I think Cognitive Behaviour Therapy kinda messed me up as more then it helped me.
Because now instead of feelings things or lettings be I always have to be like: ah yes, I feel upset because someone crossed my boundaries. What reasons could they have had to do that? Why does that upset me?
And so I instinctively hyper-analyse and intellectualise everything and just stop feeling anything and stop existing in the moment and stop fighting the cause of things.
Like rethinking and understanding why someone made me upset doesn't stop the person from doing it again. I'd love to be able to be like: hey you made me upset, goodbye, don't care why.
I am working on it.













