#humms101

[karinamarieogoc]

#expectation

(Parents)

My parents has always have a high expectations and bigger plans for me, maybe its because I am their only child and their attention is just focusing on me. I felt very pressure to their expectations because as a child I always put in mind that my job or my responsibility is to make my parents happy and proud. I made that kind of mind set its because I love my parents so much that their happiness is my happiness and my success is their success also. The reason why i felt so pressure its because for the past 6 years I have forgotten my responsibilities to them, as I grow I’ve face a lot of things (questions that are never been answered) and one day i woke up and felt lost I can’t find my way back, I can’t bring back the Karina that has a good grades, hard working student, and positive thinker, i felt so sad because I shift my attention to the things that are not important and caused me wasting the life that i have and i forgotten that my parents are growing old that that what they did is for my own good.

   (friends)

Being a teenager it is the time when a teenager faces a lot of things and its is the most important time a person needs his/her friends the most but suddenly i failed to fulfill my job as a friend to my friends, I chose not to be with my friends in the time when they especially need me most its because how can I comfort someone when even my self is in pain also. I’ve become an insensitive person due to my past experiences because I am so tired caring for someone when in the end the person I love the most will be the same person who will hurt me the most. Now I have this kind of attitude to choose not to care to avoid more damages. And I felt sorry for my friends because I can’t be the friend they’d wish for.

[karinamarieogoc]

#mymandala

As you can see my mandala is composed of many colors, especially colors that are bright. Before when I’m asked to compare my self to any kind of things I would always compare my self to a crayon because a crayon has many different colors, colors that are bright and colors that are dark, it is how I see my life colorful just like a crayon there are dark time and there are bright times. But now it is in a different way, I need to express and show what i am through the look of my mandala, i use many colors because the way i see in life it is never simple or singular. The reason why there are less dark color like black its because I tend not to mind the things that can brought darkness into my life because black color can cover any color but it is only white color that can cover the black color. Look always on the bright side because good will always prevail.