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[awwchive]

"I work from home and my golden comes in my office everyday around noon to remind me that its time for a lunch break." https://www.reddit.com/r/aww/comments/fi4aht/i_work_from_home_and_my_golden_comes_in_my_office/?utm_source=ifttt

[talktohome-exchange]

Dear Dad,

I know we speak regularly, but we never really speak. We talk about how shit Liverpool have become, and the Lions winning the test match against Australia, but none of that matters. I also don’t feel as though I can really have a conversation with you about anything that serious. We’re too much alike. Neither of us would want to take it in. So, that’s why I’m going old-school with a letter. If you don’t reply, that’s okay. If you do, I promise you we’ll never have to talk face-to-face about what we’ve written down.

Though you had to find out the worst way possible, none of my depression was your fault. I know you partially blame yourself; but don’t. My mental illness was in no way down to your parenting. You were always the best dad ever, even if you did force me to have a kick-about with you when I’d rather stick to Call of Duty. I was just sick. However, with all of the help I have received, I can assure you that I’m better. Even if I’m not quite there yet, I’m close. I’m close to the finishing line, dad. I’ll be okay.

Lacey is doing great. I know I always send you photos to show how much she’s grown, but it’s too fast! But I love her so, so much and I can’t believe how lucky I am to have her. Alaska and I are perfect right now. We’re very stable. Of course, we still bicker, but our relationship wouldn’t be the same if we didn’t. I really feel I could spend the rest of my life with her. I want to.

It has almost been a year and we’ve never had one conversation regarding mum. I know this is hard for you but we need to stop blanking her out, as if she didn’t even happen. I miss her so much, I do! And I still get upset. I still wish things could have been different, that she could have met Lace and grown into an old-woman who gave toffees out to every kid she saw. But… It wasn’t meant for her. And I don’t know how to make you understand, that though she played such a huge role, life goes on. You’re a good-looking bloke! For an oldie, anyway. You should go out and stuff, meet new people. Even if it’s not another lady, at least you could gain some friends. I hate to think of you as lonely but I can’t be there for you anymore, dad. And it’s hard because I want to be, but I just can’t.

Having said all this, I love you unconditionally. You are my rock. You’ve pulled me through so much and I am only strong today because you are. Without you, I wouldn’t have a clue what to do. I can’t wait til’ I come home next. Hopefully it won’t be long until this Exchange is over and me and Alaska can set up home back in England. Can’t wait to give you a big hug and go to a game with you. It has been too long.

Love,

Your Champ.