I’m not like him in the slightest. I don’t fall in love with people, I don’t even like people half the time. My heart is always full of rage and hatred. Because the world hasn’t been kind to him in the slightest and I’ve had to watch as it destroys him.
The damage done over the past 3 years is irreversible. You have forever implanted yourself in his mind. Could I easily fix that? Of course. But that would also require me to take away the good times. The people he met and connected to during this time. It would make me take away his connection with her.
Trauma is a tricky thing to manage. There’s a reason I was placed in his head. It has molded him into the person he is today. Which is what she loves most about him. His perseverance. His need to be the kindest soul that he is. I can’t take that from either of them.
Because yes, my hatred for you and everyone before you is strong. But both of them are so pure. I actually don’t hate these two.
It’s my job to protect the fox. I have succeeded this far, and would go to the end of the earth to ensure his safety. Which he knows. Which she knows. Which they know. But when you’re placed in a body that can’t physically defend themselves against someone like you, it makes it difficult to put forth the action needed. Luckily, there are other ways to win a fight.
You’ve definitely left your mark, and he will never be the same because of all the shit you put him through. But he has 5 people that are working to repair the damage you have done.
You are no longer in control here. And you knew that the moment he himself was able to tell you it was over. Stone Cold, numb. I could’ve been the one to handle this whole thing, but he even told me….that if he couldn’t escape himself, it wasn’t meant to be. As proud of him as I am, that night scared me. I’ve never seen him shut off every emotion. And yet, he did. You pushed him that far. You made him hate you.
Do you understand how difficult that is to accomplish? He doesn’t even hate the person who created me. How does that make you feel? Knowing that this boy doesn’t hate the person who traumatized him so bad that he had 2 alters created in one night, yet he can’t stand you. So much so that even though everyone is suggesting petty things to do in retaliation to your winy bullshit, that he just answers “It’s not worth it, she’s not worth it”
Although, you are the reason for 2 alters yourself. And the spot in his heart that he held for you is filled with rage and hatred…he is still the kindest soul to those that deserve it. You didn’t change him. Not in the way you may have wanted. You just changed the way he interacted with you. And it scared you, didn’t it?
But never fear, the end is here. (I’d love to say I’m a poet, but that’s his job…not mine). Your control has been taken away, you’re falling apart at the seams. We can see that, from here. I’m enjoying watching your life unravel. And honestly? I think he is too.