming up with original characters but I can come up with alternate universes in a heartbeat.

Preferred types of writing: Blurbs, short stories, or full fics?

Either blurbs or full fics, depending on what kind of mood I’m in. I like blurbs for second person/self-insert pieces because most of my blurbs are based on things that have recently happened to me or certain feelings I’m having and need to get out, but I like full fics because I like being able to take my time telling stories with more complex plots, and full fics allow me to take all the time I need to tell them.

Do you draw anything from your personal life? What inspires your subject matter?

I draw a good portion of the blurbs I write from personal experience. A lot of my early writing was me turning my daydreams about my various crushes into little things I would keep to myself, just things I would use to get the ideas out of my head so I could move on to other impossible and unrealistic daydreams. A lot of my big fic ideas stem from me wanting to read a certain thing and not being able to find it anywhere so I just write it myself.

What's your purpose for writing? What do you hope to accomplish?

I’ve never really thought about it, to be honest. The main reason I started writing was to get stuff out of my head. My first Tumblr fandom piece was written for somebody because they had an idea and didn’t know how to flesh it out, so I figured I’d do it. More recently I’ve tried to come up with ideas for things that may not exist yet, try to cater to the parts of the fandom that don’t always get things written for/about them. I just like being able to give people the opportunity to read something different and maybe make them happy along the way.

And finally, do you have any advice/tips for your fellow fanfic writers?

Something I’ve learned recently is that if you keep going back and editing every little thing until it’s perfect, two things happen: it’s never going to be perfect, and you’re going to start hating writing. It’s going to feel more like a chore than something you enjoy and look forward to. A way I’ve been trying to combat that is to post whatever I write after looking over it only a few times. So far I’ve only done this with blurbs, and it’s helped a bit. Another tip is to write whatever you want. Trying to write to satisfy other people puts too much pressure on yourself, so just write whatever and however you like. You’ll find your groove in time.

[haroldsbee]

untitled zarry fic

summary: anyone else remember when harry and zayn attended the same party in early 2016? cos i do. this is a little zarry something, very loosely based on canon. rating: explicit word count: 2,864 warnings: just some references to drug use and drinking, and a little bit of angry sex, but it’s Nothing Major. a/n: this is a birthday gift for my buddie Alison/@elaric, HAPPY BIRTHDAY I LOVE YOU AND I HOPE YOU’RE HAVING AN AMAZING TIME!!!!! also, this is based on this post by @wepush, who graciously allowed me to piggyback off their idea to create this :)

By the time Harry’s drinking catches up with him he’s nearly three sheets to the wind, leaning up against the open bar while some up-and-coming songwriter prattles on in his ear about working her way up and networking and it’s been interesting, but Harry’s not really listening.  

He’s been focused on Zayn since the second he walked into the room.  

Harry’s sure Zayn’s noticed his staring at least once or twice, but the most he’s gotten in return was a blank stare and a cold shoulder to match the one Harry’d been ready to give.

He’s annoying himself with how fixated he’s become on Zayn. He honestly hadn’t thought about him in weeks, months, and now, simply trying to share a room with him has become unbearable.  

“I’m sorry,” Harry says, giving a polite nod to Amy or Ashley, whatever her name is, and pulling out his cell. “I’ve got to give my mum a call. Promised I would.”

She makes a strange cooing sound and dismisses him with a wave of her hand, telling him something about getting in touch with him via email. He smiles and turns away, shoving his phone back into his pocket before heading to the restroom.  

Changing his mind, he switches his course and heads for the open doors that let out onto the crowded patio outside. He leans up against the railing that fences the property, staring out at the twinkling nightlife of Los Angeles as the after party rages on behind him.  

He picks up his phone again, thumbing through his voicemails and scrolling down to the last time Zayn called him. Three months ago. They haven’t actually spoken in so long, years, but that doesn’t stop Zayn from calling him when he’s partied too hard or gone too long without a decent night’s sleep. Harry pushes on Zayn’s latest voicemail, holding his breath as he brings the phone up to his ear.

“Miss you,” Zayn had slurred into the phone, clearly under the influence of something or other, laughing quietly into the phone as the voicemail stretched on in silence. “Still waitin’ for you to call me back.” More silence, then the sound of a lighter clicking on in the background. “But you never do.”

He brings the phone back down with a sigh, thumb hovering over the ‘delete’ button when he hears footsteps approaching.

“Wondered how long it was gonna take you to come out here.”

Harry lets out a sigh when he hears Zayn’s voice, shoulders sagging as Zayn gets closer.  

“What?” Zayn asks, leaning against the railing next to Harry. “Didn’t think I was gonna say anything to you?”

“Why would you?” Harry asks, not looking at him.  

“I miss you.”

“You only miss me when you’re high,” Harry says, finally turning to look at Zayn. And he’s not wrong, his eyes are red and he smells of smoke.  

“Well you only miss me when you’re drunk,” Zayn counters, raising an eyebrow. “Phone works both ways, y'know.”

Harry rolls his eyes, not caring for the reminder of his weaker moments, dialling Zayn’s number into the phone and leaving the kind of voicemails one should never, ever admit to. He pushes off the railing and turns to go back inside. “Enjoy your night.”

“Yeah,” Zayn says, scoffs, pulling a pack of cigs and a lighter from his pocket. He turns his head to watch Harry’s retreating back as he passes, shoving his hands into the pockets of his trousers. “You, too.”

-/-

It’s not even ten minutes later before their paths cross again, this time on the way to the men’s washroom. Harry doesn’t know why he thought he’d be able to avoid Zayn for the rest of the night, but clearly the universe is intent on proving him wrong.

He takes a deep breath and continues walking, offers Zayn a polite smile of the benefit of any curious eyes or cameras that may be watching. He slips into the restroom, letting out a quiet sigh as he looks himself over in the mirror. He’s definitely drunk now and it’s starting to show a little. He runs a hand through his hair, pushing his fringe back and away from his forehead. He’s fixing the collar of his shirt when he hears the loo door open, barely surprised to find Zayn standing behind it.  

He rolls his eyes, making for the exit, but Zayn stops him, a hand around his wrist.  

“Doesn’t have to be like this, y'know.” He says, letting go when Harry wriggles his hand free. “You don’t have to run out of a room any time you see me.”

“I know I don’t have to,” is all Harry says, standing his ground as Zayn stares back at him.  

“Then don’t,” Zayn takes a step closer, hesitant. “I know you miss me.”

And that’s how Harry knows he’s drunk now, those five words ringing in his head and tugging at his heart as he shakes his head at Zayn even as he lets Zayn take another step closer.  

“Only cos I’m drunk,” he says, trying to sound ambivalent but he knows he can’t, he knows Zayn has always been able to read him like an open book.  

“See?” Zayn laughs, dopey and inebriated, “Told you.”

It’s then Harry figures, ’why bother?’ and allows himself the one thing he’d been thinking about all night. He reaches out and tugs Zayn closer by his shirt, not stopping until they’re in each other’s space, breathing each other’s air.  

Zayn looks back at him and Harry can’t tell what he’s seeing in Zayn’s eyes, aside from the effects of whatever he’s taken tonight.  

Harry goes in for the kiss then, harsh and unforgiving, claiming Zayn’s lips as he pulls him even closer until they’re pressed together wherever they can be, standing in the middle of the ornate bathroom, white porcelain framed in gold trimming nearly everywhere Harry turns his eye. But he doesn’t have much time to peruse the décor, barely even enough time to make sure they’re alone before Zayn is pulling him back in, pressing a hard, biting kiss to his lips.

Harry almost sobs with the feeling he’s keeping inside, the want you’s, miss you’s, need you’s, getting caught in his throat as he bites at his lip, letting Zayn mark his way down Harry’s neck, teeth scraping against the sensitive skin the way he knows Harry likes it.  

Harry gasps, fingers combing through the quiffed hair at the top Zayn’s head, mussing it with his hands as he tugs and holds it tight in his closed fist just to hear the way Zayn groans in response.  

Neither has said anything yet, Harry’s been holding tight onto Zayn, eyes clenched shut as if this will all disappear if he opens them. It wouldn’t be the first time he’s had a dream that felt so vivid.

Zayn backs him up to the counter in front of the mirror, getting his hands under Harry’s thighs to prompt him to hop up onto it, and Harry does, pulling Zayn into the vee of his legs and into another kiss.  

It feels surreal, to him, how Zayn can still feel the same, look the same, taste the same, after all the time that’s passed, all the anger and resentment that lingers, the sour feelings shared between them, the bitter comments made in interviews, the –

“Turn your brain off,” Zayn says, speaking for the first time in what feels like ages. “Stop thinking so much, Harry, you’re gonna ruin it.”

There’s a joking lilt to his voice, but Harry can hear what’s underneath it. He can see the pleading in Zayn’s eyes so he nods his head, fumbling for the waist of Zayn’s jeans and popping the button open. Soon he’s got his hand on Zayn’s cock, fingers curling around the girth of him and Harry bites back a moan, pressing his face into Zayn’s neck as he strokes him slowly.

“Come on, Harry,” Zayn groans, fucking himself into Harry’s hand. “Let’s not waste time.”

“When did you get so bossy?” Harry mumbles, brows furrowing as he pulls back, holding up the hem of Zayn’s shirt so he can watch the head of Zayn’s cock peeking through his fist.  

“Lot’s changed,” is all Zayn offers in reply, leaning forward to catch Harry’s lips in a rushed kiss. He reaches a hand behind himself and into the pocket of his jeans, coming back with a small sachet of lube. He sets it down on the counter and takes a step back from Harry, tucking his dick back into his jeans before tugging Harry down off the counter and flipping him around so he’s facing the mirror.  

Harry catches sight of himself then, taking in the reflection of himself and Zayn, pressed close together against the counter, Zayn’s mouth working at Harry’s neck as he reaches round to undo Harry’s trousers. He makes eye contact with Harry in the mirror then, letting out a quiet laugh to himself as he asks, “Just like old times, innit?”

Harry shuts his eyes then, offering silence in response. He’s not interested in reliving old times. No matter how many times he’s remembered those nights on his own, watching himself wank in hotel mirrors, trying to imagine the touch of Zayn’s fingers on his hips, bruising and tight as he holds Harry down, he doesn’t want to think of it now. Not when he has the real thing here with him.  

He leans over, bracing his elbows on the counter when Zayn prompts him to lean forward. He holds his breath when he feels the slickness of Zayn’s finger pressing against him, winding his hips back against the intrusion.

“Who brings lube to a fucking pre-GRAMMYs party, anyway?” Harry asks, huffing out a breath when Zayn jabs his fingers in harshly as a means of response.

“Someone who knows you,” Zayn says, snarky as he adds a third finger, fucking Harry with them until his hole is looser, wet with lube. Harry feels like he has no time to really reply before Zayn’s cock is right there, pressing against him before pushing forward.

Harry bites his lip against a groan, letting his eyes slide shut as he tips his head back, hips winding until Zayn’s all the way in, the head of his cock pressed snugly against Harry’s prostate.  

“Fuck,” Zayn breathes through clenched teeth, “forgot how good we used to fit.”

‘I didn’t, I could never,’ Harry doesn’t say, instead rolls his hips back against Zayn as a way to tell him to get moving. He does, fingers finding their way to Harry’s waist and pressing, making Harry whimper quietly as Zayn fucks him like they’re back on the tour bus or sharing a bed on a hotel night.  

He hates how much he misses it, hates Zayn for making him miss it at all.  

He feels a stab of anger pierce his gut at that; none of this is his fault, he’s not the one that left, he shouldn’t have to be the one on his knees grovelling for forgiveness.  

He reaches a hand back, gripping at Zayn’s hair and tugging it, distracting himself from his angry thoughts by focusing on the feeling of Zayn’s lips at his neck, Zayn’s fingers on his hips, the drag of Zayn’s cock inside him.

“Fuck,” he gasps, eyes flying open when one of Zayn’s hands comes around to grip the base of his cock, squeezing it tight before sliding up toward the head.  

“Easy as ever,” Zayn taunts him, stroking Harry off as he fucks him deep. “’S like nothing’s changed.”

‘Everything’s changed,’ Harry’s mind argues, even as he feels his cock throb in Zayn’s hand, fresh precum pooling at the slit before getting caught by Zayn’s fingers.  

Harry tunes out Zayn’s voice as he continues to talk, focusing on how close he is to coming instead of the words Zayn’s saying. He doesn’t care. Really, he doesn’t.

“Haven’t got all night,” Harry groans, impatient. “Fuck, make me come.”

“Why?” Zayn asks, slowing the roll of his hips until he’s barely moving in or out, grinding his cock deep. “So you can run out of here and act like this never happened? ’S that what you want?”

Harry gives a frustrated laugh in response, batting Zayn’s hand away from his cock and stroking it himself. “Don’t need you,” Harry says, pulling himself off with quick, tight strokes around the head of his cock. He bites his tongue before his more spiteful side can add, ‘never did.’  

He’s painfully close to coming by the time the shocked expression leaves Zayn’s face, instead being replaced by one of annoyance. He’d laugh if he couldn’t feel his orgasm starting in the pit of his stomach, balls drawing up tight as he feels himself rolling closer to the edge.  

Zayn seems to unfreeze then, getting a hand between Harry’s shoulder blades and pressing until he bends at the waist again, narrowly stopping himself from face planting on the counter with his free hand held out in front of himself.  

“Fucking—” he stops himself short when Zayn cuts him off with a hard thrust, knocking the air out of him.  

“Don’t need me, huh?” Zayn asks, voice low and quiet. “I don’t need you either,” he says, fucking Harry hard, the sound of their hips meeting echoing through the empty bathroom. “But here we are.”

Harry wants to reply, say something mean back, but he can’t find the words as his orgasm finally rolls through him, tensing his body as he comes into his own hand, shooting over his fist.

Zayn gasps when he feels it, giving a few harsh thrusts before he’s coming himself, hips moving until he’s spent.  

He’s pulling out of Harry in a second, saying nothing as he quickly cleans himself up, giving one last glance to his own reflection in the mirror before slipping out of the bathroom and leaving Harry there, trousers down around his ankles and Zayn’s come running down his thigh.

-/-

Niall wakes up to the sound of his phone vibrating loudly against his nightstand, screen lit up and shining brightly in the darkness of his bedroom.  

He reaches for it blindly, swiping across the screen and bringing the phone to his ear without even checking to see who it is.  

“'Lo?” His voice is deep and tired, eyes clenching shut as he tries to wake himself up.  

“What’s your stance on fate? Or like, destiny?”

He instantly recognizes Harry’s voice, letting out a quiet sigh as he rolls onto his back. “Did he call you again?”

“Not this time,” Harry answers, drumming his fingers against his thigh, feeling antsy in his own skin. It’s been hours since he left the party, since he shakily cleaned himself up and tried to pull himself together before ducking out through the rear entrance. He’s back at his house now, lying awake in bed. The clock on his nightstand says it’s just after midnight, which means the sun is barely risen in London where Niall is.

“I saw him.” Harry says, tactfully leaving out the part where he let Zayn fuck him in the washroom. He doesn’t quite feel like that’s something Niall needs to know.

“Where?”  

“GRAMMY party.”

A quiet, “Hm,” is all Niall offers in answer, letting the call stretch on in silence for a few moments. Harry doesn’t mind, he really only called cos he didn’t want to be alone.  

“Does it mean anything?” Harry asks, tugging at his bottom lip. “Do you think?”  

“No, Harry,” Niall sighs, his voice quiet. “Nothing’s changed. He’s still who he is and you’ll always be you. I don’t know what you’re expecting.”

“Me either,” Harry agrees, even as he feels the knot in his stomach tighten. “I really don’t. I just—”  

“I know, Haz,” Niall assures him. “I know.”

-/-

The rest of the year comes and goes without incident, Harry finishes his album and gets to work on promoting, lining up interviews and guest spots and appearances and performances.  

It feels good to be busy again, to get out of his own head and throw himself into his work. He’s missed that.  

He’s riding in a limo, on his way to Radio 1 for an album listening party with Nick, when he feels his mobile vibrate in his pocket. He pulls it out and looks down at the screen, recognising the sender’s number even though it isn’t saved in his phone.  

The text he’s received is short, but it makes his stomach flip nonetheless:  

from the dining table, huh ? sounds kinda familiar

He lets out a sigh as he reads and rereads Zayn’s text, unsure whether or not he should answer. He knows he’s not going to, knows Zayn knows that, too, but he still ponders it as he looks out the window of the car, watching as London flies past in varying shades of grey.

His phone vibrates again a few minutes later, this time with an incoming call from the same number. He stares down at it, taking a deep breath before swiping his thumb across the screen to answer.

[daughterofautumn]

bonus this is what I use to hold my hair back during those festive times lol #rudolphwho #idon'tneedarednosetoshine

[daughterofautumn]

These hearts adore// Every other beat the other one beats for// Inside this place is warm// Outside it starts to pour

it's #sweater_weather again 🍁🧡🍂

[haroldsbee]

"I dare you to kiss me" with harry pls

send me a prompt and a pairing!

“1500 feet in the air?!” You gasp, eyes blown wide as Harry tells you all about the shoot he did for his music video. It’s been a little while since you’ve seen him last, since he’s just started promoting his album, but he called you up since he had some label-business to attend to, which was how you found yourselves in the living room of his Manhattan apartment. You’d been together for most of the night, starting when you arrived at his door with a bottle of wine and a pizza, kicking the door with your foot since you didn’t have a free hand. The smile on his face when he opened the door made your heart skip a beat and you tried your best to keep your thoughts from becoming obvious. Yeah, you and Harry always trade flirtatious banter back and forth, and he always hugs you a little longer than he does anyone else, and he always kisses your cheeks and calls you ‘love’ but that doesn’t mean you’re in love with the guy. (Well, maybe you are. Just a little bit.)

Now you were sprawled across the sofa while he sat on the floor across from you, tucked up by the coffee table, open pizza box between you. 

“Yeah, 1500 feet,” he says with a chuckle. “It was actually fun, once i got over the initial shock of it all.”“I can’t believe you did that,” you say, propping your head up on your elbow as you looked over at him. “You do some crazy stuff.”He scoffs at that, leaning back onto his hands where he’s sitting in the floor. He cocks his head to the side, resting it against his shoulder. “I do not.”“You do too.”“Name one crazy thing I’ve done,” he challenges you, “aside from the video shoot.”“Um,” you think for a moment, “you jumped off of a bridge in Jamaica.”“Fair enough,” he says with a shrug. “But that only seems crazy to you because you never do anything. By comparison everything seems crazy.”“What are you trying to say?” You ask him, sitting up on the couch. “Nothing, nothing. Forget I said anything.” He says, getting up from where he was sitting. He closes the pizza box and takes it into the kitchen, setting it on the counter. “No, tell me,” you insist, following behind him. “Are you trying to say that I’m boring? Predictable?” “Well, you do always choose truth in truth or dare…” “That’s because you always try to make me do wild shit!”He raises an eyebrow and smirks at you, “I rest my case.” He walks back into the living room and you follow him again. “Fine. Give me a dare right now.”He turns to look at you, biting his lower lip against a grin. “Fine. I dare you to kiss me.” “What?”The confidence on his face falters for just a moment before he advances on you, walking closer until he’s an arm’s length away. “You heard me. I dare you to kiss me.”“Harry, I—” You shake your head. As badly as you’ve wanted to do this, you can’t. Not when you know it means nothing more to him than proving a point. “C'mon, it’s just a kiss,” he goads you, stepping a little closer. “Just one, teensy weensy little smooch. Won’t have to mean a thing. I won’t even tell anyone.”“I can’t,” you tell him, looking down at the floor when he laughs a little. “Knew you wouldn’t,” he says, smiling down at you as he backs away. “Point proven.”You watch his back as he turns away and try to fight back the feelings threatening to bubble over inside of you. You want to be angry with him for daring you to do that, but you know that you have no right. He doesn’t know how you feel. You’re also angry with yourself for not doing it. Who knows if you’ll ever get the chance again? The thought makes you even angrier though, how pathetic must you be to settle for a joke kiss? You relax your face and try to keep a neutral air about you as he walks back over to the couch and throws himself down, setting his feet on the coffee table as he queues up Netflix. “What do we wanna watch next, love?” He asks you, running a hand through his hair as he turns to look at you. “Uh, actually, I think I’m gonna head out,” you tell him, picking up your purse as you try to find your shoes. “It’s getting late.”“What? It’s barely eight o'clock,” he stands from the couch, eyebrows pulled together in confusion as he studies you. “You alright?”“Yep,” you lie, giving him a smile that hopefully looks less fake than it feels. “Gotta lotta stuff to do in the morning, so…” “Okay,” he says rising from his seat. He brings you into a tight hug and you relax into it for a moment, breathing in his smell and letting yourself have this one last moment. “See you soon, then? What are you doing tomorrow? I’m in town for the rest of the week.”“'Kay, just text me,” you tell him, rushing out the door before he can say anything else. It’s not until you’re out in the corridor that you finally take a deep breath, trying to hold yourself together. As you take the lift back down to the lobby you decide that you ought to take some time away from Harry. Try to give yourself a breather to get over him, before you ruin your friendship with your feelings and make everything worse. “It’ll be fine,” you mumble, trying to convince yourself as the lift opens and you step out. “He’s got other friends, things to do, he won’t even miss me.”You feel a slight pang of sadness lance through you at the thought but you push it back. It’s true. You’ll miss him like crazy, but at the end of the day you know that Harry doesn’t return your feelings and that’s fine. You know how lucky you are to be in his life at all in the first place, and you know you’ll take what you can get. Even if it breaks your heart a little.

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