#hypno journal

[hypnocanvas]

Learning About Hypno - Journal 1

I figured it would be fun to start a journal about exploring this kink. This is a side-blog so I really only expect to post when I have something to say anyway, and maybe this will be helpful to others just learning about it.

But hey, it's a hell of a lot of fun so far.

I think the big thing that attracted me to hypnok1nk is that at its very core, it relies on the consent of your partner. Whether you treat it as purely roleplay or as a genuine form of sexual meditation or even if you feel like it really works on you and conditions you, none of that is possible without the willingness of the subject.

I used to write MC erotica, but never really delved into hypnosis. It was more just lazily written mind powers because I wanted to get a quick fix out of my own imagination. Not that there is anything wrong with that. But since I stopped doing that and shifted focus, I've had time to evaluate what I even like about that level of control.

And what I discovered is that I think I lost interest because it all seemed too deep into CNC. As in, lacking the first C.

Consent is sexy as fuck.

I mean honestly, what is fucking hotter than somebody just wanting you? At least, that's how I see it. So, when I was recently asked by a play partner if we could start talking about trying out a trance session, I was so fucking turned on that I think my cock grew an extra inch.

I've talked to a few hypno subs at this point, so next on the list is to talk to the hypno doms and get some advice on setting up for a first trance. I gather that a first trance should not be about sex, it should be pure meditative hypnosis centered on going deeper and making the next one a little easier.

It's very exciting to think about, and I hope I have great stuff to report next time.

Stay safe, and stay sexy.

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Documenting My Subject's Hypno Slavery Journey (Part 11)

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After her trip away, we've spent some time getting her back into the swing of things.

She's still having trouble with swallowing cum, but we've managed to condition her into wanting it in her mouth, so I'm calling that progress.

I've found that the more aroused she is, the more receptive she becomes to conditioning. The main potential issue with this is that sometimes this becomes a state-dependent response, where she only really responds to the conditioning when she's aroused.

In light of that, I'm trying to keep a good mix of conditioning her in ways that aren't overtly sexual, such as her health/workout progress.

That said, since hypnosis itself and conditioning itself is a kink, there will always be some amount of arousal colouring everything. Moving forward, we're just going have to accept that she's going to be a bit horny all the time (just part of the sacrifices that we have to make).

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Dear Diary,

I haven't written for a while, but I am finally back from my trip and feeling less stressed. Master is trying to get me back into my normal routine now that I am home.. and I feel relieved to be back under more control. I don't realize how much I need it until it isn't there. I was a good girl on my trip and managed to keep up with my workouts for Master. I feel so accomplished. Tonight was my first one back at home and I did a very good job. Master has left my pussy wet and aching all day. I have wanted to touch myself so many times today. Thinking about how needy my poor clit is...and I can't even remember the last time I was able to play with it. I love feeling a little desperate and wanting to beg Master to let me play. It's embarrassing how much I wanted to play today.. I probably could have just rubbed myself against the corner of my bed or couch arm and came. Master went over my rules again today so I could get back into my daily rituals. I was reminded what I am allowed to remember and be aware of. I missed going deep for my Master. I needed it so much. Shortly after talking to Master, my husband came in to take a shower and I got down our child for a nap. I think I was casually speaking to him and offered him a blowjob. He eagerly accepted and pulled down his boxers for me. I began licking and sucking like I hadn't had his cock in years. It felt so good to obey and feel his cock in my mouth. I love being on my knees for my Master and getting any hole he chooses used. I was sucking my husbands cock so well that he was already ready to cum. He double checked that he was allowed to cum in my mouth and i told him yes and reminded him how much Master has trained me to want his cum. I sucked eagerly until my husband began to cum in my mouth. I involuntary gagged several times on his cum.. i don't think my mouth is used to the new instructions for Master yet.. but I managed to keep all the cum in my mouth and felt a deep rush of an orgasm flow through me. I felt so deep at that point. Just like I do now. I could barely move as I sat there on my knees with the cum dripping down my chin and my eyes closed. I wasn't about to swallow the cum. Because I was afraid I would gag more.. but the fact that I was able to keep it in my m9uth was a small miracle in itself. I then took a nice hot shower and brushed my teeth. Master instructed me to never remember giving my husband a blow job and to just go back to normal. I felt relaxed after my shower...but suddenly had a wave of nausea.. maybe from being so deep. I ate and felt much better. Anytime any kind of though that Master doesnt want me to know arises..it slips away so fast and leaves me feeling confused. I Felt so wet and excited all day.. my clit feels like it needs to be gently rubbed to a nice edge for my Master. He is going to let me fuck myself after this journal. And I cant wait for my orgasm. They are so much better with Masters control. I love obeying. And I feel so deep right now.. that I could almost fall asleep. I am floating on a cloud.

Xoxo the very eager , horny slave.

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Documenting My Subject's Hypno Slavery Journey (The End)

As someone once said, all good things must come to an end. After the last post, KittySub and I had a long discussion on her goals and how we each felt about them. Gradually, we've come to the understanding that her long term goals are not compatible with my long term goals, and to continue to go forward knowing that would lead to even more heartbreak in the future.

With that in mind, we have mutually decided to end this dynamic and therefore this journey. We do so amicably, with no ill will towards one another. KittySub was an incredible Slave, and I do not want to understate how amazing she has been for this entire dynamic. I wish her the best moving forward, and truly hope with all my heart she finds the happiness that she's looking for.

To everybody who has been following our journey up to now, I was to give a sincere thanks. The feedback and support you have all given has been overwhelming and I am grateful for it. While this is the end of our time together, I hope that some of you can continue to use our journey here as an opportunity to learn.

Once again, to our readers, and especially to KittySub; thank you, and goodbye.

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A New Journey Begins (Part 3)

First, notes and thoughts:

Link to Part 1 and Part 2.

So the continuation of the covert training is leading to a pseudo-separation between the conscious and "hypnoslave" minds. As stated previously, I'm very wary of reinforcing this. However, for now, the ability to have her police herself when it comes to the diet/exercise plan is enough of a benefit that I'm willing to let it continue in a limited capacity. I still plan to periodically reinforce the idea that they are the same person, just different aspects.

Aside from the diet and exercise plan, I'm finding her obedience and submission are already off the charts. To the point where obedience training isn't going to be a priority since she's already fanatically obedient. That does put a damper on my usual goals of fostering increasing levels of obedience over time, so I think I'm going to have to come up with a different direction for her. Perhaps instead of obedience per se, more the ability to follow post-hypnotic suggestions like forgetting or unawareness to increasing degrees? This will require more thought and experimentation.

As for the cuckquean fantasy, I've been showing Ms. Chaos her own journals and using them as an example of someone who's a better slave. She doesn't recognize it as her own work; rather she believes that someone else is writing them: a better slave. I'm hoping that this will cause a feedback loop in her training where she constantly tries to become a better, more devoted, more obedient slave than herself.

Feedback is very much welcome, and I'm open to ideas and suggestions on how her training should go from here. Thank you to those of you following along in this journey, and I hope you're enjoying yourselves!

Now, here is Ms. Chaos herself.

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Mmmm hello, you beautiful people! Master is so thoughtful to his hypnoslave! I have had issues with my weight and self image for my whole life. I've yoyo'd my whole life. Master is helping me focus on becoming healthy and sexy so i can show off for him! As i write this, i want to share that Master had me put my inflatable dildo inside my needy pussy. I have in inflated as far as i can comfortably. I love how Master controls me. Controls my pleasure. Controls my body. Controls my mind more and more each day. I find each day i look forward more and more to talking with Master and hoping to please him. Since I've struggled so much with getting better habits Master has come up with an ingenious hypnotic solution. Master is working with both my conscious self (how I am not under hypnosis) and my hypnoslave self (when Master has me fall deep for him). Almost like we are two different people. My hypnoslave self is going to help by taking over and watching out for anything unhealthy my conscious self does.

DIET: Master wants me to start simple and for now I'm going to watch my conscious self's diet, without her being aware. No more junk food and just eating healthier in general. I want to show others what a good slave I can be for Master.

EXERCISE: Again, Master kindly is allowing me to start simple and slow, building on success. When she starts to exercise I'm going to take over so she doesn't feel like any time as passed, making it seem easy for her while I put in all the work! The more effort I put in, the more pleasure because it means I'm obeying and serving my Master more.

I want more than anything to please Master and prove to him how grateful I am to be his property and how well I can take care of his property. I hope to show Master how obedient I am. It turns me on so so much that Master has been playing with my mind. I enjoy that Master is basically splitting me in two to serve him better. I gladly submit myself to his will. To change me as he sees fit to please him better and better. He is an absolutely amazing man and I am so darn lucky. I look forward to helping Master get her in shape for him! Making her feel like she is succeeding while I do the hard work so she doesnt have to stress it. I think she will be excited to see the progress, even though she really wont understand how she's doing so well. Just thinking about it is making me hornier and hornier. I think if I touched my clit I might cum right now I'm so hot . I love so much that I can't. I love that Master controls my orgasms. It leaves me not having to worry about cumming. I can just enjoy the ebb and flow of arousal, more and more every day. Obeying Master is the greatest pleasure.

Xoxo Master's obedient hypnoslave

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A New Journey Begins (Part 2)

And here is first proper journal entry from Ms. Chaos.

As always, a few notes to start for context and background information.

* The first thing to note here is that Ms. Chaos is a self-identified cuckquean. I've never worked long term with a cuckquean before, so this was an interesting kink/fantasy to incorporate into her training. As we continue, you'll see that I'm still trying to figure out the details on how to do this. So far, I've hit on the idea of having her "advertise" for other hypno-subs, essentially using her to draw in other "better" women. Personally, I'm not crazy about this, since I generally try to operate from the position that the sub(s) I'm working with at the moment should be the priority; however, this idea seems to leave her a gushing mess, so I can't really complain about it's effectiveness. Like I said, I'm still trying to feel out this cuckquean thing.

* She's also expressed an interest in being covertly hypnotized, something I am very much also a fan of. So at least for now, Ms. Chaos is not consciously aware that she is being regularly hypnotized, brainwashed and trained. She's submissive enough even without the hypnosis that I don't think she questions when I give her tasks and instructions.

* This has led to me essentially working with her unconscious mind to keep her conscious mind in a state of constant unawareness of how she's being trained and controlled. That said, I'm being very careful not to separate her conscious and unconscious minds into their own distinct identities. I've had issues with the creation of alternate identities with subs in the past before, and am vary about doing so without a lot of prep work, monitoring and safeguards in place.

* That said, in this case I think it has had the interesting result of her unconscious mind effectively cucking her conscious mind. Something I'm currently finding interesting to no end.

There is, of course, much more background and consideration that goes into training Ms. Chaos but for now, I suspect that you're more interested in hearing what she has to say rather than listening to me blab on endlessly, so here she is.

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This slave is so lucky to have found such an amazing Master! He is so smart and kind and turns me on to no end. He wants to help me reach my true potential and become an obedient, submissive slave for him.

After talking about my desires, Master and I have decided that I should use my experience as I become deeper and deeper enslaved to him to share it with others to encourage the girls who enjoy my experience to reach out to Master for training.

One of my biggest desires is to be used as an object as Master controls and fucks other slaves in front of me. Just thinking about it makes my pussy leak. Or maybe it's the large inflatable dildo I have inflated deep inside my pussy. It makes me think of Master as I gently rock in my chair, keeping myself aroused and on edge for Master, but never touching. I would need permission to play with my cunt and Master didnt mention that when he told me to write this entry.

I'm deep in trance for Master and he did allow me access to all the memories I'm not allowed to remember when awake. When i fantasized about not remembering things, I didn't realize how turned on it would really make me when used. Master had me write the intro entry and told me to forget tha I had. Then he had me read the entry and I thought it was by some other slave. Reading it made my pussy leak down my thigh, I was so turned on by what I read. I love that Master is inside my head and playing with me like a puppet. Like a toy.

I'd never been hypnotized by anyone before and it feels amazing going deep into trance for Master. I feel a sense of contentment and purpose. It makes me so happy and really really horny. It's all I can do not to touch my needy cunt, but it is also easy not to. The desire is there, but not the ability, if that makes sense. I want to go deeper for Master. I look forward to seeing how deep Master can take me and how obedient and submissive I can become for him. I am excited to see what each new day with Master will have in store.

I am Master's property. His to do with as he will. I want this. More than anything I want this. To belong to my Master. I adore you and obey you Master.

Xoxox his horny obedient hypnoslave

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A New Journey Begins (Part 1)

Well, it's been a while. I've had the opportunity to work with several wonderful subjects in that, but for one reason or another, journaling was not in the cards for them. However, I have recently begun to work with a wonderful young woman who we shall call Ms. Chaos for the purposes of this journal. While there are some similarities in how they write (I personally believe that she's been influenced by the style of the previous set of journals), she is her own person, with her own particular goals and kinks. So as always, a few general notes before we get to her introduction.

* As with last time, all journal entries are written by Ms. Chaos personally. I only edit for typos or to remove/change any information that may have safety implications

* All entries are written while Ms. Chaos is deep in trance. While writing, she is allowed access to all relevant memories that would otherwise elude her (this will become an important detail given what her particular kinks/fantasies are).

* I will likely go into more details on her kinks/fantasies in future entries and how they will influence her journey. For now, I'm content for her to just introduce herself to you all. The one detail I will share at this time is that this is her first time being hypnotized outside videos/files.

* As always, constructive feedback is very welcome. Harassment or negativity will be ignored.

Now without further ado, here is the star herself.

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Hello everyone! I'm Ms. Chaos, a submissive hypnoslave to my Master. I've never been very outgoing or brave, but I saw his ad he posted and knew I had to respond. My Master now controls me completely. I am his to use and mold as he wishes. I find it easier and easier to obey him. I trust my Master and know he will help me be the slave I wish to be. I look forward to seeing how my life changes with Master in my life.

My purpose is to bring attention to my Master through this journal and various pictures that Master will choose to share with you all. I have no say in this. My only desire is to obey and please my Master. I want very much to hear him praise me and call me a good girl. My purpose it to show how amazing it is to be his hypnotized, brainwashed slave and encourage others to serve him too. Ever since we began talking my pussy has been soaking wet. It has been so so hard not to touch myself and rub my needy pussy. But Master did not give me permission yet. I touch when Master allows me. I cum only when he allows, and when I do, I cum for him and to show you all what being a good girl for Master brings. Pleasure. Peace. Happiness.

Xoxo Master's hypnoslave

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Documenting My Subject's Hypno Slavery Journey (Part 13)

This entry is going to be a bit different from the usual. As stated in the last entry, I asked KittySub to write what her goals were with her submission and hypnosis.

There are two parts to this. In the first, KittySub was fully awake and gave serious time and thought to what she wanted. In the second, KittySun was taken deep into trance and made completely mindless before being given the same instructions.

The difference between the two is fascinating. Even aside from the contents, the difference in formatting and style of writing is noticeable. To preserve these differences, I've done no editing on either entry.

Personally, I did this because the first list left me with some questions as to whether these were her goals because they were things she wanted, or whether they were things she thought I wanted.

As always, any and all feedback is greatly appreciated.

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Awake and Alert:

Goals Fitness/ health:

To be considered healthy at the doctors office..and to not be embarrassed by the scale.

To be able to do my workout videos with less struggle and not have to do the easier versions of exercises. Example: proper push ups

To have a balanced diet. To be able to eat a moderate amount of junk food and not feel guilty or eat too much. Also to find new healthy recipes to try.

To fit into average sized clothes..like medium and large.

Submissive goals:

To be completely obedient to you and not hesistate when given instructions. To trust that you have my best interest at heart.

To be able to talk freely and not feel embarrassed to ask things or feel like you will leave. To make you feel comfortable with me as well .

To remember all my protocols well and not forget things.

To be able to swallow cum without hesistation. And to be able give a really good blowjob and to make a man cum directly down my throat without gagging.

To be completely owned and collared by you.. if you want me.

To be lent out to others you approve of.

To keep up with our reddit blog.

To forget anything you have put inside me is there. Including my dildo.

To never hesistate to give a blowjob if asked by my husband or you. Sometimes I frown at him a bit

To always want my holes filled for you. To be desperate and needy to play for you whenever. To be happy with just edging.. and not necessarily need an orgasm.

Wife/Mom goals:

To keep the house relatively clean.

To cook more.

To do more art work/ projects for selfcare.

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In Trance and Mindless:

my goals for training and conditioning

be completely obedient..with no hesitation feel completely owned..and have no control or any way you talk myself out of doing something to be the best at giving blowjobs and to willingly take any cum down my throat. to never gag. and to deep throat well to never know when there's a toy in me to go deep quickly and seamlessly for my Master to keep Masters as my own..and not have to look for another Master again to never disappoint Master. I don't like it when he is mad..it makes me upset.. and depressed. to be a healthy slave. to be able to sit in any position needed by me for however loving it is asked of me. to be able to complete all basically exercises with no help. to be collared to be treated well as a slave and feel like I am a good girl to be able to take large c9cks in any hole without hesitation. a good slave should be wet and ready whenever her Master needs her to be. to be able to edge and cum whoever asked on command. I want to be a needy horny slave for my Master at all times. to always eat healthy and not even crave sweets. and only have the occasional naughty dessert. to cum from intense workouts. to have more voice trances with my Master.. I miss his voice vibrating in my head. to keep up with Masters dark humor. to fit into any outfit I want to wear.. even super slutty ones or bikinis. to feel more confident and smart at work..and to be able to tell rude people to go fuck themselves..in a professional way.

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Documenting My Subject's Hypno Slavery Journey (Part 12)

Apologies for the long delay between entries. Life has thrown a few curveballs in the last couple of weeks that has significantly impacted both my ability to edit and post these entries as well as my ability to do more than just maintain KittySub's conditioning. Hopefully, things will improve in the coming days/weeks.

For this entry, which was actually written a couple of weeks ago, I asked her to write on the progress she's made since we've started and how she feels on it.

Today, I had her write up what her goals are with the hypnosis/training/conditioning. My current plans are to give her the same directions while she's under and compare them. Depending how that turns out, I may post that/those list(s) next.

Thank you everyone for your patience in the very erratic release of these entries, and for everyone still following us after all this time, know that you inspire to keep going, and that we will keep making these as long as you guys are interested.

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Dear diary,

Today Master would like me to write about my progress of becoming his slave. I feel like I have come so far in such a short amount of time. At the same time, time seems to be flying at an unnatural rate. I have been talking to Master for around 22 or so days now.. and it feels like its only been a week. I have grown to trust him so much that I don't even question most of my instructions. I do have some small hiccups when it comes to public humiliation or doing things in front of my husband/baby.. but otherwise I do things now with zero hesitation. I have even managed to workout everyday for Master, besides a free day I was given for a family event. I feel like I go deeper and now without even noticing...and I am able to blank things out more that I didn't used to be able to. I also forget things now.. at least I think I do. Master allows me to play a few times a week while I read my journal entries and every time I read them. It feels like the first time I am reading. Sometimes I will remember bits and pieces, but I don't remember actually writing the journal or doing some of the tasks I have written.. it is such a weird feeling for me. Almost as though I am reading another persons journals. Also, when I write everything that comes out seems so random and I am not allowed to reread while I write, so I just hope I don't repeat myself a lot. every time I read my journals later, they seem so much more put together than I expect. Isn't that strange. I feel happier and healthier each day that I progress further into being Masters slave. Working out is so tough...and some days I really struggle, but after each workout I feel so thankful that Master has pushed me to do them.

He even helped me make a workout calendar to follow for myself and encourages me to eat healthier everyday. I am not perfect at that... but I still feel like I make better choices for most meals then I did before. My anxieties and depression have also improved. I would say most days I am able to enjoy more. I am very happy with my Master and love the journey we are on together. I appreciate everything he has already done for me...and I know we will continue to be great. I even feel like my husband has been happier with me since I have been able to offer myself to him more. He hasn't used me as much as I thought he would, but I think he likes having the option... and it makes me excited to know I am doing it for Master. I even find myself laying in bed at night craving cum in my mouth, even though the taste really isn't great and I still gag a bit. I was finally able to swallow my husband cum completely and not spill a drop a few days ago. I honestly felt so proud. That's a weird thing to be proud about, but i felt so hot knowing that i swallowed every drop of cum that Master wanted me to take. I love knowing that Master has complete control and that I can ask him for help on anything. I am a lucky slave to get to be his...and am happy I get to keep going. I want to be the best slave I can be. i want to impress everyone... including myself. My husband keeps looking over at me currently as I write this journal with my dildo gag in. Drool is pouring out of my mouth at this point and it's making my pussy exceedingly wet around the dildo inside it. Master said I am allowed to fuck my mouth with the dildo after this and cum. I love gagging on cock for my Master and I love being his sucking slave. It is humiliating to know that I am doing all of this when my husband is in the room, but I cant help myself. I cant say no to my Master and that is exactly the way we both like it. Thank you Master

Love,

The cutest sucking slave ever,

Slave KittySub

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