Mar 9
Oddinary Changbin art tomorrow? Yes or yes?
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Oddinary Changbin art tomorrow? Yes or yes?
changes to a different grit and makes you all rough again
im now the most dangerous weapon on earth
Thinking about how in the cinema a few days ago I had a Seungmin girl to my left and directly behind and an Innie girl in front of me so there was a surreal sense of some of my most beloved buddies being there in spirit when I had to go alone.
I miss Seungmin. No disrespect meant to the great show the Kids put on because I enjoy seeing things from it very much... but there's something strange and incomplete without him. Wishing passionately for his full recovery and renewed happiness. Rest well for as long as you need, Minnie--- we love you.
Well there goes my concentration. A wildfire has sprung up on our dead-end road so we're glad we always have stuff ready to load in the car if we have to evacuate. Yay. I love summer! /sarcasm
Honestly feel like I might cry because I am getting showered in compliments on my new art and it feels like permission to be proud of myself. It is especially poignant because I had been feeling that I had regressed in my skill and was questioning if I could ever be polished AND fast. I cannot speak to if I can always summon up that quality but I proved I can do good work in a relatively small window of time at least occasionally. I'm so happy and I cherish this fandom. Thank you, I love you.
Things are spiraling so badly that I couldn't calm down and rest for hours last night. But I finally fell asleep for a short while this morning after I listened to SKZ for six hours straight. Music truly is the most incredible thing for stress. They will never know it but I am so grateful to this group.
Progress report: I do not know how much art I have in me today--- definitely not four hours--- but consciously decided to be okay with having to keep it minimal. My funky brain gets very fixated on schedules, work hours, and not disappointing the fandom with my slow pace, but I do this for passion and pleasure. Also, literally all my friends tell me to not worry about it so I should listen to them. <3